#maybe he's just looking forward

[btsbs]

Hi sorry what do you mean with your tags between a rock and a hard place everyone's saying cryptic stuff i dont understand anything :(

So 'between a rock and a hard place' is a phrase in English that basically means you have to make a difficult decision and neither of the available options are very good. My apologies if that doesn't translate well across culture or language barriers. I was intentionally being vague about what I was referencing, just because I've gotten roasted on here for sharing my thoughts before, but since you asked I'll elaborate a bit.

I’ll put the rest under a cut to save your dashes.  

Depending on the translation you read, Namjoon said something in his acceptance speech along the lines of 'soon we'll have things sorted out and we'll be able to be more honest with you/show you our true selves'. Several of the members made comments during the infamous Festa Dinner about wishing they could be more honest/tell us more, despite the fact that we learned SO much more during that hour than we've heard them say pretty much ever.  Clearly there is more they’re not sharing, but I think they’re also being intentionally vague.  The BTS guys are all so conscious of what they share with the world, I feel like they wouldn’t keep making comments like that without knowing we’d all likely try to figure out what they were referencing.  We’re all just trying to read between the lines here, most of us are probably wrong, but it’s hard to resist trying to solve the puzzle even if you know there are missing pieces.

At the surface level, they are seven completely different men who have all grown and worked together for a decade.  I do think they all get along and have a good working relationship, but have you ever had any friend or co-worker that you agreed with on literally everything for ten years straight?  Imagine seven people?  I’m sure they have had some differences with each other, with big hit/hybe over all kinds of things.  Song choices, schedules, creative direction, endorsements, enlistment, solo releases, branding, the list goes on.  It is impossible that all seven of them and the label have had a hive (hybe lol) mind and been on the same page for strategy of all of this for years on end.  We’ll never know what is he referencing being ‘honest’ about in that specific speech, but given how little they’ve said about any of those things it’s fair to assume there has been a lot that hasn’t been shared with us.  It has to be immensely difficult to be trying to work through huge hurdles like enlistment and the future of the band, and then have to constantly get in front of the public and pretend that everything is great and no one has ever disagreed.  Imagine if you had even a petty fight with your friend over something stupid, and then you had to go to an award show and do interviews, perform with them, play nice and hide how you’re really feeling.  For a decade, and I’m sure they have disagreed over things bigger than dumplings.

It seems obvious that there are bigger things going on, especially that we now know that they were planning on taking a break after their 2020 tour.  The Festa dinner made it seem like they have been doing short term plan after short term plan for two and a half years thinking that a post Covid tour and/or enlistment were around the corner.  Having no long term plan with a tour and/or enlistment looming for years now sounds so mentally exhausting.  It seems like they’re finally at a point where they can’t just keep putting off these things. They’re at peak fame, the entire world is watching to see what actually comes next and is bound to have an opinion on it. Enlistment means not fully cashing in on all the money on the table, exemption can mean a lot of unfavorable things for them as well.  Rock and a hard place, neither option fully desirable.  Right now, it seems like that some hybrid not-really-an-exemption solution is being negotiated where they ‘serve’ but also still do concerts....I haven’t been following it super closely but it does seem like it’s been dragging out forever.

What is Namjoon looking forward to being more honest about, who knows.  Is it the future of the group, solo launches, how much they might hate certain endorsement deals, the enlistment situation, the Busan concert drama, their hiatus/non-hiatus announcement, whatever the hell ‘Chapter 2′ is or was supposed to be, thoughts on their musical direction the last couple of years, label disagreements....could be all of this or none of this.  They have a lot of big stuff going on, we see very little of it, and what we do see is curated so we only know the good parts and the final outcomes.  Like I’ve been saying since the infamous Festa dinner came out, I just really hope what plays out is what the guys want.  I’m apprehensive that’s always the case because you know, capitalism and the history of pretty much every boy band that has ever existed.  What I think about it really doesn’t matter, I just know they’re in a tough spot and whatever happens next is going to upset some people no matter what it is.

#sorry for the delayed response anon #i was out and about most of yesterday #this was just where my mind went with joon's comments #maybe he's just looking forward #to being more honest about his art collection or something #i'm just a girl on the internet #i have no idea what's actually going on #what the guys want #or how they feel about it #always happy to have respectful chats over here #i know these are delicate topics #i am trying to navigate them sensitively

[clownsuu]

i never leave asks but i NEED to say that ur interpretation of wally is the best i’ve seen in the fandom and my absolute favorite hdkgnskgs like hell yea go completely unhinged u tiny fucking freak /affectionate

in love with ur art in general <3

WHEEZE lmao thanks my guy! I try my best to appropriately display wally to the best of my ability

cw obsessive/possessive behavior

He’s just a lil silly, maybe even a lil goofy (and dare I say, even a lil quirky-?)

#I don’t quite like how I draw him tbh he looks too round and soft #Though I am very used to drawing more defining chiseled looks so maybe that’s why JDHDHDDH #Idk though I gotta play with his looks more he’s so simple yet complex with his head #Many round shapes LMAO #Also with expressions I actually quite like a very expressive wally some people do for him! #However I base a lot of his speech behaviors off of my own #That whole “not really saying much but when provoked tends to be very straight forward and direct” #Very complex lil fella #Welcome home #welcome home wally #Wally darling #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #welcome home frank #frank frankly #I say I put my speech into wally #But I put literally everything else to Frank LMAOOOO he just like me fr fr

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because #it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has #given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably #since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc #of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:) #in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun #but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots #he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at #the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is. #mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax #but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe #the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww #u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww #ruporas art

[sysig]

Portal 2 replay review: Hrmnnngggngmngm 💕💖💝💞✨❤️💗

#WPP #WPP2 #Portal #I've only just revived GLaDOS (obviously had to play at least that far lol) but like hhnnnrgng <3 <3 #The graphics! The space! The levels from Portal 1! The cutesy Aperture animations and the three(!) voice actors! #I've completely fallen in love with GLaD's P1 design but honestly what could possibly compare to her P2 design she's so pretty <3 <3 #Stepping over her corpse to wake her up I'm normal I'm fine #And that we start in Test Chamber 1 and then fast track to 19 and end up in the toxic goo ravine fjdlsakfjsdf #I'm Fine I Swear #I forgot so many little details like the floor falling out or the buzz of the portal device (don't like but! Learned a new thing! - #- If while you're carrying Wheatley and you want the buzzing to stop just ''set him down'' - since he can't be set down lol #It cancels the noise :) Much nicer on the ears) #And Wheatley's voice actor ♪ His little flusters and chuckles hehe he's quite personably #I am So excited to get to the audio commentary fdjsalkjfdsf I found it and I'm biting biting biting #I have taken so many screenshots don't even get me started #Like all told for Portal 1 I probably took what like maybe 50 total? I'm probably already at 20 lol #Oh and I picked up a turret and it exploded on me :( I'm so distressed #I only want to knock over turrets I don't want them to explode!! Weh #Hhhh looking forward <3 Yay finally <3 <3 #WPVG

[static-scribblez]

“Man this edible weak asf I ain’t feeling shiiii……”

#that’s basically the vibe I’m getting from this lmao #bro for some reason he looks so uncanny here #and that’s coming from someone who rarely gets affected by the uncanny valley #like I know that’s angel dust - that’s the character I know and (used to) love #but my brain just seems to refuse to recognise him here #first off there’s just something abt his face that looks so off #maybe it’s the lips or the eyebrows idk #secondly.. dear god those hands #i don’t know what it is about those hands but they do not look like they supposed to be that big and human like #I was hopeful abt hazbin hotel I was willing to give it a go and prayed that it would be better than hb #but after seeing some of the newest images I don’t think I’m looking forward to this show anymore #charlie stfu #hazbin hotel critical #hazbin hotel criticism #hazbin critical #hazbin critique #vivziepop critical #vivziepop criticism

[gomosmorodina]

i have no time or energy but i wanted to draw max so much

#he looks like the type to smoke #or maybe every character that i like has to smoke because i like to draw smoking people #just a little melancholic #thinking about things #me #looking forward to consistent drawing and posting again ughhhh #breaking bad #better call saul #bcs #brba #illustration #my art #ms paint #max arciniega #sketch

[torchickentacos]

An art post? From me? It's more likely than you'd think, and it's thanks to @gaycey-sketchit for posting a GORGEOUS sunset picture that inspired me to redraw it (while listening to my online textbook. Multitasking)!! I've had a good ol' six month long art block, so it was really nice to get back into it with what I love and what I started with, which is landscape art with a focus on the sky. And that photo was a perfect inspiration!

I got sort of lazy on the clouds and some of the colors are a bit off, but overall I'd call this a great way to sort of dip my toes back into digital art. I'd love to refamiliarize myself with it more and draw more often again!

#i don't call myself an artist. writer? sure. i just never post it #but i'm not an artist in the fandom sense #but i think there's a gap in the pokeani landscape art niche. bc it doesn't exist #and i want to REMEDY THAT once i get better at depth #or hell. even before then. Da Vinci didn't wait until he could paint the mona lisa to start painting #fuck it. maybe i'll start tomorrow. after the hellish brunch i'm not looking forward to #taylor's tag #art

[clownattack]

my midterm/absolutorium is over and now i can actually. celebrate my bday lol i was too buried by uni bs this month to unwind.

i got like three diff pieces of cake from my fave pastry shop bc I DESERVE IT AFTER BLOWING MY PRESENTATION/DEFENSE OUT THE PARK (according my my classmates/prof but also ME MIETTE!!! IM SO HAPPY I DIDNT CLAM UP LIKE I DID DURING THE ONLINE PRESENAYSH AUHJA. And the prof cadre actually??? Seemed interested and asked me questions abt the process etc. Which is not on brand, usually they seem disinterested in what ppl are presenting and only a few projects get their attention. NGL after working my ass off beading these skulls i feel JUSTLY REWARDED. HARD WORK PAID OFF. And as per uj they couldnt believe i make them all by hand lmaaaaooo anyway zen right now after beinf so stressed last week & the weekend i can actually relax. enjoy my term break. make some clay critters

also the pics are kind of ehhh bcs the artificial lighting was super intense and kind of took away the softness/dark colors from the skulls esp :c i dont really want to upload hi res pics of these things until im finished with my masters 100% and hopefully have my degree. The red skull esp looks kind of miserable compared to rl/vids/proper documentation but i dont want to upload now. idk maybe i will once i rest and think abt it? ANYWAY THE CAKES

#maybe one more skull ahaha... #i have 7 already i dont need more but i want to make a pink/white oyster mushroom looking guy #BUT LIKE!!!!!! #IM SO HAPPY PROFS ENGAGED WITH ME #one showed me some art jewelry pieces as inspo/reference after i stepped down #since i mentioned i want to make jewelry annex inspired by memento mori jirly #and another one actually remembered me from last year??? HUH #He remembered the skeleton i made and said hes really looking forward to my masters being done / final presentation #which btw i will have to find an actual solo gallery space and organize the whole event #which #not scary at all #sweating #but for now im just elated by the validation and praise from everyone LAMOASDASD #ill fucking take it #like the skulls are sick ok #i didnt make pics of the whole set up #the kintsugi and delft one was on the grrrround #i dont really mind tho bcs yeah #for a gallery space the light quality was not good #i can make better pics in the studio/at home lol #i actually cant wait to make a proper post abt all this :'c #its been like 3 years of sculptures at this point that i havent posted abt #im so happy the live presentation impressed peeps #bcs yeah i was so stressed b4 the online one AND IT SHOWED #i said /actually/ so much and my voice wibbled #idek why i think it was exhaustion #ok im off to get my fucking BABA TIME #uni #gpoy

[age-of-moonknight]

“Soldier,” Vengeance of the Moon Knight (Vol. 2/2024), #3.

Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Alessandro Cappuccio; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Vengeance of the Moon Knight #Vengeance of the Moon Knight 2024 #Vengeance of the Moon Knight vol. 3 #latest release #Moon Knight #Soldier #that opening page is breath-taking (and perhaps in a literal sense for that dude getting whaled on) #/almost/ succeeded in distracting me from Soldier’s raging survivor’s guilt #but…oof #what really gets me about this issue (and I guess Soldier’s character in general) is how adamant he is about his willingness to die #and yet he continues to live #he didn’t get blown up in his introductory issue he got turned into a vampire and now he’s seemingly outlived Marc #it seems to be asking the question «yeah sure you’ll die for me but will you keep on living to continue my mission?» #which already gets me in the gut but also seems particularly impactful when it’s coming from Marc #considering how much he consistently felt like a dead man walking haunted by his past and alive only to somehow atone for that past #and I very much look forward to coming back to this issue if it’s ever revealed if this new Moon Knight is really Marc come back wrong #because Soldier spends so much of this issue insisting that the Moon Knight he would die for is dead #and it would make that first page wonderfully/terribly ironic #just the concept of the man you feel you should have died for still living but twisted into something unrecognizably despicable #maybe to the point where the man he was is functionally dead #that would be wild

[m-kyunie]

massive W for OG Trigun fans we r gonna get merch (pls studio orange)😭❤️!!!!

LOVE & PEACE

#TRIGUN #TriMax #trigun maximum #on my Insta (@mkyunie) i posted more Trigun doodles so. if ur interested.... #some mock-up keychain ideas #I drew Vash first as a doodle before having the idea to do everyone hence y he's the only one in profile lol. #also ik i said id never do merch but if there's an interest...id like to make these double sided (don't worry Vash wld be facing forward) #but like just an idea lol i was looking at pricing. or maybe sticker sheet #for fellow trigun fans HIIIIIII Ive loved Trigun since I was wittle #recently got my friend into it so I'm happy to chat! #Yasuhiro Nightow is one of my insp. hes y i draw scars like that! #& the way i draw rips in fabric but I don't think that's as obvious #ANYWAY BYEEEEE

[coconut530]

FLY ON THE WALL 🪰

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #YAYYYYY EPISODE 90 WE FINALLY MADE IT #THIS THUMBNAIL HAS BEEN JUST STARING ME IN THE FACE EVER SINCE IT CAME OUT #A COLD DEAD STARE BUT ANYWAY #DUKE REALIZING THEY’RE ROOMMATES PLUUUUKKKKKEEEEEE #THEY’RE ALL FUSSING OVER HIM MISFIT SQUAD SO CUTE #LENORE YOU LOOKING FOR YOUR WIFE AFTER IT ALL #OMGGGGGG THE DEANS #I DID KINDA THINK WE WERE GONNA SEE THEM TODAY BUT AS LIKE A HALFHEARTED THING BUT THERE THEY AREEEEEE #GOSH THEY LOOK SO GOOD IN THIS PURPLE LIGHTING MERRY ESPECIALLYYYY DREAMLAND IN THE DAYTIME #CHAOS GREMLIN MERRY.. I MEAN HE HAS A POINT MOURN IF THIS IS A SPECTACLE TO WATCH THEN WHY NOT MAKE IT FUN #RULEBOOK FOR LESSONS!?!?!?! THAT'S NOT HOW SCHOOL WORKS BUT OK #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THAT'S WHAT THEY SAID TO HER I CAN'T WHY WOULD LENORE HAVE ANY REASON TO SHOOT IT MAKES NO SENSEEEEEEEE #LIKE WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT NOOO THE HEART SHAPED BLOODSTAIN GET OUT OF HERREEEEEEEEE #well now I can make a proper piece to the crane wives song the well so maybe look forward to that #WE'RE ALL ROOTING FOR THEM MERRY C'MON MOURN JOIN USSSS #NICE SOFT MOMENT BETWEEN THEM HOW WHOLESOME #THE TEA HAS SPILTTT #MONTY JUST LEAVE HIM MAYYYYBE DROP HIM OFF AT THE INFIRMARY IDK #CRAZY EPISODE LIKE WHAAAAAT

[theabbystabby]

You know how people get seasonal depression? I'm getting, like, reverse seasonal depression. I'm depressed because I live in Minnesota and there's no snow. There hasn't BEEN snow. Just rain, fog, and dead leaves.

Christmas is my favorite time of the year. I love everything about it. And the snow ties it all together with a neat bow. Yeah, sure. It's a pain in the butt when we get A TON of it, and when ice comes into play. But we live up north. It just comes with the territory. It's not only beautiful, but it's something we need environmentally. It's super unsettling that we've only been dusted with snow twice and it didn't stay for more than two days.

It's made it really hard to enjoy the things I love most about December. Lights and decorations don't dazzle me as much, the brown views are so hard on the eyes, hyper awareness of the state of our environment weighs heavy on me, and it's just... Soul crushing. This year has been awful for me for a lot of reasons, and this feels like salt in the wound.

It's going to be a sad, dreary Christmas. And I don't know what to do.

#Vent #My Art #Never have I ever been so fucked up around Christmas #This is the worst #I feel like I'm in hell #I rarely look forward to anything more than Christmas each year and its been stripped #I can't even Christmas shop like I want to #I have so many friends I want to spoil and I can't #I was barely able to get my brother anything #The only thing I look forward to is maybe spending time with him #But he's been working himself to death and needs rest #I wouldn't blame him if he wanted to have that day for himself #ugh #please let there be snow on Christmas Day #Even just a bit #That's my Christmas wish #If we don't get anything (or god forbid it RAINS) I'll cry #No joke #Sorry for being so dramatic #I'm not feeling good

[hunter-sylvester]

Hunter's Drawings

I wish I had a better screenshot of the ones hanging on the wall in the last picture but they really don't get shown very well.

#yes I am saying he drew the stuff on his cast himself - fucking look at it #metal lords #hunter sylvester #metallords #metal lords hunter #I find these all very endearing btw #tag rambles #the mental image of him just doodling away and liking it enough to put it on his wall is just- idk that's adorable to me #not like I don't have my own drawings on the wall but like #it's a slightly quieter side of him than he puts forward throughout most of the movie - yaknow? #there is stuff you can interpret about his character if you include these kind of things I mean maybe I -overdo it- but there's stuff there #he's not that flat of a character imo #but maybe I'm too stuck in my own hcs and characterization and projection #also when I call him adorable please know it's in a “looking at a slightly younger version of yourself without hatred for once” kind of way #and very much not attraction #I relate to him too much I just couldn't #my post

[robotsafari]

i havent even watched legacy yet but that fucking kh world did some.. unexpected things to me

#beep boop you want fries with that #kingdom hearts #re:ddd #sora #quorra #tron #riku #was trying to redesign rinzler’s helmet bc god. its. kinda fucking boring. leaning into the beast more #also teh helmets eyes are supposed to look angry when its down and sad when its up. bwaaa #i heard rinzler acts like a cat. thats soemthing to look forward to when i watch the movie. grins. #the three dots are supposed to be the classic t. btw. #theres four you just cant see the last one. #made sora look more liek his space paranoids look because he needs to retain the 80s swag. #this reads like a change log. #and my good friend quorra. idk if i’ve even posted that redesign b4. #yes im making her quote the ur my pockets eddie post #i think she needs to chew on things. maybe she should maul clu with her fucking teeth. #shes so unorthadox girl to me. do you see my vision. #also dw about riku falling or paralelling tron or anything hes fiiine. #speaking of the falling art. its old. so its inaccurate to how i draw riku now #before my brain was huge basically. #its so funny how i drew this much art for legacy like. i love tron 1982. i havent watched legacy yet but i feel like im gonna hate it. #the kh world was okay but it had a lot of potential and. uh. made me a BIT insane at the last part in sora’s story (EXPLODES) #also this post is tagged re:ddd for. reasons. dw about it. #ANYWAY GN ITS 1 AM. RUNS AT MACH SPEED.

[naamahdarling]

We got a quote now. Top surgery for my BF is going to be crazy expensive because of the other procedures it would be best to get done at the same time and because of the specific type of surgery it has to be. We are absolutely sticking with this surgeon, he does good work and he is comfortable working on someone my BF's size, so we aren't going to a cheaper place because that never works out and this is not the time to compare anything but results, but I don't know how we are going to afford this MASSIVE price tag. I really don't. It's SO big. So so big. *headdesk*

#and Im worried about crowdfunding because sympathy goes down and abusive lnguage goes up the heavier someone is and the more #the surgery is impacted by size so im just really not looking forward to that nonsense #AND he doesn't want pics of his face or body out there #so idfk what to do here #it's more than 15k #maybe we will talk to the other guy we were looking at but i just don't know how we can do this even with maxing out our care credit #which i don't want to do because the cats might have an emergency

[jessiesjaded]

random picture dump :)

#cat update: theyre good #clancy update: he just ate roast chicken so hes also good #jess update: Im good #im happier rn than anytime since 2020 i think #still up and down but way less up and down- if that makes sense? #its nice its good- its autumn now and i always look forward to winter #suffice to say: i hope you guys are well too #i saw in an email i have messages on discord but last time i attempted to log in it wouldnt allow me so... if you msged there and i never #responded its bc i cant get in to respond and tbh #i think discord was maybe terrible for my mental health #which is a little sad bc that was the main way i talked to people but also... idk #jury is currently out on that front we'll see maybe i'll download it again #but regardless i miss you but im well and i hope youre well and i hope one day coming back wont feel so daunting #relationships are hard arent they? i hate things changing and ending more than anything else in the world #side effect of my dad dying when i was little i think #but the main thing thats been making me feel guilty and uneasy lately is feeling guilt about disappearing from people so again! #im trying and we'll see ! #yeah :)