#mechanized memories

[madotsukidances]

Mechanized Memories -in the end- from Armored Core Verdict Day, by Kota Hoshino, Shoi Miyazawa

#mechanized memories #armored core verdict day #madotsuki #yume nikki #forgot to upload this yesterday teehee

[noctazure]

#音楽 #Mechanized Memories #FreQuency #Armored Core

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[neurowinter]

While I really liked the dark synth of the Armored Core VI trailer, I hope the soundtrack leans back into the rock of the IV/V generations.

#armored core #freQuency #mechanized memories #armored core 4 #armored core for answer #armored core 5 #armored core verdict day #Youtube

[jeeaark]

Nobody gave Greygold the 'How to Squid' Manual. And even if they had one (it's probably integrated in their brain like a squid tutorial)-gonna adamantly ignore it. Adapt on the fly instead. In the middle of an invasion. No better way to learn babeeeeeey~

Maybe all the other tiny-tentacled Tavs insta-figured out how to cerebral-armor. But. Greygold has... different priorities.

#bg3 spoilers #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 comic #illithid tav #greygold #squid greygold #The only time I'm allowing major creative license #because even though it was a fun joke in the beginning and drawing this outfit is a nightmare #sometimes.... you gotta honor your character's personal obsessions....that you personally gave them #I'm sure Greygold figured out how to don on cerebral armor underneath it all at one point #do you ever think cerebral armor is just another word for memory foam armor? wearing the memory of your armor's AC? #Or do you think it's reverse illusion for other squid tavs #actually wearing real armor but the cerebral armor is an illusion #besides ....you know game-mechanic out-of-time reasons

[verathena14]

yknow i'd always had a headcanon that sora was a lot more proficient with magic than riku, but playing Re:CoM really solidified that for me with the difference between their playstyles.

when you play as sora, you have this massive variety of different sleights and spells and summons you can use, which from an in-world perspective, could read as him just... modifying the spells for his own use. I think it would be super funny if he talks to like. Aqua for example and she's like "wait how did you do that. thats not supposed to happen, that's not how magic works-?" but anyway! the point is that Sora's gameplay has a lot of variety and magic woven into it

whereas with riku, not only can he not edit his deck, but almost all of his sleights are locked behind Darkness-Murder Mode™️. So a lot of Riku's gameplay is just "hit things until they die" (also i feel like there's something to be said about the difference between Holy Spiral and Inverse Spiral, which are basically the same attack except HS is when Riku's not in Dark Mode and IS is when he is, something about HS lasting much less time than IS because riku's light magic isn't as powerful perhaps?)

ANYWAYS. i just think it's neat :)

#kh #soriku #kingdom hearts #riku #sora #athena rambles #kh meta #i guess #is it meta if it discusses gameplay mechanics and their relation to the story & characterization? #eh who cares. you can do whatever you want forever #chain of memories #kh chain of memories #kh com #com

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

Me, to my new date: doctor who thinks it's a sci-fi story because the Doctor thinks it's a sci-fi story and because the companions think it's a sci-fi story, but it's really just a story about ghosts. a story about an ancient creature carrying the ghosts of everyone they have ever loved, meeting new people, and seeing them only as future ghosts. they are haunted by the future and the past and the present because they are the only constant in a world constantly in flux, and they are running as fast as they can to things before they burn and fade to dust but everything will always end, you understand, because this is the only thing the Doctor understands and yet they keep going. they love too much to stop. doctor who is not science-fiction, it's horror and optimism and spiritual more than anything else, it's religious unto itself, the TARDIS is a haunted house and a church and a graveyard and a hospital and the Doctor is the most haunted being in the universe but more than anything, this is a love story, because how can you love something without being haunted by it- hey, what are you doing?

My date, shoving breadsticks in their purse: I have to go-

#more unhinged doctor who meta #doctor who #meta #*into a bullhorn* IT'S A GHOST STORY #ninth doctor #tenth doctor #eleventh doctor #doctor who meta #twelfth doctor #thirteenth doctor #it's abt the time war & dalek & the parting of the ways & doomsday & the last of the time lords & journey's end & angels take manhattan #it's about hell bent and death in heaven and the doctor falls and it takes you away and the woman who fell to earth #it's about the montage of all of the people the doctor has let down #it's about astrid peth and amy pond and rory williams and rose tyler and bill potts and clara oswald and grace o'brien #it's about gaps in memory and memories that live too long to ever heal #the doctor is a haunted house #it's a show about cycles by its very structure #the moment that regeneration became a mechanic for the writers to use and companions began to move out the doctor was DOOMED #but what makes them fascinating is that they see themselves as doomed and blessed at the same time #because they will never ever stop running #clara oswald #amy pond #rose tyler #bill potts #the ghosts are INEVITABLE

[transbot-brian]

you ever think news of the mechs reached the people who loved them before they got mechanised? Bertie hears a rumour of a man with long hair and strange eyes killing hundreds without breaking a sweat, he looks over to Tim and laughs about it with him

#im thinking of the imolications of time being non-linear for the mechs #a person who knew and cared for Brian befire he lost his memories seeing a metal man who looks and sounds so much like him #mowing down innocents and laughung sbout it #the mechanisms #gunpowder tim

[muxas-world]

Truly the end of an era

𝟏𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐫 𝐥𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡

𝑳𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒄𝒂𝒓 𝒍𝒖𝒏𝒄𝒉

#just hits me lewis leaving the last reminds of the silver era will be gone #yeah iknow some of tbe mechanics and toto etc are there but the drivera the history is gone just memory will remain #also we uso to be a proper team anyways #lewis hamilton #brocedes #nico rosberg #george russell #f1

[cemeterything]

i do want to say that i honestly think kinning is good harmless fun for the most part and that it gets a bad rep it doesn't deserve because people go out of their way to dig up "insane kin drama" because... people being mad online is funny i guess? and they're ~cringe~ so it's okay to subject them to public humiliation (combined with the general online attitude of making callout posts and airing your drama on public social media instead of resolving your interpersonal issues through more private communication making people's disagreements an easy target for ridicule). like if you think that being fictionkin or otherkin or w/e is inherently bad and stupid then i think you should probably mind your own business better. who cares. whether it's a coping mechanism or just somebody enjoying life by living it as their favorite fictional character, it really doesn't matter that much. get a real hobby if it bothers you.

#🐉 #my own personal experience with kinning is something i look back on #with a sort of 'haha i was kinda silly back then' attitude because it was a coping mechanism #that i no longer rely on but like. its a fond memory. i think its neat.

[zahri-melitor]

I don’t get why people are always harping on about the Bats (especially Bruce) needing therapy.

Bruce has had PLENTY of therapy. You’re all also complaining about the outcomes of it right now (possession by Zurr-En-Arrh).

But seriously, off the top of my head, random forms of therapy Bruce has used:-

Sensory deprivation tank (Batman 156 aka Robin Dies at Dawn, Batman…136 revisit in the current plot)

The Thogal Ritual (52 and Batman 673, where Bruce just goes and sits in a cave for a while to meditate on life and death)

That time he hypnotised himself into forgetting he’s Batman (Transference, GK 8-11)

Getting gassed and requiring motivation to live (Batman 112)

Designing Zurr-En-Arrh as a backup personality (Batman RIP, Failsafe)

Punching his problems (see…most comics)

I am sure there are plenty more too.

But Zahri, hypnotising yourself to create split extra personalities isn’t a recognised form of mental health treatment!

Did I say this was positive mental health treatment? No. I said it was therapy. It’s all shit Bruce has done to his brain over the years.

Stop trying to turn poor Dinah into a therapist (there are at least a dozen named therapists all over DC that haven’t even turned evil - including the current Power Girl & Omen therapy team if you insist on a superhero), and start admitting Bruce HAS tried plenty of ways to deal with his problems. They’re just not board certified ones and they’re mostly hilariously dangerous to both Bruce and those around him.

#Bruce has got himself a good grade in therapy (methods of repressing shit) #he is uninterested in a good grade in therapy (talking about his emotions) #please accept his maladjusted coping mechanisms or he’ll set up ANOTHER weird memory palace in his mind

[carmillatism]

every day i fight the urge to ask mr. ben below if drumbot brian mechanized the priest (and why he would know HOW to do that)

#the mechanisms #drumbot brian #the priest the mechanisms #just not a tag but i can make it one #mechanisms lore #WHAT DOES IT MEAN WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE PRIEST'S IMMORTAL #WHY DOES BRIAN KNOW HOW TO MECHANIZE PEOPLE #WHY DOES HE HAVE NO MEMORIES OF HIS PREVOIUS LIFE #BEN PLEASE. PLEASEEEE

[markantonys]

i have spilled so much ink about gawyn but really i only need 2 passages to explain why he is Like That

1. My blood shed before hers; my life given before hers...That was the oath he had taken when barely tall enough to peer into Elayne's cradle. ... Gareth Bryne had had to explain to him what it meant, but even then he had known he had to keep that oath if he failed at everything else in his life. (LOC prologue)

2. From Morgase, Queen of Andor, to her beloved son, Gawyn. May he be a living sword for his sister and Andor. (ACOS prologue)

like yeah, no wonder he does what he does in AMOL. people will be like "gawyn is so stupid for not thinking about the fact that his death would hurt egwene" as if he's being maliciously stupid and careless, when in fact, he has such little self-worth that he genuinely does not consider himself a valuable human being whose loss would impact anyone or anything. his life given before hers. a living sword. this has been his mindset since toddlerhood and nobody ever noticed it enough to try and counteract it. gawyn is exactly what rand would have been like at the last battle if he hadn't had a mental health intervention.

#SAD ABOUT GAWYN HOURS #god i would die if the show portrayed the oath-swearing onscreen as a flashback cold open. it is THE formative event for his character!! #gawyn trakand #wot #wot book spoilers #gawynposting #gawyn and rand really are foils in so many ways #the way they are objectified and viewed as weapons (by themselves as well as by others) #but gawyn has been raised that way since birth whereas it's a new thing for rand #so rand has childhood friends & family & memories to remind him that he IS a person. gawyn doesn't. #his own mother taught him to view himself as a sword for others' use (but she wasn't being malicious that's just what being a royal is) #and then if you look at some of gawyn's behavior it's SO similar to how rand behaves #what really struck me is during the coup when gawyn shuts down and becomes very cold and emotionless #and min and readers are like 'oh my god he's a sociopath' #but he's actually deeply traumatized and shutting off emotions as a coping mechanism as we've seen rand do COUNTLESS times #but we're in rand's head and we're not in gawyn's so we have more sympathy and understanding for rand #'how can the other characters who don't have the benefit of seeing inside rand's head misinterpret his trauma behavior as assholery?' #well

[hajihiko]

I’m not any of the anons from before but as a fellow kazuichi fan I’d personally love to hear you talk about why you like him if you feel like it! personally I was first drawn to his character design, I just thought he looked cool, and then the second he opened his mouth and revealed himself as a loser, I loved him like ten times more lol. I know some people think he’s ‘creepy’ but I feel like he keeps enough a distance from Sonia that he’s just a guy with a crush, and also his “don’t you ever just wanna take girls apart and see how their bones work” line lives in my head rent free

Ok well. Sorry dude (genuinely) but I dont think I think of him the way a lotta ppl do. Heres my take sorry if it ruins it

First of all, do I LIKE his character? No. I like what could become of it if handled well, in the future (same with Akane and Sonia and... a lotta characters tbh).

I dont want to gloss over that he was really not cool with Sonia. I DON'T think it was like, a simple silly crush like any other dude would have, I think he WAS inappropriate about it and (most likely completely unbeknownst to him) enforcing things that she genuinely could not stand. He was insecure and took it out on others as well as himself.

These are all character flaws. Every single character has them (some more than others). Fuyuhiko was genuinely a dick (as I have said many times, having anger issues isnt an excuse for the way he talks sometimes), Hiyoko is a bully, Ibuki is insensitive when se gets caught up, Impostor is condescending sometimes, etc. Kazuichi isnt the only one to be a jackass sometimes and t deny it is to deny his character, just as much as reducing him to only that is oversimplifying it.

What I like about Kazuichi is: the design.

(Ok jk but I do enjoy the design a lot)

I like the teenage insecurity. He thinks he wants to be a chick magnet, but gets scared when girls show an interest in him. His ideal woman is basically a barbie doll. He's a little too eager to see his boy bestie naked. He was so excited for a class retreat because he's never had one before. He was so desperate to be cool and tough and not a nerd that he drastically (and no doubt painfully, ow, TEETH) changed his appearance to conform to his Ideal Self, but could not actually change his personality.

He's basically a teenage boy, warts and acne at all, trying so hard to be The That Guy but spectacularly failing. He's actually somewhat of a genius (and the Death Trap stuff hints to him having a lot of repressed turmoil which honestly so true, teenagers whose only outlet is fantasizing about the gory demise of their tormentors, SO TRUE) but he can't SEE that because he wants to be some kind of cool punk frat bro dude. He's so busy living up to some idealized version of himself that he fumbles who he actually is, which if he just took a moment, would be a pretty cool dude. Basically, did you ever discover a cool band and tried to model your entire personality after what you thought those vibes would be? That, but sad.

So yeah, I think he's great at comedic beats, and also has a lot of heart underneath it, but has never been in a place where he can just accept that and let it shine. His last words were basically "here I am, don't forget me!" which like, man, isnt that just relatable teenagerism?

#I dont like how many ppl excuse his behaviour towards Sonia like. It wasnt malicious but it was really insensitive. As a reader who doent- #-know his inner mechanisms it was uncomfortable (you can hc him whatever u want but I'm speaking from just memory no hc). #He made a lot of awkward fumbles and missteps as did a lot of the characters. But to me hes just such a teenage dude #With all the insecurities and sexuality crisis and trying to impress in an environment where he has a chance to (as opposed to.. home.) #not an art #Sorry anon I disagree with you. But u did prompt me to actually talk about this so thanks!

[mishapen-dear]

anyone else thinking of the fact that tina is the only one who knows bad was torturing himself. she's the only one he told. she wanted to be trusted and he trusted her. and now he's shown her the soulfire base recreation first. and it scared her. and hurt her. and causing that hurt hurt him. and.

laying on the fucking ground. she was the only one he told about the self harm. she was the first he showed the soulfire base. something about that.

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp tina #clinging to 'a little slice of heaven in hell' #even now that theyre back and their eggs are safe #the eggs are back but he is still hurting #he is dying #he was hurting himself to 'motivate himself to find his son' #and now he's built the soulfire recreation while his memories are failing #and he's already forgotten he wasn't still in purgatory while he was tending the farm #and #yknow #something about that #and the way his coping mechanisms so consistently damage him #self harm

[amphibianaday]

day 1181

#amphibian #axolotl #salamander #amphibiuary2023 #described in alt text #heeheehoo wizord time #seeing everyone elses drawings has been so inspiring honestly i am having so much fun drawing #no idea what the status of my queue is now i had to change it so i could reblog everyones art #if this posts the wrong day o well #this is inspired by a game i wanted to make many many years ago #youd play as a witch exploring a dark cave in search of potion ingredients #i designed the character and prototyped the basic mechanics and then stopped having time to work on it :( #honestly i wanna return to it i just have a hundred other projects i wanna work on #heh maybe i still have the unity project it wouldd eb fun to look #or maybe it was lost in the great harddrive crash of 2021 </3 #big nostalgia moment this wizard clearly cast some kind of memory spell on me