#fuck do i miss hugs

[hairringtonsteve]

i live alone now.

it's nice. i don't have to wear pants. i can sit on my living room floor and eat dinner while I marathon parks and rec. i have total control over the kitchen. no one to share the refrigerator with. i can shower whenever, listen to music whenever, and sprawl out to my heart's content.

but god, does it hurt sometimes. to be sad and not have someone to vent to when I get back. to want a hug and never get it. to live in a new city and talk to old friends and hear about their plans to get together and to not be able to turn to anyone after the phone call, to say "it was nice to talk to them, but..." i miss company.

i live alone now and it's nice but also do i hate it.

#personal #im sad #and homesick #and i just #i talked to two close friends from my old city and it was so nice #but it also sucked to hear about them making plans on thursday because i miss being part of those plans #i miss just texting and being like im coming over #i miss running out to a last minute dinner with them #i miss having the in-person support system #i miss hugs #fuck do i miss hugs #sometimes its nice #and sometimes im so lonely i can feel the vomit crawling up my throat #idk why i wrote this #probably tbd

[danggerine]

going insane thinking about the harrow and palamedes friendship. harrow, who has never met another necromancer her age forming a bizarro 3D chess rivalry while pal worries about her safety at every possible turn. harrow, who is up to her eyebrows in paranoia and secrecy, trusting the sixth house with gideon unconscious and hurt, letting them into the ninth house quarters unsupervised. if “i cannot conceive of a universe without you in it” is goth for i love you, “death first to vultures and scavengers” has got to be goth for i love you (platonic). pal’s first reaction when harrow comes into his bubble in the river is to scoop her up in a hug, and at this point she doesn’t remember anything about him because cutting out all her memories of gideon is impossible without cutting out memories of the sixth, but she still makes him a skelehand to inhabit anyway. when harrow’s memories are finally whole, she tells dulcinea she couldn’t face pal knowing that his pen pal girlfriend died on her account, but the next time she “faces” him, palamades’s soul is in someone else’s body and harrow’s body is full of nona’s soul. he spends six months protecting and caring for harrow’s body (and nona obv), believing in the possibility of bringing her back to it the same way cam believed in him. “god, do you know i miss harrow terribly.” and by the time harrow comes back to her body at the very end of ntn, pal is gone forever, fully pauled. the last time harrow and palamades see each other as their complete selves is in canaan house, alive and unlyctored. two of the smartest and loneliest people in the solar system meet each other in the worst of circumstances and spend the rest of the story dancing around each other as fragments of themselves, trying to care about each other in the interim but never fully meeting like they did the first time. a friendship made almost entirely of missing the other person. “do you know i miss harrow terribly.” god. i need to lie down

#behold: a block of text i do not feel like putting paragraph breaks in #i am so fucking crushed that they try so hard to take care of each other in different ways but never see each other ever again #he gave her a lift you off the floor hug in the bubble and she didnt even know why. #the thing that made him miss harrow was ‘look at me like you’ve worked out how to kill me’ bc he knows scowling is her display of affection #she couldn’t even REMEMBER him in htn but she helped camilla find his soul and put him back together anyway #is this anything. am i sounding as insane as i feel #tlt #harrowhark nonagesimus #palamedes sextus #katie don’t look #ntn spoilers #htn spoilers #gtn spoilers

[somerandomdudelmao]

ik everyone is excited about the disaster twins reunion and I am to! But im so super excited for the F!Leo and Casey reunion, I mean, the last time they saw each-other was when Leo threw him through that portal, Casey reaching out towards him as Leo turned away. And its just aksjsjsjsksks i love the two of them.

Oh. T h e m. Yeah, their reunion is veeeery special to me

#I did some build up for their reunion #okay maybe not some #maybe a lot #I'm so fucking excited for them to be together again #Casey will probably be glued to Leo for the next..i dunno..life? #he missed his sensei* so much #they need to talk they need to hug they need to do some stupid shit together

[ivypond11]

it's been a week and i still haven't recovered </3 so i did a little sketch with this scene between normal and scary because it fucked me up and i need more moments of them comforting and caring for each other

#dndads #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies season 2 #dndads s2 spoilers #dndads spoilers #scary marlowe #normal oak swallows garcia #these two make me so fucking ill #i love their relationship and i missed them having moments so much and i was so heartbroken when normal comforted scary about terry jr #it sucks! when your best friend looses her dad and she has to face all this feelings she was trying to protect herself from #and you can't do anything to help hee besides being there and hugging her #if normal could he would take her pain away in a heartbeat #which is an idea i am thinking. about normal messing with the modify memory spell to protect scary from being sad #anyways they are my babies and i love them so much and they are the siblings ever <3

[chrisrin]

is gemstuck sollux a fusion? :0

WHAT A FITTING ASK I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF DRAWING THESE GUYS!!!

yes, yes he is.

#chris doodles #homestuck #gemstuck #hs #sollux captor #i'm obsessed with them #was talking with a friend and we have their fucking entire story and vibe built out #in an episode like jailbreak #rather than how sapphire was kinda distraught and ruby was panicked to find her #bixbite and maxixe are both collectively like “i need to get out NOW before (other one) does because i REFUSE TO LET HIM HOLD IT ABOVE ME” #“HE CAN'T ESCAPE FIRST HE'LL HOLD THAT OVER ME FOREVER” #when they both escape the screen does a split screen and we see them running to try and find each other desperately #when they do #they rush at each other calling out each other's names #slamming into each other with something half between a headbut and a hug #one mutters to the other “i saw you first” the other says “i missed you” just as quietly #holding each other's gems as they touch foreheads #and theN THEY FUSE BACK TOGETHER!!! #he has this moment where he stands there and blinks #relishing in the moment #before summoning his visor and flicking it down like “alriight. back iin fuckiing buii2ne22” #stronger than you but its blackrom #instead of fighting jasper he fights eridan because fef and eridan are kinda the first antagonists to the group #and it gives SOOO much background for what happens with erisol later (i have a whole story for that fusion planned in my head) #anyways holy fuck #yeah im insane ask me more about them

[spoopup]

deja vu. or something. haha. (starts sobbing furiously)

#professor layton #luke triton #hershel layton #professor layton and the new world of steam #i rewatched the final unwound future scene for reference for this and only just realised layton tears up while hugging luke #that actually fucked me up i got tears in my eyes. What the hell. whyd must they keep doing me like this #anyways i like teen luke being all cool but i feel like it wouldnt be long before he starts crying cus he missed his mentor lol #hes baby. #my art #fanart

[xenocorner]

Small sketch page of some of my marvel blorbos ;; Couldn't fit all of them in it nor had the time but hey I got the itch scratched kinda

#I AM a Howard Stark simp in spite of his horrible parenting #Just look at that man MH Tony had to get his looks from somewhere godamn #Also I just now realised that the way I laid them out makes Stephen seemed annoyed at the two hot af men staring at him #or Loki n Stark having a stare down to see who keeps the wizard #that was actually unintentional #My hand probably knows what I want better than I do myself #also Wanda my fierce momma plz I love her so much I wanna hug and cuddle her she deserved so much better my bby #so did Nat UGH my heart broke when drawing her I miss her ;; #WHY ARE MOST OF MY FAVES DEAD NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT LIKE??? FUCK OFF ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; #anyway #tony stark #iron man #stephen strange #doctor strange #loki laufeyson #loki #howard stark #wanda maximoff #scarlet witch #natasha romanoff #black widow #mcu #marvel #marvel fanart

[zeb-z]

I just think Tallulah gets to be upset about this. “It’s not Wilbur’s fault” “He’s not a bad dad” “He loves his daughter so much” yes! These are all true! And it’s not his fault! But he’s still not there. And Tallulah has gone through so much and still hasn’t seen him, the one time he was around was the one time she wasn’t, and all she has are letters and “I’m thinking of you always” and things that used to be theirs together, but he’s still not there. She’s waited and she’s been patient and she’s loved him all the same, and he’s still not there. Like yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, from the happy milestones to the traumatic events, he’s still not there.

She knows that it’s not his fault, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s absent. That in and of itself just adds to the sorrow, because she knows why he’s gone, and she’s been told time and time again it doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, she knows this - it doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting, that it doesn’t hurt, that she doesn’t yearn for her father to be there more than anything in the world, and he’s just not there.

So yes, she gets to be upset, and be caustic, and stomp her feet and write bitter messages, and be angry and vitriolic, because she’s a little girl missing her father, who feels things with her whole heart and soul - and that means she gets to feel the ugly parts of it, too.

#it’s like no wilbur isn’t at fault. especially if we’re talking about cc wilbur. but fuck man of course she’s gonna feel like this #this doesn’t make wilbur a bad person! he’s just a missing one. and Tallulah feels all the misery and bitterness as a daughter left behind #where is her father kissing her injuries and reassuring her? where is her father protecting her? hugging her at the end of the day? #Wil isn’t around to do this and she wants him back and he’s not going to be back. not for a while. and it’s not his fault but it doesn’t #stop it from being upsetting. she’s a little girl #and at least she has phil. her dad. who’s there time and time again. and it doesn’t make him somehow morally better or wtevr. he’s there an #Wil is not. and he’s going to continue to be there as a solid figure in tallulahs life that she needs #idk man like. fuck #lmao relating my own experiences from here below in the tags ✌️ #as someone who’s been in that position? a parent absent for reasons outside of control? yeah it’s sucks. and I love them and they love me #*with a parent I mean I wasn’t the parent lmao #and it will never be the same. and when they were gone and missing things I was furious at them #that resentment grows and then it fades and sometimes bitterness strikes again and it’s how it goes. love is still there #and it’s no one’s fault. it just is. and what is is messy #anyways #mcyt #qsmp #q!tallulah #q!wilbur #z speaks

[tariah23]

This is such a harmful sentiment to push considering that you don’t necessarily have to be “attractive,” (beauty is subjective, yada yada) in order for men to want to harm you in the slightest… like man, what…

#the lady talks about being followed and harassed and so on as if every woman and girl in the world regardless of their age and #‘good looks’ #hasn’t experienced this and will continue to #I hate when these girls especially ones who are conveniently attractive talk about stuff like this under the guise of speaking for all #women while x-ing out most women #this easily leads into the realm of ‘you’re too ugly/fat to be assaulted ANYWAY-‘ #talk that I see spread by misogynists and bird brained women like it’s such a natural thing to even say it’s actually rly scary #especially when it comes to the assault shit which is usually about power and control anyway #they don’t care what you look like #you could be covered up head to toe and someone would try to hurt you just because #I hate when women like this go online thinking that they said something open their mouths I really do #rambling #tw assault #got dudes in the comments going ‘she’s not even pretty anyway she’s like a 4 out of 10’ #completely missing the message (as if they care) and see #these are the kinds of people that stuff like this attracts #stuff like this coming out of a woman’s mouth especially is so dangerous #I don’t think I’m the most good looking person in the world and I’ve been followed sm times I had to run away from a guy once and luckily #my bus was right fucking there!!! #then the guy who was harassing me years ago at a bus stop and forced me to hug him and touched my butt and no one else was around to help #me… #and he kept on trying to get me to go back to his apartment around the corner like that was so #the man who followed me into the store as I was shopping and I noticed that he kept on staring at me #then tried to holla and he looked way older than me and I think he was a pastor or something too he had a nice car and tried to get me to #come with him #sm more incidents over the years like this is crazy pls don’t say stuff like this and act like it’s normal #someone in the comments said that people like the woman in the video think that being pretty will free them from the patriarchy and like… #YEAH 😭 #it’s so obvious too lmfao #these be the same women calling themselves ‘girls girls’’

[mattodore]

pose making they could never make me hate you

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #ts4 #......... i should probably just make a tag specifically for my blender wips actually #ummmm...... #blender #obviously 😭 will go back and retag old blender posts with this tag eventually #missed this soooo bad i'm having so much fun 😭😭 #<- person who just made a simple hug pose #no but. #there’s seriously nothing better than being able to do whatever i want in blender #if i knew how to render the way like rai and the rest of you can TRUST ME!! i would be posting mattodore content every dayyy #but since i can't even rip matthias's sim without his skin details fucking up i just make poses for in-game use </3 #i have this huge list of poses i want to make and shitty notes app drawings of some ideas i've scribbled down these last few weeks lmao #and i also want to start learning how to animate....... which i might spend some time on tomorrow #like getting blender back in order makes me so happy 🧎 #i’ve got so much i want to do in here!! #but okay... i do need to go lay down kjdfhnfgjn i'm gonna read and try to sleep mwah mwah mwah #bye to the three other people online rn 👋

[imthursdaysyme]

Stobin talking about anything and everything all the time

#stranger things #steve harrington #drawing #art #robin buckley #stobin #they be talking again #I just always view them chatting I’m sorry #every picture they’re talking up a storm #they forget anyone else is anywhere #they get an idea in their mind to tell the other they drop everything they’re doing #one track mind they straight shoot it to the other person #and whoever they’re with will be like what the fuck is so important that we have to run to Steve what is happening #and Robin is out of breath after running and dragging Nancy behind her across the entire fucking town of Hawkins #and she gets in front of Steve and is like omg I realized I had to tell you something and Steve’s like omg does it have to do with monkeys #and Robin is like omg YES did you know that one species of monkey gives hugs it’s so cute like long limbs and everything #and Steve is like that’s so cool and Nancy is like wtf that is not important and Steve gasps and is like it IS IMPORTANT #Steve and Robin glaring at Nancy as Steve attempts a monkey hug wrapping #wrapping his arms in his best attempt at a monkey hug like #this is SO important miss ma’am excuse you #and Nancy is like good god how in the world did I date both of these insane creatures #anyway #digital art

[thaliasthunder]

cant fucking believe i got a paragraph describing the color percy's literal boxers being shoved into my face but not one of him hugging sally w teary eyes after being missing for like 8 months ?????

#i actually dont remember if we get a percy×sally hug? #i think we do in the lightning thief?...right? #well u know what i would have loved? #a reunion in hoo #i mean boy's been missing for like 8 MONTHS #wasnt sally all distressed???? like where IS her son???? #you telling me that she didn't summon Poseidon to demand him to tell her where her son is?????? YOU TELLING ME THAT????? #YOU'RE TELLING ME THE WOMAN WHO FUCKED A GOD AND HELD A GUN DIDNT DO THAT ?????? #WELL YOU'RE WRONG #percy jackson #sally jackson #pjo #hoo #pjo/hoo #rick riordan #riordanverse #annabeth chase #leo valdez #jason grace #frank zhang #piper mclean #hazel lavesque #by the way the boxers one is from The Singer of Apollo short story !!

[fightwing]

the implication some version of animated teen tita.ns vaguely like ttg exists in comic canon.... i desperately need to know who in dick's life is a die hard show fan and how many times he rants he's 'not like that'

#the titan.s: is this fucking play about us??? like do they ever watch it did they sign off rights so many questions. #especially tt/g rob.in. i find him very amusing. silly little man. i want ten of them. #titans spoilers #tuesday spoilers #comic spoilers #interesting they'd make dick infected so quickly either that was (monologue incoming) apart of his plan all along #or babs is gonna lead the plan #i hate titan.s fighting titan.s but man do i love a good 'this isnt you' plot #like having to fight but you cant hurt the other because youre trying to save them UGH okay fine youve caught my interest current tita.n ru #also i know this art style has never missed but dick and gar.th are too handsome. like im not fighting you two whatever you say handsome #also also MOST IMPORTANT MERRY KORY CONTENT TUESDAY #very upset she yet again has to relive trauma but the panel of kory and donna hugging in the explosion will help me last the winter <3 #* i'd love to write but it's just not realistic / ooc.

[kinos-fortress-2]

idk comfort characters moment ig

#i should REALLY stop doodling around and start doing more serious art #anyways this is not shipp art btw i dont shipp them for me they are like brothers best friends even #demoman #miss pauling #tf2 #team fortress 2 #kino art #idk i just feel like drawing sad demo i think he got too much going on in that little head full of beer and depression... #and well he just needs a hug and venting for real and not making it much of a joke #IDK I WAS JUST LISTENING TO MITSKI AND LAMP AND BOOM sad doodle i guess #i think for demo is a bit hard to find a good time to vent and well his team kinda sucks for that #same goes w miss p this two are full of shit in their heads so why not listening w each other and crying idk #its been a time since i have draw demo... #those fucking hands... i hate often times drawing hands #idk why i made tf2 sad art i think is funny but who cares cringe is free look at me doing lovey dovey and sad art haha laugh at this guy

[kennyomegasweave]

Phupha 2 telling Kram 1 he'd pick the first person he had even if he fell for a second person just made me gasp. Cause I mean. Well. Phupha 1 had a fiancée, then met Kram 1, then said absolutely nothing about her to Kram 1, but once Kram 1 did find out about her & met her tried to pull out some "baby I was gonna tell you, I promise it's not what you think!" And then he just died? And now Kram 1 is falling for Tai 2 while also being like "no you love Phupha 1" like that entire man isn't dead???

Please someone just hug Tai 2. Like my god. His whole ass man died and then his man's other world double showed up and he tried to keep his distance but caught feelings, but Kram 1 still thought he could just switch Phupha 2 in for his dead Phupha 1 just for Kram 1 to realize he doesn't actually want Phupha 2??? And he does what Tai 2??? Please someone just hug Tai 2. I'm begging.

#two worlds #two worlds the series #Tai is GOING THROUGH IT #and honestly I don't even get the sense he is still grieving Kram 2 #that's not to say he didn't love him and doesn't miss him #but his Kram died 3 years ago #he has had time to process it #that's why he tried say hard to keep his distance from Kram 1 #whereas Kram had six months to accept Phupha 1 is dead and Phupha 2 isn't his #yet he clearly hadn't started that process and probably wouldn't have if Tai hadn't kissed him #so again #someone hug Tai please #preferably Kram once he accepts he does want this Tai and Tai isn't trying to replace Kram 2 with him #having said all that #how the fuck is this gonna end though??? #like I would say maybe Kram will stay in Tai's world especially because his mom is there #but his world has his dad and is he just gonna be like nah fuck him it's fine #I'm still just so invested in this show #MaxNat really are doing it again! #regular clyde

[mokeonn]

I think the frustrating thing about Spotify recommendations is sometimes it really does introduce me to lots of cool Indie Bands that I really vibe with and allow me to try some new stuff and sometimes it keeps telling me that I need to Listen to Mother Mother (I have not listened to Mother Mother ever and at this point I never will because it is a pride thing.)

Or a random unfunny tiktok joke song from 3 years ago/ a viral YouTube song from over a decade ago.

#simon says #will probably delete this later #but yeah my recommendations are all mother mother and my spotify weekly is a mix between sweet ass new bands and unfunny bad joke songs #my spotify weekly has Cherry Bomb by the Runaways which is a good recommendation and then the Creative Song from don't hug me im scared #which is a bad recommendation to be clear #i know I have a couple of odd songs from things like shows or cartoon bumpers in my playlist (i got whats new scooby doo on there) #but that doesn't mean that I need to be recommended fuckin Death By Glamour?? #like there's no videogame soundtracks in my playlist why the fuck is that there #If I wanna listen to Undertale music I would just listen to the vinyls I own!! #anyways this is just a vent against spotify #my weekly seems to have a LOT more indie stuff so imma check it out real fast #i want to discover more music because I do eventually want to just swap to mp3s and an mp3 player instead of spotify #that is one thing I like about Spotify the most is that it helps me find more bands that I like #but I could probably find stuff via looking up youtube playlists as well #so it's not worth paying for anymore #I asked for an mp3 player for Christmas so hopefully I get one and I can just start using that instead #i miss my mp3 these last 7 years without it have sucked I miss my designated music device #anyways dont have to worry about going ad free if you just have the digital files on your computer and put them directly in a player #😎👍