#not dog

[strawberrybabydog]

good morning only to delusional people who have to listen to dumbass sanists use our symptoms as cruel insults all day

you are not evil or whatever else they might say about you

#not dog #delusions

[cinnamonbarbiedog]

ughgggh its so hard being an illness symptoms holder while also being the hottest and swaggest bitch around -_- how am i supposed to glam if i cant even sit up!!!

#crying on the floor #yes im still hot when im sick btw but i would be hotter if i could sit up and Do Stuff ♡ #not dog #personal

[dogperday]

okay well the post abt me taking a break for the strike didnt actually post i guess. but we will be back to ouppying tomorrow!!

#not dog

[twogriffons]

desperately trying not to spend money on stupid dog things by dreaming about my next piercing 🤞 i just need to be strong and wait 3 weeks

#not dog #also crying about how expensive piercings are #$80 for a bar that i'm only going to use for 4 weeks is sad #cant even reuse it unless i get another rook piercing :( #anyway nose or eyebrow?

[wolfborn255]

My sister got a Siberian kitten named Zelda. Here’s some first day belly rubs.

#not dog #cat #siberian cat #zelda #kitten

[dogmouthblog]

Quality mouthspots.

#not dog #submission

[strawberrybabydog]

oh fuck i just realized, future generations of autistics are going to have special interests in "early internet culture and memes." 2060 looks like a lot of kids who're going to be able to tell me the exact years of popularity for the trollface. and trollface fanart. oh god

#dear future memers if ur reading this ily #i was there when rage comics were in their prime ♡ #not dog #personal

[strawberrybabydog]

people who say "i wont feed into your delusion/delusional identity" are so silly because there's no way for them to judge our "level" of delusion. or what behaviors even are related to delusion (yes im talking about psychotics here too. many psychotics are deeply guilty of this sanism.)

i just bought a little personal utensil set online. it has a knife, fork, spoon, and a little container. this is mostly because i have a contamination/uncleanliness delusion. if i follow the beliefs of the "i wont feed into your delusion" crowd, i never would have bought that and would have struggled with eating from utensils indefinitely. because getting my own personal utensil set with the intention of avoiding the contaminated utensils of others, in their eyes, would be "feeding into delusion." in their eyes, any level of non-negative interactions with delusions are inherently bad and inherently harmful. to them, if you're psychotic and not actively attempting to shame yourself out of delusions (or other psychotic symptoms) this is a moral failing.

fortunately, this isnt how delusions work in real life (or anything. when has self-shame helped us really?) my personal utensil set doesnt confirm My reality as any more real to me than it was before. the people in my life who encouraged me to buy my utensil set, and who will encourage me to use it, are not worsening my delusions. my delusions are already there, and they will be there regardless of what happens to me; schizophrenia is chronic after all. all they have done is provide me an environment where i wont be judged if i engage in coping methods related to soothing delusions, and where i am encouraged to cope and feel better

the best part is, engaging with my personal utensil set AND other people encouraging me to use it is completely unnocuous. it's literally just a fork, knife, and spoon; a person eating with a personal utensil set is uncommon and a bit odd, but nothing more. these behaviors not only cause no harm to me (they directly benefit me actually) but they also cause no harm to others

this post is about coping behaviors and respect for delusional people. this post is not about whether you should engage with your delusions in a specific way or not. every delusional person has an individual experience and should address their delusions in whichever way helps them most - but this does not mean forcing other delusional people to cope with whichever method worked best for you, especially if that is shame.

#every time i read 'i wont engage with ur delusions' its laced with passive aggression and spite for other delusionals #ive never read that in a way that made the person who wrote it sound normal or even slightly nice #it basically just serves as a red flag that the person who wrote it is deeply sanist #yes i am still talking about mostly psychotics who write this still. i am so sick of sanism within community going unchecked #if ur uncomfortable with delusional people following u just put us in ur DNI. u dont need to spite marginalized strangers about it #on sanism #not dog #psychosis

[strawberrybabydog]

to change your name in ontario it costs 200$ and sending your real life actual birth certificate in the fucking mail. and also they publish(more like announce) all name changes publicly ? and where the person lives??

this sucks and actually makes me just want to live with my deadname forever. why in gods name do i have to mail my real actual birth certificate alongside all of my bank information. No ♡

#this actually sucks :0( #not dog #personal

[strawberrybabydog]

oh you're anti-sanist?

name everyone on the wikipedia list of people with schizophrenia

#WHY DOES THIS EXIST #this is so funny #AM I ON THERE? LMAAAOOOO #guys the only schizophrenics in the world are on here. if ur not on here ur not a schizofreak sorry ♡ #HAHAHAHAHAGGAG OH MY GOOD. THIS IS SO FUNNY #not dog #schizophrenia #psychosis #on sanism

[strawberrybabydog]

whats the typical stuff people put in their "wont draw" in their commissions

all i have rn is "sexual". that is it. just sexual .pathetic

#the only other thing i can think is mech but i can do mech so. im not gonna put it there #help babydog #not dog

[strawberrybabydog]

"delusions are strongly held beliefs that are hard to change" 🚫🚫🚫 inaccurate and will probably lead to nonpsychotics mistreating you because of the implication that delusions are only semi-serious and can be changed even if it's difficult. even if nonpsychotics want to help, trying to change your delusions is incredibly dangerous and not something they should ever feel comfortable doing.

"delusions are fixed false beliefs" ✅️✅️✅️ direct, tells nonpsychotics they cannot change us and that any attempts are fruitless.

#not dog #delusions #on sanism #language

[strawberrybabydog]

me: self help how to stop feeling like i have the same day over and over

google, no i am not fucking kidding, almost every answer: you're stuck in a time loop

me, psychotic:

#w.why would .you say that to me. LOL????????????? #ITS NOT EVEN A FUNNY JOKE? #unreality #paranoid delusion details #not dog #on sanism

[strawberrybabydog]

my situation in life rn is so fucking bad & has been for a long time but it feels like its getting worse. honesty time ^_^

i am locked in an abusive relationship because i cant get a job and i cant get on disability benefits. if i break up with my partner i'll most likely get kicked out of where i live and end up homeless

but ive now been living in abuse for over a year & i feel fucking destroyed. i feel like a shell of who i once was. i cant think straight (or at all,) i have severe migraines every day, i cant sleep properly, i wake up at 5am because of how much pain im in. i am constantly locked between psychosis and Reality because of the amount of lies/manipulation/unreality i am facing. things are fucking awful right now

"do commissions!" with what energy? i can barely get up to feed my cat

i dont know why im posting this i just want help i want someone to care about me or save me and take what i feel away. i want to wake up and feel normal again

#for anyone wondering this started in november 2022 & is the reason we know ourselves as a system #we are deeply. deeply. traumatized by what is happening to us #not dog #personal #big feelings #another no notes post im guessing. nice one babydog!

[strawberrybabydog]

transcript: so the tumblr website is broken.. and i ... recorded this gif of it being broken. and then i was gonna, like, post the gif. unfortunately (starts laughing) this is what happens when i try to make a new post! and it literally doesnt matter how many times i reload it, so.... great website!

tumblr web is completely unuseable rn LOL

heres the gif! i have reloaded/tried to reload at least 10 times. i dont even know why/how 1 picture randomly appears on my dash in the gif, thats the only time it did that. as you can see in the vid making a new post is also not possible and just leads to a black void

how is it THIS broken . what is happening. as i finish writing this post almost 10 minutes after this started, reloading still doesnt do anything lol

#shut up abt my teeth plz its from an injury in my toddler era LOL #not dog #personal #also shut up about the pokemon poster in my room dont be fooled i do not own that item and i did not choose its place

[strawberrybabydog]

what is it like seeing people use terms like "delulu" or some other shit to be ableist and teenage break-up sad. I'm not delusional, but it still makes me rly mad, like people saying "haha acoustic"

it really sucks. ive had to face the "delulu" people in real life and it really sucks hearing people unironically and ignorantly compare your life-long inescapable trauma with having a crush on someone who doesnt like you back, to your face

its really frustrating seeing so many nonpsychotics unironically claim that calling someone delusional or delulu is completely different from delusions as a symptom. like --? can we do a little more thinking about this?? why is it so hard to stop calling people delusional that they have to make up that dumb lie? why is it so hard to try to accomodate psychotics? it isnt, they just think sanism is acceptable because other nonpsychotics dont hold them accountable

post: delusional is not a heteronym, you're just sanist [missing] post: words to use instead of being sanist

#not dog #asks #delusions #on sanism #wish my archive wasnt broken i really would love to have that second post #queue