#its like. nightmarish

[nomaishuttle]

see i wanna talk to u guys more and be fr friends but ihave no clue how to go abr it. 1 on 1 talk terrifies me and i feel like just dming ppl wouldbe weird and even if it wasnt id still be rly scared 2 do it. but i also cant just post like Everybody tlk to me bc wheni see posts like that im like They mean everybody except for me. which is nonsense it says everybody yk... but i get worried nd i feel like others do too. i have a discord server But it scares me so i never talk in there.. this is the devil speaking but i wish still went to school and was just forced to be around ppl thatd be so much easier

#i hope once i get my job Even tho it wont be a social job. hopefully ill get mlre used to being around ppl again.. #bc i just. idk. i get viscerally uncomfortable if im in a room with someone yk. bc i start thinking sbt every movement i make #and it makes me feel too big and like im taking up too much space even if im like. on the complete opposite side of the room #im like Oh im annoying them im in their space and it makes me nervous and then i bumble and i bump into things and i knock things over and #its like. nightmarish #thats also what a lot of my nightmares r abt its abt ppl just observing me doing something #but i keep knocking things over and bumping into things and stumbling #and like. i turn to quickly an things fall behind me and then i hsve to turn to see what fell (humiliating) #it feels like when i do my walking on the balls of my feet except that thats a fun autism activity for me #but like. the strain and the stress of all my muscles. it feels like that #where everything is judt stressing and light touching and then i get rly scared Basically #and online i just get terrified of being likee. idk #i hate hate hate being misinterpreted and i need to get over it bc likee. yr gonna be misinterpreted sometimes #sometimes ppl r gonna misunderstand and theyll either ask for clarification or just go sith their beliefs and both of those r FINE #but it like. idk it makes me feel sick knowing that people have an idea of me in their heads that i cant control #like. forreal sick. i hate knowing that i could exist in peoples heads outside of when theyre in mine yk #like if im not actively talking to or thinking abt someone knowing that they could be thinking abt me. nauseous #which is stupid and controlling. i exist and ppl perceive me and thats FINE im allowed to exist snd theyre allowed to think about me #but also it scares me bc idk what theyre thinking and they could be thinking anything. ym #ok anyways irs bedtime sryyy. potatos tmrw #meme imsge DOES ANYONE KNOW IF WE HAVE POTATOS TOMORROW? the answer? yes

[astral-schools]

I don't know what I will become. No one does. But for now, I am me.

happy one month of wallaru being out. i finished this like two days after the spoiler wall dropped on test realm and have just been sitting on it ever since.

#w101 #w101 fandom #wizard101 #wizard101 fandom #wallaru spoilers #dasein #sal art #woe undertale quote be upon ye #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW NIGHTMARISH IT WAS DRAWING HIS SUIT THE DAY TEST REALM CAME OUT #AND THE CUTSCENE WAS BROKEN !!!!!!!!!!! #i wasnt even at wallaru/on test realm yet i couldnt even play it. i was getting my reference images from ONE video #a video that NEVER SHOWED HIM FROM THE RIGHT SIDE #like its fine now and frankly if i wanted to redo the pattern with proper refs now that its out on live #id probably find some places where i messed up #but honestly i like how it looks here and i do NOT want to mess with it anymore. lol #how do i convey how much he means to me. literally how #wizard101 spoilers

[vigilskeep]

i’m always seeing zevrans in the tag that are like. well i guess you did colour his skin right but i know you used a white man as a reference for his actual features so i really dont think you deserve the credit

#theres this one art i see sometimes when im diving into old blogs #and it makes me SO fuming because its like. an exact photorealistic copy of a photo ive seen myself on pinterest of a white guy #and like yes the one edit is that the skin colour was changed (and the tattoo added) #but like. thats still not right. #it has like 10k+ notes. i know what you did #and these are the ones that DO match the skin tone #nightmarish out there

[robotbirdhead]

there's a lot of really good reasons to mourn Terry Pratchett's passing so young but the one I've landed on today while rereading Reaper Man is that I desperately want to know how the Wizards or Moist and Vetinari would have handled something like Amazon.

#discworld #moist von lipwig #unseen university #terry pratchett #gnu terry pratchett #we clearly see the rise of something like the internet in going postal #so some horrible nightmarish online shopping thing is not too far off #and i just know its channeling something from the dungeon dimensions

[cowchickenbeefpork]

my most insane belief is that the isabella arc could have worked if gotham treated it like old testament levels of karma for edward's actions against kristen and old testament levels of karma for oswald's gluttony of power and riches

#gotham #gotham fox #gotham 2014 #nygmobblepot #edward nygma #gotham edward nygma #gotham isabella #i dont even think isabellas actions should be changed i think eds reaction to them should change #like you mean to tell me a man with pyschosis is perfectly fine after having sex with a woman dressing up as his dead gf? yeah right #that man cant consent and you know it show! #accidentally entering a abusive relationship only to have someone he cared for try to maniuplate him into dating him after it is done #i do not tihkn oswald was the only one wrong here but #do u get my vision its like its happening all over again its nightmarish almost

[mugentakeda]

i just saw a pic of live action zuko and im kinda frothing at the mouth because zukos scar in the original show is so big the shell of his ear is almost gone. His skin is melted and folding around the eye socket. the eyeball itself looks dead. the burn is in the shape of a grown mans big ass hand. its horrible looking because the nature of it is horrible and grotesque and tragic and thats the whole POINT because zuko was and is a kid and netflix is making it look like a slightly nasty black eye for aesthetic purposes or to make zukos appearance "easier to digest" for viewers or some other stupid shit im so so mad im SO mad dude

#like to dumb down the sheer horror and violence of ozais abuse. Dude #its supposed to be hard to look at. its nightmarish unimaginable abuse thats stuck on zukos face forever and he was like. a 7th grader #idek man like #atla

[cappucosmico]

guys my spider looks weird. she looks a bit gay. do you guys think she will moult out of this or will she turn even gayer ?

#orbweaver my angel........ she's such a lover #she's doing So good. she's so ready to be done mothering as well. one more week... #her claws looked Nightmarish and she was very dandruffy before. she also had a lot of scabs that came off with chunks o' fur #but she's since shed her claws (it was honestly horrible in its own right to see. they moreso Peeled away. it was yucky) #and they're looking Great now. and she really likes being brushed and wiped (she really likes getting her Ears Cleaned⁉️ unusual but good) #so no more clumps of fur just Sloughing Off. no more Ass Dandruff either. it was at the base of her tail but it's funnier to say assdandruff #like me slapping the base of dragon's tail and calling it Slapping his ass. it's Their Top Ass (normal statement) #she's got a bit of a sensitive tummy though. idk if that'll ever pass #so far we're just figuring out what she can eat that Won't make her tummy rumble and have her farting asunder #nulo fussie cat and pure harmony are all a bust in that regard. but tiki cat and wellness are good #chicken flavour stuff settled her tummy good. a couple weeks ago i just boiled chicken and gave her some #and that helped a Ton in getting her a bit more stable digestionwise #she's so sweet and purry all the time too i'm so endeared by this little lady #i love you. kitty cats.

[beevean]

"[NFCV] is the greatest adaptation of all time because games bad. huh" Yeah, sure feels like Everyone Knows Games Have No Story And Video Games Adaptions Are Bad, so let's completely drop any standards we have for adaptions or even just original stories.

All the while treat fans of the games as whiners who can't appreciate Art and should just be happy it got an adaption at all. Or they are fans who Knows Games Sucks, and other fans need to admit the same.

That explanation is the only reason I can understand why even Pro Critic™ who must have seen decent made media in their work, go on about a show which fail so much basic writing and treat it as a masterpiece. I can't imagine NFCV had been an original IP it would have gotten nearly as much praise it got.

Honestly not. Every single praise I've seen about NFCV hinges on the premise that the original games "didn't have much of a story" (of if they did, like CoD, it was bad). I see it in the way criticism like "it could have been more faithful to the source material" gets sneered on like "oh so you wanted Trevor to jump on platforms? You wanted a pixel style?". Like, the idea that maybe the series had lore is completely alien to these fans.

That's why I keep insisting on the genuine writing flaws of the show. Even as its own thing, it has tremendous pacing issues, characterization inconsistencies, blatant narrative favoritism, idiot plots, childish dialogue hidden under a veneer of pretentiousness, shallow themes, and disgusting implications. There's only so many times you can bleat to me that N!Isaac has the best character arc of all time (all while gleefully shitting on game Isaac ofc) before I feel like you deadass watched a different show than I did.

#anti netflixvania #like i already said this but #hazbin hotel was accused of disrespecting SA victims because it depicted nightmarish abuse with a pop song that had depressing lyrics #where was this energy when lenore said to hector that he was having fun so he shouldn't complain? and nothing in the narrative challenged i #why does this show get a pass on so many glaring issues? #how the hell did nocturne manage to be nominated for best adaptation of 2023 when it has almost nothing in common with its source material? #doesn't that come from a place of “well the source material was lacking anyway”?

[socialtomcat]

haha capitalism is a fucking hellscape anyway time to distract myself with fictional scenarios : )

#the idea that u can be with a company for like over a quarter of ur entire life and they can just drop u at any second is nightmarish #part of me misses when ‘money problems’ was just some unknown blameless disease that made my parents snappy and scared now its all too real #idk man im not built for this #ack

[if-you-like-pina-colada-s]

The nations should be allowed to shapeshift into monstrous eldritch beings. And it should be a result of both the trauma they've faced and a reflection of how they've treated others. Because they can be beautiful things or horrid creatures. It's all a matter of how humanity, in essence, treats/sees them.

They are their people, as I've said before, and that includes their insecurities.

#hetalia #hws #hetalia headcanons #piña rambles #its a culmination of their sorrows and fears and regrets #a nightmarish form that exists within them that they try to hide away #like a monster in a cave hidden up high for centuries #if they can be beautiful angelic representations of human values virtues and dreams #they can be representative of human grief vengeance and fears too #eldritch aph nations #piña is making shit up

[charmac]

DUDEEEE pls more dennis pov ive seem posts of u saying its gonna be macs pov for a while but omfg i loved the chapters where its dennis’ so bad

It's not that I don't enjoy it, but that I think the audience being in Dennis' head too much is... a little dangerous. Sometimes I write stuff from Dennis' POV and then re-write it from Mac's (the beginning of Chapter 9, for example, was originally Dennis' POV).

So, it's unfortunately more of a narrative decision on my side to keep out of there. There's is always potential to go back, it's just trickier for me (and more spoiler-y for you) to give Dennis' perspective on things. How do you build angst if the reader is aware of both sides! I have yet to figure that one out, but the night is still young.

#sugar daddy au #ask #*looks through my 'outline'* #so i can give you dennis pov maybe chapter 16 earliest #bc i do have a dennis pov scene written for that #but i was planning on rewriting it from Mac's pov lol #cos i also have a mac pov scene for that chapter #though those scenes could be broken up between chapters.. #the struggle... #btw my chapter outlines are like 1-3 words and then that becomes 20k words #nightmarish #also any chapter they fuck for real i gotta write from the top so tha too limits things #dont worry in chapter 33 we'll get back to dennis #thats a joke its more like chapter 20 #hey thats not too far away #ok back to writing #i am struggling to get a scene right in this chapter rn if you cant tell im procrastinating

[apocalypsegay]

thinkin abt how Shocked my icu doctors were that i didnt mind going back to the icu for a visit just a few months after leaving bc apparently ppl end up so traumatized it takes them years to come back and like i definitely get that but 1. i frankly was asleep thru the worst part 2. my autistic detachment is crazy 3. i may have been so weak i couldnt even use the remote control but it was a time in my life where my family Didnt imply i was a jobless waste of space at any given moment and just told me to rest and take it easy so frankly being unable to even sit up did not seem that bad of a payoff

#whats funny its like. intellectually i remember it fucking sucking #there were times that shit felt straight up nightmarish #but overall. i look back on it somewhat fondly roflllllll

[coldvampire]

finally learning to use the sewing machine i was given almost 15 years ago,,, feeling powerful

#noticed a bunch of holes/wear in some things im just frankly not really able to justify the purchases of rn and yeah. #going less nightmarish than i remember. probably bc im an Adult now and more patient w this stuff #anyway! bit confusing but im enjoying the process + i have enough stuff to practice on #that i will Eventually become proficient #ngl im surprised the machine even works anymore but gfhghj its literally like new #ive got a bunch of clothes i would love to alter to fit me better too #idk if ill ever be Super Great at this but i think i can definitely get to a point where i can make basic garments for myself

[velvetineblue]

lynnie mentioned a "tseng family barbecue" and i'm so obsessed with the image of that akjhjkaj it's an incredible picture in my mind everyone is having a good time. tai's dad is grilling premium kobe beef steaks like 'who wants some MEAT', looking super sexy and dilf-like at the grill ... meanwhile tai is in the corner like

i hate you i hate you i hate you, i'm crushing you with my MIND

#tai: * ANGRILY CRONCHS ON BBQ CHIPS!!!! * while everyone is having a grand old time adhjjaj #no but fr there's something so hard to explain that i love about their dynamic... how anger @ Gioven is almost a form of familial intimacy. #because almost Everyone loves his dad or at least enjoys his company....... #EXCEPT for people who get super close to him. #bc his dad is one of those people whose so charming & fun to be around but... those in his fam learned the hard way: #you can't depend on him. you can't emotionally rely on him. he hurts everyone who gets close to him bc of his selfishness. hes kinda toxic. #but he's so fun to be around & most people never have to get close to him so it's like...... his barbs never touch them. #which makes tai & the small handful of other people who know that side of him to seem....... almost IRRATIONALLY angry at him. #cus like most other people DON'T GET IT& dont see what the big deal with this guy Is aksjhja. #and i think that makes tai bitter too. like its not FAIR that everyone likes him & gets to see him as a Fun Guy... #but tai & his mom had to experience him as a nightmarish emotional destructor... #idk if that makes sense but if you know someone like that... ?? theN YOU GET IT.... iykyk askjja #but it makes it such a fun funny but also.... ultimately rly Tragic family dynamic. #MY FAV adjkxjj

[wjbs-aus]

No-one: Mark INFRA after reading two paragraphs about how the Stalburg Cabbage-Farmers' Coalition have been embezzling funds in order to buy napalm so they can put the other farmers out of business: "Intriguing..." *ethereal musical sting* but also, Mark INFRA after reading a single-sentence memo about how sanitation engineer Jorgen B. Denton forgot to order more beer so the valves haven't been fixed for a month: "Intriguing..." *marginally less-ethereal musical sting* and the immortal; Mark INFRA after taking a photograph of a really serious structural fault in the building that contains an important piece of infrastructure that the citizens of Stalburg need to have functioning in order to live: *literally nothing*

#infra #yes i know ive been infraposting quite a bit recently #but the thing is i like the game a lot and especially its sillier elements #also if i posted about my other hyperfixation id get a nightmarish amount of notes because its a band thats pretty popular here #like i did a small shitposty thing about it on my bionicle sideblog (since it has a similar approach to its story and started the same year #and that has quite a few likes and even reblogs from the band's fans

[monstriiss]

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#god trying to get an adhd assessment is nightmarish #why does it cost $600+ for a single session like EXPLAIN??? #and it's so hard to find a psychologist who is taking new patients like please i just want to not be held hostage by my brain #one told me i would have to go to australia to get an assessment i just ghtiuhgituhgiutrh #I WILL get a stupid diagnosis i swear to fucking god #i've given up trying to go through the GP because the doctors here simply do not give a shit #them: its anxiety #me: but i dont feel anxious #them: mmm no sweaty it's anxiety :)))) #;; ooc. #;; tbd.