#its getting out of hand im afraid

[eggclown121]

my take on post trigun vash letting his hair grow

#trigun #trigun fanart #trigun maximum #trigun stampede #tristamp #vash the stampede #vash trigun #vash fanart #digital art #trigun vash #vash trimax #digital doodle #i was gonna say how i cried a little painting this but when do i not cry when i draw vash??? #its getting out of hand im afraid #i love him lots

[jout--jout]

now that the VOD is out i can finally stop watching clips of the kiss on repeat in every social platform like a mad woman and do it all on youtube instead :DDD

#critical role #cr #cr3 #imodna #laudna #imogen temult #its getting out of hand #i havent known anything but Them for the past 4 days #the high will go on forever im afraid

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[todayisafridaynight]

I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️ #@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ... #there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams// #recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 .... #and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)' #and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway. #tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀 #one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny. #and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

[zouisalmightie]

apparently my admin think im a bad teacher because i sit down while i teach. that was their complaint. because i sit down. mind you im not sitting the entire period but because im not standing for 7 hours im not good at my job.

im the fucking department head and create the lessons for my entire grade level, i present my lessons in a way that make sense to my students, i teach the fucking honors students!!!, my lessons are rigorous but within the students ability level do you know how hard it is to juggle that for 137 kids? i contact parents to update them, i have the best behavior management to the point where i help other teachers ways to manage the different personalities in the room, over 75% of my students are passing with a B or higher, i have kids coming to my class all day cuz they know im the person in the building that will give them a second of my time. but im a bad teacher because i sit down.

#mind you i have chronic pain i had to disclose in order to get fmla protection so they know why i sit down #it makes me so mad like #if I quit y’all would be in fucking SHAMBLES #and im a bad teacher because i sit down #and i sit because my students behave in my room the same kid that’s throwing pencils in another room is sitting quietly in my room doing #their fucking work im not sitting and the room is in chaos and the kids are running around #im sitting when its calm and im actively giving them information #I don’t circulate when im teaching cuz i get distracted and they don’t need me to because they’re paying attention!! #they’re behaving!! if they have a question they’re not afraid to raise their hand or yell out to me for help #they know that im going to listen to them to come to them when they need me #and I teach eight graders they’re not fucking babies I don’t need to hold their hands! #im so mad im so fucking mad

[cimicherrychanga]

im buyin nipple piercing jewels anyone wanna send me 5-10 bucks so i can afford getting both gothic dangly pairs i like instead of picking just one

#i also got regular barbell ones but in FUN COLORS #shut up dave #its cause i do not have ANY spare jewels rn its just the ones that r in and thats it #so im always afraid to take em out even just 2 clean em bc what if i lose a piece :( #anyways i now got many pairs in my basket n theyre gonna be sooo cool #but even without any of the dangly pairs the peice is already more than my entire bank account ($13) #i have a few bucks in paypal imma transfer and i think those shooould let me get one funny pair too #but most likely not a 2nd. which is why i need to pick :( #theyre between a cool spider and a spooky hand w chain btw. both black stainless steel w red gems

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

Gripping the sink tightly and looking into the mirror and repeating to myself that martrydom is overrated and that mortification of the flesh isn't as sexy as the media makes it look.

#translation: ive been waiting for two weeks to tell my best friend I'm having surgery and that i need some support and love #but I've wanted to tell her face to face bc 1. she takes news best that way #and 2. if its on the phone or via text its way too easy for me to downplay my emotional needs #but last weekend when we were supposed to see each other #she had to cancel bc her idiot moron boyfriend didnt want people over #and then today she texted me and asked if we could hang out #bc another friend needs support and my best friend wanted to have a little get together for her #so now its like #god I'd feel like such a dick dropping this if we hang out this weekend #and completely taking attention off the friend who needs support too #but also it's been two weeks and i just rly need a hand to hold #so now i come to the horrible task of weighing my needs vs the needs of others #and once again finding myself lacking #also this post is inaccurate bc im afraid of mirrors

[truckstoptigers]

when i was seven and our trailer burned down, i thought about leaving my father there, grabbing my brother, and getting us the hell out

i didn't. i ended up waking our father and we all ended up at the neighbors' house

but i should have

i fucking should have

because the minute he had a chance to be alone with me (after we got to my grandma's trailer) guess what he did! shortly after our fucking HOME burned down and the firefighters gave my brother and i teddy bears and wrapped blankets around us for shock!!!!!! fucking christ i hate our father more than anyone on this earth

#haha :) feeling normal abt this! #all i cared about was my brother being safe. thats all. i still remember holding his hand and walking him to the neighbours house #i couldnt see because i left my glasses in the trailer. they put on the little mermaid cartoon for us. i even remember what episode it was #but i genuinely considered leaving my father there and honestly that scares me #honestly i was afraid to wake him up bc i didnt want him to get mad at me. if he got mad at me i would always suffer for it later #milo murmurs #fun fact we lived w someone & his son and his son ended up becoming my cousin when his mom married my uncle #i am so so glad neither or them were home that night #he was so young. im several years older than him & he was so little that he doesnt even remember we lived together #csa vent #tw csa vent #csa tw #also feeling fucked up abt the fact that my father wld put his cigarettes out on me when he was pissed #sometimes i wonder if the fire started because he was smoking smth and passed out while doing it but my brother slept in his room #i feel like they wouldve been much more worse off if the fire started in their room #anyway im pretty sure that the fire was set intentionally bc he had some ties to the wrong ppl #and either they didnt know me & my brother were also there and were only going after our father or they didnt care we were there #to this day even bonfires make me nervous if i can only smell them & cant see them. i hate smelling smth burning & panicking #we live in the country now so its very common for ppl to burn leaves and wood and what have you. its still scary sometimes #i think abt this a lot actually bc any fire still makes me lowkey nervous. less so if i know where/what its coming from but still nervous

[androcola]

i still remeber when someone vagued me on a monke.es confession account saying that i was romanticizing abuse(Several of my followers and moots then came out and were like That Simply Isnt True) and i think that really changed the way i talk about my headcanons

#anytime i wanna talk about somethinb im like ''oh god what if tjis gets me a call out post '' and i just dont post anything #they came to mw later on anon and apologized cuz thwy didnt mean it and that they were having a hard time. which was nice #but i guess im always afraid about delving into sorta ..deeper darker parts of my canon cuz i am afraid thag people will get mad #i try to do it very respectfully amd just talk about it as neutral as possible like anything else #theres a lot of stuff ive kept out of main tags because of that. and i try to tag accordingly #idk. i have a very carefully curated counsel of people on my blogue . but i still fear offending ppl #like on one hand i get on my thing and im like ''people these days just hate being challenged by media!'' #and then i realize i sound like a conservative stand up comedian. cuz the media i make it about is . literally so innocent #i really made it my own thing. i am deeply addicted to world building and making things deeper than they are #i think its a general consensus though in the fandom that mike had a shitty abusive dad. atleast amongst most ppl #all m onkee.verse .btw #sometimws i step back and realize just How Weird my canon is though. but then i remember the peter aids fic and then i feel better

[transgaysex]

amount of people ive had a hand in getting kicked out of a college gay club: 2

#wind howls #um. its not a goal of mine its just surprising that its happened twice #the first time was half for racism accusations and half for transphobia ? and also bc the girl didnt believe women were oppressed anymore ? #which is worrisome considering she was also in the feminism club. but not my business i guess that was like 3 years ? 2 years ago #but anyway remember last week when i was upset out of my mind and liveblogging racism live from gay club. #i talked to an admin and after they talked abt it with the other admins the person is likely getting the boot + theyre bringing in- #the schools social workers to make the rules against racism more strict (or at least enforce those better) #in the first case i wasnt the only one who witnessed it (a big argument happened in the messenger group and then miss girl decided- #she wanted to be transphobic towards me specifically so she got her ass kicked out after i talked 2 the admins) but this time around like #i wasnt the only one there ? but i guess im the only one who reported it or smthn idk. either way i dont go around telling admins- #'hey man kick this person out. heres all the shit they did and i want them out' i just tell them what happened and leave it in their hands #i guess im not used still in people actually taking me seriously and the other party actually like. gettinf a serious consequence #im always expecting them to just get a slap on the wrist. anyway #i hope this makes white people in the gay club more afraid of what theyre gonna say next when it comes to race ! #because im sick of them getting too comfortable ! you wanna act racist ? do that outside and stay there. anyway #this was just an update on that whole thing. leaving it to rest noe

[mayclair]

the whole max and mike’s lives being foils of each other’s is so insane to me bc its like. for mike max is a representation of everything that could have happened to him if his mom left his dad earlier on (and what can still happen when you look at the way things are between them) and for max mike is a representation of everything that she could have had growing up if her mom hadn’t decided to leave her dad as fast as she did

#there is no way they don’t resent each other for it just a little bit. no fucking way sorry #mike knows max grew up with a shittier home life but still wishes his mom had the guts to do the same her mom did and left his dad bc #at the end of the day there is a little bit of bitterness towards both his parents for not making their relationship work out specifically #towards his dad bc his mom is actually involved in his life and did try to pretend that everything was normal when it wasnt which directly #ties into his desperate attempts to make his relationship with el seem normal to both of them when its not bc theyve both never been normal #they dont even know what normal really IS which also ties in to his very deep fear that the two of them will end up like his parents and so #meday he’ll become his dad and he doesn’t know which one is more terrifying so instead he blocks it all out in True Mike Wheeler FashionTM #and just keeps wishing that his mom left his dad because maybe if there was a distance between them when he was growing up maybe things wou #ldve been different maybe he wouldnt be this much like his dad #max on the other hand LOVES her dad they had one of those relationships where he wasn’t neglectful but wasn’t a great parent either but she #still loves him for trying and while her mom did try she gave up after a while while her dad didn’t. that was the real dealbreaker for max #and while after all this time she keeps saying im going to run away to cali and im going to live with my dad. but its not just the need to #see someone who cared for her the most during her early years its also the childish hope that her mom will notice that shes missing anf #come looking for her and that maybe when her parents finally meet again they can reconcile and get back together bc that is really all shes #ever wanted in her life since she was a kid and she feels bad for it bc she knows that her mom and dad’s relationship was never supposed to #last but she still wishes and wishes which is why that little bit of bitterness against mike will never fall away no matter how irrational #it is bc its like. his parents dont love each other but are still together for their kids. why couldnt my parents do the same? was i not en #ough reason for them? and this ties into her breaking up with lucas over and over again bc shes seen her parents and how they never fought #for each other and shes afraid that somewhere along the line her relationship with lucas will turn out the exact same and hell leave her so #its better to just leave now before it gets serious then later when it will hurt too much but lucas keeps coming back for her which makes #her realize that maybe it doesnt have to be like that maybe they wont be like her parents #anyway this is incoherent as fuck but shane mandej voice IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS #mike wheeler #max mayfield #stranger things

[scattered-winter]

I really wish my mom would just fucking. respect the fact that I have no desire to be religious and that I don't know if I ever will be because it feels like she's subtly trying to convince me to come back and idk. I just kinda wish she'd respect the fact that I don't want to have anything to do with it

#like. when i first left the church she encouraged me to go to therapy to Get Everything Worked Out and i did !! #i went to therapy. did all the work. took a look inside and went ''yep. still queer. still nonreligious'' #and left a more emotionally healthy + put together guy. #and when she asked me about it and i said i still was quite sure i didnt want to go to church #she was wringing her hands like ''oh...winter youre so twisted up and confused inside...you need to get all this figured out..'' #and for a while i TRIED. but eventually i put my foot down and was like. Mom. i am not confused. i am not twisted up inside. #and she looked pretty upset ans flabbergasted because HOW could HER KID possibly FALL AWAY from the church and become a HERETIC!?? #or something idk #so now we've reached a sort of impasse. where im semi happily living at home w them and not having to do religious shit #and she lets me. but idk she always brings up god and church and shit in conversation #and i dont even think she's TRYING to !! its just a really big part of her life and its important to her #so she tries to use it to comfort me or whatever. but it falls flat because its not important to Me. and she just cant comprehend that. #and idk. idk #im just rambling at this point but i also feel like. i cant really be the person i am around my family #because she's pulled me aside and made me promise i wouldnt do or say anything that could Lead My Siblings Astray #so i cant really talk about queerness. or my own experiences as a queer person. or how people should be able to choose for themselves #what they believe in. #and since im living in their house when im old enough to not be im afraid that if i break the rule she'll kick me out #and i do NOT have the money for my own place rn #and throughout it all there's this underlying feeling that she doesnt want my siblings to Be Like Me #which only reinforces the feeling ive had all my life of being the family black sheep. lol #anyway. sundays are particularly shitty in this regard because theyre Church Days. #so idk. im just thinking out loud rn #winter speaks #personal

[catboy-kakashi]

Noticing a pattern in your behavior that may be a sign of something much larger but instead of trying to analyze that you just quickly put the lid back on the oil fire and walk away

#i have some. problems. when it comes to food #i wouldnt call it like a disorder by any means #i feel like that would be trivializing what people with EDs go through #but uh. well i have been at someone else’s house petsitting and i’ve barely eaten anything besides the bag of veggie chips i brought #and im starting to think. maybe. i need to assess my issues with feeling like im allowed to eat or take food thats offered to me #without being explicitly handed the food and being told its for me #haha uhhhh. haha. anyway. i think i’ll cope with this by projecting onto fictional characters and then never self reflecting #​ camtankerous is whining #like they straight up SAID ‘theres leftover in the fridge! feel free to eat those!’ #but because they said that and not ‘thats for you!’ my brain says ‘theyll eat that if i dont. i should leave it for them. its not for me’ #like idk. like i dont DESERVE to eat someone elses leftovers??? thats so fucking SAD. that makes me sound like a stray dog or something #i havent had coffee for several days either bc asking how their coffee machine worked felt like admitting i was planning on taking #their coffee and like. maybe im not allowed to have coffee! thats THEIR fancy coffee #i newrly slept on the fucking couch instead of one of the TWO guest beds they told me i could use. whats wrong with me #negative #vent #sorry i just. ive been really stressed out the last few days and i needed to get this out #i straight up dont know where this behavior comes from. its not like my parents were abusive or didnt let me have food?? #its like im afraid to let myself enjoy things. who the fuck do i think is going to come and take it away or yell at me. #HAHA wow thats a wall of text huh. i should probably go to therapy! #if youre still reading this do not look upon my wretched form. i dont want you to think less of me for this

[snekdood]

Ppl gotta understand that just bc you do x thing because you're mentally ill, doesnt mean your actions dont have the same effect if you weren't. Like if you've been manipulative to your friends, you cant get mad at them for not sympathizing entirely with you when you go on about how they dont accept you for your mentally ilness. Regardless of your reason, you were still manipualtive, you fucked with peoples trust. Theyre still gonna have trust issues about you even if its bc of whatever mental illness you have.

#im not saying its cool for them to abandon you but cmon. you have to consider sometimes other people and what they can handle #bc if you keep manipulating your friends or whatever theyre gonna get used to being manipulated and expect it from other people #whatever the case. people have limits. your friends have limits. im not saying theyre always justified. im not saying your friends are #never abliest. but they do have limits. and if you're yelling at them all the time about being perfect or whatever you cant exactly #be surprised when they dip out. #like for example. im a p aggressive and angry guy. clearly. if youve seen any of my posts. #ive always got something to rant about. and while im not quite as much like this irl its still a thing about me. im very very vocal about #whatever injustice i percieve happening to me or others lol. but i can understand why me being intense and angry and ready to throw hands #at the drop of a hat would make some people want to avoid me. i understand it makes some ppl feel scared and unsafe. #its not something i try to do. i dont try to make ppl i like feel unsafe. i try not to be that way around ppl w those kinds of issues #but im not gonna throw a fit and be like 'you guys are okay with bpd until i get really really angry and call you a cunt' #like... uh... yeah. i dont blame ppl like that for dropping me entirely if im getting angry all the time around them and it triggers them #and i dont seem to stop or be able to stop. #sure its not great. sure i dont want to be as aggressive and angry around anyone let alone ppl afraid of that sorta thing. but this is #the current state of my being. its something im working on. and i can understand why some ppl cant handle me right now as i am. #idk. just. shit like that man #another example. im hella hella HELLA bad at communicating via technology. unless you're in front of my face my mind just forgets we were #even talking sometimes. this naturally will cause issues. how am i gonna get upset at someone for being mad i stoped responding #in the middle of a conversation? sure i didnt mean it. this is purely unintentional. however that doesnt change the fact of my actions. #it doesnt change the fact that that person might feel unwanted. i can apologize day and night but until i actually try to be more attentive #of my phone this is just gonna keep happening yknow. how is it fair to get mad at other ppl for getting mad at you over that?

[0rionz-belt]

its hard to think that there was at least a week of my life where I balanced marching band, my rock band program, writing, drawing, and theater on top of high school. I talked to people, both friends and unfamiliar with no issue. And i never thought anything of it.

5 years later and I can barely function doing even 3 of those things. i miss being an artist.

#vent #on the other hand i really shouldnt idolize that version of myself #after all. That kid's insecurity is what caused this. #she was so scared her crush was going to leave her and what did she do? She freaked out and made the process go faster. #i cant even begin to wonder how long it would have taken if that never happened. maybe it wouldnt have been so tragic. #she didnt know her crush liked her too. #by all means i should be considering her a different person. #she was an ENFP girl from Seattle. adopted bc her parents didnt have the money. took a miracle pill with apparently different uses. #im Orion. an INFP enby who was meant to be born in Indiana. adopted for my and my mom's safety. I take Vyvanse for adhd and that alone. #She was an artist who tried every new thing she came across but was scared of carnival rides and coasters. #I am a pathetic shell of a person whos just getting back into the flow of doing art stuff again after 4 years. #and i am...significantly less afraid of carnival rides and rollercoasters. #its funny. the parts about where im from and why im adopted and what my medication is for. #those are not things about my personality. except for the medication part tbh. #but they are important to who i am. i had to dig that shit out of my parents. finding it out over the past 3 years. #i dont know. is it really such a crime to want to be who i once was and keep traits of who i currently am? #also no just because i misgender myself here doesnt mean you get to as well. #but yeah. thats why i call myself an it.

[lesbian-space-fish]

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#girl its great that theres a renewed interest in ql!! really!! its a great show and im glad people are getting into it/getting back into it #but my god some of these yahoos make me yearn for the days when it was just the same five people passing posts back and forth to each other #it was so chill people could disagree but it was in a chill civilized way #now? everyone has to have an opinion on everything and you have to publicly love or hate (no inbetween) every single thing #and jfc if its '''''''''not your quantum leap'''''''''' then just shut up and get the fuck out of the tag #im not afraid to block a bitch so anyone not behaving (aka acting like a grown ass adult) will get blocked this is a threat #sorry for going off its just been so long since ive had to deal with fandom drama #i mean ive seen it in wwd*ts and iw*v (where someone was complaining that they aged up one of the characters bc #'''what's the point of eternal youth if you're not young?''' #girl the character is like 30 now idk how to tell you this but 30 is still young!!! #almost threw hands then and there #but like im not IN in any of those fandoms not the way i am with ql #i hope its not gonna be like this moving forward #almost makes me wish the next couple eps are bad if only to weed out the jokers