#just fucking tired of it all rn

[thingswhatareawesome]

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#sorry i'm feeling mentally shitty tonight #think it's hormone fuckery combining with a medication i'm on #and that feeling of being a failure at making friends with someone #and someone on masto jumped on a convo ppl were having about something that was a huge love of mine when i was younger and shat on it #and if that isn't the story of my life that things i really liked/like just get smacked down or sneered at or considered freakish #which yay really kills the enthusiasm for everything #and i'm still missing the sr fandom content on twitter bc there's still so much less here and outright next to nothing about caelus #ie my favorite so i miss those 'daily character' twitters like damn the only 'daily caelus' thing here is on hiatus #bc they're not bothering if there's not new content LIKE WHY NOT FANART THEN oh right bc there's no caelus fanart out there #i love the characters of sr don't get me wrong but i hate they all overshadow the mc #oh except stelle like stelle players love her but caelus players ??? idk what love other characters more i guess #i kinda wish we'd get to the storyline where caelus/mc mattered again bc it's starting to feel like it's been a damned long time #don't get me wrong i love dh and dhil but remember the end of jIV? when we the player were FUCKING AWESOME? #haven't felt like the game's remembered that in awhile #also i'm bitter the weather is shit we're 4 days from october and looking at 6 days in the 80s but also this weekend? two days AT 90 #what the everliving fuck other than yeah the world is burning and frying and we're stuck in august and i'm GETTING NO FUCKING FALL #all i look forward to all fucking year is autumn and nope all we're getting is summer nothing but summer #if i have to live in summer forever frankly i'd rather be dead thanks. #just fucking tired of it all rn

[fiendishartist2]

shout out to elias bouchard for fucking up a perfectly good mildly toxic workplace. you literally couldn't have done worse

#another character line up bc i love comparing heights as you all know #s1 jon has a particular personality that makes him so appealing. like the villain in a movie about fashion #hes like that model with the fuck ass bob from confessions of a shopaholic #im so tired rn i just had a 4 hour life drawing class and then eating with friends #i just wanna go to sleep... but i have fanfiction to read bc im dedicated to the cause o7 #i have zoom class tomorrow so thats nice. i dont have to go anywhere lol #my art #the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #kinda #timothy stoker #sasha james #character design

[why-the-heck-not]

Trying to listen to podcast to calm down to sleep -> loud as fuck ad. Trying to check something quick from a youtube tutorial -> first gotta watch 2x 30 second unskippable ads. Trying to go to a website -> 2 popups and an ad video automatically start to play. Trying to listen to the radio while driving -> 7 minutes of uninterrupted ad time. Every single free app with those shitty game ads with the stupid annoying ass king. I’m tired !!! I never wanna buy anything ever again !!!!!!!

#watched youtube and skipped the ’’this video is sponsores by’’ only to get hit with 2 30sec unskippable ads and I just deleted the youtube #app from my phone with pure rage I’m fucking tired of ads everywhere all the good goddamn time #nYx PLuMpIng GLoss pLumP yOurSeLf Up BabY go fucking die #(also im tired so im unreasonably mad at every minor thing rn but like this has been the sentiment for months) #(should’ve gone for that walk I was thinking abt would’ve been much calmer) #(bc now rage deleted all the ''fun''' apps from my phone it's now just the essentials in there (tho did keep podcasts & Spotify bc those I #refuse to give up) like idk this better stick I want phone screen time of 1-2h per day) #april 2024 #2024

[muppetbyers]

it just feels like the duffers think that the height of non-conformity is being a nerd

#like fuck poc fuck queer people fuck neurodivergent ppl you know who has it real rough? gamers #okay that was a joke but its so telling that they just… dont get the issues they’re trying to tackle #its the way lucas had basically no character development until s4 and even that was framed super weirdly #and how eddie ‘the freak’ just ends up dying anyways despite it all #and erica gets absolutely nothing apart from tired stereotypes #and just… everything about how they treated robin and will in terms of their queerness #yeah… we get the message #i’ll stop posting about vol2 now ive been here all day. #also im very mad rn so ignore me if this is like an insane overraction #mine

[lavenoon]

reblog art, goddamnit

#post let luce #i know people make posts like this all the time #but I am so fucking tired #I post art for engagement. for interaction. #so many of those reblogs are tagless too #what do i make art for? #to throw it out to a silent audience? to get a clap and then work on the next performance? #this is not ragging on people who reblog. especially not those reblogging with tags #yall are the reason i *do* still post #but i honestly just wanna know what people think. i wish to hear their thoughts. the less people reblog the less people see #and the less people have the spoons to actually talk to me about my art #not doing so well rn so it just hits harder #and more and more tempted to just. not post on tumblr anymore #when i post stuff on discord it feels much more interactive #despite the audience being so much more limited #feeling bad about my art and posting on here isnt helping

[laz-laz-ace-pilot]

Not to be posting about UK politics again (I promise not to make a habit of it) but for those not following what's going on (can't blame you) we're currently in the middle of a leadership race for the new Prime Minister between Liz Truss and Rishi Sunak. Both candidates are desperately trying to be the most Thatcher-like, evil person to appeal to Tory members, and the newest move by Sunak is to attack the Equality Act.

And suddenly TERFs are all up in arms being like 'oh no, dont do that! You just need to target trans people, not all of us!' like... what did you fucking expect?!?!?!

You teamed up with the anti-women, anti-LGBT, anti-disabled, islamophobic, antisemitic, white supremacist party, and you're surprised when they roll back everyone's rights?

The same people who put a blanket do-not-resuscitate order on disabled people during the pandemic? The same people who have removed the right to protest after the 2020 Black Lives Matter protests? The same people who drown refugees in the Channel? You thought they had your back, just because you helped with their 'divide and conquer' strategy among LGBT people and cis and trans women?

You tried to make a deal with the devil by selling him other people's souls, then were surprised when he came for your soul too.

Get fucked.

#uk politics #tw transphobia #uk terfs are something else #sorry for the rant guys but im so fucking tired of it #this is right after all the misreporting about tavistock #and its just everywhere rn

[minty364]

DPXDC Prompt #70

Danny and Damian are twins and they are unfortunately forced to fight each other for title of heir at the age of 5. Danny dies after losing and Talia desperately throws him into the lazurus pits. He doesn’t come back out.

5 years later they throw a one Jason Todd into the pit and he also doesn’t come back. But Danny does now 10 years old but he has white hair and glowing green eyes. Oh wait it’s back to normal black hair and blue eyes now. Talia is majorly confused and she grabs both of her sons to take them to live with their Father and gives Damian the order to protect Danny from harm.

Jason wakes up in front of two kids one wearing a red cap and the other was goth as fuck. What the hell happened and how was he here?

I was basically wondering what would happen if Jason and Danny where thrown into the pits and turned on the portal at the same time and what if they swapped places.

#dp x dc prompt #dp x dc #dc x dp #danny fenton #danny phantom #danny and damian are twins #poor danny #writing prompt #Danny and Jason swap places #I kind of figured Danny wouldn’t be spared if he was just some random kid so hence twin au #The was I’ll handle character death is #is it described at all? If it goes into great detail than yes but if it’s just casually brought up by Danny then no #I’ve had a bad depression spiral lately and I know I need to look for a new job but I’m also so fucking tired of life you know? #My mental health is really bad rn lmao

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i’m so jealous. people who don’t have bpd won’t ever understand how it feels to have your emotions take over, to feel your entire world end, to want to physically crawl out of your own skin bc you’re so angry, or ashamed, or done with being alive. it’s like a hurricane of emotion hitting you & you gotta sit there & act like you’re fine

#i’m about ready to lose my fucking shit and kms #all because of something so small #but even tho i’m aware the problem is small it doesn’t matter #i am not coping well rn #i just want him to hold me #i’m tired of being like this #fuck i wanna kms

[rapidhighway]

#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro……. #she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much. #instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

[dollypopup]

like. . .are any other Polin fans out there that do not give a singular flying fuck about Debling? we should form a club lol because from the very bottom of my heart and with my whole chest: I could not care less about him. Not sorry, I'm tuning into S3 for Pen and Colin and Pen and Colin alone

#polin #penelope featherington #colin bridgerton #like. . .i keep seeing all these theories about debling and i'm going '. . .and?' #someone: what if debling- #me: don't care. when is colin back on screen? i miss my boy #because really. . .who gives a fuck? he's a random oc who's gonna be gone by ep 3? #frankly i don't give a shit about him in any capacity #and tbh. . .like it's not even a contest for me. colin is SO much more attractive and appealing than debling #no shade to the actor i'm sure he's lovely but guys. . .luke newton is SO fucking fine #tired: colin gets jealous of debling because he's courting penelope and thus disapproves of them #wired: colin distrusts debling because he's a vegetarian and colin the foodie cannot trust a man who cuts out an entire food group #inspired: colin is friendly to debling and can always hype pen up around him but debling isn't listening because he's queer and likes him #y'all just 'care' about debling because he has no traits rn and you can turn him into your perfect male oc prize for penelope #'i ship pen with options' and i ship pen with colin. . .you know. . .like a polin shipper. . .crazy how that's. . .how it works #anywhoozle i am first and foremost a hater #fellow haters come join me we meet up on tuesdays and we have snacks

[randomminty]

Hbubhhuhub. Rais ea suillen

#EDIT I FORGOT IF MASUKI WEARS A DRESS OR PANTS AND I FUCKING GUESSRF WRONG NO!!!!!!!!! #WAS DRAWING IT THINKING THIS DRESS WOULD LOOK SO MUCH COOLEF IF THEY WERE PANTS. GUESS WHAT. #masuki. masuki. masuki 5 star where are you. #bandori #raise a suilen #art tag #oh my god i have to tag them all. all of thrm. dear lord. #chu2 #pareo #rokka asahi #masuki satou #rei wakana #i couldbe just added bandori to the end its ok. too late. hehe #im reading through all the ras stories on eng then ill move on to the single event not on eng #last one was the waterpark next is band story 2….. wish me luck……….. #i couldnt draw reis face here idk why…. ive drawn it well before this one in particular just broke me fsr #i could say so many thingd abt ras rn but im tired so i wont #i listened to their music for 5 hours today. raychells singing drives me insane #okay thats all bue bey #chiyu tamade #reona nyubara #<- I FORGTO okay bye

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

NOOOOO I FUCKING DROPPED MY LAPTOP & NOW THE SCREEN FADES INTO DARKNESS ON THE SIDES-

#i am. so tired lmao #im totally keeping it together rn. not at all despairing #its always something.... #and today of all days... smfh #i mean at least the screen is fully functional #the displays just Fucked #thats gonna be hell when writing in my docs #technically i can adjust to anything but oh my GOD AGH #its always!!! goddamn!!! something!!! huh! #took my laptop too deep into the minecraft caves & now its got a vignette #absolutely unprompted #for a split second i thought it was gonna be fine.... #i opened it and it was working... no visible problems... then i unlocked it and BOOM #devastation... no breathing... this is my chocolate bar...

[felizusnavidad]

unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom

#time for a little rant because i feel like i need to get it off my chest rn #i feel so disconnected from this fandom lately #mostly because literally everything is about travis these days #like don't get me wrong i'm really happy that she's happy but #i just don't feel the need to talk about her relationship 24/7 like some of the swifties #and honestly it's all just too much #everything is about taylor and i'm not even excited anymore when i see new pictures of her #because it's just too much??? #i truly love her with all my heart and i always will but even i am tired and i've been a swiftie for literally half of my life #why do people have to discuss every single detail about her love life #and who cares if she's going to be at the game again #let her live maybe #i'm sorry but it's just so annoying lately #this fandom is being too fucking loud and i'm tired and it's not even fun anymore #remember when the eras tour started? amazing times #we were talking about it all the time and discussing every single detail of the tour and the songs and all #now it's all about her new relationship guys it's not... like... WHY. #it makes me so sad because it used to be different #ugh #i might get hate for that but i don't care i just really needed to say that #taylor swift #ts #talking shit for the hell of it*

[fbfh]

"Hows writing going?" I literally look like this

#reaction pics #memes #op's reaction pics #op's memes #i fucked up my sleep schedule. haha. #im in sleep limbo hell! hooray! #im too tired to do stuff but cant sleep #solition: do stuff while pretending to be asleep #might have figured out why i keep getting the depresso spells too lol #so hopefully that gets fixed soon too #i love you guys #im gonna be more active soon im just a lil dead rn /lh #fake guy fierri voice: WE'VE ALL HAD IT #i love fake guy fierri so much #my son #my father #my holy spirit

[vitamin-zeeth]

experiencing fhjy while currently being in the equivalent of junior year is so. Yeah that's what it's like that's how school treats you that's how I'm feeling RIGHT NOW. I love how perfectly accurate it is and I also hate it so much because they don't deserve to go through this shit

#like fuck man #im currently fucking struggling through school clawing my way to exams so i can stop dealing with all this bullshit and have a life #and i cannot WAIT until its over cause next years gonna be the chillest #but fuckin hell man some of these moments #adaine struggling cause the school just won't provide the resources she needs. fabian dealing with a 150% workload + ecs. #kristen being genuinely gifted but finding the paperwork so awful that her grades are plummeting. #gorgug being told he cant do what he wants to do because they want to keep him focusing on the path he chose when he was 14. #riz trying to keep his friends together because if they separate he doesnt know what hed do #ough #kristen especially is resonating with me HARD her entire energy is so fucking relatable rn #its giving burnout its giving tired undiagnosed teenager its giving doesnt know wtf theyre doing #shes strongly considering dropping out but then looking back and going FUUUCK I KNOW I GOTTA JUST PUSH THROUGH #shes hating the work its making enjoying the subject harder shes needing a break and nobodys willing to give her one #shes so me this year actually. realest ever I'll defend her til i DIE #d20 #fhjy

[blinkpen]

mental heath stuff (not bad just candid)

dunno if i'll regret sharing this just yet, maybe i should have sat on it a little more until i knew exactly if i should share and how much, but parts of me really insist, and so i guess we're going for it

and i word that way because

months of exhausting processing has led me to conclude that I’m a system, so I’m still in the undertaking of cataloging an awful lot of shit into one rolodex. the kicker is i probably have been one for at least 20 years, but everyone got along so well and so cooperatively, like the most well harmonized combining mecha, that is oblivious to the fact it even is one. nobody even needed nametags in here.

…mostly. warning signs were there, it's just some of the issues that come from this sort of thing that did leak through, were hiding under other conditions that already cause similar complications. if you're familiar with the messier mental illnesses and all the ways they start to functionally melt at the edges and trade symptoms in odd places and our understanding of it all is still so half-formed, you'll probably get what i mean. hopefully people following me understand none of this crap works like it tends to get depicted in media

i'm schizophrenic and my mind is a fucking enigma anyway

anyway

then one "new" alter woke up last november in response to an acute straw breaking camel's back moment of abuse at home after enduring way too much for way too long, but the alter is not actually new, is technically one of the oldest, but she's been 'asleep' for like a decade and her point of origin is even older than that obviously this one was SO different and possessed SUCH a different headspace and set of tastes and desired behaviors, and subsequently threw equilibrium off so badly, all the components of the mecha suddenly realized they were components bc now the situation kind of required acknowledging that fact to proceed to even get starting fixing shit.

its like

"who is this weird one who broke everything" "no clue, you guys got any ideas?" "why would we have any ideas you don't, we're all us" "yeah like what do you even mean by You Guys?" "i think they're joking, like, because we're all copies of the same person, like the spongebob bit with the fine dining, they're asking themself rhetorically because it's funny…….. …….we are all the same person right. this is a metaphor. like the spongebob bit…… right….." "why are we not all immediately agreeing" "because before we could all reflexively say yes we realized we all had different definitions of The Same Person we are"

this is a gross oversimplification of course

this was a lot to process for pretty much all parts of me save one (incidentally, not the new one, the new one isn't shocked, but is a crybaby, so they didn't take Existing (Again) (2. Electric Boogaloo) very well. they do not take the prospect of 'going back to sleep' veryy either, though. so we're having to slightly redesign the mecha)

mostly through the worst of it, but among other problems we're still working to repair, this sleeper code alter caused a catastrophic system failure in the ventilation and even though everyone is mostly calmed down now, they can still smell everyone else's scented candles in their personal quarters, which is annoying when some of them have VERY different tastes in scents)

annoying, but not ruinous. fixing the AC is low priority compared to other things

like the pneumonic tube that used to let everyone hot potato information and memories from any time they were the one obliviously in the cockpit, we had a pretty damn good one, it was working so well we didn't know why we were even using it, and assumed its regular but manageable failings were just, natural, or because of some other factor affecting the tubes themselves or potato availability, and not considering most people do not have these potato tubes at all

yes i will probably make some kind of comic to conceptualize and visually externalize this i struggle to feel understood without doodles

also, while typing this post, specifically, tumblr did a fucky wucky, and when i realized i'd made an entire other post in the tags, i went to try to copy/paste them into the post but the nature of the fucky wucky prevented this. i'm really not in the mood to retype all that so it's just a screenshot now

#sporadic warbling #the good news the venn diagram between us all in terms of what we believe in and whats okay to do or not n shit mostly lines up #tho the scented candles thing is actually less trivial than it sounds / impacts QoL more than i'm willing to get into rn but we live #also the memory thing but my memory was bad before and after the fact #its taking so long to fix the potato pipes and i'm tired of manual potato delivery so i'm entering my Fuck the Potatoes era #like well kids i had a presentation prepared but the overhead's broken and i could make you do a worksheet instead #but why not let you just go play outside while the janitor and i fix the overhead. it's not fair the principle took away recess anyway.