#like LOOK HOW UNREASONABLE YOU ARE

[n7punk]

buddy if you add up the recent sale prices for all of these things individually NIB it's like 37 + 38 + 120 + 39 + 36 and that does not come out even close to 406$. congratulations you scammed yourself

#and that's just the most recent sale prices i'm aware of! i have some of these and paid less #mylife #i tend to favorite/watchlist this stuff just to keep an eye on what's going on #i wanted to see how long this one would sit/how low it would go compared to original list price #or alternatively. who is really stupid. i guess #to be clear glimmer is usually listed at like 100+ but her most recent sale is very much 38$ unless i missed something #the catra put up with her by the same seller went up to 167$. but glimmer just is not considered worth that even by collectors #so even if she lists high she doesnt sell high. versus catra who I've only seen sold under three figures like 3 times #every time i see the same glimmer listed at 120$ over and over I want to email the seller with the link to that bidded listing #like LOOK HOW UNREASONABLE YOU ARE #if she was worth that she wouldn't have sold for a third of it in a bidding war with multiple interested bidders!! look at yourself #you can tell its the holidays though because some listings that have sat all year (she-ra + bow for 72$) are finally selling

[the-dragon-girl-27]

It is the middle of a Sunday afternoon. You have nothing on, and aren't expecting visitors, deliveries or post.

Unexpectedly, there is a knock at the door.

you are greeted by...... her

#fairy vs walrus #walrus vs fairy #walrus #why is this so well textured its fucking shitpost art #like why cant i pull this off in my normal art it had to be the walrus fairy #meme art #things that would give people outside of tumblr a heart attack #maybe #has the fairy vs walrus debate breached containment yet #also that generic girl i drew ended up looking a lot like how i look irl (yes i look like an npc) #also that door is unreasonably large but i needed you to be able to see the walrus in all her glory #i wanted it to be bigger so you could see her wings #fairy walrus #dragon draws creatures

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

#writeblr #warm up #my dad was actively doing bad shit to us and we STILL were told we were lucky . and to a point i do think im lucky #i just think also there's somethin to be said about like. how about we stop using comparison to dismiss ppls individual struggles #yes there are people who have no perspective. for the reference tho having perspective actually made me really unwilling to get help #for what was a serious and debilitating mental health issue. bc i thought i didnt DESERVE IT #and i would rather have 600 ppl who aren't THAT bad get help and get heard and get seen #than make any 1 kid. do the math that i did: look at the world that is dying and the people who are hurting and say #''oh. okay. others have it worse. they are probably better people than i am. i am being unreasonable. i cannot ask for help #i am not good. i am taking too much space. i am not worth saving.'' #bc our WHOLE lives we are taught a scarcity mindset - that you can 'steal' from someone. so that instead of changing a system that doesn't #actually offer fair support to everyone #we put the impetus on the individual to just... demand less. #and here's something - there are probably ppl who think i DIDNT deserve to get help #bc i DID have it better than other people #and something about that is ... so sickening. bc i think all of us in some way at some point WILL need help. #we were supposed to make communities. we were supposed to offer our hands. we were supposed to raise the barn #instead we said: it could be worse. now handle it yourself

[nnayomaise]

i think the thing that really gets me about all the "we've got to kill this guy kabru" meme redraws with mithrun is that in the very first conversation mithrun has with laios, he trusts him with, essentially the fate of the world and his life long revenge quest against the demon

#dungeon meshi #mithrun #laios touden #i just think is neat really. #like in a way. laios is entrusted with what has haunted both kabru and mithrun for a significant portion of their lives #actually i think its. pretty interesting how trusting mithrun tends to be. while he says outright that he knows kabru is plotting something #he lets him go and execute his plan to start with..think its only until kabru says hes going to go get the shadow lord's help that mithrun #is like 'yeah okay thats not going to work im going to go ahead with mine' #is just really interesting to me. how he gives people chances where others wouldn't. bcs im sure any other canary captain wouldn't #not that its not deserved but the demon benefits so much from people seeing the canaries as this unreasonable unforgiving threat #also it was absolutely to the winged lions benefit that marcille become the dungeon lord- even if it liked laios more marcille was more #vulnerable to his manipulation and brainwashing #i think laios could've been reasoned with before becoming the dungeon lord but marcille couldn't #dungeon meshi spoilers #went back to these tags after looking again and you know i think mithrun let kabru talk with the shadow lord so kabru would not interfere #with what he told the rest of the canaries to do #my post

[alangdorf]

Sorryyyy for dropping off the face of the earth; got kinda shy after that last post but mostly I’ve just been writing though I cannot guarantee that any of that will ever be finished (also I’m very insecure about my writing AAAH). Figure I might as well post the valentines I had done (like two months late lol); interestingly this turned into more of a hand lettering exercise than I was expecting lol

#len’en #yabusame houlen #suzumi kuzu #tsubakura enraku #haiji senri #art #digital #there was one more but I’m not confident it’s like. funny? and I have stuff I’d eant to change abt it #and these four have pretty good comedic timing as a set so I’ll just leave well enough alone #also had plans for a Kuroji and uhhh Xeno a but those haven’t panned out #you’ll have to excuse me I’ve been going off the rails and also have not fixed the meds situation (I’m completely out atm) #started like four fics; yes they are all suzutsuba and there is. so much sex (not described/on screen but STILL) #didn’t manage to stay away from Hamal Cine Bad End either jfhshsjfb #too nervous abt talking yo pol rn to leave comments but zaranthropy if you’re reading this I owe you my life #also I think I said I was inspired on something by dissociation constant and then when chapter 2 came out I relized it was something I had #completely misinterpreted but I’m too embarrassed to actually go and check lol…… #*talking to ppl sorry I had to turn off my autocorrect cause it was being compeltely unreasonable #OH YEAH also this Haiji design was a little bit inspired by a redesign of them from uhhhhhhh who was it. idk most of their blog is gone but #I’ll go check my likes #anyway I like how they tuned out also that joke came to me several days after valentine’s and gave me the idea for this whole thing #edit: can’t find the post anymore for some reason but I think yhe name was like chiosu or something? #did somebody go delete their blog while I wasn’t looking

[izzystizzys]

obsessed with the izzy vs everyone height difference, but esp steddyhands coded

like. izzy, who‘s still so deeply caught in fighting all these battles against parts of him the world deems unworthy. for whom his stature and bearing were hardwon battles fought over years, who can’t shake the echo of bigger, stronger men always zeroing in on him as the easy target - for any number of things, height, weight, voice, a thousand others - and who’s always fought these battles violently and relentlessly

and the only person he’s ever had anything approximating positive feelings about being bigger than him was ed, who used to say it was cute the way he could wrap himself around all of izzy and then some, and rest his chin atop his head to annoy him out of doing work, and who stopped touching him at all somewhere along the line (they’re working on that, these days)

who has all of this rushing in to bite him squarely in the ass when he finds himself one day dragged away and hefted up into stede bonnet’s toned???? arms away from a barfight, mind suddenly empty and frozen mid-calling someone a cunt, just.

well, ed used to do stuff like this, sometimes, before he fucked his knee. stuff that never failed to get izzy’s blood pumping and them both nearly stabbed with distraction, and stede fucking bonnet, gentleman pirate is quite frankly the last person izzy thought he’d be having this second revelation with this late in life, is all

but. oh. he’s staring up at the ponce, going on about something or other how smashing bottles over people’s heads isn’t a civilized way of solving disputes, and if izzy was thinking clearly he might say that it’s a sight more civilized than gutting them which he might’ve done instead, but is he ever not

because he’s been summarily deposited on the small brick wall outside, and bonnet is looming over him with both hands braced either side of izzy’s hips, and his brain is receiving exactly none of the words stede is sending, cause-

well. apparently he really fucking likes this

#steddyhands #kind of stizzy #a bit of edizzy but mostly in a failmarriage way #stede when he realizes there‘s nothing behind izzy‘s eyes but blown pupils and a gaping void: are you even listening to me izzy??? #izzy: hm #but once he realizes he becomes absolutely unhinged with it #just all broad palm fanned out fingers against the small of izzy‘s back tilting him gently into his grip with warm fingers around his chin #just leaning over him breathing down his neck letting him feel the breadth of his chest against his shoulders type shit #ed misses out on the weird tension for precisely three days before he catches the way stede always steps too close making izzy tilt his head #back up to look at him and thinks to intervene #‘thats nice’ stede says sweating ‘but uh i promise he’s… into it?’ #izzy in the corner is having a religious experience and currently ten astral planes removed judging by how hard he’s blushing #ed goes huh. he lets someone else do that? he likes stede throwing him around? #and is instantly and unreasonably jealous of this but unable to do anything without looking insanse but up the ante #izzy caught in the middle is having an insanely and embarrassingly good time #ofmd fic idea #back at it again (shouting my insane takes into the void)

[todayisafridaynight]

aoki deserves a billion and one knives to the organs but tbh if i showed up to the husband of my ex's ceremony Of Which Was The Same Guy Who Made Me Look Like A Jackass On My Birthday and she was like 'wow youre so charming and sophisticated' after i overheard her calling me a creep and a weirdo On My Birthday i think i wouldve killed myself on the spot in front of everyone so good on him for not doing that I Guess

#snap chats #he didnt know it was his own birthday but anyways #PLEAAAASSSEE LIKE THE SELF RESTRAINT #PERCEIVED ex anyway. dont think they ever actually dated so its even worse vjeLKVEJ #like aoki is a big baby bitch but he really is a master of his craft of not looking insane /immediately/ after something goes wrong #give him five minutes but for a solid 4:59 minutes he'll be fine #perks of being a politician ig idk do they teach you that as a political science major. idfk that nerd shit im into human resources #i have to make a comic of that whole thing at some point its so funny to imagine #but no i was thinking about how i wanted to take cosplay pics at some point cause thats a thing i can do i realize #and i wanted to make the aoki caption a joke about aoki shooting himself over yumeno and i remembered this shit ajrGALKEJRLGKJ #moving on i just came in from a walk and dawg its too hot out i brought my umbrella #i mustive looked insane to the mailman tho cause the route i took meant i walked past the mail truck Twice #so sorry if you saw some weirdo with a frilly black umbrella walkin his dog. in the glitteriest crocs around #very confusing to see but not unreasonable i dont think #anyways im sweaty im eating ice cream now #i cant have sweets around me its so bad i eat it all in a sitting

[widevibratobitch]

ok who wants to see some fun illustrations from a 1960s copy of The Three Musketeers that i just found and bought because i have no self control and shouldn't be trusted with money?

too late, here they are

#please do notice the beautiful black constance!!! #and the unreasonably hot athos leaving his stinking cellar after two weeks of living like a mindless rabid raccoon #im also obsessed with whatever the hell the yassified aramis and porthos are doing in the background while athos duels with d'artagnan #and rochefort's sexy ass nose #the three musketeers #les trois mousquetaires #vintage books #old books #book illustration #look if yall are tired of me rambling about t3m - think how I feel. you can just unfollow me but i cannot block my own mind (and heart </3)

[vero-niche]

its been bugging me for a while and i do think its weird that you can only buy anime on bluray. i see the "if you dont want physical media to disappear then buy physical media!" posts and yeah i sure would like to. even with the insane shipping cost i would. and i do have an older type laptop that still has a dvd player. cant play bluray tho. i checked and bluray players are expensive + my rental doesnt have a tv. so what now? i just spend a huge amount of money to have physical media that i can never watch? when did bluray even become the norm? i want to support and own the art i love and my options are exploitative rancid streaming service (which may also remove it anytime) or costly unplayable disks. they quite literally leave no choice for me but to pirate it even when i'd be willing to pay and i think thats wild

#yknow what most people said when they introduced bluray (at least in my vicinity)?that its gonna soon disappear bc it needs a special player #and who the fuck would buy a special player that can only play one type of disk or a type of disk that can only be played by one player #but i guess the anime industry was like 'oh yeah this will make our work more inaccessible. we're in' #maybe gaming consoles can play blurays idk and idc since i dont have that either!!! #i feel like im going insane here #and the point that oh bluray has more space - buddy daddies in japan was released in like 5 or 6 blurays!!! #if its already a disk set you might as well make a dvd version!!!!! #you know how many ppl i know or have known who has a bluray player? 0!!!!! #anyway. sorry for the rant this makes me unreasonably irritated #maybe they are just looking out for my wallet by preventing me from buying them and i should be thanking them instead

[cosmicpines]

I'm not done listening to the Alex Hirsch interviews but god it just reminds me both of how much I miss this show and how much I appreciate the love and care that went into it. I love listening to him talk about the characters with a frankness and care that shows how much he values them being three dimensional beings.

#notably his answer about mabel in lost legends i thought was strong of like #yeah were going to give her a story that shes flawed in thats the point of a story #i still dont *love* dont dimension it bc i think it doesnt completely hit what theyre aiming for #the Mabels Fault is so weirdly pointed and bizarre #and her apology at the end is like. eh. bad. it needs another draft i think it needs more space to be explored. #ive been thinking a *lot* about 'mabel hatred' as i think about the show again #i do need to rewatch the show before i make a long comment on it #and how much of it began from people being frustrated that she was continually denied a proper episode where she was allowed to be wrong #in an interesting way #love god in particular is. weird. #and last mabelcorn felt like the beginning of an arc that didnt really happen #like that she was always untouchable in a sense #and that argument was co opted by people who were just unbelievably cruel to her and completely unreasonable #let me be clear: mabel hatred is overblown and absurd and i hate it s omuch #but i also dont like it when people put her on a pedestal of Perfect Unflawed Glitter Goddess #while also being like wow look at the depth of dipper #if youre going to say mabel cant be selfish because shes 12 you also cant say dipper has depth bc by that logic hes also 12 #anyway im sure someone will misinterpret these tags thats why theyre in the tags #mary blabs

[aritany]

i’m beginning to think there’s a kind of indestructibility that comes with the territory of your first heartbreak being from your parents.

like, what are you going to do to hurt me? my superheroes chose religion over me. good try though

#alex talks #not writing #idk how to tag this #parental trauma #toxic family #no contact #if anyone has suggestions for how to better tag this lmk #i was just thinking about how i am relatively unbothered by people hurting me like yes it sucks but is it Worse? #i’ve literally been divorced because the idea of me post Hypothetical top surgery was not worth staying married to #and that was like. ok damn ouch. and it really hurt for a while #but nothing will touch the og hurt!! #(i am thinking about this because i had two facetime calls with my parents in the span of a month #in which it was reiterated that i am an Unreasonable Child for asking that my sexuality and gender id be Acknowledged let alone respected #and that the Love Of God is our example and we can love each other through differences of opinion #finally got to vocalize how hurt i’ve been over the last decade by their bigotry and got Literally ignored) #🙂 (heartbroken) #i’ve been trying to decide whether to even post about this where anybody could see it because it feels very real and raw and scary #but you know what i have no qualms about my own side of this story being public #and i think that if my parents didn’t want to look like villains they should have behaved less villainously #thank u for coming to my ted talk that is all #wait no it isn’t #if you’re reading this and your parents have ever made you feel like who you are is not important: they are NOT always right #you deserve to exist as you are #and that isn’t possible for everyone but it doesn’t mean you don’t deserve to take up space #ok that’s it for real

[ride-a-dromedary]

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#i am still extremely frustrated about that impending ultimatum exchange #not only just how it does a massive character disservice to both individuals involved #but honestly because this *should not be* a character based ultimatum - it was fans who requested this be possible #and pushed and pushed and pushed until l*rian relented #but then it reframes it as a 'one of these individuals is being unreasonable out of the blue' so it makes them look like a bad guy #instead of an even keeled conversation where then the player's choice seems like *they* made the choice to keep one or the other #which it *should* be solely the player making that choice and any blame be put on them #idk if i'm getting at what i want to be getting at but i am legitimately wary every time a new patch is released now #anyway m has been in the game since day one idk how ya'll are getting so mad at h for 'taking away development time' #if they didn't spend time developing her when they had her since the beginning i think you should be mad at l*rian for fumbling the bag #jibber jabber blabber bluff #l*rian continuing to prove they cannot adequately put their foot down and then people complaining that the implementation #of a feature that *wasn't meant to be there in the first place* #is buggy and half assed my beloathed #also @ the people i continuously see like fuck man don't recruit him ya'll acting like he holds a gun to your head and demands to go with u

[rawliverandgoronspice]

rapid-fire posts as I unpack post-TotK Thoughts, but: the vibe would have been quite different if the "Destroy Ganondorf" quest would have been called "Kill Ganondorf" instead :)

#totk #totk spoilers #totk critical #ganondorf #I know it's a callback to Destroy Ganon #but it kind of... highlights how different these two entities are in a roundabout way #like sure they're both demonic and unreasonable #but one of them is a dude that had like #a social life at some point #at the very least #it slots right into the whole deshumanization thing #which is the angle they ran with without looking back once #but can you imagine a more nuanced game? #where this is your final quest and you're MEANT to feel... a little weird about it? #even though you must do it? #perhaps it would have been a pegi issue #but still

[radiation]

I liked about half of Tunic. very pretty and had great level design, but the fighting mechanics were not consistent enough for the level of precision it demanded of the player. exploration was incredibly well done but the combat TO ME was something I just suffered through to enjoy the rest of the game. and then when I got to the boss rush I just uninstalled it. the combat felt so bad to play that when it felt like the developer was saying "here, you love this right? great news, you get way more of My Awesome Combat System" it felt insulting.

i think a lot of it is banking on Zelda nostalgia, but I've never played a Zelda game and I was coming at it through the lens of "this is an isometric soulslike" instead of "this is a challenging zelda-like" which made me have a bad time. i also did not think the gameplay meshed with the plot very much, for a game that was touted as "just like outer wilds."

also to be fair, I didn't engage with any of the meta-puzzles, because to me there weren't enough lore tidbits or hints of things lurking beneath the surface to make it seem worthwhile. it was just for the completionists or language nerds (laudatory).

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#Ohhh interesting. I feel similarly in that I loved about 3/4ths of tunic but ultimately took issue with the execution of the final puzzles #They are meant to be very difficult but when a hard puzzle that feels integral to the game starts feeling like #Not only terribly unreasonable to solve but unreasonable in that ‘ARG-y’ kinda way — you’ve kinda lost me #I get that’s the intention but I personally don’t see the fun in it. Even just trying to solve PART of the endgame puzzle myself #Was like. impossible. Like actually badly designed and just left me really unsatisfied #I was actually mostly reallh satisfied with the combat so I’m interested to hear you say that #But I also did have to look up guides on how to beat some bosses LOL. Boss rush was annoying #I also have no Zelda nostalgia but i loved it because it felt exactly like playing an untranslated Japanese game and only knowing katakana #And recreating thr excitement you get by being able to piece simple things together over time in an unintended backward order #IDK … I am taking up so much of the tags but I like ur thoughts on it. Feels parallel to my chunk of criticism but in a different direction

[hundredowls]

silly oc doodle..... ballroom yuri

#ocs #ok so im gonna ramble/complain in the tags for a bit bc i love to complain its mostly not even gonna be relevant to the ocs but anyway ok #yknow that diagram abt art skills thats like ability to see/ability to draw #im at the BAD PART OF IT RN #i wanna draw fanart so bad but then i get annoyed bc the fanart doesnt look as good as the source material GHRG which is a totally #unreasonable thing to think bc source material is drawn by Professionals but you know how it is. Art Hard etc etc complain etc etc #need to do more studies etc etc #i wanna be able to draw really good so i can draw the things i love!!!!! even if its hard and tedious i wanna practise!!!! i love art!!!!!! #dont think about whats easy think about whats fun - bokuto koutarou etc #anyway everyday i am sad i have to sit in front of a desk for 8 hours instead of practising drawing :( i wanna table at a con this year.... #but is there even time..... #ANYWAY this is somewhat relevant bc in an effort to be less hard on myself mayhaps i will try draw more oc things so i dont feel pressure #(self imposed) #to make it perfect kjskjkd #or at least not as much #and hopefully get over my brain's tendency to Compare Everything #i have like 3 vague sets of ocs (one less vague than the others ive posted one of the characters from that on my main art blog before sjdks #these two are from the next less vague set there is a plot premise and some side characters too. shdks #i thought abt them a couple months ago but then i watched strictly ballroom w sophie n i was reminded of them again #anyway im not good at coming up w fully fleshed out stories i just like to doodle ppl n think of random connected scenarios sometimes sdjk #i did a mini free online life drawing course in the break n i tried to apply what i learnt here.... i will keep practising when i can..... #well. if u read all the way to the end. hello :) KJASKA #im going to shower....

[biollyante]

if you put on a mask to be loved, they will love the mask, not you

if you put on a mask to be loved, the mask will drain you

if you put on a mask to be loved, the mask will ingrain itself into your identity forever, becoming part of you

if you don't put on a mask to be loved, would nobody love you?

#venting #masking #autism #neurodivergent #man i hate that i've learned all these social rules. that i control my face and posture to be perfectly amiable. #i'm tired of bending my words to be supportive #being dishonest about how little i care or what i'm going through #i hate how i can't even tell what i feel/want/like/hate. that i've set this high tolerance for pain and bullshit and i cant back down #one of the things i hate most is that i look down on people who can't do what i do. but also i dont want anyone to ever have to do this! #logically: nobody deserves to have to do this shit! #emotionally: you're all fools and i hate/envy/was once you! #but that hatred is unreasonable and founded in pain. it hurts me to hate all the time #i don't want to hate so much #i have a little or a lot of hatred for everything in the universe