#not even gonna apologise for this one

[marcusagrippa]

si qwis, iuwudices, fowte nunc adsit ignawus wegum iudiciowum consuetuwudinisqwe nostwae *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ miwetuw p-pwofecto qwae s-sit tanta atwocitas huwusce causae (⁄ ⁄>⁄ ▽ ⁄<⁄ ⁄).. qwod diebus festis wudisqwe pubwicis ☆*:・ﾟowomnibus fowensibus negotiis i-intewmissis, u-uwunum hoc iuwudicium exewceatuw, nec dubitet qwin tanti facinowis weus a-awguatuw ut eo n-negwecto ciwitas stawe non possit. idem cum audiat e-esse wegem qwae de seditiowosis c-conscewewatisque ciwibus qwi awmati senatum obsedewint-.- magistwatibus wim attuwewint, wem pubwicam oppugnawint cowotidie qwaewi iubeawwt: w-wegem n-non impwowobet, cwimen qwod wewsetuw in iudiciowo wequiwat; cum awwdiat nuwwum facinuwus (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡...... nuwwam audaciam, nuwwam wim i-in iuwudicium v-vocawi, sed aduwescentem iwwustwi ingenio〜☆ i-industwia, gwatia accusawi ab eius fiwio quem ipse in i-iudiciuwum et wocet et w-wocawit, oppuwugnawi awwtem opibus mewetwiciis: atwatini ipsiuwus pietatem non wepwehendat, w-wibidinem muwiebwem compwimendam p-putet, wos wabowiosos existimet qwibus otiowosis ne in commuwuni qwidem otio wiceat e-esse〜

#not even gonna apologise for this one #the pro caeliowo

[muppetbyers]

this just makes me want to die sometimes actually

#mikes house was like his home for so long and then in one moment he no longer felt safe there #and how mike saying that probably brought back all the shit lonnie would say to him so he didnt even feel like his own home was safe #so he went to the only place he had left. and destroyed it #i need to end mike wheeler… #and the fact that will didnt even hear him apologise properly for this… mike needs to count his days #if will byers doesn’t win in s5 then im gonna end up on international news because how can they keep my little man miserable for so long #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #mine

[tickletails]

The Fern art you posted made me go into ticklish Fern mode and now I’m really wanting to write a fic about it-

HELL YEAA!! I support u 🔥🔥🔥🔥

#ask #veryblushyswitch #ALSO I APOLOGISE BUT IM GONNA GO A LIL CRAZY IN THESE TAGS #i never talk about him on here but i love fern hes one of my favourite at characters second to prismo #i kinda feel like he would enjoy being tickled (if he could feel it [he can btw because i said so]) #because its one of those things thats just quintessentially human. and makes him forget that hes a grass boy even if its just for a bit #SORRY THIS GOT SAD #i kinda love fern specifically because hes such a tortured character.. he needs to be ablw to forget about stuff and laugh for a bit :3 #OKAY IM SORRY FOR USING YOUR ASK FOR THIS #ALSO TYSM FOR THE NICE TAGS ON MY POST 😢😢💗 #if u write a fern fic i will read tf out of it but no pressure obviously 🔥

[oatbugs]

she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!

#like have some shame omg . have some respect #shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her #not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was #like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig #anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so. #also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn #like genuinely does she have no sense of shame #also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that #no matter what i say i wont reject her #WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH. #I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT #also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao #also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine #lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo #INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc #i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she #said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant #believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off #UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE. #crushposting

[vitamin-zeeth]

Wilbur fucking soot dropped new solo music??????? Sorry guys it's so over never speaking to anyone again

#/j /j /j #i freed myself of ycgma earlier this year but ohhhhsjhh god oh fuck this is gonna be the death of me #AMD ITS 12 SONGS ohhhhhhhhh fuck its jover #never coming back from this one guys im so sorry revealing my wilbur soot side with this one #back in my wilbur soot era guys ohhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooooo #ive not even listened to it yet im hesitant #ok i apologise in qdvance for the person im gonna become after listening to this album #wilbur soot #mammalian sighing reflex #msr wilbur soot #wet floor sign

[currentlyonstandbi]

#yeah look im not even gonna apologise for this one #what t does to a guy or something idk #resident evil #resident evil remake #re2 #re4 #re2 remake #re4 remake #leon kennedy

[jacobglaser]

I can't believe S2 goes from The Impossible Planet/The Satan Pit to fucking Love & Monsters. Truly the epic highs and lows.

#love and monsters has such a good cast too! peter kay! but god does it suck shit #then its fear her which is fine but a bit boring #but sticking those two episodes between two of the best two parters is whiplash #im so not ready for doomsday even though i only rewatched it a few months ago #im gonna be crying in the club tomorrow night #actually I'll give love and monsters one point. i love them using ELO. #ANYWAY im trying to rewatch the first four seasons before the anniversary so i apologise in advance for excessive dr who posting #doctor who

[avatarofwar]

i saw you talk about wolf a few times from sekiro and was wondering if you'd want to share more of your thoughts on him or sekiro as a whole, the game really interests me compared to other dark souls games so i wanted to ask

sorry for the late reply but oh boy do I have thoughts abt wolf. trying not to spoil the game, so I'm gonna refrain from talking about the story. might go into just restating known things about the game, but I'd much rather play it safe and not spoil the story

before going to that. the game is very much different from dark souls (setting wise, while taking place in a fictional country it is in a historical setting. I cannot comment on the setting properly bc I don't know much about the time period, however), most notably in the combat (primarily shifting from a dodge-centric playstyle to a parry-centric playstyle (significantly easier than dark souls/elden ring parrying, however), with dodges having significantly shorter i-frames and being very unreliable for dodging attacks). it's very different but something I really enjoy, even if I'm not as good as I am at typical soulsborne combat. it's really fun when you get the hang of it, and while I might not be The Best at it (which is mostly bc of how different it is from soulsborne games, so ofc I'm not as good at is as I am at the other fromsoft games I've played), it's something I can still enjoy

a huge thing about sekiro is the difference in how the story is told. in soulsborne games the story is something you have to figure out; progressing through the main path doesn't give you enough to piece everything together if you don't read any lore. with sekiro, however, the story is significantly more obvious, on account of the playable character having unique ties to the world and its characters, rather than going the soulsborne route of being one of many people (wording hard, but the chosen undead for example is no one special, just one of many undead trying to link the flame). it's a very different method of storytelling, but is still something really good. for as much as I adore having to actively hunt down lore and story in soulsborne games, it's also great experiencing story through natural game progression

wolf is also canonically disabled (loses his left arm at the start of the game) and has a really fucking cool prosthetic that is a whole part of the combat system (even though I personally keep forgetting to use it). so good for him. he deserves a prosthetic that can have deadly weaponry attached to it. like a mini-flamethrower. he deserves a mini-flamethrower, as a treat.

putting the wolf thoughts beneath a read more because this is getting long and I might spoil some stuff (mostly relationship with another character, I'll try to refrain from story spoilers. also spoilers in general, but there might be some), and he has definitely become a blorbo (additionally, content warning for abuse)

first of all. wolf makes me want to throw myself off a cliff and I mean this in the most positive way ever. he is great and I love him but man he needs so much fucking therapy and he doesn't even realise it (therapy probably doesn't exist in that time period, but besides the point). he is very much traumatised and has been heavily shaped by it and doesn't even know it.

prior to the events of the game (I forgot how long ago it was) he was orphaned by war and got taken in by owl, a shinobi and also a piece of fucking garbage. owl raises wolf to be a shinobi under the iron code, with the number one rule being loyalty to his father (owl), with his master (kuro, the divine heir) a close second (and also to give his life for his master if necessary. which is also a whole other thing to get into).

owl is very explicitly abusive. he raises wolf as a tool rather than a person, and that upbringing severely affects wolf as a character - he is an incredibly capable shinobi, but lacks any skills other than that; he does not know how to be a proper person, he is a loyal wolf, but he does not know how to be anything other than that. hell, without spoiling too much about the context, there is a cutscene in which owl actively attempts to guilt trip wolf, going as far as using fake tears (saying anything specific is very spoilery. this isn't even the only horrid thing he's done, but I'm trying to refrain from too many spoilers).

wolf canonically does not value himself without anyone to serve (we see this at the beginning of the game, as events prior to the start of the game not yet known about leads him to believe he has no one to serve, and thus no purpose, so he isolates himself from the world in a well for 3 years). while he does have compassion for others (most notable example being concern over victims of dragonrot), he starts off the game driven primarily by duty. he is loyal to a fault, willing to do anything for kuro, but also valuing his service to kuro more than himself (cannot remember the exact wording, but when kuro expresses concern for how many times wolf has died for him, wolf states that it does not matter as it was in service to him).

there's also the fact that wolf canonically eats uncooked rice and genuinely doesn't know - as a fully grown adult - you are supposed to cook it, which is... genuinely something awful if you truly think about it and what more it implies about his upbringing especially considering it's one of the most basic things you could learn how to make (just... says a lot about owl if you seriously think about it).

he is a loyal wolf, but he doesn't know how to be more than that. he doesn't know how to just... exist for himself, to be his own person separate of his duty and he doesn't even recognise just how fucked up it is, because how could he, when he was shaped into this as a child, when his own father wanted him to be nothing more than a tool to use.

I could say a lot more about his relationships with other characters (that are actually good people) and how it just. makes me lose my mind, but this post is almost 1k words. so, simply put, kuro genuinely caring about him makes me so fucking emotional, especially bc of owl; his father might be horrible and an abuser, he might not know how to be more than he was raised, but at the very least he can serve someone who actively cares about him and his wellbeing.

#THERE IS SO MUCH TO DISSECT ABT HIS CHARACTER AND HOW HEAVILY IT WAS AFFECTED BY HIS UPBRINGING #I've seen a handful of people call him boring bc he doesn't say much and isn't that expressive emotionally and none of them are valid #I'm gonna explode those people with my mind powers. he isn't boring you just don't understand how to analyse characters #I need need need to get this man to some fucking therapy he so desperately needs it and doesn't even know it #if there ever was a fromsoft character most in need of therapy poll he would sweep and if he didn't I'd explode people with my mind powers #also I realise now a lot of my thoughts abt the game are just. restating known parts abt the game. I apologise for not being more specific #if you wanted to know my thoughts abt the story specifically. oops. I AM sorry but I do want to play it safe #I also do really appreciate how it was like. the (or at least one of?) first game in this time period made by a japanese company #which is part of why there are some things I do not know how to comment on bc I am very much a white canadian #also has a small poison swamp location. might be a plus for some people. I personally don't mind most poison swamps too much though #and ngl I kinda miss the iconic large poison swamp you have to traverse. it could be really fun being able to grapple #did I mention his prosthetic has a fucking grapple built in? well it does and it's really fun for movement.

[mycological-mariner]

Crying while reading The Flight of the Heron. Keith really is just out here calling Ewen “my Achilles” nine times in two pages

#not to mention! #‘MY warrior’ and other forms of the possessive #mother fucker??? #and then the book ACTUALLY PULLED the ‘only one bed thing’ like please #I seriously thought y’all were over exaggerating the homoerotic tension and you were WERENT #if anything it was downplayed! #’my Achilles’ stfu man #and his whole ‘I’m really going to miss him I hope we meet again one day but I’m sure he doesn’t feel the same’ #JESUS Mary and JOSEPH son! #and yeah do I get why he dipped? of course. it makes sense for the story and his character #doesn’t mean I have to like it lol #man really stole this man’s clothes and left a farewell note omfg #HE DIDNT EVEN BREAK PAROLE BUT HE STILL LEFT A GOODBYE NOTE #i hate this book #it’s making me feel emotions #and I KNOW they’re gonna meet again - it’s literally a trilogy of books #but omg that reunion is gonna hurt isn’t it #if I were ewen I would ABSOLUTELY be pissed and freaking out! ofc I’m thinking he’s gonna snitch on us to the English! #oooh it’s juicy. and keith being such a lil bitch rubbing on ewen to get a rise out of him and then immediately apologising #this reads like fan fic in the best ways possible #and now we have to go back to England UHG #I will keep everyone updated whether you like it or not. likely not but fuck it #I need to have a little scream about this book #anyways #flight of the heron

[toastsnaffler]

demand avoidance is so stupid. what do you mean I'm not going to do the thing I wanted to anymore just bc someone else wants me to......

#this is about true detective ive wanted to watch it for ages but my flatmate started it recently + recommended it + even shared the files #and i DO want to watch it. and i was going to but now ive found out our other friend really likes it (presumably why she got into it) #and another mutual friend said hes a fan so the 'expectation' that my mind has now invented means im not going to anymore 👍 #ugh i mean i will. eventually. but its going to involve some pointless mental acrobatics to trick myself into getting around pda #this doesnt ALWAYS happen with recommendations but probably 80% of the time it does. usually if i leave it long enough it wears off.. #sorry if youve ever recced smth to me i promise its on a list somewhere and i trust ur taste. im just weird and neurotic #give me a few months or years...... #also a bit annoyed now bc the other day my roommate apologised for rarely ever accepting my recommendations. and thats ok i dont mind #like i can be weird abt it too sometimes + i never expect anyone to start smth i rec. i just think they might like it innit #but the fact she brought it up and apologised made me realise that actually she does take recs from other friends a lot.. #one of them in particular and thats cool but damn okay. i see how it is.... im half joking i mean she can do what she wants forever #and i get theyre closer friends so it makes sense. but i guess it just feels like a kind of judgement of me in a way. hmm anyway #whats new there innit. ahh well im gonna play elden ring so i dont ruminate the rest of this afternoon #.diaries

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[insignificantfailure]

Can I please just stop inconveniencing everyone?

#just gonna vent agaim #so I was making some traditional salad with my partner's mom (they're my parents as well at this point) #and I'm vegetarian right? so we were making two separate bowls of it #and my partner came to help and I switched the bowls to help and put the one with meat closer to her #and by instinct her mom put meat in my salad #and she panicked really bad but then it was safe because they managed to save like half of it that the meat didn't touch #we thought it was all good in the end #oh well until I got to eating my salad and I stop in horror realising that there. was. meat. in my mouth #and I didn't talk about it before but for me being vegetarian is like 20% for the animals and the rest because of the texture #+ I studied biology in detail in university and knowing what's in there disgusts me to the core #so there you have me gagging and running to the bathroom #and his mom felt terrible and she apologised to me so many times #I feel terrible because it wasn't even her fault #it's mine because I moved the bowls #I feel terrible because everytime I'm meeting with family I'm such an inconvenience because I don't eat meat #her mom and also my mom cook two separate meals everytime #of course I always tell them to let me cook for myself but they insist #I'm actually very grateful but I feel so bad #personal #vent #venting

[im-sorry-what-ii]

not to get too political on here, but the new zealand elections are happening rn and i am truly, legitimately scared for whats going to happen to our climate, maori/pasifika and lgbtq people if the nat/act/nz1st coalition gets elected

#these tags are gonna be long i apologise #its pretty 50/50 for whose gonna win #but i think the shit side is winning by around 1% rn #which is all they need #act has billboards saying 'end division by race. vote act' everywhere #meanwhile their leader has said some pretty racist things over the years #confused on what theyre on about #half the coalition hates each other its chaos #another mp from act doesnt believe climate change is real #meanwhile its one of the most significant issues rn #that and cost of living #half the countries drowning and flooded from various cyclones #the amount of people whose homes are gone is huge #farming land is unusable #people cant afford to buy new homes with the cost of living #and act says 'no we're going to stop government support for those affected' (paraphrasing) #which #WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU???!!? #national act and nz first are all pretty transphobic too #dont even wanna know what they think on disabled people and kids/teenagers in skls #under labour there was a discount for clean cars #theyre gonna get rid of that #the greens wanna manage farming emmisions #which they should bc the amount of cow shit in rivers is insane #the rest hate them for it #shits a mess #sorry guys too many tags #personal

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

babe wake up- new @thyme-in-a-bubble lore just dropped

https://www.tumblr.com/thyme-in-a-bubble/727560417645330432/how-do-you-cut-your-hair-i-have-2ab-hair-and

lore?!?? omg you don’t wanna know about my lore, it’s too depressing.

#honestly just read my stories and pay attention to the sad stuff #i don’t really write any sad things that i haven’t personally been though #(i mean i haven’t killed anyone lol even though i’ve written a murder mystery but that might be one of the only things) #i am a 25 year old disabled woman with ptsd who has made every therapist they've ever talked to weep like a child 🧍‍♀️ #my lore is LORE if you know what I'm saying 🫠 #(but also on a much lighter note because sorry for getting a bit espresso depresso there) #(I love that you called it lore like I'm some mythical creature) #(I mean) #(i am) #(we all are) #(wait you know what no I'm not gonna apologise getting serious) #(I'm not gonna apologise for my past and trauma which I don't have any control over) #(I'm also not gonna apologise for talking about it in whatever manner I'm comfortable with) #(woooo okay... lets go drink a glass of water... say hi to the cat.../lh) #lea answers

[theflyingfeeling]

Robin was interviewed in the morning television earlier today and oh god I want to hug him 🥺

and not only because his (porko-like) leopard print jacket looked so cosy and soft

#the whole interview had such a...low-key negative vibe somehow? #the interviewer asked some interesting questions alright but it felt like robin was constantly asked to explain himself #first robin was asked why he's in UMK now when years ago he said he thinks eurovision/umk ''distorts the artist's image'' #(as in they will from then on be known as ''the artist who went to eurovision'') #then he was asked what he himself had to do with making of his UMK song (as if no one expects him to be in no way part of it) #then he was asked if he was expecting the song to face so much criticism #and it does seem like he at some point realised (before the song was released) that it's not what people were expecting of him #ngl i'm one of them but at the same time i feel a little sorry for robin who genuinely seems to love the song #and thinks it represents him the best. and like. if the artist thinks like that then who am i to argue with it? #robin: ''...and no matter how the song does in UMK i'm still gonna have a great song to perfom in concerts'' #the interviewer: ''so you're gonna keep perfoming it regardless?'' #(said in a tone that says ''oh so you're gonna be performing it even though it's crap'') #okay well then the interviewer talks about how lordi was not praised either when they were chosen for ESC #to which robin doesn't have much to say because he was so young that he can't remember so that was awkward as well 😂 #then he had to answer questions about why he was driving a car and filming a video for social media at the same time #''how did you end up with this decision to film while driving a car?'' (said in a tone that implies he's a little thick) #tbh was stupid on his part and he did apologise again #he said he's so conscientious that he wants to do everything he's promised he would (in this case answering fan questions i guess) #and he knew that was the only time that day that he'd have the time for that and that it was in an area with little traffic #and while i'm also judging him for doing it i also feel a little sorry for him because oh little one you don't HAVE to do everything 😭 #sometimes you simply don't have the time and energy. next time i'd rather you don't answer fan questions than do it while driving #then (with no transition whatsover) he was asked if he's planning on wearing mismatched shoes until the end of his career 🙄 #(said in a tone that implies he should grow out of it already) #a question i'm sure he's never answered before lol #then they talked about the incident at his new year's gig #and the interviewer asked if they ever found out WHY someone was throwing beer steins on stage #as if robin (or anyone) would go and ask?! 😂 like. come on. the person was drunk out of their ass probably. there is no deeper reason #but the question made it seem like the interviewer was expecting robin to go ''well they said my songs suck and that i'm probably gay!'' #just so that they could make a nice headline out of it lol #anyway. don't ask why i'm writing this all in the tags 😅

[himbohargreeves]

I write about Diego's relationship with pancakes the same way 2012 avengers fandom wrote about Thor and poptarts

#we didn't even see him eat the pancakes grace gave him that ONE TIME but I'm like wow I can't believe pancakes are his favourite #and I'm not gonna apologise for it because it's cute #he likes pancakes <3 #river writes