#might've put some time into it

[peridots-pixiwolf]

sketches from @mipexch 's whiteboard a couple days ago!!

also feat. a very small reference to @onlineviolence :]

#peridots-art #bugs #bots #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #swordsmachine ultrakill #bugzapper ultrakill #minos prime ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #plus the rest of the fumos but those weren't done by me. someone was drawing v1 so i put a v2 beside them and came back later to like 5 mor #hence why they are out of frame. anyway this was a LOT of fun I lost track of time and stayed up till dawn even #there were so many cool and/or recognized artists.... i keep checking the ultrakill tag to see if anyone else posts their own sketches #it was posted at like 2am my time though so i didn't get to stay very long.... i checked in today on the fumo drawings and there was #just so much new art over there and in general. so many people doodling and having fun and complimenting each other and bonding over #the things we all like. im gonna cry #anyway. i think this is the longest period of non-posting (not inactivity. lol) on tumblr i've ever had #so might've forgot some tags. also i think i'll use alt text for multiple images and regular id for 1-2 #edit also i wrote 'today' in the tags up there but it was in fact two days ago. regardless #ALSO. sorry if the alt text is hard to read or anything. never used it before + penchant for lengthy descriptions #can you tell i'm really proud of the beetle gabe btw. men will see a character say 'anyone gonna buggify that?' and not wait for an answer #WAIT i've already made that joke haven't i. whatever turn your blorbo into an insect or some sort of gay bug today

[grimalkinmessor]

thinking about your Time Travel L AU. I have such a weakness for L and Light at Wammy's together. And this one even has L making a ~special~ trip just to get Light. Can you share more pls? <3

Well I don't actually have a lot written for this one (again, worldbuilding is hard :'3) but I can certainly tell you a bit more about it!

The Shinigami King sends L back in time after his death to stop Kira from coming into being. Now the King—Cinis, you might recognize him from Cosmic Entities bc I like him—doesn't really care how L does this, and L, well. He's still angry that Light nerfed him, and he's not a very gracious loser. That, coupled with the fact that he now has an excuse to go after Light (a Death King literally told him to, he has to, he has no choice obviously {L wouldn't do anything he didn't already wanna do}), gives L just enough umph to decide that little Light is going to become a Wammy Kid :) Whether he likes it or not :)

He takes like four years to build his reputation back up and prepare, then he puts a hit out on Light's family, they die in an "accidental" fire Count Olaf style, and then a mute and traumatized six-year-old Light is shipped off to England! Yay! :D L then begins the slow and steady process of endearing himself to Light, becoming his only confidant and source of comfort, until he's fairly confident (but never 100% sure) that Light would never want to kill him. L even puts off Watari's original start up of the successor program so that there will be less variables in his grooming ENDEARMENT of Light, so B and A get brought in after Light has already been at Wammy's for a while.

Beyond and Light become fast friends for reasons I shan't spoil yet, and A is far less starry-eyed over L because she can see all the fucked-up shit he's doing :3

Light is, predictably, out of character in this fic for obvious reasons, but he's still the barest bones of himself. L just made sure that Light would grow up idealizing L instead of Soichiro Yagami :D L is Light's best friend and his older brother and his teacher and his playmate and not quite his role model but definitely someone he rapidly grows to love ✨

From there on out it's plot spoilers though so you'll just have to wait! ;3

#asks #anonymous #time travel (L) #lawlight #death note #tw -18 #tw grooming #this one is dark but like...more subtly so than some of my other fics lmao #the lawlight here is also almost entirely one-sided! :D bc L is obsessed with light but not like that #*dolly voice* not for a good long while yet! #i like putting light through various fucked up situations 💕 #the psychologial horror of going back in time to nerf the person who killed you but instead of killing the kid you manipukate the absolute #FUCK outta them so they become your little monster instead of growing into the bigger one that killed you #AND BY DOING SO REALIZE THAT YOU MIGHT'VE BEEN THE BIGGER MONSTER ALL ALONG BECAUSE YOUR JUSTIFICATIONS ARE JUST AS FLIMSY AS HIS WERE AND #YET HE NEVER WENT AS FAR AS YOU HAVE NOW #anyway ✨

[sysig]

Working on some designs for one of my oldest OCs, “Cure” (Patreon)

I also managed to track down some of her initial concept sketches from 2018 - why 2018 considering I called her one of my oldest OCs?

Well, her design has always been rather elusive, even more so since she spent so much time in my head without being brought to paper - even these sketches make mention of it!

Pretty sure she got “Cure” in 2018 too - starting to take form!

#Doodles #Original #The quotes are very intentional lol #As stated under the cut I started designing her in 2018 but she's existed since around 2007-ish? Latest would be 2010 #Part of her having such a range of uncertainty is that it took me many many years to consider putting her to paper! #She might've existed in 2007 but there's no record! She might've existed in 2010 but no record! I don't think I even wrote about her #She was a completely mentally-extant OC for many many many years #Partially because at the time I had just started drawing and knew I wouldn't be able to put down what was in my head to physicality #And then the longer she stayed in my head the more she became that kind of mental kaleidoscope ever-shifting impossible-to-draw design #But screw that! I have a few years of doodling under my belt now! Even if I can't get her quite right I can at least make an attempt! #It's especially funny because outwardly she is meant to be a pretty generic teddy bear lol - not Exactly but more like the vibe of one #Round and plush and innocent - innocuous #And really she's not like Nefarious or anything lol - she's not what she seems but she also is?? It's hard to explain lol #A lot of it does still come down to subtleties so it actually is still hard to capture but it'll only keep getting harder the longer I wait! #So at least pinning down Some things about her design that I'm happy with and can refer to helps the me down the line haha #The first one is actually pretty close! It's always a coin flip on whether the first one is a disaster or nails it haha #The heart ears and straight body are pretty good tho I gotta say #And honestly it was the little lace-ribbon bracelet that was the deciding factor for me to try drawing her again haha #I had an idea I thought was silly but to do it I needed a design to work with! #Getting there getting there - every little bit closer

[ralsriel]

The owl house really just went "hey, you see these traumatized kids? You see how two of them even show VERY clear signs of ptsd?" and then looked at them and went "anyway, here's even more trauma for them, good luck recovering from this lol"

#the owl house spoilers #the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #THIS IS NOT A NEGATIVE POST BTW #I don't want it to come across this way #but my god. I am. #I don't even know what to say except for holy shit please give these kids some happiness #Luz is literally on the edge and the whole 'this person who I project myself onto should actually never exist!' is really worrying #and Hunter #oh where do I start here. #this whole episode might've just been 'Hunter's deepest trauma and fears: extra deluxe edition' #and I am. so hoping that he gets a happy ending. might just be my own cptsd brain influencing my opinions here but my god #I'd be so upset if he actually dies or won't find any happiness anymore #I don't think they'll do that though. Especially because they already had the chance to do so but brought him back #anyway!!! what an episode huh #I am!! boy I sure do have feelings about this whole thing and I do not know how to articulate them in the slightest! #on one hand I love the fact that the toh crew actually took their time to portray actual trauma in realistic ways #it definitely hit close to home and you could see the amount of care put into it #there's lots of small details that some people might not notice which are really important to me personally #even just the whole 'I think I'm getting better and like who I am! my fears might just be.. all in my head.. surely.' #to 'my fears have actually been justified & it feels like my happiness wont last long without the most terrible thing imaginable happening' #there's more of course #that was a lot to take in which may or may not be because of personal experiences but hoo boy huh #oh yeah also the VA's did a great job at changing their tone for each character #on the other hand. I really miss hooty. and eda. and king. and the silliness. and everyone else ;-; #and I don't mean this in a way of 'No! No serious topics allowed!' because I do like the more serious tone & it's more than reasonable #with the current situation #but hhhhh I just want them to be happy #anyway haha. them using Duolingo was fun huh? sure am glad the episode was about that only and nothing bad ever happened :)

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

Ted Kravitz needs to keep Yuki Tsunoda's name out of his mouth -

#f1 #formula 1 #formula one #yuki tsunoda #don't forget the avalanche of horrific hate ted sent towards yuki & hannah schmitz last year #and the team leader talk jfc #at is fighting for p9 at best atm in the wcc & their drivers are desperately trying to get that shit box of a car into the points #yuki has been doing so well but it's never acknowledged especially not by the sky sports crowd outside of jenson #the only time sky talked about his performance was when yuki might've moved up from p11 to p10 once someone's penalty was added to the time #and crofty was upset because that would end yuki's streak of consecutive p11 finishes *facepalms* #the amount of bullshit from the British commentators that yuki gets is ridiculous #he's been doing a stellar job for the past three seasons #sky sports and ted especially need to put some respect on his name #forever thinking about his defending against lewis like a rookie kept a 7 time wdc behind him for 7 laps #yuki deserves so much more hype and appreciation

[seknots-izumimir]

vaniiii ehe hiya :3 umm we got a system sideblog if yer interested in seein more of us... but ummmm hiya !!!! i missed ya n im glad t' see ya... do ya got any advice fer copin wit' lack of attention from an fp.... we're okay but if ya got anythin it might be helpful for us :33 ehe i love yaaaa -🪴

MIIIIIKAAAAA!!!!!!!!! i missed u guys </3 i would love to see more of u tho i miss you guys when you're not around... although i guess technically you are since you said we're mutuals but skdghds

ough. tbh i've been pretty lucky insofar that i haven't had a lotta issues with that... but in my experience usually if i gotta be left alone for awhile distracting myself helps a lot? like. go down a wikipedia rabbit hole, or do a puzzle, or play a game you get super invested in. just something to focus on so you don't end up in your own head kinda thing yanno??? otherwise don't feel bad to just. ask for attention? like. it's not illegal to have human desires. and as long as your fp isn't busy or something they probably don't mind talking with you a lil :3 although idk for sure i know everyone has different relationships with their fp so ^^; do not listen to me if you know it'll cause you harm/strife/etc :< also naps. bc those pass the time reaaaaal quick. its like a lifehack. feeling bad? take a nap. you'll either feel amazing after or like you got smacked in the face with a trout ! oh and also like. doing schoolwork or smth productive maybe? thats not really fun tho so dskghds maybe pick up a kinda time-consuming hobby like crochet or cross-stitch or something where you can use that to distract yourself and have something to do with your hands :3?

but if its like. ur Already Feeling Bad i recommend like. watching a movie/tv show/etc that you really like or getting a Little Treat(tm) or something :3 curl up with a cozy blanket and drink some hot cocoa or tea or something !! its not like. a sure-fire fix. but i find the combo of distraction + comfort media + Little Treat tends to make you feel at least a lil better :3 also if it gets Very Bad just like. destroy some old school work you don't need or somethin. tearing papers to shreds is sooooooo fun. make sure u don't accidentally rip up something you need though skjghds it helps to calm down a lil and then you can work on relaxing a little more !! its not like. guaranteed. but sometimes gettin some of the destructive urges out helps

ily2 mika <3 i would die for u btw /lh

#at least i get destructive urges idk. i usually just rip up papers and stuff i don't need if i get like that #most of the time i can just deal w/ it via distractions (mmmm shitty mobile games) but !! sometimes u gotta Rip And Tear #most of my strats are just. distract urself. bc it gives you time to calm down and process stuff even if you don't realize it #so. ye. jus kinda be nice to yourself :3 it helps a little. perhaps get a plushie to cuddle with even #i have plushies my fp got me and i keep them on my bed and cuddle them when i miss them nd stuff #it helps a little !!! making yourself feel better can be rlly hard tho so don't feel bad if you struggle a bit !! #find some friends to talk to too if you can !!! it rlly helps to have people to talk to even if they don't entirely get it #just having other people around can help. i message with a few friends when my fp is busy sometimes and it helps keep the loneliness #at bay a little :3 but !! obv i cannot guarantee any of this will work for you !! but hopefully some of it is helpful at least !!! #I FORGOR U CAN'T PUT READ MORES IN ASKS. AUGH. this got so long srry mika ily #anyway !!! i am glad to see u :3 i was thinking abt u guys recently actually sdkghsd #i was worried u guys might've been one of the people in recent times that've blocked me or something orz #ily. stay safe. nd !! lemme know if i can help you guys somehow :3 #im not like the most versed in system nor bpd stuff but ! i have my silly little experiences to go off of #system anon 🪴 #long post #<- j. just in case. bc this did get Long. oopsies

[donuts4evry1]

Hey so fun fact so about me I refused to acknowledge that my legal name was actually my name at all for literally the first 8 years of my life.

Like to the point where I was confused as to why teachers would refer me to this dumb stupid name that no one called me instead of the name that everyone called me.

I remember a teacher asking me "So why do you want to be called ____?" And I told her "Cause that's my name. Idk why it says something different on there maybe it was a printing error or something"

And I fought against that legal name for all those 8 years with everything I had. I still give my family the stinkeye when they use it with me.

So now you might be wondering, what got me to start going by my legal name? Was I punished? Was I forced to do so by someone?

Well uh no actually. I moved to a different country and I suddenly decided that I was actually wrong for 8 years and that my legal name was actually my legal name (and not my nickname). So that was that.

#It's been years since those times so I might be remembering things wrong #I could've also just not wanted to give my teachers the whole ''Oh yeah the record is wrong for some reason idk why tho'' talk again #But the thing is. I specifically remember having that aha moment of where #Maybe my name was put in wrong for a /reason/ #Anyways this is an interesting case of how someone can totally not identify with their legal name at all haha #mun rambles #I might've talked about this already but it's such a weird story that I wanna talk ab it again

[varjopeura]

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#soooooo maybe. just maybe #the inexplicable bad horrible times i've had for the past couple of weeks #might've been the seasonal depression kicking in?? #like #who would've THOUGHT #that the same thing that makes my mood significantly drop every year at this exact time #would do it this year too #RUDE #but yeah i dug the therapy lamp out of its storage so i can start blasting fake sunlight straight at my face every morning #ALSO put up some really pretty decorative lights up everywhere while i was at it! #it might be dark and cold outside but my home is now FILLED WITH SPARKLY STARS so it's gonna be fine #also might bake some white chocolate and lemon cookies either today or tomorrow. if that doesn't make life better i don't know what does #sussitalk

[hood-ex]

a few cooking headcanons!

dick: can cook at least at the rudimentary level to be able to live independently. cooking is a life skill for him. as an athlete and vigilante, he pays attention to what his body needs, just maybe forgets about it when he has his breakdowns. maybe he can cook well enough for when he entertains friends, or at the very least knows their preferences by heart so he can order what they like instead

jason: similar to dick. cooking is a life skill. his cooking focuses on what nutrients he needs to maintain his peak physique for vigilante activity. not so much on the flavor or complexity, but protein, etc, not for entertaining others

tim: never learned how to cook, probably won't ever. he lives on Alfred's food, delivery orders or whatever he can scavenge on the go. expertise is knowing which foods can provide the most energy in the least amount of time and effort

damian: didnt see the point in learning how to cook in the kitchen. if he wanted good food he just asked for it. the only exception is maybe food from his childhood with Talia. kept badgering bruce to teach him survival hunting, gathering and cooking to become the peak vigilante up until he became vegetarian. now he learns how to cook bc he can't trust others to provide vegetarian options for him.

cass: has to be taught from scratch. basic ingredients, combos, and preparation techniques. gets a hang of the technical skills, but needs a while to learn how to balance the flavors. steph: can cook like any teenager/ young adult can after a long day of school/ work. specializes in both classic comfort food and in food for growing muscles, especially when she gets serious about becoming a vigilante. bruce: did the whole training how to hunt and gather for food in any possible situation under his masters. knows the nutrients/ effects of most animals and plants. developed the technology so he would never. have. to. actually. do. it. has a wide palette, but focuses on what his body needs.

#these are good! only two have some canon things niggling at my mind #since damian is freakishly skilled in a lot of things i think he would've been taught to cook some basics at least #but i agree that he would expect other people to make food for him the majority of the time #and i like that he would learn to make his own vegetarian meals #i think he'd be cooking for himself a lot more recently since he's been on his own #as for cass... i honestly can't remember if i've seen her cook or not. she was homeless for a long time before she met the batfam #so she might've picked up some cooking skills during that time #if she had access to cooking ? aslkdja #(someone lmk if cass's cooking skills were ever mentioned in canon) #but anywho yeah i like the thought you put into each one in terms of the cooking/flavor/nutrient complexity #👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 #batfam #cooking headcanons #anon

[pirateborn-a]

     also Roger never intended for garp to raise Ace       but he did know that garp could’ve protected him, he knew that the marines would have gone hunting for his child and he knew that garp was in a position to do something about it            he’d thought that garp would have either stopped the hunt, or made sure that rouge and ace would be safe by hiding them       because who would expect the marine hero to do that ?

     roger just could’ve never predicted a world with rouge.

#[ ik i mentioned before either here or on garp's blog but just. #[ head in hands #[ headcanon ] ✧〖 tomorrow’s skies are always clear 〗 #[ ooc ] ✧〖 bid farewell to weaver’s town 〗 #[ might clean this up at some point but just. thinks ab this thinks ab this #[ the idea!! that rouge might've died!!! literally never crossed his mind #[ he's perfectly content (half-lie) with dying himself but his loved ones dying? lmao whats that #[ and the thing is garp /Could/ have protected ace #[ he might've been the only marine who could've #[ anyone else would've meant that ace would be publicly and openly hunted his entire life #[ it would've meant putting his friends in further danger as well #[ and i think! #[ i do think garp could've #[ but he didn't want to think about it and so instead kept himself busy with the 329480328320 criminals that popped into existence #[ bc of roger #[ but he couldnt stop thinking about it. couldnt stop hearing reports about it. #[ and by the time he found himself going to the south and found the person in question it was too late #[ dsfjsd everytime i see people go 'how stupid was roger for leaving ace w/ garp :/' i go Yes but consider /no/ #[ and i do want to talk more ab garps feelings on the whole matter bc rotates in microwave!! like #[ roger is So selfish <3 #[ garps feelings on roger are such a mess fr #[ anyway back to preparing for exam in an hour #[ i think ab fictional men a normal amount

[stuckinakillingjar]

currently thinking about how fun it was to liveblog jojo

#i'm specifically talking about part 1-6 #sbr was a fucking pain in the ass i never want to reread that shit ever again i'm so sorry #but liveblogging felt so cool lol i felt like some huge blogger although it was literally the same like 2 people liking #and chapter anon sending me asks i miss you bro #anyways i think part 5 might've been the most fun part to live blog from what i remember #which is weird because the part 5 manga isn't really my favorite #it's number 5 in my manga part ranking if i remember right #and number 2 in my anime part ranking #anyways part 4 was fun to liveblog to because i didn't pay attention to the animr half of the time and forgot almost everything before the #kira arc before i started reading 💀 #i remember not even recognizing akira from the anime when i read the manga i literally sat there like 'who is this dude' #but in my defense i had covid when i first watched jojo ok i was a little out of it #anyways i'm writing all of this while not even being 10 chapters into jojolion lmaoooo #i literally started reading and then put it on hold because i was bored #sadly i can't tell you when i will continue lol #jjba #nica reads jojo #there are so many typos innthis lol pls ignore it's literally 4am i should be dead asleep rn

[knifeprtys]

popping into your ask box just to say..I hope you never feel guilty about it. I have felt guilt over each family member’s death and I want you to know you were an amazing sister and that what happened wasn’t your fault. you will be with her again..and I think based off of how you’ve described her she would want you to eventually find peace in the in between. I can’t even imagine how much it hurts right now. I love you

thank you sm, that's really comforting to hear ukno bcos i think the same, i wasn't so sure on anything that happens after life before she passed tbh but i'm overcome with a sense that she isn't really gone and i will see her again now idk how to explain it but i don't feel like it's just wishful thinking or my imagination just trying to comfort me ukno. i feel it in my gut and my heart. it sounds cringe to say but it's true and i will and i know she wouldn't want me to suffer like this until i do, i'm never going to have the same level of happiness i had before without her but when i feel able to, i am going to try and live again. maybe?? lol it doesn't feel possible atm my grief won't allow me to breathe without my lungs hurting like hell but who knows maybe in a few years i'll find a way to coexist with it. anyways thank you and i'm so so sorry that you've ever had to go through something like this especially multiple times too, i hope you're doing okay and know that nothing that happened was your fault either💗

#x #sibling death tw #but ye idk i do feel some level of guilt over her death just bcos the manner of it ukno #i don't think anyone can come through the other side of something like this guilt free #i know the rest of my family are really struggling with it too #for me it's just the fact that i didn't check on her one last time before i went to bed that night #i had heard her get up and use the upstairs bathroom right before i put my phone on my night stand #and thought about going up and asking her why she didn't join our fam group call bcos my brother wanted to talk to her #but didn't bcos i thought she might've just been watching a show or playing among us or pokemon or something like usual #and after that we found her only 2 hours later when my mum went up to do a check and shouted on me #so i just feel like if i had gone up i would've been able to see #she was distressed or she would've told me like she usually did #the only thing that keeps that from eating me alive is that i had checked on her a few hours before earlier in the night #and she said and looked like she was fine at that point #and that being my last memory of the last time we spoke brings me some comfort like at least i did check on her #but idk i was stupid to not do it again #and to let that lull me into a false sense of security bcos i knew her moods could switch fast idkidk its a lot #and its muddy still i can't work through it just yet #i also feel really guilty atm because she's resting at funeral directors near my house now as of today #and i did go to see her but idk if i can do it again #like. i needed to bcos of the way she was ripped away from me on that day #i needed to be reunited with her #but it was horrifying seeing her like that #i made a post abt it and deleted it but i'll just say it again here so TW #but it didn't look like her or FEEL like her at all and i've never seen anything look so empty or feel so empty #i can't even explain it she just wasn't there #but that IS her and i can't leave her there alone and never visit her while i could you know #she hated being left alone sm and always asked to be visited when she was in hospital ill or when she lived alone #the last thing and least i can do for her is man up and be there but it was so hard

[starrypawz]

I do hate it when really random ghosts of discourse pass just haunt me at random

#im just remembering the amount of times i'd see people doing really gung ho QUEER IS A SLUR stuff and then like #those people would be (as they had the right to) reclaiming dyke or fag and often have them in their handle and then being like Q SLUR #and just... my dudes do you just... not grasp the irony here #if having uncensored slurs is bad why are you running around with a slur in your handle no one can censor? #also god im also remembering a point where someone started putting out like LESBIAN NOT QUEER GAY NOT QUEER merch etc #and when someone went like 'bestie lesbian not queer is legit a terf slogan' they got weird about it #like this is stemming from that post i reblogged earlier about online activism #bc like yeah you're more concerned about -looking- like a good person than actually taking the time to pull something apart #and be like 'oh no i might've accidentally internalised some harmful views better deal with that'

[fmhobeus]

so, nerdy loser college boy choso *sighs* *opens legs*

a/n: just so you know, this man is gonna make you do all the hard work for a piece of that loser boy dick 😮‍💨 so... um so at some point around 2000 words in i realised this is way more than a hc post :3 eat it up if you will!

nerdy!choso who borderline has no friends except his gaming buddies who doesnt meet irl like ever. he doesnt like going to classes, especially this one. he doesnt need it but it's a requirement for all first years. and boy is glad it is when he sees you come in.

nerdy!choso who only listens to discussions when you're talking. suddenly he needs to put down his headphones and nod at every word you're saying. his eyes follow every gesture of your hand, every sway of your ass, every single time you fix your hair.

nerdy!choso who is starting to get a bit enamored with you, your style, your way of speaking. he loses track of time gawking at you in class from the last benches as you prettily do all the work in the class. he hates how beautifully your hair falls on your face, how nicely your clothes fit you despite being pretty modest for college. he hates how he can see the silhouette of your tits when you turn to the side. but he's too much of a gentleman to keep looking.

nerdy!choso who ends a game early when he remembers you, lying and saying that he had promised someone to meet them somewhere. the place is his bathroom and the person was you. god, you really shouldn't wear those tight jeans to class y'know? how will he continue to be a gentleman if you do?

nerdy!choso who despises groupwork but prays to dear god this class has some reason to pair you two together. he's getting so desperate to talk to you knowing damn well he too pussy to do it on his own. and the lord answers his prayers, the teacher assigns groups of three for a presentation. it's you, him and some slacking trust fund baby.

nerdy!choso who is about to combust and have a full blown panic attack when he sees you approach him after class with that smile on your face that would make the angels swoon. you're going on about distributing the work equally and what not while he is trying his fucking hardest to not accidently make eye contact with you and piss his pants : (

nerdy!choso who now has your name, your number and your email and he feels like the happiest man on earth. his hands are literally shaking as he responds to your request to call. he's overthinking every word he types.

choso: yeah i can do wednesday. choso: i'll be okay with whatever day you want.

nerdy!choso who hops on video call and short circuits with a view of you in an oversized band tee and a brief view of your room. why did you have to be this pretty? why did you have to video call him when you couldve done the work on text? why did you have to put your hair up like that? why oh why did you have you say "choso? hey, you there?" so seductively to bring him back to the present?

nerdy!choso who gets like no work done in a 30 minute call which felt like three hours. he knew he would hardly be paying attention so decided to record the call with your consent, saying he'd need the notes you were typing out on screen only to play it back and stroke his dick to you for what might've have been the twentieth time this week. his strokes only getting faster as you say his name in that voice he imagines sounds way better moaning and screaming it instead.

nerdy!choso who, after the presentation, is on greeting terms with you when he sees you studying in the library. he sits as far away from you as he can while still being able to see you. occupying the coziest corner of the library to stare at you study right when you come up to him.

"can i join you, choso? i'm all alone and your space seems comfy" you say with a smile, "of course, i dont mean to disturb you, is saw you were on your own too, so..."

uh oh, uh oh, uh oh. god no. please no. please dont say yes. please dont be staring at her like some dumb idiot (too late) please.

"uh... yeah sure why not?" he awkwardly says as he makes room for you to keep your things. he was such an idiot for thinking he could say no to your pretty face in the first place.

nerdy!choso who is absolutely drunk on your scent. it feels way better than any alcohol he's ever had. he feels like an animal in heat when he smells your sugary perfume mixed with the styrofoam-y air conditioned smell of the library. you're gonna kill him, yknow? how is he supposed to respond to this? what is one to do when their stupid college crush sits next to them? he gives you a half smile before furiously typing away on reddit, the only place with answers for losers like him.

nerdy!choso whose hands. oh his hands. (can be i a big whore for a second?) his long hands that feel like they're the size of your face. his kempt, beautiful and trimmed nails. his lengthy fingers that seem to yearn for something more to foddle with than just the keyboard or controller. he typed as such an insane pace it made your pussy ache. he was going so fast, jesus. those hands were meant to do more than just ask "how to talk to girls" on reddit.

nerdy!choso who (on the advice of reddit) asks if you would want him to order something for you. you tell you had a frappuccino not too long ago and that it was quite sweet and filling. and he hates himself for thinking that he could give you something much sweeter and filling than that like a horny fourteen year old.

nerdy!choso who is now determined to not come off as a creep so he does his work with the focus of four adderalls. he is typing as fast as his heartbeat, not realising he got two classes worth of work done in just an hour. he looks over at you, blissfully unaware of the absolute war in his mind.

nerdy!choso who feels as though if he doesn't muster up the courage to ask you out right then and there, he'll probably be the biggest loser on the planet. (as if he wasn't already)

nerdy! pathetic! choso who stutters a million times and barely gets the job done then too. his eyes are scanning your entire being (trying his best to not gawk at your tits) for any sign of discomfort.

"so- uhh so ummm... wo-would you, like, uh... like to do this again? sometime?... i got a.. a lot of work done today, so.."

oh heavens, the sheer nervousness in his tone makes you want to pull his pants down and show him how to really get work done.

you agree with a smile, even suggesting a better, more ambient (more romantic) cafe to study in. choso's heart is about to burst and flood the fucking library with his blood the way it is beating at an alarming rate.

"umm yeah uh 5 sounds... awesome... i hope it isn't a-a bother to you?" "no way, choso. i loved today," you offer him a smile as you gather your things, "i really like your hair, by the way" "i like your hair too, y-y-you smell very nice", he gulps.

fuck. why did he say that? what? you smell nice? who says that? is he like ten? you can't help but giggle at the sheer embarassment on his face.

he feels as though he's gonna melt into a puddle and turn to stone and throw up all at the same time.

nerdy!choso who is the most stupidly hot guy you've ever met, you think as you go giggling back to your dorm. mental note: pick a skimpy outfit for 5pm ;)

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[apollo-cackling]

had to think about harry potter again bc my 8yo brother's found a stash of the books somewhere (gen confused where they came from bc ik I didn't buy them and my parents aren't the type to read and/or buy them so ???) and is blazing through them and.

yk this is not remotely a new observation but it just strikes me how much of a "what if You, abused person living a miserable life, are actually Inherently Better than your abusers and they just happen to come to an ironic comeuppance and you're whisked away to a happier life" fantasy they begin as and idk I get the overwhelming feeling of this could've been, y'know, Fine, if it stayed with that scope and didn't gain as much cultural weight as it did?

like yeah even within the first book there's already some rather uncomfortable subtext there but I don't remember the subtext then to be worse than the average popular fantasy book; if harry potter just remained with the scope it did, whatever happens with JKR, it as itself could've probably been yk. whatever. some unremarkable thing with some bad subtext that's not out of line with the average fantasy book. but ofc it escalates from this base and to my hazy memory of the books most of the remarkably bad parts of the books come from them trying to juggle the realism they so want to drape over themselves on top of its simple revenge/escape wish fulfillment foundation (and how the first few books just aimed for whatever's the most whimsical regardless of logic) and falling flat on its face

#my rambles #most lukewarm take ever but yk #the books' foundation is just not rigorous enough to withstand all the heavy topics they try to pile onto themselves #is the overwhelming sense I get whenever I think back on them #the whimsy and the heaviness runs into each other and mixes about as well as sodium and water #the books reach for some heavy stuff as if the first books' internal logic wasn't just 'ok which path leads to the most nonsense' #and like nonsense isn't bad some of my favourite books/shows are nonsense #but like they on average maintain the same level of nonsense/nonliteral throughout #whereas hp starts from a base of 'hey wouldn't it be cool/weird if' and then within all that goes 'alr now let's talk about literal slavery #idk this is the most lukewarm take ever but I just needed it out of my heaad #although some stuff might've been better with the books like this than if it kept the scope of the first few maybe? #a specific thing I'm thinking about is yk the racism/stereotyping it's sort of a function of the whimsy and not interrogating biases iirc #yk the protagonist enters a fantastical world with strange and whimsical happenings type story #where everything's larger than life #'cept being a poc is put in the same category as idk being an academic or wtv so. yk #idk haven't read the books in a long time but this's just gotten me to think back on them #harry potter cw

[attleboy]

i thought too hard about insect motifs got a little silly and made... a lot lmao these versions of the characters are from @sm-baby's amazing digital carnival au!! full images and rambling about insect choices are gonna get stuck under the cut... it'll be a bit long and i will be putting photos of real bugs down there so be mindful

pomni: "butterfly"

inspirational species are black swallowtails mostly for the shape, and malay red harlequins mostly for the pattern

carnival pomni's actually the one that kickstarted this whole set... i drew her hat in a way that reminded me of butterflies, went "wait...", then i fully leaned into it :)

jax: "centipede"

there was no specific species for jax. without being able to use color, they were too similar to pick any out... i have included a giant centipede just for reference though since it was mainly larger centipedes i used for inspiration

anddd there's a little bonus sketch for how pre-sentience jax might've looked with a centipede outfit... he gets a bug scarf and some goggles!

ragatha: "ladybug"

inspirational species was the twice-stabbed ladybug chosen because the inverted color scheme looked the best out of all the ones i tried, and also because it's a metal name and we know ragatha's good with a knife... stabby stab... i did add more than two spots to the dress though, it just looks cooler lol

gangle: "spider"

inspiration was the spinybacked orb weaver which i was absolutely ecstatic to find because come on that is the perfect spider for gangle like look at it!! it looks like her mask, it's got red, it's got gold on the limbs, literally twinning

zooble: "mantis"

inspiration was the spiny flower mantis which, like with gangle, i feel is pretty much perfect for zooble... they come in many colors (including pink), have abstract patterns, and it gave me the excuse to cover zooble in spikes :D fun

and no kaufmo because i'm lazy and he's dead (sorry kaufmo fans but am i wrong), and the rest don't have bug names that i know of?

i still want to draw the carnival characters in their regular looks sometime, i just got really really inspired by the idea of secret skins and bug-themed outfits and went a liiittle haywire :P

anyways if you read all that you're a real one and you've got too much time on your hands... if you didn't, i understand, i get wordy, sorry :'D okay i think that's all byeee

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