#most likely id make a post of my own

[hopefullyababe]

ok so its happened about 5 times now so i should probably make a post abt it:

i reblog posts alot sometimes. like a few times in a row. i like pressing the button, i like having good memes on my blog a few times in a row. its like. weirdly comforting to me

while i really appreciate yall checking up on me: it is not a cry for help! im just kinda like that lmao

#daphnes talking again #sorry if i worried yall #again thank u everyone whos ever checked up on me after i reblogged a depression meme 8 times; youre a kind and good person. thank you #but uhhh im very very unlikely to be crying for help via depression memes #most likely id make a post of my own #btw my vent tag is negative vibes i highly encourage anyone who isnt in a good place to block that tag #like if youre just here for the memes thats fine! :)

[hella1975]

ive got an essay due at 3pm tomorrow and ive not even looked at it i am so so unserious about my degree and by the grace of some higher being i somehow keep managing to crawl through it's actually getting a bit funny

#me and an old friend of mine used to have a running joke during a-levels that im just one of those people where shit Works Out #and it started bc we shared two a-levels (english and economics) and in BOTH classes i regularly didn't do the homework #or the reading etc and yet it would ALWAYS work out for me #like we'd walk into a class neither of us having done the homework and they'd get yelled at while i went under the radar somehow #or that one english essay i got the highest score in the class when i literally hadn't even read the fucking book it was on #and when we pointed the theory out it started just becoming really prevalent #like no matter how late i am for things i'll arrive and by some miracle the thing im late for is also late (e.g a train or teacher) #like im just one of those people that has very very mundane luck #and low and behold i am fighting this degree with bloody fists putting the absolute bare minimum in for my own sanity's sake #and i SOMEHOW keep pulling through. literally failed two modules last year and STILL got a 2:1 average #and the last essay i wrote was the worst essay id ever done in my life and i get my standards are higher bc ik im good at essays #but the point still stands and you know what? i got a FIRST #literally was pure waffle i have never blagged it so hard and i got a FIRST #and all this shit just makes me cockier and cockier and go even more by the skin of my teeth and it ALWAYS WORKS OUT #it's soooo silly but im not complaining. anyway ill keep u posted about this essay <3 it's econ history so is actually interesting #but the most ive done for it is ask the sc ai lmao and for context degree-level essays usually require a good few days of graft #live love laziness #hella goes to uni

[toytulini]

if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

#toy txt post #or maybe i am just sameface syndrome #but also different face syndrome #two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time! #i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao #the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her #her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime #birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept #but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie! #me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i need to practice. features #you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet #to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that #knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!! #not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime #im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps #happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be #and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also #no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!! #agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to. #anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy #part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least. #for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy #on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that #feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller #headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure #and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height #but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes #the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights #are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye

[dr3amofagame]

Ok there are a lot of things I don't understand about Wilbur and Dream's interactions, but one of the main things that I don't quite get is the whole breaking into the prison and burning the disks with Tommy , like ok why was Wilbur so convinced that by threatening to kill himself he was gonna make Dream do what ever he wants ( burn the disks)

And well we can say that Dream was just agreeing to whatever the hell the wanted because he wanted them out of his living room ( and because he didn't need the disks) but like ,Wilbur didn't know that, what made him so sure that Dream wanted him alive especially after the prison break ( Dream didn't need his help anymore) to the point that he thought he could use it ( his life ) as leverage

Did Dream want to keep Wilbur alive, if so, then why? I don't know man, seems like the only person that would be losing in this situation is Wilbur himself.

I got more questions but like this is what confuses me the most. Idk just don't get it

Honestly I'm going to assume you know about these reddit posts, but while like I think that people should be able to draw their own conclusions to a text without strictly subscribing to what is said by the authors, like, cc!Dream and cc!Wilbur did give explanations behind what happened in this stream that I think are worth checking out: x x

A lot of people perceived cc!Wilbur's comment specifically as speaking for c!Dream in a way that was uninformed and therefore dismissed the post, which I think is...unwise? Like, cc!Wilbur literally says that he's posting from the perspective of his character's thought process, not an out of character word of god on what c!Dream actually values and believes. Further, he literally clarifies that his character isn't entirely correct and is an unreliable narrator.

But looking between the posts and looking at c!Dream's behavior, I mean. What we can say, rather definitively, that c!Wilbur was right about is that c!Dream didn't want to lose that feeling that he had leverage over c!Wilbur. Like, he's pretty damn desperate not to lose it, actually. c!Wilbur "believes that Dream has nothing if not himself"--a perspective that obviously leaves out c!Punz, considering c!Dream's secrecy in terms of this one particular ally, but is otherwise I mean. Like. Correct? cc!Dream emphasizes repeatedly that c!Dream doesn't want to lose "that feeling of control over Wilbur," that c!Dream's power over c!Wilbur is "just in his head," that he's holding onto it even though "it's seemingly gone after the exile reveal." The rest of the server's story only throws this in sharper relief--c!Wilbur literally fucking leaves the whole damn server and c!Dream is cowering in the prison worrying about him A MONTH LATER.

When c!Wilbur makes the assessment that c!Dream is going to hold onto the perceived leverage he has over c!Wilbur tightly, EVEN WHEN SAID LEVERAGE DOESN'T EXIST, to the point of doing almost everything c!Wilbur tells him to? He's 100% right. c!Dream doesn't want to break the illusion. When cc!Dream gives the two examples of what c!Dream wouldn't do, he mentions that c!Dream wouldn't "kill himself" or "give over the revive book," which, I mean. Is literally just saying the same thing twice. Which, again, just goes to show how far c!Dream is willing to go in order to keep holding onto a feeling of control, that--once again! Is emphasized by both ccs AND by the literal text (as we can see that c!Dream at no point is able to actually use the "leverage" he has over c!Wilbur from reviving him to do LITERALLY ANYTHING AT ALL) as not existing in any meaningful manner. This isn't a case of c!Wilbur having an inflated sense of self-importance or a case of him pushing his way into this conflict recklessly w/ a delusional belief that his pitch will work. This is a case of c!Wilbur (as is like, usually the case with him and c!Dream) reading c!Dream like an open book and getting exactly what he fucking wants by force, literally shouting down at c!Tommy and c!Dream until they both comply.

(And it's worth pointing out that like. This whole thing does have a visible toll on c!Dream. He's extra jumpy and defensive in the stream on the same day after Inconsolable Differences, says he went for a stroll outside the prison (something he basically Doesn't Do after he gets the prison back in Daedalus) explicitly to "keep his mind wandering," he bristles at the perception that he's being accused of a terrorist--the exact wording that c!Wilbur uses against him when he makes him write the book in the prison. c!Dream's behavior, while not yet pushed to the point where he starts lashing out in self-defense, was pretty obviously off as soon as c!Wilbur started making demands--he grows quieter, more still, visibly less comfortable--honestly, not at all unsimilar to certain behaviors that we saw in the prison arc.)

And I mean. At the end of the day. Why wouldn't c!Dream want some reason to believe that c!Wilbur would work with him? Why wouldn't he want some kind of leverage? The guy is pretty obviously worried about him, if not outright scared of him. He was ranking c!Wilbur with the likes of c!Sam and c!Quackity when he mentions him in the Finale, for god's sake. c!Wilbur was the person that first called him the tyrant that c!Dream ends up believing he has always been. c!Wilbur was the originator of L'manburg, which c!Dream blames for the literal loss of his home. c!Wilbur is like. Extremely charismatic, extremely good at convincing people that he's well-meaning, that what he's saying is right, that this-person-is-the-enemy and you-want-to-stand-for-freedom and that so-and-so is a cause worth dying for, isn't it. c!Dream was The-Man-That-L'manburg-Opposed from the minute that c!Wilbur decided so and this narrative would follow him literally for the rest of his life.

So yeah c!Dream wanted to keep c!Wilbur alive out of the delusional belief that doing so would mean he has leverage over him. Why he wants that leverage (even though he never uses it and the fact that it literally doesn't exist), I mean.

#my asks !! #c!dreamisms #like id say that if there's anywhere c!wilbur makes an error in judgement here #it's prooooobably in assuming that c!dream still has his eyes set on fucking with c!Tommy for the sake of his goals #because honestly i've always read the whole staged finale false ending of it all and giving him the discs as just. #kinda avoiding the kid that's made himself a constant thorn in his side over those two vinyls since forever #but then again maybe the main reason why we didn't see that much post-prison c!discduo #was because c!dream was literally just too busy holing himself up in the prison obviously unwell scrawling over the walls unintelligbly #but in assuming that c!dream will prioritize keeping him alive like. he was spot on. he was absolutely 100% accurate #dream would prioritize everything except like basically his own literal life to keep a feeling of control over wilbur #that was completely unbased in reality #the main question i had at the time was whether or not c!wilbur actually believed that c!Dream had that power over him or not #and after rereading the reddit post a few times and just looking at the end of the server i feel like. it's pretty fair to say #that like. he didn't. c!wilbur was kinda aware that c!Dream's feeling of power was just a feeling imo #and that these false concessions of agency to c!Dream were the most effective way to get him to do what c!Wilbur wanted #[stares at my vassal demons] #anyway

[themyscirah]

This is technically a Diana's age poll but I framed it partially around Julia's rescue because that's the event I need to contextualize and whether or not Diana is a thing yet is p important for my purposes. I would keep the Pérez run and postcrisis continuity in mind when answering this bc that's when this is relevant but I'd keep in mind that even though Diana is very young there (like early 20s) we don't know I don't think if she ages differently as a child (esp as a themysciran AND being made from clay) and in some versions she is older than she looks and was made earlier

Edit: I accidentally logic-ed this out in the tags lol 🤦‍♀️but feel free to still vote however you want. Going to publish this anyway bc I think I made some good points later in my tags

#blah #the 45 years is a guesstimation of julias age w her being in her late 40s #bc she has a middle school aged daughter which would make you lean a bit younger but shes also highly respected prof at harvard (is she the #dept head? i think so. and has a career that would suggest older. and shes also drawn middle aged so 🤷‍♀️ #i would say late 40s early 50s for her honestly. but i moved it down a lil bit bc of vanessas age #wait shit i may have contradicted logic here bc wasnt the diana trevor stuff supposed to have happened before dianas birth. and that was #wwii. which would be btwn 42 and 45 years. BC PÉREZ!TREVOR IS OLD I FORGOT THAT #okay so actually there still could be a question of what happened first the timeline would just be much shorter #but then wouldnt julias family be boating during wwii? that makes no sense #im definitely thinkimg too hard about this probably. logically it would make the most sense if diana was like 20smth in reality. but thats #its own basket of worms honestly. like what do you mean hippolyta only had like 20 yrs w her daughter out of a lifespan of thousands of #years. what do you MEAN she became champion and ambassador so young like #like also thats the point though. she had to wear a mask in the challenge for a reason. her inexperience with men is what makes her the kind #of ambassador they need. and her youth and relation to hippolyta and role as the baby of the amazons is one of the things that makes her #ambassadorship SO important is bc she fulfills that role in an ancient sense. where it would be a sign of great trust and respect to send #someone close to the crown as an envoy bc it shows you mean business and arent going to reneg on whatever the deal is. bc if you do they #shoot the messenger #god anyways i very much answered my own question here in the tags like 100%. esp in regards to the pérez canon bc he very much laid this out #and i was trying to weasel my way out of it. only that didnt work and the decisions he made he made for a reason and they have huge #narrative importance. damn. okay then #i always write the shittiest posts and the best tags and then have to keep the post to keep the tags #i rlly need to make these tags posts ugh. anyways keeping this up bc of my tags abt diana and ambassadorship #also sidenote I LOVE HIPPOLYTA #just though id mention that. i love how much shes motivated by love and i also love when she makes fucked up decisions bc of that and has to #live with them. woman of all time FOR REALS #god this is making me want to reread historia again lol bc its the one ww comic i own. also its fire. and hippolyta gets to make shitty #decisions motivated by emotion and live w the consequences. and the comic is actually good unlike when that happened in the messner-loebs #run. which was the other instance of that ive read rlly. 10000% sure there are others but i havent fully gotten there yet. #i mean ive read other comics where she makes painful decisions thats like her whole deal but there are different vibes to those than the two #i mentioned. like the exile thing in ww year 1 or rlly anytime she has to send diana away

[mishy-mashy]

Hi! I noticed you bring up fanfiction every once in a while, so do you have an ao3?

I DO

But the stuff I post here isn't actually written out and posted anywhere else, and my ao3 (posted stories) is pretty bare. Like, I only touch it to read other people's stuff at this point

Everything I do write is OC stuff though, and that's not everyone's jam

The stuff I do post here all comes from my notes for said fic ideas. They're all fleshed out enough that I can write them into proper stories. Like, the whole plot is figured out, I know where to end, character perspectives, all that jazz. I just don't write them out, since I don't have that motivation, and the stories would end up huge

I don't like posting the actual stories either. People have asked for updates on the new chapters I just put down, and I've run into a lot of copy-pasters. Even the few things I have on ao3 is having a mimic somewhere. So I otherwise keep everything to myself, or post little things here

I've been going through my past stuff lately to reorganize. It's fun. Even if they're old (some are over 5 years old), I find little gems that surprise me like these

(Unordinary; Re:Zero; BNHA)

Like- they aren't that bad. That's surprising. How old are these things???

#/THE FIRST ASK ABOUT MY FIC STUFF?!/ #anon take this crown and commemorative sash this is monumental #ask #fic #my drafts are HUGE so writing them into actual proper fanfics would be. very big #the average is 150k words the low-end is 40k and a lot of them have too many words that google docs glitches #and ive had to make multiple drafts to hold everything #i tried writing one out once and ended up stopping because the glitching from all the words was making it impossible to continue #capped out at *checks notes* 103k words #the word count mentioned in the previous tags are talking about the word count for NOTES. i think an actual story would become abysmal #i like planning stuff. a lot #the biggest one is for a bnha resistance fic at *checks calculator* 260k words #but its really unmotivating to know people just want content and to take my words for their own #REPEATEDLY. even the small stuff is being yoinked #im serious. Actually everything ive posted as an actual story has been copied by someone else and advertised as their own. im tired of that #but i like writing so i do it in private. mainly away from the eyes of the internet #excerpt from an old unordinary fic #and a rezero fic where groovy gets hugged and is screaming like hes watching his firstborn be slaughtered before his eyes #my drafts surprise me sometimes because huh. this is not that bad for 6 years ago #an unordinary (webtoon) excerpt cuz i was organizing my stuff and ran into an old draft of it. now its trying to weedle its way to the ligh #thank u for the ask anon #if someone asked for more about the small things i /do/ show id probably panic cuz. no one ever asks. what do i say??? oh no im CRINGE #/lh #a lot of nonrom actually. most of it is. including that 3rd excerpt #all the excerpts actually #oc #out of context excerpts

[meringuejellyfish]

here we go, i went ahead and made more proper compilations of neopet brushes for my silly purposes

- the idea is that you take requests where others will give you a brush and a character, and after that you just go crazy and interpret it however you like ! -

 this has been one of my favorite art challenge concepts for years, it just itches something in my brain.

 -> my one piece of personal advice for this is that going with instinct and interpreting a brush however you like is good, but if youre looking for a little inspiration then seeing how different pets look when painted by certain brushes can be fun! for example, the transparent brush makes their skeletons visible, and maraquan is aquatic themed !

brushes excluded (for a multitude of reasons

-stone paint brush

-lutari island paint brush

-invisible paint brush

-lost desert paint brush

-mystery island paint brush

-scritchy sketchy paint brush

-swamp gas paint brush (sorry to the true swamp gas heads out there i guess.

-tyrannian paint brush

#neopets #art challenge #? #sniffle i didnt expect so many people to actually be into this idea when i asked for requests on my art blog #so i feel a little bit bad for not making nice compilations from the start but if anything uhmm maybe you guys gotta take another round of #requests. LOL #im glad everyone is having fun :-) !!!!! again no need to credit me or ask for permission or whatever. i dont own this idea #i think having a tag for this would be a little overkill but if you do partake in this at all id love to see ^__^ !!!! just so fun yay yahoo #i tried to be fair and not exclude a brush just because they werent my favorite. but some of the brushes on here are on thin ice #im just gonna ramble at this point uhmmm. i love art . and silly art challenges. !!!!! and the opportunity to draw favorite guys ... #guys. im the most serious person alive. this is so serious to me #sorry this post isnt formatted like a proper reblog ask game thing or whatever. you guys can just take these and put them on your blog if #you want

[designernishiki]

shout out to my poor unfortunate mother having to listen to me record and re-record rouge of love on the piano 3000 times because we live in a small house and i can’t find my usb drive to record via midi instead and use headphones right now

#you WILL hear rouge of love a billion times. it is not a choice #also machinegun kiss but what else is new #I recorded the backtrack for machinegun kiss not actually for a piano melody on top of it it’s meant for singing over technically #but. still works. so i recorded it anyway #ironically i doubt I’ll post anything right now though cause realistically it will bother me if I don’t record via midi instead so I can go #in and clean stuff up in post on my computer and whatnot #and the quality is just. infinitely better when exporting midi files instead of just recording me playing via earbud mic #you don’t have to hear my fingers on the keys and shit or any background noise At All #it’s satisfying………gotta find a fuckin flashdrive man #as for machinegun kiss. I actually am pretty okay with one of my lq piano/vocal cover recordings but. im way too self conscious to post that #lmao. maybe I’ll share it with someone. one day. #I do like hearing my own voice though simply cause it’s nice to be reminded how much my voice has lowered over the span of almost 2 #years on t……I have a weirdly similar vocal range to kiryu’s right now which is. something #like I don’t even have to transpose machinegun kiss into another key. kiryu’s is perfectly fine #adachi’s is slightly higher than is comfortable for me (id have to more or less belt the chorus and yeah I could technically but. it’s #exhausting and I have less vocal control. which I need a lot of. becuase i already put a lot of effort into controlling my voice due to t #making it not nearly as malleable and effortless as it used to be haaaaah) #kiryu’s (and kuroda’s by association I assume) vocal range is pretty small and most of his songs are within a small range of keys. he rarely #truly belts and rarely does higher adlibs or anything like that. #so for me- since my vocal range as shrunk significantly on t- his songs/song keys are convenient #but yeah #anyway #no one asked #rambling

[bluejaybytes]

like idk their personality what they look like their motives/views? I'm just curious lol

So, first things first. Shockingly, I've actually posted... basically all of my recent art! I normally RARELY post my art on Tumblr, but I've bene in a sharing mood as of late and have been posting things only a few hours after I finish them, so there's honestly... not much new I can post since the only thing that hasn't been posted is a WIP that I'm already planning on posting when it's done (And it is Not in a state I'm ready to post it lol). THAT SAID! I'm gonna talk about Scarlet because she's got art I haven't posted here before <3 Everything's below the cut, because I anticipate this being... very long and rambly. Whoops lol <3

(Note: I put this in a word counter after writing it. It's over 2.3k words. Apologies for being unable to write in anything shorter than an essay)

Normally I don't post anything that's not completely finished, and while the "main" drawing of her is finished in the sense I'm not going back to add to it further, it hasn't been properly colored or lined, it's just cleaned up sketches, so I haven't posted it before. It's a good few months old and it shows, but it's honestly fine lol. The icon is from earlier this week however, I just typically don't post the icons on their own, since I've made a ton of them and also showed them off in the relationship web I posted last week (Which honestly I will probably post again once a few more OCs have their icons made and added properly)

Scarlet's from the Octarian domes, specifically one that hosts a decently large amount of residential areas, and has two younger sisters, Crimson and Ruby. Scarlet's around ~24, Crimson's ~21, and Ruby's ~17, and they're all quite close growing up, with Scarlet very much embracing her role as the oldest of the bunch and always sticking by them. In fact, it's her desire to be close with her sisters that essentially ends what was a promising career as a weapons engineer for her early. Weapons engineering is a very prestigious role, and Scarlet's both incredibly interested in it and also genuinely very good at it, but due to how highly it's regarded, it also means she'd be unable to be around her sisters anymore, as she'd be too busy with training and working in other domes and with other engineers, so she ends up leaving weapons engineering behind, and instead just trains as a regular soldier.

Even with her staying in a more average position, she's still very talented, and she fairly quickly ascends through the ranks and ends up as an Elite and assigned her own squad to lead, stationed out in the outskirts of the dome she grew up in. Despite her rank as an Elite however, she keeps the traditional red coloration that's typically only for lower ranked soldiers, both as it's a shared family color, and her squad all respect her enough that she doesn't feel she needs to conform very strictly to the hierarchy for colors to have them recognize her as in charge.

Through her own request, Crimson, who's just a regular soldier, is part of her squad, and while their job is considered very important, as they guard the exits between the domes and the surface, it's still... very boring. There's really nothing around, and most of their days are just... patrolling, finding nothing, going back to camp. It's a very soulsucking job for her in all honesty, a lot of the glamor that draws people in to the military life is just... nonexistent. It's miserable and she's achieving nothing. She stays where she is, she wants to be there with Crimson, and she gets to stay, while not really... in contact with Ruby, as there's no cell service all the way out where they are, but close enough to Ruby that if there was some family emergency, she'd be able to get home quickly to be there with her. At this point, she's just counting the days until she's able to quit, or at the very least, take an extended break to go back home and feel like a person again.

It's on one of her patrols, however, that she ends up running into May. She'd gotten the command to stay alert for some teenage runaways that'd escaped police capture a few months prior, but, unbeknownst to her, May was one of them. While she'd never really known May specifically, she'd been the childhood best friend of Ruby, so Scarlet knew her from all the time that Ruby had spent with her, and all that she talked of her. She'd already been feeling miserable and disillusioned with her life as a soldier at this point, and the realization that this fugitive she'd been keeping an eye out for was a kid she personally knows, and knows wouldn't be a runaway for no reason, is just another moment of question for her.

May doesn't really recognize her at first, with it having been years since Scarlet had actually been home, but once Scarlet calls her by name, May remembers her, and pleads to not be taken back home. Scarlet, while not knowing her exact motives for running away, definitely empathizes in that moment, as someone who's tired of the miserable state they're living in, and she also just can't sit idly by watching a homeless teen beg to be given even the slightest mercy. She tells May she's not going to turn her in, and instead invites her to sit down and just talk with her. Neither have had any new company in months at this point, so she figures it'll benefit them both.

Their conversation goes well, and while May isn't willing to talk about the circumstances that've lead to her being on the run, they both are very clearly able to recognize themselves in each other. In the end, Scarlet knows she can't just let a homeless teen go hungry, and tells May to meet her out there the next day at the same time, and that she'll give her some of her rations for that day to hopefully help out a bit. May's still a little unsure, especially since she doesn't like to stay in one place for too long, as well as the fact she's still trying to find her way to the surface, but she's not really in a position where she feels she can deny a safe, reliable food source, so she agrees.

It's, of course, at their next meeting that Scarlet notices May barely picking at the food she's brought. It's at this point Scarlet realizes that May's not just one of the runaways she'd heard about, but that she's the one who's known to be traveling with a kid. May hadn't wanted to actually talk about it before, as her little sister, June, stays behind at their temporary camp for her own safety while May goes out scavenging for food and looking for a way out, but this only further pushes Scarlet into wanting to help her. She already felt like she had a moral obligation to help May before, but now knowing she's also got a kid with her means Scarlet absolutely can not and will not let them go without her help, at least as much as she can offer.

Scarlet ends up going from giving half of her own days food rations, to stealing from the food supply, as well as grabbing some spare clothes, to make sure May and June have enough to eat and take care of themselves a bit better than they were before. Ultimately, her squad can always request more supplies, but May and June aren't in a position to help themselves like she can. This, however, does not go unnoticed. Her squad notices the lessened rations, and ask her what she thinks is happening. She insists it must be a sea slug, or at least some kind of animal that got into their food supplies, it's happened before, it's fine, they can just go ask for backup, don't worry about it. For the most part, her squad accepts her dismissal of the topic. They do find it weird, but ultimately, Scarlet has never been one to do anything like this before, and the long time away from home has been weighing on everyone, so it's most likely just stress getting to her.

Crimson notices, though. She also notices Scarlet's retreat from their usual nightly chats, instead opting to go on "destress walks", or "extra patrols", excuses varying from night to night. Scarlet's dismissal of the issue, her increasing time spent away from camp, and her lessened time spent with her all eventually push Crimson into stalking her on one of her times out of camp, and watches from a distance as Scarlet actively betrays her squad and her duties as a soldier to hide, feed, and protect a fugitive runaway. Crimson absolutely loses it, jumping out from her hiding place and revealing herself to have seen everything, and tells Scarlet she needs to hand May over now. Scarlet just can't do it. She hesitates before telling Crimson she won't, not because she's hesitating in her decision, but because she's scared of admitting it. She doesn't want to live this life, where a scared, homeless teenager and her little sister are expected to instantly be arrested and turned in, where they guard the exit to somewhere they're constantly told is hostile to them, yet have spent all of this time and never seen a proper enemy soldier. She's not going to turn May in for the crime of wanting to leave. And then Crimson attacks her

Scarlet wasn't sure how Crimson was going to react, but it certainly wasn't what she was expecting, as Crimson ends up pulling out a pocket knife she'd been carrying, and fully intends to seriously harm her. Scarlet's caught entirely off guard, and the fight goes very poorly for her, especially considering Scarlet's only weapon was an Octo Shot she didn't have ready, and even if she did, she doesn't want to attack her little sister. Eventually she's able to muster the strength to attack back enough that she gets Crimson off of her, and down long enough for her to take off running. May had bolted the moment the fight broke out, and Scarlet has no idea where she ran off to, but she knows her way out of the domes, having been patrolling the outskirts for this long

It's still over a days walk to the exit before Scarlet is far enough out from her camp that she feels safe enough that she can stop, and really assess the damage Crimson did to her. She's lucky in the sense she'd been carrying some basic first aid supplies on her when everything happened, she always liked having it on her just in case one of her squadmates needed it, but it ends up being enough to prevent her from getting any of her wounds infected. However, the damage is still fairly bad, even if she's able to stop it from getting worse, with Crimson having nearly fully blinded her in one eye, as well as giving her some nasty wounds that eventually scar over. Ultimately, she's lucky she didn't lose the eye entirely, but it's still an absolutely miserable experience regardless.

From there, she makes it to the surface surprisingly easily. She knew the way out, and the exit she took wasn't too far from Inkopolis, so she's able to get there within the month. Her positioning right next to the surface meant she was already required to know some of the Inkling language, so while she's not at all fluent, she's able to get by enough that she's able to pawn off her armor, as well as practically anything that isn't directly necessary to her survival. Her armor specifically is important however, as she wants to get rid of anything that could potentially relate her to being an Octoling soldier, and while she doesn't realize that really no Inklings would think anything of it, she can't risk it. She uses the funds to get herself a place to stay for a while, and is finally able to just rest for a minute.

From there, she actually adjusts surprisingly well to everything on the surface. Her skill with weapon tech is actually in very high demand, as the need for weaponsmiths and repair workers is at an all time high, so she's able to get an apprenticeship at a repair shop in quick time, and not only does it pay well, but she loves the work. While it's not the same as what she was training to do in the military, weapons engineering, she just loves working with weaponry as a whole, and while she doesn't personally play, it's also a reassuring notion for her that she's able to pursue a lifelong passion of hers in a way that isn't actually tied to war and combat, it's all just a silly game everyones playing, there's no actual stakes

It's around two years before she ends up seeing May again, however. After the fight broke out, May ran back to her camp, grabbed June, and just... picked a direction and ran. It took another few months wandering lost before May was actually finally able to make it out, and given how big of a city Inkopolis is, she and Scarlet don't run into each other naturally for quite a long time. They both carry around a lot of guilt surrounding the situation though. Scarlet feels as if she basically just... abandoned May, who was in this desperate situation, and that she should've made more of an effort to look for her before she just left, and May feels like she's responsible for everything that happened to Scarlet. The two meet when May, going in for weapons adjustments to make sure everythings up to date for league regulations for June's first time trying out a game of Turf War, ends up at the shop Scarlet works at. The two are overjoyed to see that they've both settled remarkably well in on the surface, and that they both even made it out in the first place. It alleviates a lot of that guilt for both of them, as while they both end up feeling as though they should've handled the situation differently, this is at least proof neither party ended up worse off afterwards. They're also able to stay in touch after this, which helps them both feel a little less alone as one of only a few dozen Octolings in hiding on the surface.

Ultimately, this is where I stop being able to describe things solely from Scarlet's point of view, as when Crimson reenters the story, there's a lot of extra context that needs to be added as to why everything worked out the way it did, and somehow this has already ended up longer than the time I laid out literally the entire plot of all of my main OCs. Good lord above. I was not joking when I said this would take a long time to write and when I said I'd write a lot.

Sincerely, thank you so much for asking, I do apologize for letting this one... also get out of hand, since this is... a lot of text for anyone to read through, but I do so, so very much appreciate the chance to let myself just kinda shed the feeling of cringe for a moment and just let myself infodump about my OCs lol. Peace and love on planet earth <3

#my OCs #my art #i uh #yeah. #2.3k words. #NEXT AUTISM OC POST WILL BE ABOUT RUBY. I GUARANTEE YOU. #shes the one who's getting art rn thats taking forever but Will Be Posted Eventually. #umm id also like to elaborate on Crimson post-attack at some point. but oh boy she ALSO has a lot going on. so. yknow #autism. moment. #i know ive said it a lot already but still thank you sooo much <3 i really really do appreciate it more than i can express #My own OCs are a special interest for me which is. its hard. #what do you MEAN if i want content of my special interest I HAVE TO MAKE IT MYSELF???? #anyways. thank u <3 #(id also like to elaborate on June at some point. shes like. Literally one of the ones with the most thought put into- #-yet she has BARELY appeared in my autismposting bc May is more directly plot moving) #the squits

[sinful-sheepie]

its so funny to me how many people just. dont like belphegor at all like YEAH ok he killed us and hated humans but like. idk i dont entirely blame him considering everything that happened with lilith, even if i dont agree with it.

but like after all that he literally just becomes another guy. a really sleepy one which like. BIG mood ngl. and then him and beel are just so wonderful together i love when they have scenes together its just so good aishufsdhfihdg theyre like the only brothers that get along more often than not i think its sweet

he was traumatized and lashed out unfairly, which isnt okay at all but as someone whose been in very traumatic situations... things are very black and white and obvious to you only because youre in defensive mode? bad way to explain it but its not easy to control when youve never had the tools to do so, only after therapy have i been able to be like... normal with my emotions?

NO HATE NOR JUDGEMENT to anyone who doesnt rock with him obvs! people have different tastes i just think its kinda funny how much vitriol some people have toward him and him only, and none of the other guys

#Obey Me Shall We Date #Wy Rambles #Belphegor #tbh i am probably biased because of all the 7 sins i embody sloth the most #and i have an emo boy bias as is #also like since its all fictional to begin with and most of them are demons i really dont think anything hes done has been really THAT bad #like sounds par for course for demons imo #they EAT people like this has been said so killing MC and hating humans is just. what id expect. #this post is specifically about the people who just hate him and make a big thing of it #like ill be honest it took me a bit to warm up to lucifer and i think satan is a tad boring and one note but i still like them #mammons my number 1 always though #idk if any of this makes any sense lmao #and this might be a type of person only ive come across too #but in the end it doesnt really matter cause its just fictional character thoughts and everyone is free to have #their own opinions and thoughts and im not gonna judge people for those unless theyre bigoted about it

[sakebytheriver]

....

#love how i lost a follower because i called the pirate show a slave owner pirate show and they said i was being bad faith 😭😭 #and then when i explained my reasons and dressed down why i dont want to watch two slave owners and traders fall in love #very patiently if i do say so myself they decided to unfollow rather than confront why they think its #in their own words ok to use slave owners as characters since there were lots of slave owners before the 1900s and there still are #so what we just arent allowed to use them as characters now #like yeah buddy i dont think we should be using slave owners and traders as characters in uwu gay fantasy shows #i think its a good rule of thumb that we dont turn slave owners and traders into white gay icons that parasocial tenderqueers go to #the graves of to do some cutesy little ceremonies to honor them as if theyre these peoples blorbos from history #dw babe i blocked you so youll never see anpther post from me 💋 #like EXCUSE ME for thinking some kitchsy little comedy show shouldnt pinkwash two ACTUAL slave owners from history #like im so very sorry i told you that i want better representation for gay people than LITERAL SLAVE OWNERS #i guess im not a very good ally 🙄 #the way they were like we should give them a pass because theyre a big show that is bringing marginalized people to the public in good ways #as if we dont live in an age where we have more rep than ever before and have to give a pass to a show that decided to make two slave owners #into two little uwu smol bean gays for the tumblr communitys consumption 🙄🙄🙄 #i just know they unfollowed because i said id seen better rep and better writing elsewhere 😪 #like no way that wasnt what offended them most 😂

[skitskatdacat63]

Yayyyyyyyy finally working on my pinned post :D having fun :D

Its funny to me cause I'll do these super organizational things for fandom purposes and genuinely have fun with it, but then would rather die than be even remotely organizational for school

#theres two wolves inside of me: #meticulously tagging my tumblr and photo gallery(this is one example) #vs: all of my school papers no matter the class are just shoved into my backpack all together #my parents are always like why cant you put this focus into school #dont you understand that my blorbos arent there :< #anyways one day ill actually post my pinned post #its that kinda thing where i cant stop adding to it and itll never be perfect so it just sits on my draft #but atm im going through and making a directory for all my race gifposts #looking at 2005 in January is crazy bcs wow i really did do 9 races in a week #its sooooooo satisfying to have 2005 be completely finished #itll be cool to (hopefully) see the other seasons begin to rack up while 2023 is slower #as ive mentioned a bit still a little wild for me to be at the same place at both 2009 and 2023 #ngl....imola being canceled is satisfying for me bcs it means Monaco is in its rightful place as Round Six #id have to check but like...in most seasons in the past 2 decades monaco is generally the 6th #so that it lines up makes me happy bcs consistency is key!! #tho I wonder if ill watch several races before 2023 monaco hmm probably! #ah anyways having fun looking through these older posts bcs tumblr's tagging system sometimes sucks #like you know when you look up your own post on your own blog and it doesnt show up???? bugs me sm #catie.rambling.txt

[queerghostboyo]

feelin very hashtag girlboy rn

#was looking at pictures of cool people on pinterest #like ughhhh #saw some cool alt girls with piercings and now I'm like ultra gendering #do i wanna id as female? #no fuck that lmao #but also i do not wanna be seen as binary male #gotta love a bit of gender panic at 1 am on a sunday #anyways this just helps remind me that i still don't present the way i actually want to most days #like I'm definitely more comfortable that i used to be #but still I'm not where i wanna be #transgender #wow i make my own posts sometimes #gender fuckery #look at later #i guess just to remind myself #(also honestly can't tell if i feel girlboy or boygirl)

[thewitchqueen281]

hot take but.

rf4 is fine.

rf5 is still better.

#rune factory 5 #the 3d is pretty #i think its a wonderfully colorful game #and if you somehow think the older games look better your out of ur mind #sega ass graphics #the old games hold up but like #rf5 also have more intresting towns folk then like most of rf4 #i LIKE a lot of the rf4 characters but they are extremely generic anime #also amber #need i say more on That Topic #u may have issues with fuuka (of which i could make my own post about.) #but we all have to admit #WILD step up from amber #so y3ah ny 2 cents #ifs a pretty game #and i dint need perfectly rendered trees #in fact id rather have shitty back fround trees it adds smth to the setting #reminds u of how human the people making this are

[pinkseas]

cquackity reminds me a little bit of keith in the boogie man but not keith as a person very specifically like. keith perceiving the boogie man as a jokester and a sort of fucked up reflection of himself when he was actually cold and calculating to the others, and seeing all the graffiti and hearing the phones ringing all the time and such. risking his life to save someone and then making a joke of it and laughing it off instead of acknowledging what he’d just done. and that one bad ending- the villain takes and takes and takes and in the end he wins, and when he takes the mask off youre staring at your own face, you are your own worst enemy, youre ruining your own life. not ENTIRELY. not that much. but like al ittle bit on accident because my brain keeps making leaps to connect the dsmp and the strange men series

#tubbo is most like sophie easy #someone dear to him is overworked and he blames his own perceived selfishness for it and decides to never be a burden again #holding his tongue against people who hurt him and friends who dont care for him #OH MY GOD WAIT #ranboo would be anne #and r//gan (trigger name for one of the besties so just in case) would be tommy #that fits strangely well #BUT YEAH just. never speaking up never making himself known keeping all of his hurt locked away #to the point of losing sleep and never expressing himself as a person #and the parallels between him and the sandman whos been overworking himself selflessly for CENTURIES before finally deciding he needs rest #likeeeeeee #fuck #with tubbo being so much like sophie i almost started wondering if quackity could be more like david #and it lines up a LITTLE bit but #david being unable to stand up for himself and not always reliable doesnt feel accurate to quackity at all #the depression the being abandoned by loved ones and trying to get back on his feet sure #following the worlds wildest goose chase and being at his core Very Kind and braver than he'd probably expect of himself sure #but idk. idk !!!!!!!!!! idk. #he reminds me more of david post-development honestly but davids situation in the crooked man...... id have to rewatch the game. tbh. #im trying way too hard to draw connections between such VASTLY different sources #aly aly oxenfree #strange men posting

[volfoss]

God I cannot wait for the weather to get less cold so I can do doll faceups

#twist rambles #like. i hate how msc (sealant) doesnt work in certain temps like dear god i have so many faceups to do #i have a new doll coming (my grail which ough. so excited starts sniffling and sobbing) and i have a kinda complex faceup planned and i + #need to do the faceup on my new 1/4 doll because my god the face and body do not match lmao. and need to redo the faceup on my big doll and #the teensy little cyclops doll. need to do soooo many faceups and obviously cant do that rn bc im like. stuck on the couch and its cold #outside so im just like 😡😡😡 weather get better soon PLEASE. i have so much work 2 do #rly hope ill do good enough that ill wanna post pics and stuff :) haven't done bjd faceups in years but ive also done a lot of painting on+ #ponies so i feel i can handle it. plus ive gotten better w eyeliner and my own makeup in general so i think I'll be able to make it more + #symmetric and stuff bc ough i was bad at that before. my only fear w my new doll is the pastels will not show up bc it has grey resin so im #like ough... might have to just do most of it in acrylics<- guy who does not wanna use acrylic paint bc id have to buy so many colors #the faceup i have planned is rly bright and neon so idk if i did acrylic i could do like glow in the dark paint maybe that could be fun... #hi sorry the tags r rambly im soooo upset i cant rly do anything artsy rn lmao