#man I just. i dunno. post over

[kazieka]

chronic pain thots in the tags

#so I went for a walk earlier this week!!! at the park!!! #and nothing hurt #and my last podiatrist visit went really well and the bone is healing well #and yet im like. a little hesitant to talk about it on here #bc i spent a lot of time in my 20s absolutely convinced that this was a chronic pain that was never going away #and was only ever going to get worse and worse #and now it’s just. gone #and while im ecstatic about that i feel kind of?? guilty?? #cause like. there are SO many people who live with chronic pain worse than mine was #and they aren’t going to get the cutting edge surgery that I got #who have pain there is NO magic bullet for #but it’s in my nature to want to share good news after being in so much pain for so long #and I WANT to talk about how there are calluses on my feet I thought everyone had that are suddenly softening and going away #i WANT to ask what I should do with my collection of canes now that I don’t need them to go grocery shopping #but it’s just. like. maybe this is disrespectful to everyone who won’t ever get that relief #man idk. it’s a weird space to be in #to think you were gonna just be in pain and limited mobility forever and then have it fixed over the course of less than 1 calendar year #and now suddenly i don’t ‘qualify’ to be in chronic pain discord servers anymore #man I just. i dunno. post over

[exilepurify]

it’s been four months since December 2022 and I’m still not over the fact that Reigen was apparently so haunted by guilt from that one time in S2E2 where he scolded Mob for eating too many french fries that it showed up in the super emotionally charged eyecatcher montage during the series finale.

I wonder if reigen will ever find the closure he needs to free himself from the poltergeist of regret that obviously follows him around as a result of this incident. the confession incident really had reigen re-evaluating everything from the past three years.

#okay but this is such an ‘emotionally repressed but also sensitive and doting family member’ thing #it’s hard to explain #but my dad is a gruff and rough-n-tumble farmer man #but he’s also very sensitive and doting #so sometimes he will say something kind of blunt or tease me or scold me over something #and it really won’t even be that bad #but he will sit there for the next couple of hours and stew over whether or not he hurt my feelings #like that shit will haunt him until eventually he calls me and apologizes #bc he’s sensitive but also not super in touch with emotions so he’s not sure where the boundaries are sometimes #and by that point i will have mostly forgotten what even happened in the first place #but i always get the post-joke/scolding regret call #especially bc i was always a kid who was very sensitive to rejection #i dunno if this makes any fucking sense #it’s just very ‘emotionally repressed family member’ core #the girls who know will know #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #reigen arataka

[drenched-in-sunlight]

I gotta say I did not expect I’d love Miles this much, enough to look up shit like Secret War and Civil War II reading order, and worse, subject myself to Bendis’ writing of all things (he’s the reason why I stopped being a comic stan 5 years ago. I were a DC/ Superfam fan. You know the beef was BEEFING). Like, my tolerance of that dude now only stops at him being one of Miles’ creators. So that better writers can do the kid justice years later. That’s it.

Like, why is the “r u and Ganke together haha” a whole shtick that comes up multiple times during his run? It’s so annoying and painful to read. Miles can go around being paired up with different girls but the moment THAT question came up you know he gonna be super defensive and >:( about it which, eh, just does not line up with anything else happening in whatever story is happening at the time. At all.

The only silver of light is that Miles actually never says he doesn’t like boys, he just denies ever dating Ganke. Like, he could just say he doesn’t swing that way and the question would have stopped, but he doesn’t. So I know he be running around kissing the punk-est boy in the whole spider verse, ha!

Idk I’m near the end of Bendis’ run and some of it r good but a lot of them put me thru excruciating pain (cringe) so I have to complain about it.

Did I mention I were a DC stan 6 years ago? I were a DC stan 6 years ago so this isn’t even my first rodeo with white dudes writing weirdest things in American comic, but I just can’t believe I got dragged into this again because Miles blinks his bambi eyes on screen and makes me want to rotate him in my brain so I need to know the lore of him in every medium, apparently.

#A POST COMPLAINING ABOUT COMIC? ON THIS BLOG?? AFTER 6 YEARS?? #anyway #it’s so insane like I could actually go haha I know this trope i know these fucked up issues numbering I know how to skim through #an entire event I know how to make sense of these reading order like my comic nerd self is not dead it’s still there #this is all Hobie and MiIes’ fault I tell you #terrible terrible #but at least I get to pull out the i actually read the comics card if anyone ever lords over me about drawing fanarts of the movie #ha! #personal #genuinely think miles’ origin in the comic is so fucked up tho Aaron is a real piece of work there #and by that I mean a gaslighting horrible jerk #still dunno what’s worse being chased around by whole ass adults yelling he’s a mistake #or being in a middle of a civil WAR where again grown ass adults fighting OVER him and making his choice for him #wow dat was crazy #but Miles’ current writer is really good and I also enjoy reading him when he’s with the Champions #also b3ndis’ 2016 run is SO WEIRD like there are dialogues that just make you go #“yep a white man wrote this

[ch1zzie]

Please list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals, followers and all the wonderful people on here! Hope you've been having a wonderful new year so far ^^

Ooo, 5 things that make me happy are

Welcome home

My friends

People who are nice to me

Fun colorful things

And other things that I like to watch/play/draw!

There's many things that make me happy...way to much to list, I'm usually happy a lot! But anyway, I hope your year is going wonderful as well!

Also

EEEEEEE YOUR ART IS SO AWESOME

AAAAA

Julies for u

#welcome home #partycoffin #julie joyful #not just an ask but i didnt notice we were mutuals #what a great day! #or night? it is 1 in the morning #AND I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW NOOO #aw man i wanted to finish my wally looking at the subnautica aurora ship ruined while sitting on the escape pod at night #i started playing subnautica yesterday and cant stop thinking about it #i used to watch dantdm play it over and over #i kept rewatching from beginning to end and that takes days for how many hours he put into those video's or even HOW many video's #why do i want to rewatch them again... #I DUNNO MY BRAINS FILLED WITH SUBNAUTICA #thats a lot of talking its not even related to the post GOODNITE

[redbootsindoriath]

It’s June 12!  Happy International Don’t Stab Your Best Friend Day!  This deserves an off-schedule special post.  I was initially thinking of drawing something with Beleg and Túrin again because that would be the most logical choice, but I thought: what if I didn’t...what if I drew a different human-befriending elf who of course would have heard the story...and wonder...

And yes this was of course inspired by that one post I can’t find right now that talks about Legolas poking Aragorn with a stick from across the campsite to wake him up, just in case.

Transcription:

[Aragorn:] “RRAGH!” [Legolas:] “Oh my gosh my dad was right, humans really are out ... I thought we were friends but you tried to kill me, why ... elves to be friends with humans, every time the elf gets killed, how are we suppo ... never ... to wake you up and you tried to kill me to death ...” [Aragorn:] “Legolas please calm down. ... Legolas wait. ... Legolas that only happened like one time in history.”

#aragorn #legolas #the man the myth the legends #one shiny #my trash #is this actually funny or am i just tired #i'm sorry professor tolkien #heck yeah bromance #beleg and túrin 2.0 #/end classification tags #i might draw beleg and túrin in the next post because they're the duo that the holiday was made for so it would only be fair #but this idea sounded so funny in my head #and i thought why not #also i dunno if anyone else has notices this but like #the detail i give hands i draw has been getting so much lazier over the past year or so #rip all the hours i've spent drawing hands in as much correct detail as i can #it's all for naught #these boneless noodle hands are my life now i guess

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

me after editing the aau prologue for the bajillionth time

#First chapter I changed the opening bc I always thought it felt off/abrupt and wanted to have it be prince pov from the start #I wanna get in his head more ok sue me #Beyond that tho it was just some wording edits #Specifically with the internal dialogue moments I helped them flow more/feel more like thoughts #Also mj gets a bit more of their usual edge/pessimism bc the prologue they always felt a bit too “ówò sad poor smol bean” or whatever #That’s it tho chapter 4 I didn’t change bc it’s peak #Did add some teases to later things tho like snatch senses mjs soul at the end of his chap but doesn’t realize it #Or like I added the Not Now running thing in the earlier chapters bc it was more of a chapter 4 thing so I wanted 2 set it up more so boom #I think that’s all the notable edits ig like I said just description additions the only actual new thing is the opener for chap 1 👍 #Also also I got to include a hc that I have that I neglected to do before but I hc a!prince used plural internal dialogue #Because lol we love dramatic irony in this house #Grace post #this reminds me tho one of these days I should look through heart strings chapter one to look for editing things #Bc I think I did that recently but I don’t remember it much tho #Mostly just when the Hat stuff starts that was the parts I never directly rewrote I just edited them so they feel out of place in my brain #Also I’d wanna edit her dialogue bc it *was* in character (after rereading her diary’s to confirm) but I wanna have her be a bit more snark #Hat is Hard bc i Need the balance of cute little kid and also smug little shit (affectionate) like she is a pain to write man cries #This is just me rambling lol ignore it I just wanted to spam aau thoughts #In other news I made shapes redesigns but I’m on the fence on posting them bc idk if I wanna spoil or not hhhhhhhhh #Nowadays I’m more chill w spoiling things than I used to be #But there are a handful of things I’ve kept shut about (ex being princes name or mjs species stuff etc) #So I’m not sure if this thing with shapes i should keep secret or just post bc I used to spoil it but idk now #Shrugs #maybe I’ll do a poll later I dunno #Ok yapping over byeeeeee

[awkwardpossum0]

Man, I'm trying different fading for funsies and of course my favorite one is the one that took me the longest

#Now guess which one it is #losing my marbles over this #it's like 2am or something #me when I WANT to make comics about my silly aus and thoughts #but dam I can never bring myself to actually do it y'know??? #just snippets that don't connect that well #So then I thought about writing it out #Cuz I did take that creative writing course #I DUNNO MAN #WOULD YOU GUYS EVEN READ IT LMAO CUZ I DRAW STUFF THAT'S HOW I ESTABLISHED MYSELF #I do write stories and fanfics #But I NEVER post any of it

[faragonart]

So it turns out my longer posts (where I make comic-style stories about my character) get blocked from tags entirely...

I guess I can't post comic drabble stuff anymore? @staff why did you set it up like this? Who is gonna be able to see my posts if they're all just blocked from the tags? I can't express myself or my work on here anymore? Do I have to find workarounds now???

This is extremely disheartening...

#ffxiv #tumblr #staff #tumblr staff #art #comic #your site is really getting anti-artist and that makes me sad. #Imma have to move my work somewhere else now #this sucks man. #sorry I don't rant on my art blog often I try to keep it to a minimum but this is really saddening. #I have been setting up a lot of comic drabbles and they all make long posts #Why does tumblr allow longer art posts if they're just gonna block them from the tags? Why is that? I don't get this! #I'm just gonna have to make hybrid posts or something now I guess? #I dunno #I'm extremely depressed from this. #Rant over sorry #go back to your scheduled programming.

[chaotictomtom]

this month's rough i might absolutely need to do commissions

#so scary + i immediately get absolutely dog shite at drawing whenever it's a commission #i also can't open commissions for only a few characters i know i'll be comfortable drawing for commissions cos i know i can draw them okay #cos' that's not really how commissions work yknow #duuuude every other week i have this debate in my head it's awfuuuul #i need the money so bad just too much pressuuuuure auuuug #*augh #could try to push through and finish EVERY sketchbook pdfs + the saw and brba pdfs #and hope anyone will be interested :(((((((((( but that's unlikely from how the bear zine and my 1st pdf sketchbook thingy went #aw man #was thinking abt selling prints but isn't that inprint website starting to fuck artists over. by paying them so so late + #aren't they going into bankruptcy and artists should just not get into it and leave it far behind to not get fucked over more #or am i thinking abt another website #same for redbubble deleted my acc way back when they fucked us over once more #aoouuugh i dunno what to do #don't feel like doing a patreon equivalent on kofi cos i already post tons of my drawings on here it wouldn't rlly be more exclusive content #or whatever. so. i dunno #head in hands.

[lady-vega]

Being a toku fan with only a vague tangential interest in Power Rangers has been wild lately. It's like having loud neighbours who are constantly arguing about the state of their grand plans for garden renovations, while I'm just sat here on my patio with coffee and a biscuit wondering if they're going to bother repairing our one adjoining fence that's getting a bit wobbly.

#I dunno man it's a complex mess over there #but also christ their EP just needs to learn to log off #saying things never seems to go well for him #Vega posts #Power Rangers #Super Sentai

[definitelyimportantpost]

it's been like this for a while now but i have been flipping between "maybe everything will be okay" and "it is a horrible, horrible time to be alive" like. every minute

#posts that are disposable #i don't know what i'm accomplishing by putting this out on my blog rn #i dunno man!! it's 2 am over here maybe i just need to go to bed already!! #seriously i hope everything get better soon. pretty fucking please.

[suncakeartcive]

some eugene ms paint doodles cuz I’m a maniac  bonus: human doodle

#🍰 art #eugene animal crossing #olaf animal crossing #he's so fun to draw in msp #i dunno why #like drawing the simple shapes #btw someone legit sent me an ask #saying 'yknow if you wanna be an animal crossing blog' #'actually draw them as animals' #has it occurred to you maybe I dont wanna #like if u dont like it it is not hard to just leave me alone with my 2 likes per post man #im nothing to get that fussy over lmao

[lesbiansanemi]

Things to make me lie down and contemplate everything. 400 ppl liking my writing enough that they want a notification when there’s something new

#one person in the comments of last sunrise also said I was their favorite renkaza writer #I. I. LIKE MAN I DUNNO #I am literally always under the assumption that people like. tolerate my creator endeavors #like maybe they’re not bad but they’re not GOOD and they’re kind of mildly annoying to everyone around me #(we can thank my family for mercilessly mocking every interest I ever had as a kid for that one) #I have had ONE person irl who has always responded v positively and passionately when I talk about my projects #(hiiiiii Lee ily for this) #and it’s like. oh. oh wow. this kinda stuff is always like whiplash to me because of it #it shocks me when ppl comment or oh my god when they ask me QUESTIONS about fics #like they WANT me to talk more about them #I’m too anxiety ridden to really even talk about them on MY dumb tumblr account cuz I worry about being annoying #because me being excited about working on something = annoying in my brain #(and like it’s never anyone else I see literally ANY other person posting about their art or ideas or processes and I’m like OMG AWESOME) #(it’s literally just me that this applies to 😭😭😭) #so yeah. ppl ask about fics. people say they’re excited about them. ppl even say they THOUGHT about them #and it baffles and confuses me and blows my mind #anyways. the point is. Ty ily I can’t believe you all like anything I made #but I’m trying to get better about getting over this mindset #and seeing physical proof in numbers that it really is ridiculous definitely helps #kaz rambles

[jaynuu]

god gives his toughest battles (being a fan of non-white characters from a white dominating cast/franchise) to his toughest soldiers (me)

#dunno if its because i got shadowbanned or something (idk how it works on tumblr but on insta probably !) #but watching engagement slump when i post POC is 🫠🫠 #please LOOK AT MY BOY #HE DESERVES THE WORLD JUST AS MUCH AS THAT WHITE MAN OVER THERE !!1!1$!

[seventh-district]

i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t. #it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

[rabitzzz]

avoiding talking to my fp about feelings by ignoring them again peace and love on planet earth

#vent post #sorry i just #' let me be selfish this once ' i . always try #i dont know how to convince her that im not leaving #anytime i express happiness that fp2 talked to me ( which ties into a fear that i have about fps not speaking to me for days at a time ) #( thanks jay ) #he gets upset and immediately thinks ive just . replaced her as someone special in my life #when honestly at this point i dont think i could ever live without him ? really ?? #i dont know what i can do to finally make her realize that no matter what im literally still always talking to him at the end of the day #even when we fight even if someone else had my attention even when i have a partner thats not him #i dont know what to do and its scary and people are so terrifying i dont want her upset over me time and time again #he really needs to find a new fp or just try not to care about me so much because 1 ) im not something that should be cared about in the - #- first place and 2 ) i clearly just keep directly upsetting her over and over so im not good for him whatsoever #even if im not doing it on purpose he splits directly because of me and when i split at her its because ive let things stack up without - #- handling them for too long so its more like misdirected rage because im such a high strung person #i dunno man im just #one of my fps hardly talks to me and the other is too attached to me im stuck in a hell of my own creation #might call the crisis line again its such a time #man i so totally really love december nothing bad EVER happens in december !!!!