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[agerefandom]

Top 10: Tumblr vs. AO3

Just felt like doing some statistics with my work!! Comparing AO3 popular fics vs. tumblr popular fics and seeing what I found out: thought other people might be interested as well! Ramblings about patterns and causes are under the ‘read more’ :P 

AO3 (by kudos): 

Class Outing: BNHA, regressor!Izuku (1247 kudos) 

Only Heaven I’ll Be Sent To: Resident Evil, regressor!reader, caregiver!Lady Dimitrescu (759 kudos) 

Cold Palms, Warm Heart: Twilight, regressor!reader, caregivers!Alice and Jasper (573 kudos) 

The Doctor’s Office: Twilight, regressor!reader, caregiver!Carlisle (403 kudos) 

Kitchen Friends: Marvel, regressor!reader, caregiver!Steve and Bucky (336 kudos) 

Sound and Silence: BNHA, regressor!Aizawa, cg!Hizashi (321 kudos)

Restrained: Death Note, regressor!Light, caregiver!L (309 kudos)

A Story For Sans: regressor!Sans, caregiver!Papyrus (278 kudos) 

Home Sweet Home: caregivers!Carlisle and Esme, regressor!Cullens (273 kudos) 

To Weather The Storm: caregiver!Tamaki, regressor!Haruhi (238 kudos) 

Tumblr (fics only): 

Class Outing (167 notes) 

Cold Palms, Warm Heart (159 notes)

The Playtime Solution: Sanders Sides, regressor!Logan (159 notes)

The Doctor’s Office (150 notes) 

Sugary Sweet: Twilight, regressor!reader, cg!Jasper and Alice (150 notes) 

Kitchen Friends (125 notes) 

Only Heaven I’ll Be Sent To (116 notes)

What Family Is: Harry Potter, regressor!reader, cg!Remus and Sirius (116 notes) 

Just Plane Overwhelmed: Sanders Sides, regressor!Virgil (111 notes) 

Golden Slumbers: Harry Potter, regressor!reader and Harry, cg!Fred (110 notes) 

Overall Tumblr Top 10:

Caregiver Valerie Frizzle headcanons & moodboard (409 notes)

Writing Prompts 2019 / 2022 (290/365 notes)

Caregivers Tiana and Naveen headcanons (244 notes)

Caregiver Jack Skellington moodboard (229 notes)

Caregiver Morticia Addams moodboard (224 notes)

Regressor Wybie Moodboard (205 notes)

Caregiver Bruno Madrigal headcanons (201 notes)

Caregiver Jack Skellington headcanons (191 notes)

Caregivers Sundrop and Moondrop headcanons (189 notes)

Caregiver Belle headcanons (182 notes)

This was really interesting!! 

Re: overall tumblr top 10: I think it’s funny that my throwaway moodboards are often some of the most popular content on my blog. Things I’m just like ‘ooh I gotta make this’ are mixed in with requests, I think that’s interesting! Ms. Frizzle just blowing away the competition, that’s amazing and I love it. Nothing is even close to how popular she is, and she deserves it. Jack Skellington coming onto the list twice? Come through king, I would love to write a full fic in Halloweentown sometime. 

Generally, the more ‘alternative’ characters seem to get a lot more attention on my blog: The Pumpkin King, Morticia, Wybie, Sundrop and Moondrop... Tiana and Naveen really snuck up there though! 

Moving onto the more direct fic comparison: 

....well this made me realize that I never published my Sanders Sides fics from this blog on AO3, whoops 

Setting that aside, fics with angst and plot tend to do better on AO3, while fluffy stories do better on tumblr: Sugary Sweet doesn’t even hit my top 10 on AO3 and it’s one of the fluffiest fics I’ve ever written, coming in at #5 on the tumblr list 

On the other hand, Only Heaven I’ll Be Sent To is by far one of my best performing fics on AO3, but comes in at number 6 (tied with another fic) on tumblr, probably because it features a lot of action and gore alongside the fluffy agere elements, same for Restrained showing up on the AO3 top but not tumblr’s. 

My Harry Potter fics do way better on tumblr, which is interesting? Maybe Harry Potter fans are still reading their fics on independent forums? Or Harry Potter folks on AO3 don’t cross over much with the agere crowd. (Or maybe they’re just overloaded with /reader fics) I haven’t been actually into the HP community since around 2011 so I’m not sure what’s up there. 

Big shoutout to Class Outing for dominating the top of both lists: BNHA is such a big fandom that it makes sense, and I wrote that fic on @agere-fandom-time, which I think got more interaction than this blog: it seems like people are more comfortable interacting with a group-run blog, rather than an individual writer. Or maybe that’s a natural consequence of more writers putting out more consistent content, letting the blog get bigger. I’m not sure! Either way, even if I’m not into BNHA anymore, I feel like it’s a good piece of my writing, so I’m happy for it to be my top spot. 

#how do i tag this lol #hark i say nothing #stella babbles in statistics #ao3 stats are one of my hobbies #i love to compare years and fandoms and ships and tags #i have like over a hundred graphs on my computer for different comparisons #i've considered making a sideblog for it #but i can also just ramble to my partner #like a person with a conspiracy board #it's great #links.... so many links

[sweetest-honeybee]

He’s a Friend™️

#mothman howdy :D #perhaps a cryptid au but I love the idea of frank being uh…what are they called #conspiracy guy? like has a bulletin board to find Bigfoot or sumn #and wears a tinfoil hat bc he believes in aliens #him being the only normal person among a neighborhood of cryptids and creatures is kinda funny tbh 😂 #howdy is especially friendly tho #I think he should be #night time later who or sumn idk #welcome home #welcome home project #howdy pillar

[babacontainsmultitudes]

So it was established in the last episode that Taylor still believes in Santa (tbh I wouldn't be surprised if it's come up prior to this ep too but anyways-) so... Do you think (saint) Nicky been has portalling in every year since the betrayal to sneak in a gift for his son amongst the pile? That Cassandra doesn't even notice because it's just one among the many many presents she herself has bought and wrapped? But every year without fail... Taylor gets one gift that simply says "from: Nick" and well, obviously that has to mean it's from Santa (a conclusion which Nicky expects him to come to, and why he can sign his name at all, though he misses when he could just write "dad"). And one year when he's still quite young, a sleepy little Taylor actually catches Nicky in the act, and Nicky wishes more than anything that he could just *stay*, but instead he only softly tells Taylor to go back to bed, and Taylor thinks that Santa is a lot younger and a bit sadder than he expected, but what's he gonna do- not listen to Santa Claus? So he smiles meekly at the man he does not know to be his father, and hurriedly heads back to his room.

Also yes of course Nicky eats the fucking cookies left out of course he's not gonna pass up on free cookies (which are home-baked to top it off) come on that's a given.

#at my conspiracy board like ''he sees you when you're sleeping... he knows when you're awake- just like Nicky watching Taylor from Hell!'' #dndads #dungeons and daddies #nick foster #I'm sure I mustn't be the only person who's proposed a headcanon to this effect but anyways in light of recent events! #and Taylor asks Nicky what kind of cookies he likes and Nicky says ''oatmeal raisin'' and Taylor says ''gross'' #but insists on putting those ones out next year and every year after that #nicky freeman #taylor swift dndads #highkey knowing Nicky and the dumbass shenanigans he gets wrapped up in he would do something to accidentally become the real santa claus #like he shows up to the wrong house one year and gets spotted #so then in his mind he has to show up to *both* houses next year #but then the kid from the other house tells all their friends #and what is he gonna do- not get gifts for all of them too? that wouldn't be fair. #you see where I'm going with this? #dndads holiday special starring Nicky in the tale of how he became saint nick #I won't lie to you folks the Closes and Swifts are basically the only reason I care at all about this holiday haha #(though happy holidays to all of you celebrating- whatever you're celebrating!) #''but you're hosting a holiday event!'' YEAH AND LOOK WHO IT'S FOR LOL #(back at my conspiracy board) santa... is just an anagram for satan... it all makes sense!

[kingstealer]

aabria going, "as aimee who maybe wants to have a friend sit by you soon" is going to haunt me for the next two weeks. i can already tell.

#critical role #critical role campaign 3 #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #what does that MEAN. who else do they have sitting in the back room pretending they don't exist. who now has to come back later #WHAT IF ITS ZERXUS #(guy who only knows one fictional character voice) #my points to back this up are: 1. apparently we're doing a betrayer god thing so probably would be a betrayer god pc showing up #2. he's the only other champion of a betrayer god pc we know. there could ofc be a new one but i'm insane like that #would it probably actually be a spider queen person? oh yeah probably. but WHAT IF #of all the episodes for me to pick up cr again (god i hope not i need to have a sleep schedule) after having watched calamity recently #i was so ready to go to bed like an hour later than usual and then aabria said 'you maybe want someone with you on your side of the table?' #and i live watching this yt stream now. or rather. in 2 weeks #thanks for coming to my ted talk. i am the conspiracy board meme

[favvn]

Putting under a read more because I keep making too long of posts about Star Trek TOS. But Amok Time has me reflecting on the idea of belonging/a place to be for Kirk and Spock. (Also, this is a mess. I need to edit this better into a more coherent and concise point.)

In The City on the Edge of Forever, Edith Keeler confronts Kirk and Spock and tells them, "You know as well as I do how out of place you two are around here." It's straight observation: Spock isn't human, and they both have knowledge that is impossible for them to have in the 1930s.

In Amok Time, T'Pau tells Kirk, "Do not interfere, Kirk. Keep thy place." Kirk was voicing his concern about Spock fighting another champion and dying as a result of an uneven match against someone who doesn't care for Spock's life (mistakenly believing that Spock's fever correlates to physical weakness as happens in humans). While he has been told twice at this point that the choice to stay and fight is his to make, T'Pau still indirectly urges him to reject taking part in the ceremony, even if it is only to aid Spock's safety and well-being. In doing so, she recalls Kirk's outsider status. This is not his place as a human, even if such concerns are to be expected of Kirk as a human. If it wasn't for Spock pledging on his behalf and naming him friend, Kirk would've been back on the Enterprise had T'Pau and Vulcan tradition had their say. But Spock's insistence on the right to have his friends at the ceremony and his explicit designation of Kirk and McCoy as his friends puts Kirk in a grey area between Vulcan tradition and established relationship.

Back to The City on the Edge of Forever, Spock, of course, asks the question, "Where would you estimate we belong, Miss Keeler?"

Edith responds, "You? At his side as if you've always been there and always will."

This dialogue is entirely directed at Spock despite his phrasing of "we" rather than "I." And given Joan Collins delivery (is it the dialect she uses? Is it just me? I feel like it's just me), the line sounds vaguely dismissive, making Edith seem as if she is annoyed at Spock for always lurking around Kirk like his shadow, or it's as if she is implying that Spock will never be more than at Kirk's side, as Kirk's Number Two. (In static images you can read whatever infliction into the words, and I will admit, the first time I heard them spoken in-scene, it didn't sound as I had anticipated. Maybe I'm off-base here, but it reminds me of Margaret Sullavan's delivery of the "instead of a heart, a handbag" speech in Shop Around the Corner, a "blend of poetry and meanness," as the film itself calls it.) Regardless, it's telling that a stranger immediately tells Spock that he belongs at the Kirk's side, despite knowing nothing of their relationship as friends and as Captain and First Officer.

Kirk, on the other hand, is told he belongs "in another place." Keeler admits she doesn't know where he belongs or how she knows he doesn't belong, just that he doesn't fit his current circumstances. His place, however, is not dependent on Spock, at least according to Keeler (which is a shame given the impact of repetition, bookend phrasing to call attention, etc.). My point being that, according to Edith Keeler's observation, Spock's place is dependent on Kirk but Kirk's place is dependent on no one. It's sadly one-sided when viewed like this but it puts more focus on Kirk's place being more nebulous.

Back to Spock. In a previous episode, This Side of Paradise, Spock falls under the plant spores' influence and finds himself overcome by feelings of happiness, love, and belonging. The spores immediately overcome any resistance he, as an emotion-repressing Vulcan, ought to have had. But Spock is not fully Vulcan. He is also half human, so the implication is that such strong and positive emotions tapped into his human half at the expense of his Vulcan upbringing. And for a character caught between the two opposing extremes--logic versus emotion, other Vulcans call his status into question due to "weak/diluted blood," humans don't accept him because he has chosen to live according to Vulcan principles--there's no wondering why he gives into the spores' influence. (Compared to Kirk, who is too driven by ambition to give in to the spores, despite being ruled by his emotions and having no explicit training to reign in emotional influence. Neat foil there. To say nothing of the security of identity versus uncertainty/shame of identity. Hmm. Wonder what that could also imply.)

It is in this episode that Spock says, "I don't belong anymore," after Kirk breaks the spores' influence on Spock.

Later, Leila realizes Spock is no longer under the spores' influence--"You're no longer with us, are you?"--and tells him, "You can belong again," implying that he only needs the plant spores once more, should he so choose.

Despite having the option to belong again, Spock declines, stating his responsibility to both The Enterprise and to Kirk. He likens it to a self-made purgatory, this adherence to duty at the expense of happiness, much like how his adherence to Vulcan custom is at the expense of his human half. Spock chooses an in-between place--not heaven/paradise or hell itself--a place of work (if not possible suffering), of purification.

Spock's words parallel Kirk's at the end in This Side of Paradise: "Maybe we weren't meant for paradise. Maybe we were meant to fight our way through."

Now, back to Amok Time. Kirk, of course, accepts the challenge. Despite all the times he has been told he can leave. Despite Spock and McCoy both trying to get him out of it. He is not bound to fight much less stay as an outsider to the ceremony and to Vulcan entirely. But he chooses to stay and fight. A man who has no place to turn to beyond where he decides to be, who has shown he doesn't care about Starfleet orders, but will choose to do whatever is necessary for Spock.

#star trek tos #spirk #amok time #the city on the edge of forever #this side of paradise #tos parallels #jim kirk #spock #connecting dots. getting spirk #feeling like the conspiracy board meme as always #as always this started first and foremost as a screencap parallel collection and just... went from there. yeehaw and all that #this was the post tumblr decided to publish early btw. i was Insane (as always) and remade it. wonder if the early posting was A Sign #like “oh shit that crazy person is at it again. mess up their plans and make them contemplate just not bothering to finish it” #trek meta

[tibtew]

*clutching head* rodya and meursault would have such a good dynamic actually

I wonder if rodya would initially see meursault's indifference as like. a simpler version of her own feigned carefreeness and as a deliberate attempt to place himself as an outsider... only to realise that No, he really Is just Like That. and then she gets annoyed because it turns out that people who don't care about anything don't seem to be any fun.

(ofc he does actually care about a lot of things, just not necessarily his grander place in the world lol)

idk. nihilism vs absurdism. fun duo 👍 rodya would find meursault's genuine comfort with being a speck of dust in the universe baffling, while he would probably find her desire to assert her own importance pointless, but they could probably bond over little things like their shared desire to live in the present and appreciation of/indulgence in earthly joys. and meursault would probably listen if rodya wants to rant about anything without asking any uncomfortable questions. I think they could appreciate each other's presence.

#slamming my conspiracy board #listen it's not my fault meursault vibes with literally the entire female cast #rodya enjoyers help me out here please I haven't read crime and punishment am I talking out of my ass #I just think it'd be kind of interesting if like. rodya kills someone for a very specific reason (to assert herself as special) #while meursault kills someone for seemingly no good reason #but because of time place circumstance etc #meursault is the one made out to be the outsider to society #while rodya goes unacknowledged and all her motives backfire #like I'm not saying that meursault has Exactly what rodya wants or anything #but I think he Does possess a level of guiltlessness that she was trying to achieve through her self-confidence #also I find it interesting how pride is like. a big thing for both of them #like they both have excessive belief in themselves and their own abilities. in rodya it manifests as self-confidence or I guess. an ego #while in meursault it's more about. a belief in his own interpretation of the world rather than himself as a person? I hope that makes sens #also they both reject collectivist ideas which is. fun #neither of them perform to what a society would expect from them but for rodya it's an active effort to assert her individuality #while meursault just Doesn't Get societal conventions from the get-go unless they're explained to him #I think they also both tend to project a lot 💀 meursault expects his own indifference from others while rodya projects her own #experiences onto others' and makes assumptions based on that before knowing the full details #txt #limbus company #I feel too embarrassed to add more specific tags ngl 💀 💀 💀 #lcb meursault #lcb rodion #lcb rodya #nvm. feelings of cringe are for Losers I am Strong

[solarmorrigan]

Guys I can’t stop thinking about Steve with OCD

(The following deals heavily with anxiety and with themes of OCD, so please keep that in mind and skip this one if you’re worried that’ll trigger your own anxiety <3)

At first, it’s manageable. Hardly worth thinking about.

Steve's always taken pride in his appearance; no shame in wanting to look good. It's just a part of his routine: picking the right outfit, making sure everything is clean and in good condition, making sure his hair is just right. He even has a set routine specifically for doing his hair – specific products, a specific number of spritzes with the hairspray, a specific look.

And if it's not just right, he might have to redo it, yeah – it just... feels weird if he gets it wrong. He spends the whole day feeling off. Anxious. Sort of itching under his skin, for reasons he really can't articulate. It's just– it has to be right, that's all

(He hadn’t thought anyone noticed that his morning routine made him perpetually late—and even later when he messed something up and had to redo it—until Robin mentions Mrs. Click’s class the summer after he’s graduated.)

It doesn't start becoming a hindrance until after his first meeting with the demogorgon.

Before that, it had been okay if his morning routine didn't go just right. It wasn’t great, and he hadn't liked it, but he could get on with his day. After that encounter, though – it gets harder.

Everything else seems totally out of control, but his appearance? He can do that. He can control that, but it needs to be just right. If he gets it wrong, he needs to start over. If he doesn't have the time, it throws him off entirely.

He finds himself nearly in tears one morning as he drives to pick Nancy up, running horribly behind because his alarm hadn't gone off and he hadn't had the time to shower and do his hair properly, he hadn't grabbed anything to eat, he hadn’t done anything right, but he couldn't stop to do it all because he’s supposed to get Nancy to school, and– and–

He berates himself for having become this weak, emotional mess. What the fuck is his problem?

He's pretty sure he manages to get his head on straight by the time Nancy gets into the car, giving him a look that’s equal parts irritation and curiosity over why he’s kept her waiting.

He doesn’t offer an explanation.

And it's normal that he'd want his house to be clean, right? After getting into trouble with his parents for that party (after that party went so horribly wrong, resulting in Barb's death), he'd been on thin ice for a while. They’d wanted to come back to a perfect house. Nothing out of place, no messes, no evidence that Steve had had a party (or that he'd had friends over, or—god forbid—enjoyed himself in any way while they were gone). So Steve develops a routine for that, too.

It feels natural: make sure things are done a certain way in a certain order, because he tends to forget things otherwise, and make sure it's all done right.

(And if it's not right, just do it again. Do it over again. Make sure it's done in the right order, make sure it's done right. Do it again.)

This maybe results in being late to a few dates, or some lost sleep, or some homework ignored, but whatever. Steve's got it under control.

Subsequent meetings with the Upside Down just seem to make things worse

He's an athlete (or he had been, anyway), and athletes can be superstitious, right? They have little rituals for good luck. Nothing weird about that. Nothing weird about Steve needing to tap the roof of his car three times before getting in. He's driving kids around now, he needs to make sure they stay safe, and tapping the roof of the car– it's– Steve can't really explain it, it just has to be done, so they don't get into any kind of crash. It's not weird, and he can stop doing it if he really wants to, he just doesn't want to.

(He doesn't want to because the few times he’d tried driving without doing it, he'd been so fucking anxious he'd nearly crashed just because he'd been so jumpy about other people on the road. But that's his business.)

His list of chores around the house grows, even though his parents no longer comment on the state of things (or really talk to him much at all). It's just that he needs it all to be right. Things need to be in the right places, things need to be organized properly, so Steve knows where everything is just in case he or anyone else needs it.

(This isn't to say that it always makes sense. A box of cereal lives exclusively on the counter, rather than in the pantry, because that's where the box of cereal needs to be. Steve can't put it away because it belongs on the counter. If he eats it all, he makes sure he already has another to replace it. He'd almost yelled at Dustin once for putting the box back in the pantry after using it, because it doesn't go in the pantry, it goes on the fucking counter, that's just where it goes.)

He snaps at Robin once or twice when she tries to take over any of his usual closing duties at Scoops Ahoy, which definitely doesn't endear him to her, even if he doesn't really mean to do it, it's just that it's what he usually does, and he needs to make sure it's done right. He's not doubting her ability, he just... needs to make sure for himself.

(By the time they hit Family Video together, Robin is used to it. She leaves him to whatever closing duties he's decided are his and even reminds him sometimes where he is in his routine when he spaces out or has trouble thinking straight through a headache, saving him the trouble of having to restart to make sure it's all done. Sometimes he restarts anyway, because he needs to be sure, but he appreciates that she pays attention.)

There are nights when he can't sleep, when he needs to make sure everyone is alright, when he'll get into his car and make a circuit around town, driving past everyone's house just to make sure nothing is amiss.

There are bad nights when he needs to make the circuit three times: the first time to check, the second time to be sure he hadn't missed anything the first time, and the third time to make sure the first two times weren't a fluke. He taps the roof of his car when he gets in, and now he does it three times when he gets out – can't hurt to be careful, right?

But it isn't a problem. None of this is a problem, it's just the way Steve deals with things. It's not a problem, it's not a problem, it's not a problem. Not at all.

It’s not a problem until he's meant to be meeting Robin and Eddie for a movie, when he's made it halfway down the street before wondering if he'd checked that the stove was off.

He's pretty sure he had, but what if he hadn't? He'd used it this morning to make breakfast. It might still be on. He has to check.

He pops a U-turn and heads back home. He'll just check the stove real quick and then get going.

Except once he's back in the house, he has to check everything else before he can leave. Check the stove, check that his hair dryer is unplugged, check that there’s a light on in every room (lights are important, lights are a warning, and Steve cannot come back to a dark house), check that all the windows are locked, check the back door, check that the front door is locked properly, check that his bat is in the trunk. Tap the roof of the car, start it up, pull out of the driveway – is the hair dryer unplugged?

He's pretty sure it is, he knows he checked it, but had he really been paying attention? Is he sure?

He's back in the driveway, back in the house, before he's even really conscious of making the decision.

Check the stove, check the hair dryer, check the lights, check the windows, check the back door, check the front door – had he done all that in the right order? If he hadn't, he might have forgotten to do part of it. He'd better just–

Robin and Eddie find him sitting on the kitchen floor over an hour later, after he hadn't shown up, after he hadn't answered their calls (he'd been too busy checking things around the house to answer the phone).

He can't quite breathe right and he's not sure if he should be laughing or crying because he's realized that he can't leave the house. He can't leave, because he might have forgotten something, something might be out of place, and then something bad might happen. Bad things have happened already, and if more were to happen because of him—because he'd failed a step, failed to get everything right—he wouldn't be able to stand it.

So it's... a bit of a problem.

#steve harrington #stranger things #listen I saw some people headcanon him with OCD and at first I was like 'nah' #but the more I thought about it the more my brain became a red string conspiracy board #connecting steve's personality traits and behavior to OCD traits and behavior #and then I spewed 1500 words of it at my friend and now here we are #anyway don't worry the party's gonna do some reading and they're gonna get steve help #he'll be okay #probably they're gonna try to menace owens into sending a good psychiatrist to the house #until steve feels like he can leave and go to an office #'you helped break steve you're gonna help fix him' #solar wrote

[suntails]

Hiya!

I saw your SilRuggie post and I feel you on the "Silver and his many boyfriends" part.

Idk what it is about Silver but he's so... Shippable?

Like I ship SilVil, KalimSil and JadeSil which are kinda popular. But it's also stuff like RidSil and LeoSil (oh so much brainrot currently about LeoSil,) Which aren't as popular.

He's probably my most shipped character like... EVER.

(I may have gotten some ship names wrong)

IT’S THE CHEMISTRY IT’S THE WAY HE HAS CHEMISTRY WITH SO SOSOSO MUCH OF THE CAST!!! he’s so deeply just…good, and he cares so earnestly, and he has examples of interactions with almost fuckgng everyone at this point. like i can understand why someone would ship just abt any silver ship, i GET it, bc theres so much potential. i think i have like…3? that im neutral on? maybe?

also hearing u associate silvil with the kinda popular ones, im fuckign weak at the knees. that is incorrect but im pretending ur right bc it makes me oh so happy

#ask #nervouslywaitingforlife #its the way i like all of em. i love him he deserves love #silvil i have a manifesto abt #silkali i think they are best friends in LOVE with each other but specifically as friends. not that they love each other tho. theyre IN LOVE #does that make sense. IN LOVE as FRIENDS. IN LOVE. theyre married #jadesil gives me ‘theyll take rugged nature walks together’ and jade is so refreshed to have someone so sincere and sweet in his life #someone u can read like a book someone who will earnestly appreciate u. silver will love jades dedication and isnt put off by him like most #bc he sees ppl for the good in them. wipes a tear #silrid i feel so strongly abt. i firmly believe theyd be very sweet and good to each other. horse girls. riddle picked sil specifically for #his master chef partner. he chose him intentionally. silver acknowledges and appreciated riddles dedication and work ethic and talks highly #of him. in book6 ch6 iirc thats when riddle gets taken by styx and the way silver SHOUTS in worried fear. he LOVES him #i do think theyd get divorced but not in a funnt leovil way in a sad ‘things just arent working despite us loving each other’ way. adult yk? #leosil should take naps together. those are my thoughts. i want ruggie and sebek to find them passed tf out in the gardens on a reg basis #and this only scratches the surface of dear catríonas thoughts on sil ships. u didnt even mention silsebe and thats his most popular ship #i like him w ruggie too and jack and jamil and and and and AGGHHH dies #ADDING TO MY TAGS. FORGOT TO MENTION SILIDIA TOO. OH MY GOD THE FUCKING POTENTIAL AAAAAAGGHHHH take me off the stage i could ramble forever #me violently pointinh to my conspiracy board and detailing his chemistry with every single person in the cast

[cakemoney]

i realize this is in fact a very nice problem to have but what do i do when i receive an unexpected birthday cake delivery and it does not say who sent it ksmldkmfalksm

#laughs awkwardly #head in hands. i've already asked one wrong person and they were like ???? #me with a conspiracy board of clues going like. okay point in favor: this bakery is especially liked by people in my firm #counterpoint: why the fuck would they send this #and also just like btw. being really loved by your boss is an extremely stressful thing when you are trying to quit AMKSLMDF

[silentspectres]

currently taking -1hp psychic damage from hyperfixation

#okay to reblog #i fully did this to myself i just didnt realize how thoroughly i've painted myself into a corner #i started a durge playthrough of bg3 but since i had have two saves (mercury my solo + shrike who is co-op) #i decided i would use an existing oc i've written for for 13 years #seems logical - i already have his personality and a basic idea of how he'd deal with the durge's tendencies #since in his own canon he struggles in a similar way of not totally being in control of his actions #and has become a puppet to a being that wants to steal his mind to cause discord + strife #and he can easily be slotted into a warlock since in his own canon he made an 'agreement' with #well basically one of the gods of the land for protection #also part of my choice to use him in my third playthrough was pettiness for astarion also having curly white hair #because they unfortunately look similar and i have to live with that #but yknow whatever i was like this is a low commitment playthrough just to explore the durge storyline #and it's easier to use Silent here since his own existing story already has keynotes that would probably overlap #BUT THE PROBLEM IS #IM DRIVING MYSELF INSANE #i need locked in a room with a giant conspiracy board #i cant even share my thoughts because i'd have to first explain who Silent is and what his deal is in canon #and then from there I'd be able to talk about the parallels or the way some of the stuff that's happened in bg3 has already fucked him up #like what was i honestly expecting when i made this choice #i don't know how or why i Thought using one of my longest existing ocs would mean i could get through this playthrough low effort #i have cursed myself to be thinking about it x2 as often because it's both the game im obsessed with and my main mascot Silent #and the worst part is i keep violently swinging from thinking about Silent in bg3 to Silent just In General #so I simultaneously need to see and do things with him in this new setting while dying to tell everyone about him in his natural setting #i'm dying #silent speaks #yes i'm called Silent and he's also called Silent #no he's not a persona/self insert it's like a branding thing

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

The I feel like she sees me line being said to Eddie who is the person that truly sees Buck for all that he is. Are we supposed to take this line at face value which would indicate piss poor writing because they needed to rush to a horrible ending or do we take it as Buck being an unreliable narrator? What was the audience supposed to interpret from Buck saying that, were we truly supposed to believe him or we supposed to be pissed at Buck for saying this to the one person that truly sees Buck?

Good morning to me, I guess.

I'm assuming you haven't really seen people's reactions in the fandom on tumblr because I feel like I saw this said in quite a few posts going around, but you are absolutely not supposed to take this line at face value. I'm surprised that people think you should. 9-1-1 has from the beginning had a habit of turning friendships into romantic relationships (Bathena and Madney) and taking their time with these things rather than having an instalove situation. Even Karen and Hen, who meet when they're set up on a date together, don't instantly fall in love. I do not think they would set Eddie or Buck up for an endgame relationship with a woman by having them date that woman immediately, even if they didn't plan to make Buddie canon.

Buck is clearly struggling post-death. He's lost and once again looking for the answer from a romantic partner. He did a lot of growth in regards to his family relationships this season but not his romantic ones. Remember, his couch ended up destroyed and he asked his latest girlfriend to pick the new one out for him. Again. He's still not picking his own damn couch. After being unable to sleep on the one his mom gave him but passed out instantly on Eddie's where he ran to feel safe.

If people think this is all, somehow, an accident or the writers are doing this without knowing what they're doing, then I can't help you. Do you also think the symbolism I put into my fanfics are a total accident? Do you guys think I picked the name of the poem "Fuchsia Emerald Alizarin Rose" just because the colors are fun and they accidentally spell out F.E.A.R. or do you think maybe I did that absolutely 100% on purpose and was waiting for someone to realize?

Buck saying that to Eddie is 100% supposed to make the audience raise their eyebrows. Especially when we see Eddie's reaction. He's confused and he's hurt and he's annoyed. Eddie then spends his next few lines showing Buck (and us) that he sees Buck. Buck misses it, it goes right over his head, but the audience is shown that Buck is wrong and Eddie sees him.

I think there was a lot of internal stuff going on behind the scenes way high up the ladder that meant Buddie didn't happen this season. No, I don't mean that in a tinhatting way, I just mean that they knew Fox wouldn't renew them, they didn't know if they'd get picked up somewhere else, Fox hasn't promoted or cared about this show the way it has its other shows in a while, and I think it's pretty clear there was shuffling and changes going on with 6B. So I think things had to be put off. Similar to the pandemic, where I genuinely wonder what kind of season four we would've gotten if we'd had the full 18 episodes and hadn't had to work around Covid. I think that when we know there was a big shift going on behind the scenes, we need to have some grace and patience in how that will effect the story that's told on screen.

But I think that this default to "everything good we see on our screens is an accident and the writers are making shitty choices" is a horrible bad faith argument, and it's exhausting. Aren't you exhausted? I'm exhausted. Fandom shouldn't treat the writing and production team like their enemies any more than the writing and production team should treat the fans like their enemies in some kind of war they have to win (looking at you, GoT showrunners).

We are supposed to be annoyed that Buck is missing the point. We are supposed to see Buck's yearning to be a husband and a father, and how he's missing what's right in front of him. We are supposed to put two and two together and see that Eddie was hurt by Buck's words, that Eddie sees Buck, that Eddie is Buck's safe place, and that Eddie in that moment decided he might not have a chance with Buck and needs to move on, because previously we saw Eddie admit he wants romance again but he doesn't want to go out on dates, we saw his aunt say she met her husband through work, we saw him say 'we have time' and then we saw him immediately after Buck tells him about this new girl who "sees him" flee to visit his mother and then immediately actually try dating. On a meta level this is also because Eddie needs confidence in himself as a romantic partner and needs some more experience under his belt before he's ready to take the plunge with Buck, but in Eddie's mind, I think it's pretty clear he feels Buck will never want him back and he's trying to find the love he wants somewhere else, even if his heart is still Buck's.

So that's what I think. I think it's not explicitly spelled out for a few reasons, but frankly if one of them was a woman we wouldn't need it explicitly spelled out and personally I kinda like that it's not. Something that annoys me with M/F pairings is the constant "we all know you two like each other" talks from third parties that half the time aren't about the characters but are about the audience, to either tell the audience SEE THEY LIKE EACH OTHER THAT'S WHAT THIS IS ABOUT or to give the audience some fanservice while the characters aren't ready to get together. I don't need to be pandered to that way, thank you, so I'm a fan of the slightly more subtle approach that I, personally, see going on with Buddie.

If you or anyone else disagrees with me and feels it was just "piss poor writing" then that's entirely your right. I'd just appreciate it if people who feel that way would stop watching the show, and stop putting their complaints into the inboxes of people who clearly do enjoy the show.

TL;DR - You answered your own question, Buck is an unreliable narrator (and always has been) and we are supposed to be frustrated he said this to Eddie who has proven time and again (and does so in that very scene) that he sees Buck.

#mads answers things #911 meta #I'd be a lot more open to talking about 6B and the writing #if I felt people understood how much things were clearly going on BTS #and that affected what happened on our screens #and if people were acting in good faith and trusting the writers #I agree that all the fun meta and speculation can become a bit uh #red-string-board for sure #I've seen and even playfully reblogged stuff that I felt was stretching it a bit #but I don't think it's conspiracy thinking or anything of that nature #to assume the writers are able to see what they're putting up on our screens #or that everything good about Buddie is on purpose instead of some happy accident #or that the writers wouldn't do all this stuff if they didn't have the intention of making Buddie canon #because honestly this sort of stuff going on with Buddie I have only seen in two other situations #1. a Xena type situation where the writers could not make it canon but wanted to so did everything else they could get away with #or 2. there was a schism among the powers that be and some or most of the BTS team wanted it but there were others #who did not and so there's a BTS tug of war going on #personally the 911 team seems really united so I don't think it's 2 and I doubt it's 1 but if it is 1 I think the move to ABC will fix that #I think it's more likely it's not 1 or 2 but BTS issues affecting various storylines and writing #(for example when was the last time Athena got a real character arc that lasted a full season like everyone else?) #(when was the last time Athena had genuine growth?) #(I feel like she's mostly the same person she was in season one compared to everyone else's leaps and bounds) #(and that's simply because Angela has been insanely busy filming in other places so she might be in every episode) #(but they can't usually make her a big FOCUS of a season because she hasn't been available) #but I would really like people to presume that maybe just maybe #the people whose careers it is to tell these stories know how to tell these stories #and that not everything we are shown or told by characters should be taken at face value #and that the writers want the audience to do the math themselves #without having to spell everything out constantly #anyway I fucking hate my job and I'm not sleeping well and I'm fucking exhausted so I'm gonna start charging for asks like these

[twilightarcade]

I love horror because it's such a great exploration on things. What better way to highlight what's there is to fear then to show then in their most extreme degree?

#wordstag #also its scary that's pretty fun #diddidmnt wsnt to make another post ablrut hospitaals but thinking about those bitches lately . #Like I made a post going oh whatevrwhayever horror in the mundane but you gotta highlight that horror somehow. Make it known that there's #horror to be found by showing the horror. How else is one to know? #[average person] probably doesn't look at a hospital and go wow that's the scariest shit i've ever seen so you gotta fucking make them #anyway completely fucking wild tangent science in fiction is so silly i read that book like a week ago ya #it sucked don't read it. Unless u want to idk duuuude #but like . There's a spectrum [laying out conspiracy board] #like. Either it's cold and heartless or it's . Warm and heartful #Then there's the in-between. Kinda sorta. More of an absence of emotional sway. #not to discount the guys that are just scared as fuck the whole time I think they should get a mention too #then there's the religion spectrum it's either religious as fuck completely divorced from religion or anti religion #then... there's like the different sects but that's less of a spectrum by nature. It's like their cutie marks #obligatory realism scale.... i think that's about it #WHAT THE FUCK WERE THEY ON ABKUT WITH THIS ONE !? #I ddont know what book that is. I'll need 2 go though books I've read

[raayllum]

They are Laughing at me. 

Even the way Bait loves something that should be destructive to him, the way we don’t want both him and Rayla in the water, the way the boys / Callum save both of them with magic, the fact we’re seeing angler-fish inspired creatures in the S4 teaser trailer with Bait (accidentally) causing a problem. Bait’s promo picture on the official website being him with the cube

#like listen they'd be insane enough for this #cube hostage exchange theory #INSANE #s1 #1x05 #me putting another cork in my conspiracy board #like listen sometimes my connections are very on brand / supported i think #and other times i will look like a crazy person until if/when shit gets confirmed #and i have accepted that's my lot in life #rayllum #arc 1

[cannibalisticskittles]

there's a new nancy drew game in development and i'm not smart enough or invested enough to piece together any of the clues but i loooooove seeing the nancy drew board lose their minds over it

#like hell yes find those clues #use your knowledge of morse code to detect a message in the symbol HER interactive released #make your conspiracy clue boards #its the best #also it was first hinted at on april 1st and after so long of HER interactive doing jack shit #a lot of people were excited but also wary that it was an april fools joke #especially since the general consensus of the last game is that it fucking sucks lmao #(at least in comparison to other games. others say it's fine on its own it just made some weird changes to standard game features) #i wouldn't know personally; i havent finished a game since clock tower #but i Will One Day #so i like to keep tabs on all this

[agoddamn]

Why isn't there M*A*S*H fanfic where Hawkeye says ayuh

#charles has the Boston brahmin accent so Trapper is technically the only one i can project being a masshole on #that said Trapper is absolutely THEE masshole of all time #Trapper hates the yankees and he treats vehicles like a blood sport #i know this in my soul #conspiracy board voice: you see the complex symbolic relationship between MA and the ancillary New England states is represented by-- #my personal experience of the stereotype is that the other NE states find MA a little obnoxious and self-important #...but they think MA actually isn't wrong in hating NY either so it's a 'he's a dick but he's our dick' sitch

[hirokiyuu]

actually on the topic of vace+family. one of my fave random dialogues he gives during quiet is abt like how back on earth there was a holiday where people would like...... fuck i dont have the cap i was gonna take the line. it’s basically abt xmas and how people would go home and stop fighting and be with family and like...... the way he talks abt it is really interesting. i do genuinely believe theres a part of vace enamored genuinely w/the Nuclear Family setup and i do think it’s tied to how badly abused he was as a child. i think he wants a family genuinely with his whole heart which is sooooo interesting to me

#in all his endings w/nemmie they have kids together #in his Best Ending he has kids and a partner (the guy i conspiracy boarded that one time) #and in that ending card it mentions he wants something to protect essentially #really really curious what it's like getting green vertumna while dating him actually hold on (goes to vergess' askbox) #in general i think vace is so interesting hes so fucked up and awful and yet. and yet #abuse talk in here #personal #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers ? #teenexo stuff