#my man dont get it twisted

[demobatman]

i love joseph quinn because he leans into being just some freak guy. hes so awkward in photoshoots. he answers interview questions so lackadaisically. he'll lick his costars hand in the same interview. he will only talk about pistachio affogato. i want to dissect him.

#that fucking ONE RESTAURANT HE LIKES #god he is my taurus king #hes literally so fucking. humble. is the word #like the way he answers questions so unseriously #'whats ur relationship to fragrance' 'i like smelling good' LIKE. #im Obsessed with him #'explain ur magnetism on screen' 'i eat magnets. no sorry bad joke' YOU R MY BEST FRIEND #so chill so stupid im in love with him #exactly how i would be answering questions #joseph quinn #eddie munson #yeah Yeah he gets tagged too #stranger things #st 4 #'hes not awkward in photoshoots' he aint modeling neither ill tell you that #he aint bad lookin he just cant model and that is okay he isnt one #hes cheesing in all of them bc hes just having a good time #my man dont get it twisted #he looks like someone having fun being photographed #bc he IS.

[kenchann]

gear upgrade! 🤖 also theyre 2nd years now

#twisted wonderland #twst #ツイステ #ツイステッドワンダーランド #mmarts #twst yuu #twst oc #twst grim #ortho shroud #ace trappola #deuce spade #epel felmier #jack howl #sebek zigvolt #sorry my handwriting looks like shit asddsf #also i wanna draw more of these but i cant- my old man back is killing me im gonna mimir #maybe ill draw a part 2 who knows #ive been wanting to draw this but i just got to it #dont worry epel your gonna get hit with the growth spurt 😅

[lemonrin-i]

Ace the type of guy to run away from his feelings but the moment someone other than him hits on you he's running straight back to you

#twisted wonderland #twst #twstプラス #ace trappola #aceyuu #ace trapolla x reader #🍋citrus_thunks #man my hands are itching to write a short snippet of this #ace: bro i may have commitment issues but dont flirt with other guys #he also seems like the type to sit in between you and some other guy once u guys get too close

[artheresy]

Thinking more about Ruan Mei and I am trying to grapple with the fact that on some level in a way I can’t describe, I feel super strongly connected to her and in a way either understand or even relate to her

But like, I can’t fully explain it properly

Something about even with her strong knowledge, she is still struggles to properly feel and properly express and understand certain emotions and it’s one among the many factors of why she ends up being almost like a hermit (which OOF I had joked to myself she’s just like me fr when they called her a hermit but after the quest its hitting a bit too hard)

Even in her mannerisms, I can’t help but relate and it’s also part of why I think I ended up liking her a lot. I’ve seen a lot of people consider her deeply like evil or something or like she’s very hateful and malicious when she truly never came across that way to me and I just.. can’t see that. I can see the mad scientist in her, there’s no denying that. But she comes across as extremely morally ambiguous and perhaps a bit obsessive regarding her research rather than actively cruel or mean and I firmly believe she’s intended to come across that way looking at her dialogue and the way she behaves. I just can’t see her as evil or anything, probably because there are parts of her behaviors I know well

And again a huge part of my love for her comes from how her story and character is tied to the Aeons, and I fucking adore Aeon lore, I am praying for more like PLEASSEE

Even this didn’t get out all my feelings or fully explain what I think about her but y’know maybe later I’ll find the words I need

#i want to add #every since i saw the thing about the nous like ‘genius individuals with autistic tendencies’ I have been firmly like RUAN MEEII #As someone who autistic #Ruan Mei reads as an autistic character to me #and that line about erudition from wherever it was from (the font and format are just like some of the other things) is an acknowledgment #autism in hsr and it leaves me like HMMM RUAN MEI IS #She is I feel it in my bones her relationship with her emotions is very… yes #man why do I have a thing for characters with obsessive tendencies that I read as being autistic #(ruan mei and yingxing) #my beloved ilysm get behind me #youre valid if you dislike her I dont think its incorrect to dislike her #i just dont like seeing people twist her into something she isnt to either justify disliking her or claiming its these false traits of hers #that they dislike yknow? bc thats not her thats not?? shes not out here being evil and cruel in the extremely harmful sense #i dunno i really like her #i need people to understand my faint insanity about her #ruan mei #hsr #honkai star rail

[llondonfog]

For a painful soulamte au, what if the Dawn Knight was Lilias soulmate? And to make it more painful what if Dawn knew that Lilia was his soulmate somehow and still went to war with the fae because he couldn't stand to go against the family who raised him

Not a soul knew, except for Leia.

Leia knew because she knew everything about him— the leash of loyalty around his neck, the weight of despair upon his shoulders, the mark of his soulmate tattooed like a harbinger on the inside of his wrist.

Leia knew, and loved him for it all the same.

You are a knight, she would remind him on those moonless nights, delicate features as solemn as a saint as she laid her hands against the haunted hollows of his face, as merciful and sweet as her namesake. You are the only one out of them all who has the right to call himself so. What greater sacrifice have you given to my father, to our family, than the cost of love?

He loved her, too.

Her effortless charm and wit were always happy to fill his awkward and stoic silences, and she never shamed him for his reserved nature. She was a princess, born and raised to be a queen, and it sat right inside his heart that she should realize such a vision. Her kindness to their people, her kindness to her traitor of a knight— too kind, to allow him even into her arms and bed when his nerves fail him and the shadows creep in.

It's what he feels, when he places his hand on the swell of her gown, the gentle life growing inside of her: their child, steeped in kindness.

A tragic beginning that can only lead to a tragic end.

Leia is the only kindness that he's ever known, and the irony is not lost on him that she is not his soulmate, nor is he her own. She does not speak of the mark blurred and faded on her skin, and she does not press him for explanation when he disrobes for her and only her, and the bat in flight unfurls its wings upon his wrist.

She does not need to, for they both know whose standard he bears, whose symbol lays a claim that would spell betrayal and doom for his fate.

He lies there within the shelter of her embrace, her slim fingers weaving through his golden hair, and he wonders what manner of mark lies on the fae general's wrist. He wonders if it is of a gleaming sword raised to strike, or a loathsome owl, talons curled, both prepared to rid the fae of his heart and gift it to the enemy's feet. It must not be obvious, because the fae has never reacted to his presence beyond the expected vitriol to their immoral crusade. And each time that they meet, the gratitude of a coward lances through his veins for the sake of the helmet obscuring his expression— it is your eyes that give you away, Leia had murmured to him, her own dark and forgiving as they glitter in the candlelight. Your truest emotions lie within them, crystal clear and as unclouded as the brightest dawn.

He does not deserve her unshakeable belief, for he feels like the muddiest of waters, choked with debris and tainted by waste.

He does not deserve her, and as he clutches at his wrist in the night, nails all but digging into the taut flesh as if to pull the bat from his skin—

He knows that he does not deserve the general either.

#lettie's asks #lettie writes #SYNTH #can i call u synth let me know #YOU GET ME!!!! I AM EATING UP THESE PROMPTS AHHHHHH #GOING FERAL OVER THIS CONCEPT YOU GUYS DONT UNDERSTAND #does this qualify as old man yaoi #it does in my heart #um this went a whole ass direction that i was not planning #I HOPE YOU LIKE IT??? #IS THIS A THING #twisted wonderland #twst spoilers #the knight of dawn #tkod #kod #how are we tagging him #lilia vanrouge #(mentioned lol) #twst lilia #THE FANTASY SOAP OPERA IN MY MIND......

[kimikitti]

I saw this on Twitter, the challenge is draw your baby girl like this. So I think it might be fun to draw twst ocs like this

My dear friend, thank you for sending me this incredible babygirl material. As thanks, have Obi whenever he's unbanned from Monstro Lounge and Crowley stubs a toe. It's a very rare scenario, but it happens.

#twisted wonderland #twst oc #twst #twst fan art #twst grim #my art #Obi gets banned from monstro lounge a lot #watch out azul #he's coming #also #jade let this man back in #the traitor #dont worry #azul has a secret weapon #call diasomnia

[yuri-is-online]

Why do you guys want to bang Fellow? Is it because he's a fox? If I took away his ears and tail he would just be a scummier version of Ace Tra-

*I am shot and escorted from the premises*

#twisted wonderland #idk when i get a clearer handle on him I'll write something for him because i live to serve #but idk man hes just a fox #yeah i also dont get the nick from zootopia hype #kinda understand robin hood but thats because the myths were my first real special interest #anyway i am hastag team azul in the con man Olympics

[tiredofthehumanlife]

And also regulus is trans we know this but also he writes sappy poetry we also know this but like it's heinously sappy like he's fully staring at James across the room cramped in a corner (he sits in corners we know this) and he's scribbling down in dark mysterious journal "my body aches for your love just as my soul" and 100% regulus will give them to James when they're like deep into their relationship and james will tear the top corner of his potions homework and hell write "I like you too :3" anyways just saying guys they're gay

#queers #jegulus #james potter #regulus black #reggie black #i love my two little gays #me too man me too #i write crappy poetry too its alright reg #also the correct pronunciation is r-edge-ie okay dont get it twisted

[teabutmakeitazure]

me: there's cinnamon in the tea? ugh I don't like cinnamon in tea.

"you're so picky. you have to go to an unfamiliar house, so what're you gonna do if your mother-in-law likes cinnamon in tea? don't have such preferences. it's not attractive on a girl 😄"

yeah I'm busting my ass off and greying my hair and losing weight at an unhealthy rate for my degree so that a lady who I have never met in my life can dictate my life choices before I even meet her. okay.

#just because you're in an unhappy marriage doesn't mean everyone has to suffer for marriage #this probably isnt relatable but i hope people understand why sometimes i writethe shit i do #in twisted but tender the conversation reader has her mom after childe'e visit was a real conversation i had #and then they ask why i dont like the motherland #like yeah. okay. i suffered for 7 years to get into a top 30 university and am still suffering for an engineering degreefrom there just so- #-that random women who didnt even bother to read a book in their entire life because their sole purpose was to get married can tell me what- #-i should and shouldnt be doing and shame me for wanting to live for myself and not some man and his mother whom i have never met in my life #this is why i like war criminals and mentally ill and traumatised men #yeah he'd lock me up in his basement or something but at least he'd LIKE me and not treat me like a maid like the rest of you #good god man get a life and stop ruining mine #this wasnt the only thing she said #she continued to talk about how im too independent and should be eating everything and cooking everything because i wont know what my- #-mother in law and husband would like so i should be trained and not fail in that #i would love to cook for my husband and feed him and take care of him but when u shove it into my face like that I'd rather not marry at all #delete later #20k aventurine fic might take some time #sorry for the delay guys #zuri rambles

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

In a shocking turn of events after how poorly handled Look My Way was, I also don't like the new ep lol

#love framing how Stolas is literally openly mean to Blitz #and Blitz being rightfully angry about it as him just being too uwu mental ill to accept love #stolas refuses to aknowledge the class difference between them while blitz is painfully aware of it #it really doesn't feel like commentary as it is just overlooking and over simplifying it #anyway #i sorta fell out of trust/love after look my way got BUTCHERED #'for making you means to an end' what does making someone have to with blitz???? it doesn't. the line was about octavia and they cut it #they ruined paranoid's beautiful and amazing song that GAVE THEM FREE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT FOR STOLAS #but whatever i guess #love Brandon tho he's amazing as always #how do i join the viv sucks train without coming across as a morally aggrandizing puritan #i don't think shes that great as a writer but im absolutely not one of those viv haters y'all are w e i r d #helluva boss #anti stolitz #is that a thing? #blitzfizz should've been endgame #i hate u bird man i miss when u were gonna be a bad guy instead of a sympathetic colonizer #im still proship even if i hate that bird #dont get it twisted

[recitedemise]

It doesn't need to be said (I am preaching to the choir), but after seeing a very bad faith interpretation of Gale nearly half a year after release, I am going to say it again regardless!

Gale is a victim, not a perpetrator. In his relationship with Mystra, he was preyed on and hurt, not Mystra. Yes, Mystra told Gale not to seek out the missing part of Weave that is a part of her, but Gale had no idea it was Karsite in nature and was not aware he was looking for something that was actively corrupt and dangerous until Act 3. Mystra did not inform him right out the gate. Gale may have went to seek it out despite her disapproval and erred and doomed himself for it, but Gale was also aiming solely to apologize for...wanting to be her equal. And I am saying it one more time: it is NOT Gale's fault for wanting to be on the same footing with his lover. No one wants to feel like they're looking UP at their lover, beneath them and not worthy of them. Gale was groomed. Gale was preyed on and eyed by Mystra since he was a young boy. He was her pupil, she, his mentor, and later, he became her lover. Of course Gale wants to feel equal to her. Of course Gale wants to be more. How could he not want to be more, to live up to his goddess that gave him an OUNCE of her attention? Lord forbid.

Gale is not some manipulator. How the idea that he, a mere mortal, could manipulate Mystra, a goddess, is truly beyond me—a goddess who told him to literally die to earn her forgiveness. While he may have had a more haughty personality in EA and was originally supposed to have tried to usurp Mystra in CONCEPT, a lot and a considerable lot has changed upon release. Gale is remarkably human. He is remarkably honest. He is so bare, so forward, and is practically the FIRST person to reveal to you everything you need to know about him among the party if you prove yourself trustworthy, which, let's be real, is a low bar (you save a child and he's impressed. Like. Truly. The bar is THAT low). Gale is arrogant, sure, but is also remarkably modest with his desires and has befuddlingly low self confidence and self worth. He does not try to manipulate Mystra or the player into anything. He's a dying man who honestly just wants to be told he's worthy of everything as just Gale DEKARIOS, not just as Gale of Waterdeep. He's ambitious because he has lived his whole life with the impression he's only worth something if he makes himself out to be something. There is no manipulation here, just a deeply wanting man who looks at 'the world is better FOR you' like it's worth more than all the riches in the world.

Gale may have his hang ups because he is well and truly traumatized, but that's because he's absolutely the victim in his situation. I get it. He's older. He's a grown man and Mystra talked so 'calmly' and didn't physically hurt him (even though she did turn a blind eye when Gale, you know, was afflicted with and living with a bomb in his chest), but that doesn't make Mystra any less the perpetrator of his traumas.

#OOC. #TBD. #Ugh... Still bad Gale takes in Feb 2024. okayyy... #the person who typed this said gale was a classic manipulator and they def believed #he withheld information and knew the weave was karsite the whole time #okay. so. we just want to believe so badly gale is a bad guy and twist facts to suit that very #bad faith interpretation... man the way people will do anything to point at gale #and just go see hes a dangerous incel or what have you... oh. truly not... #i am also very fed up of people going 'well they talked calmly so they weren't abusive.' #no more. as someone who had to endure my abuser being 'so calm' in their nonstop condescension and manipulations like MYSTRA i am here to #say: cork it. you dont need to be sneering or yelling to be abusive. and for that matter #gale getting angry after he realizes mystra wronged him isnt abusive or toxic either. hes reacting FINALLY to the wrongs of his abuser #like. man. just enough. #i have a lot of thoughts. clearly. but gale was essentially gaslit into thinking he deserved what he got. my abuser also did that to me #and i just think we should stop blaming victims :)

[francy-sketches]

I'm gonna have to work on my final project non stop for like a month straight bc I procrastinated on it too much fuck my stupid baka life

#.txt #also I have to do a movie pitch for it bitch it's an amv with intentionally one dimensional characters 😭 tf do I even say about it #at least the characters are like. knockoff jaime and tommen so its almost like im drawing asoiaf fanart #unfortunately I've come to hate them. the knockoffs I mean #I wanna change the designs a bit so they dont resemble my blorbos as much. i think im gonna give the kid darker hair #ok well discount jaime just looks like him with 2 hands and a blue cape 💀and I cant change him atp #my worst mistake was giving him like. a solid metal skirt armor thing bc its a pain in the ass to animate #at the start of the year I had the most work done out of everyone how did this happen #its bc they started nitpicking the story and I kinda lost motivation to work on it lke this shit is stupid. and cringe #by they I mean the extra screenwriting teachers we had a couple lessons with which like. this is an animation course not a writing course #I'd get it if it was like. a full time school but we have 2 3 hour classes a week we dont have time for this shit man #ig my mistake was that my idea didn't start from the story it started from the song I wanted to make a cool music video for it #its not that the story is nonsensical or anything its just a very basic fairytale esque thing nothing groundbreaking #'but you're not SAYING anything with this' I'm not trying to omg just let me make my little amv :( #does everything need a plot twist or to subvert expectations is it not enough that it looks cool #there's a couple people who are worse off than me in terms of how much they've done but also theres a couple that are nearly done #looking at them like god I wish that were me..... #and also I think I accidentally overwrote a shot I worked on for 3 hours. killing myself #maybe I can restore a previous version but its on the school computer and the school is closed for a week so im not gonna know until then

[hauntingblue]

Ace...?? they cloned my beautiful wife...

#ace if he was born with his mother's hair but without freckles....... #this 3d intro... damn they spent their coins here but didnt age that well xd #i love how there is nearly a movie for every character that joins since usopp.... sanji got the last one. chopper has one i havent seen #and robin now.... i mean its not their movie but you know what i mean #zoro and nami on the same wavelength i miss you.... my fag and hag sisters.... #robin old design i miss you.... her and nami look so different.... not like now.... #I MISS CHOPPER OLD DESIGN HE LOOKS SO SILLY!!! #the goofy scenes are too good..... 'luffy what are you doing''nothing just a fight' 'okay dont get lost' #also sanji with robin and nami while the others fight... the girls AND sanji #this guy looks like ace with his kinds long middle part hair and eyes.... and luffy likes seeing hum fight #i am seeing things where there are non but my beautiful not dead yet wife keeps haunting me once again #seeing luffy talk about how if he dies fighting to be pirate king then so be it and like HE DID!!!! AND THAT DIDN'T STOP HIM!! #kids with guns TUN TUN kids with guns TUN TUN #robin made a gigantesco mano.... this was visionary #ROBIN giving back the gun to the child so he shoots luffy and he can bounce it back.... luffy enabler num 1. #nami threatening a child with zoros sword.... i needed this so bad. #shryer.... your drip too hard.... your swag too different.... your smoke too hot.... they will kill you #NOOOOOOO the clone of my beautiful dead wife died just like him.... face down... #the old man is dying and zoro knows.... #shryer is alive who woulda thot..... #'be serious' 'im always serious... didnt i get out?' this is him. omg #sanji with the cooking hacks for the fight.... i am sure of it... also sanji spy come back to me.... #THE BOY IS THE SISTER??? AND THE OLD MAN AND ACE CLONE ARE BLOWN UP??? #it is flour lmao they got their ideas from the fight with crocodile #everyone is alive and well 👍🏻including the hat #that was kinda beautiful with that plot twist and everyone wanting to live and all.... #nami strangling zoro!!!! more!!! #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

If youre ok w sharing then i would love to hear your thoughts on lotor........ Hes such a weird guy. Dissecting him like a frog

If i get hate for this, i am blaming you/j but in all honesty i apologize if this kinda messy, as i have said it has beem awhile since i saw any of the episodes about him. Most of it is my personal interpretation and opinions of his character-

First of all i personally hate both "L0tor is evil rapist imperialist who did not have a single redeemable quality" and "L0tor is uwu poor baby who did nothing wrong", because yeah he had good intentions and he seemed to genuinely love Alura and care for Alteans but also he very much did do a lot of things Wrong. I am pretty sure a lot of his actions fall into category of Very Wrong

Lot0r to me is an absolute control freak, he has to be 10 steps ahead of everyone, he needs to be control of the situation no matter what. Whether it be through a silver tongue or by his blade (see N@rti's death, him vs White Lion). This is as much as a ruthless strategy as it is a trauma response. Being raised under Z@rkon, a father who only saw him as inferior half-bred, he had to learn survivor tactics. He will do anything to survive whether it be beg, lie, manipulate, and kill. He is a survivor of some genuinely godawful abuse he suffered for 10,000 years, combined with racism he suffered for being half altean

However this need to be in control extends to his allies and people he cares about. I am sure Lotor may have loved Alura, it doesnt change the fact that he very much abused her trust. Their entire relationship was based on a lie. He knew Alteans were still alive and not only did he not tell Alura about it he leaned into the "last survivors of Altea" for their relationship, which is why it was doomed since the beginning. And if it had not been this, then it would have been something else. Cause lying and manipulation are very much core of his character, that is how we are introduced to him

Like i see people going "Oh Lot0r could have been good if he had therapy and a hug", and i am not really not sure about it, cause like would he? Would he choose to be vulnerable and actually let his feelings out and be truthful in a an unbiased reliable way that will neither serve him in any way nor make him look better nor is a part of some machivilian scheme he cooked up because he doesnt trust the therapist he is paying? No

And thing is he does desire connection. He looks for connection in people who are similar to him. Half galran, altean survivors, Alura these are the people who he chose to get close to. He looks for similarities, people he can relate to, people who he sees as like him, people who he thinks can give him a sense of belonging. He is deeply lonely. However his desperation for control, absolute mistrust in anyone and everyone, and his inability to be actually honest dooms any relationship he'll ever have

Also this is probably just me, but for someone who is this morally complex character he has tendency to see things in black and white? Like it is His dad and empire= bad, alteans=good. He idolizes Altea to the point of seeing it as an Utopia, and this ideal was more important to him than any Alteans who are alive and with him. I also cant remember him ever caring about someone outside of the Dichotomy. Like at most i remember is after he became the emperor Lance pointing out how other planets need to be freed and he just brushed it off

Overall he gives me the "smart people dont always make good decisions, but they are good at justifying their bad ones" vibes. We dont know exactly why he decided to use alteans as batteries but i am choosing to go with my interpretation- "Lottor saw something fucked up in that future showing space whale thingy, decided the only way to solve was altean batteries except in true self fulfilling prophecy greek tragedy way it only made things worse and started a series of event that will cause the thing he saw causing real trouble a few years after his death.

Another thing! I think it should have been him being the focus of Evil Altean episode instead of A//ura. I hate that episode and everything it stands for but like if there Had to be an evil alteans episode then it should be around someone who is you know? Obsessed with Altean culture? Is big on control and manipulation? Is more geared towards big picture and "greater good" over individual? Is worried about turning into just like his galran father and so desperately wants to connect to his idealized version of his altean mother? Yeah

#empty answers #This is the type of shit that used to get you sniped from both sides of the shitty discourse back in ye old days #I probably have more thoughts but i also need to rewatch vld to have a clearer picture #Also i dont get when people say it was bad writing that he turned out traitor #Like it was handled in abhorent way but also- we are literally introduced to him manipulating an entire audience #The fuck yall mean yall thought he was genuine?? #I used to like him but come on man #That was the most obvious disney twist villain if i have ever seen one #and vld writers are not smart enough to do something actually subversive #Also gonna be real with you while i do have a lot of thoughts of him i kinda also dont enjoy his character?? #It is-how do i put it? A bit lame #Like the eps were going on about how he is this Most Complex Character and instead we have is- #a disney twist villain and sad anime backstory that is supposed to absolve him or something #I can think of so many villains/character that had similar aspects to him but were just Way Better #A convincingly manipulative man with black and white morality who thinks he is in the right even though his actions beg to differ? #B3los is right there #Villain who uses manipulation as a defense mechanism which only drive all their friends away? Grace monr0e and Sash Waybrigt #A tragedy who just wanted peace for his people only for things to spiral so horribly they destroyed the very people they sought to protect? #M0rdred pendrag0n hnoc my beloved <33 #A hot villain who is morally reprehensible but is really hot? M3dusa G0rgon <3 #And just. I think the problem is the writers wanted him to be all of those things and he ends up being none of them #Not to mention the plot armour. You mean to tell me he is being this obvious and yet no one suspected anything?? #Yeah right. Detective!Hunk for the win! #Anyway sorry this is late and so rambly #Thanks for the ask!!!! #Anyone else reading this. This is just a personal opinion ok? No fights ok??

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

#⚠️ #personal #having ocd makes making moral decisions so fucking hard for no reason #cause ill see a post thats like info or seems important and like i can tell its that kind of post just by skimming it st first and somethin #clicks in my brain that just tells me if i dont share that post everyone will know and think im a horrible person #regardless of what the actual post is about #i need like a handbook on how to make proper moral decisions #cause like yeah i do care about things i try to share stuff about things i care about and believe are important but sometimes i dont have #the energy to read long as posts and my brain twists it to make it out that people will know and i am the bad guy #idk my ocds telling me even saying this makes me a bad person #the fact i even struggle with this #sometimes i think im not built for social media but really i think social medias not built for people like me #maybe i should get help for my ocd but the idea of describing all the shit going on in my brain to someone just makes me feel scared #cause like i dont know when to draw the line at making something a problem i should actively have a hand in helping #how much is too much when do i stop #<- in regards to my own mental health like the mental exhaustion that can come from it i hope this makes sense #like some things you gotta invest like emotional shit into and like sometimes im just tired and i come on here and im faced with one of #those posts and i just have to debate with myself what the fuck im supposed to do #this is more a me issue than anything i need to sort this shit out with some mental health professional or something #cause like i dont want to have people think i dont care about these things i do and ik pressing reblog takes like no energy but idk man #im not even sure if some of the shit i reblog is cause i care or is just an ocd compulsion #i feel like most times its both #i cant help but think im the problem here i want to be on social media its just so draining having my mind repeatedly hound me for not like #showing enough care (reblogging more posts) about a certain issue online #idk im so tired of it all im so tired of my mind i wish i didnt have ocd #vent #so funny right after i posted this i scrolled down and one of these posts was rigjt beneath it and the debate happens all over again #lord i need to get out of here

[hwaitham]

a vewy joyous vewy peaceful birthday full of lov 2 da bestest character ever n ever n ever n ever..! ( ྀི ೀ o̴̶̷᷄ o̴̶̷̥᷅ ) everyone wanting to giv him a bdai kissie pwz line up in orderly fashion ! ! tho … may i trouble u n’ ask that i go first :3 ?? hehe

#जानू ˖ ࣪⊹ #haithie day!┌|o^▽^o|┘)♪ #no amount of mi typing in all caps or keysmashing or abusing exclamation marks will suffice . #like .. i don think anyone understands how much i Love him #most times ​it feels like a knife twisting in m heart n fire scorching m blood #so visceral n fervent i am positive i hav not lovd ﾉ will never love another fictional man as much as i do alhaitham #im j sat slumped over in m bed after seeing his birthday art i love him so madly so desperately it makes mi Sad ;w; #dont even get mi started on his chibi art .. i didnt think i would cry my heart out at it like what!!!!!!! #he has fwiends!!!!! :c n he's learning to enjoy their camaraderie!!!! :c n they Care about him n love him for HIM like oh my goshhhhh!!!!!! #he's so so so loved n it makes mi tear up .. ( ′̥̥̥ ᵔ ‵̥̥̥ ྀི) #i cant even explain why im so emotional this all feels too embarrassing!!!!! #im sorrie 4 loving him so much like!!!!! T T what the heckles girlfriend r u okay!!! #sorrie ermm anw .. i hv queued up a whole buncha stwuffs last nite 2 be posted all throughout 2dai #i dont think i cn handle being online wifout being debilitated by my love for him sorrie sorri sorrie sorrie sorrie