#my throat is just closing up

[ballpitwitch]

KEANU REEVES in 1999

#😧😧😧 #Keanu Reeves #kreevesedit #keanuedit #* #don't even look at me #i'm building a time machine that's all there is to it #im fine #*narrator voice* she was not even remotely fine but she was often good at lying to herself #HAIR HOW.....HOW #i usually care about video quality but when THIS is the content of the video idc if it's 144p i will make do #they really just let him walk around like that #menace #i think my throat closed up #just kidding i'd be opening my throat #me @ me: 🔇 #*air raid sirens* #he really has just been here and gorgeous my whole damn life #such a comfort #someone reblogged one of my other sets and tagged it with 'i need him in a way that's concerning to feminism' #i've never felt so seen and understood #me: did you need to make 10? also me: coulda made 30 now apparently so.....

[a-crumb-of-whump]

Content: Asphyxiation, torture, gags.

Torturing a whumpee with a gag reflex by constantly putting gags in their mouth. Watch their eyes water as they struggle to hold back urge to heave, saliva dripping down their chin and screams barely audible because they can't breathe.

#whump #whump stuff #whump things #whump thoughts #whump tropes #whump prompts #whumpee #whumper #whump scenarios #i swear my throat closed up just writing this

[violasmirabiles]

when i say all my fic drafts are written in two languages. this is the kind of nonsense i mean

#'raises hand in universal shut up gesture and' #sometimes i just stop and sigh. not gonna change though #draftsit #also this is a kind of mild example. ive an unposted thing with swedish in the nonsense mix. #i very much doubt im ever going to 1) write an entire fanfic på svenska; 2) post it anywhere #lack the fluency and VERY MUCH lack the confidence even though this is all very silly (clears throat) anywaY #not to mention the veryvery frequent cases of written finnish + spoken finnish + also spoken finnish but very different dialect + english #in which cases im 100% never even planning to write an english version of the thing in the first place. But. #anyway. should probably stop for the night the letters are swimming and my glasses are wherever #gonna squint so hard i just close my eyes

[mamawasatesttube]

tim cries at the timkon wedding btw. i know this in my heart

#it's a happy cry and he's not used to happy crying and like he does not cry often at all #so when his chest gets all tight and his throat closes up and his eyes start to prickle #he minorly freaks out in his head (on the dance floor with kon for their first dance) like oh god did someone poison my champagne-- #and then kon notes his heart rate spike and accurately pinpoints ''you just freaked out about being poisoned bc you're crying didn't you'' #and then kon laughs at him and tim is like WAUGH bc his HUSBAND is in his arms having a case of the GIGGLES and now he's crying harder #rimi talks #timkon

[s0fter-sin]

reverse verse where soap takes on the mask instead of ghost. he wears his red skull mask so you can see the lower half of his face and his chin scar extends along his whole jaw to look like exposed teeth

#his chin scar is so gnarly and i think we gloss over it just a little too much #i like reverse verses but i think they can change just a little too much #like i wouldnt have soap act like ghost #if anything id have him act the same just more unhinged #hes still extroverted and will talk to people but people find him very unnerving #theres just this edge to everything he says and does that lets you know just bc hes being civil doesnt mean he wont rip your throat out #with his teeth #and hes just brutal in the field #preferring hand to hand wanting to get up close and bloody #very berkeresque where other soldiers learn not to go near him or interrupt him bc he cant always differentiate friend from foe #except for one deadpan brit who had a soldier’s eyes long before he ever joined the military #dour and depressing until he cracks a messed up joke and everyones shovked when they hear a scottish voice laugh #just soap who goes through roba and simon whos still ghost after living through his fathers abuse #just slightly less self isolating since he still has his family #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #we’re a team. ghost team

[eclipsedsuns]

i am, um, currently having an allergic reaction

#in a super chill way #it’s just that my throat is closing up #just a little bit #carley’s soliloquy

[prisonguards]

smoking cigarettes on magical mountain. send tweet.

#*me who has smoked not even three cigarettes in my life* my throats closing up #Im just emotional abt it #thinking abt them clustered close together in the mountain chill #hands shielding the cigarette from the wind as the other lights it with a spark of magic. close enough to brush eachothers hands. #I dont know why I designated them as smokers but like *wheezing* oh god consider that I Like It. #magical mountain #prisspeaks #ill just post anything

[puppyeared]

Wait another wizard 101 sufferer? Another lost soul sucked into the world's most entertaining grind-game? Another victim of the binge purge cycle where you want to do nothing but play followed by several months of just not caring? Another nostalgia-driven casual gamer reminiscing about when pvp was fun and not a toxic wasteland? Another with several dozen people in their friends list they wish to log in just once more when the binge purge cycles align?

oh i was a club penguin enjoyer. are u okay though

#????? is this because i mentioned wizard 101 as a joke on catmasks post???? i forgot about that #but if we're talking abt binge playing smth followed by several months of gutwrenching emptiness and nostalgia driven reminiscence #the only thing that comes to mind is minecraft PE hunger games. nothing else comes close to the blind rage and bloodshed #i remember seeing those chumps who bought premium with the gold podium and diamond axe before the game starts bc i would go #straight for their throats before they knew what hit them and then id have a diamond axe for the rest of the game LOL #ive. never actually played wizard 101 my brother just sends me shitposts abt it so its the first thing i thought of trying to be funny #sorry if i got your hopes up 😔 id give u my penguins friend code but. well #ask #yapping #answered

[bethiewhimsy]

what if bsd ends with dazai shutting the book.

#bsd #this thought made me want to explode honestly. like my throat closed up and everything #what if we’re watching a universe that he has created for us to watch? #what if it’s actually all a tale just for the funsies ??? #anyway: new fear unlocked #bsd theory

[sheauz]

last night was the single most awfully painful night of this year

#haven’t had an episode since last year November #and yesterday something triggered an episode #I have been throwing up all night #haven’t eaten in 2 days #my throat hurts so much like last night it would just close up every time I drank my water #it doesn’t hurt as much rn but I still can’t eat without it coming back #everything was great for so long I actually sort of forgot how much this hurts me every time #like the pain is unbearable I was considering going to the emergency room last night but I pulled through #anyways I don’t have my anti nausea meds so I’m in hell rn

[hairringtonsteve]

i live alone now.

it's nice. i don't have to wear pants. i can sit on my living room floor and eat dinner while I marathon parks and rec. i have total control over the kitchen. no one to share the refrigerator with. i can shower whenever, listen to music whenever, and sprawl out to my heart's content.

but god, does it hurt sometimes. to be sad and not have someone to vent to when I get back. to want a hug and never get it. to live in a new city and talk to old friends and hear about their plans to get together and to not be able to turn to anyone after the phone call, to say "it was nice to talk to them, but..." i miss company.

i live alone now and it's nice but also do i hate it.

#personal #im sad #and homesick #and i just #i talked to two close friends from my old city and it was so nice #but it also sucked to hear about them making plans on thursday because i miss being part of those plans #i miss just texting and being like im coming over #i miss running out to a last minute dinner with them #i miss having the in-person support system #i miss hugs #fuck do i miss hugs #sometimes its nice #and sometimes im so lonely i can feel the vomit crawling up my throat #idk why i wrote this #probably tbd

[mihai-florescu]

God really had to humble me, the biggest pastry and baked goods lover in the world, with a slight gluten allergy

#cant unhinge my jaw and down a muffin nooo 3 big bites in and my throat starts closing up and i cant breathe #but like #its chill #it literally is just a skill issue #you gotta power through for what you love

[gale-in-space]

Growing up in an abusive household and developing like 5 different personality disorders is like. My available player character dialogue and action options are as follows:

Be a prick

Be a prick in a different way

Begin walking the path of irreversible self-destruction by burning the bridges of everyone who has ever cared about you

Resist the intrinsic urge to be incredibly cruel even though it's all you know how to do (make a Wisdom saving throw with disadvantage)

Be a prick again

#thank you bg3 for helping me better understand my brain i GUESS #this sounds satirical and in a way it is i guess #but it really is that fucking hard #and it's so lonely. i don't really know anyone inside my circle who also experiences this #sigh. anyway #edit: and just to expand on this #whenever i talk about my thought processes i think my friends are always a bit. surprised? when they see how truly mean and uncaring i am #like at the heart of everything. that's who i am. #and i know it's not about the thoughts in your head but rather how you choose to act #but it's so fucking *hard* for me to try and just be kind and i don't think people really grasp how difficult it is for me #i just feel so evil and rotten inside i hate how my default setting isn't to just be kind #anyway. i feel like. my throat closing up a bit #i'm gonna shut up now #i think i need to go for a walk haha later taters

[baconcolacan]

EUGH SOBS WEEPS

I have to do bank related things while my social battery is SO LOW…..pray for me, I might just start crying if I teller even looks at me right now,,,

#neil talky #MY WHOLE BODY IS SHAKING MY THROAT IS CLOSING UP #I’m usually okay with social shit but I’m so SHOT right now #I’m gonna have a good cry when I get home I just have to hold it in rn

[aastarions]

i know ive been complaining so much but can i catch one break like just one break im begging im pleading

#c shut up #my throat is still shot today super achey and talking is difficult #im having some aches in my incisions #also!! ever since i got out of surgery i've had a tapping/popping noise in my chest and its not followed by any pain in my chest but it #could mean anything from just gas trapped there from surgery to a partially collapsed lung #and i know googling things is not always the best but i needed to know what this popping noise was #because it just didnt feel right #it only happens when i switch from like laying down to sitting up or sitting up to standing #idk but my mom is taking me to the drs for my throat today bc shes worried it would impact my surgery recovery #im just really sad :( #and oh even better the house inspection didnt go well meaning its basically 5050 on if we even get this house #that we've put the past 2 months and some money into #and as im typing this our mortgage lender whos turned into an asshole is down our throats like when u closing when u closing #im in agony #can something go right can one thing go right #im so tired