#oh man i'm so tired

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

In the same bed, but not on the same page

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#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #season 1 #wei wuxian #little apple #lan wangji #I know this scene plays out very differently but it would just be the same punchline from a prev comic #That said it might have worked because man oh man #wwx cannot figure out for the second life of him why his *excellent tactics* are not working #For someone so smart he sure does fail to adapt and change his strategy #Its for the fanservice obviously but what was the *plan* with literally cuddling up next to your apparent captor in bed? #Have you ever shared a bed with someone? Cause when youre tired it takes a *lot* to motivate yourself to kick someone out #I'm staying asleep whether you stay in your lane or not ->me and lwj apparently #though he's prob happy to have this domesticity. Maybe. It's probably extremely bittersweet and painful to be so close yet so far away

[princelancey]

Lance is such a let bygones be bygones kind of a guy, we should embrace that energy more often in sports tbh, it's never that serious

#lance stroll #before gets on my back this is about sporting issues #just sporting issues #of course serious issues warrant grudges and distrust #idk man i think i'm just feeling like people are taking this all too seriously #the amount of death wishes made towards drivers in the time i've been watching f1 has ramped up so much #it's not normal to feel that way about a sports person #genuinely seek help #and over the most ridiculous mundane shit that happens every race or worse over people thinking rules have been broken that haven't actuall #anyways this was spured by watching lance's post sprint interview #he was asked about nico pushing him off and he was just like 'that happened? oh yeah i forgot about that nah it was chill' #like that's such a peaceful way to go about it #let what happens in a race stay in that race or in a match #this is easier when your memory sucks lmao #i'm just so tired of the massive fan wars the time and energy it takes isn't worth it #like not online anyways chat shit in dms but again if you're still chatting shit about a race from 4 years ago move on i beg

[parlerenfleurs]

Starting to think, going by the MXTX fandoms, that a lot of people are comfortable with being a bit terrible and not thriving for an ideal whatsoever, because they really really reeaaally want to believe Xue Yang and Jiang Cheng are poor cuties who weren't lucky and the heroes are a bunch of holier-than-thou arrogant bitches who need to be taken down a peg when the text says the opposite, because then it justifies their own faults and hatred of genuinely awesome people who seem to have it better in life and isn't that sooo unfair and isn't it fair that they should suffer to learn what it's like to suffer like them, poor tortured, petty, flawed humans who see themselves in the villains rather than the heroes.

#Bloom talks #I'm out of patience with people who have decided not to be better and won't take any responsibility for it #oh but I suffer so~ #newsflash asshole most people struggle horribly at some point or another and yet some of us decide to be good #and also some of us are indeed gifted and impressive and it is something to be celebrated and yes admired on occasion #I love a good gifted person #who shines bright and leads an amazing life #the Wei Wuxians of the world are a treasure #you want to love Jiang Cheng because you feel you are like him and want to be loved? #I don't know man have you TRIED not being an asshole? people have an easier time loving you if you try you know? #you don't have to adopt it as your whole identity and make it everyone else's problem #so fucking tired of seeing people not even try #IT'S FINE TO BE CLEAR to relate to Jiang Cheng and be an asshole inside #we all are a little bit of an asshole inside!! #just stoop pretending he's actually good and Wei WuXian is bad! #yes I'm talking about a general thing with this very specific thing yes #mxtx #mdzs

[vulto-cor-de-rosa]

My tiktok just decided that I'm a Dream fan and it just keeps showing me shit like QSMP and Quackity neg, sad edits of dteam with quackity, Dream stans making fun of the grooming allegations and Dream stans talking about how quackity fans are the worse, like tHAT'S ME!!! I'M THE QUACKITY FAN I FUCKING HATE DREAM!! YOU'RE SENDING THESE VIDEOS INTO THE FUCKING WRONG FYP TIKTOK!!! I COULDN'T CARE LESS ABOUT LITERALLY ANY OF THEM LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE

#rosa's garden #I'M TIRED MAN #'oh quackity is so immature' SHUT UP SHUT UP I'M EXPLODING YOU WITH MY MIND RN SHUT UPPP #dream situation #dream neg #dream #qsmp #quackity #usmp discourse #kinda

[disposal-blueeee]

VARGASTOBER - day 1 : edgar vargas

#vargastober2023 #vargastober #THESE ARE LIKE SO RUSHED BUT I REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING ..... #the rest of these probably will be small doodles too .... i don't have time for anything else ughhh ugly crying #ALSO i want to thank everyone for the support i got today ! WOAH SO MANY NOTIFICATIONS !! #everyone here is so sweet i love this fandom ... #i'm like actually super excited over this project even though i know i won't have the time to make something pretty and detailed ..... #i hate school so much ugh #but for now .... here .... *hands you this drawing* have this .... i hope it's enough . #ohhh he's so dear to me . like . for real . #fun fact i know almost every line of his part on issue 2 #i just keep repeating it !! it's fun to say the dialogues out loud ! #i went to a party today . oh so tired . #really stressing days ! sighhh . #LET'S JUST PRETEND IT'S STILL OCTOBER 1ST OKAY . #man i should be sleeping . see you tomorrow . #hope i can do at least a small doodle for nny . sighhhh !! #vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #zarla s #doodles #sunny's art

[splickedylit]

i saw you were reposting some of the SU videos you had made and i was wondering if you could repost the Sky Full Of Song one? it was one of my favorite edits ever and i had been wondering what had happened to it/if it had been copyright claimed

Sky Full of Diamond Song

You heard something--from the sky, a sound… a song?

man, I didn't even know this one had gotten blocked, haha. QuQ Here you go, anon!

#Steven Universe #Splickedyvids #SU #Rose Quartz #Pink Diamond #Pearl (SU) #Amethyst (SU) #Garnet (SU) #Greg Universe #I still always think ''Be careful oh my Diamond'' when she says ''Be careful oh my darling'' #I do really like this one #a meditation on the nature of Pink running away and why.... 'i'm so tired now' and then 'leave me where I lie' (aka: in my son) #it's escapist! it's selfish! it's also a really understandable way for a character arc to progress anyway here's this lol #VERY proud of the various refrains of 'I want you so badly but you could be anyone' haha #such a theme in her relationships agh #man I wish tumblr didn't always manage to like just slightly mess up my timing

[stardustedknuckles]

Ugh now that I've accepted I don't want tits I can't quit thinking about them and how they're actively hindering my idea of self expression. But like. Top surgery is for people with a network. On top of needing thousands of dollars, the logistics of taking care of myself or getting someone to help are just. Hmm. Like maybe by the time I'm able to actually get it done I'll have someone who will be okay with dealing with all the aftermath but even I don't want to think about having wounds and recovering for weeks because last time I was doing that it was because I nearly died. The weeks after scare me more than the surgery.

#This is why I pushed away the thought for so long #And just accepted their existence #But goddamn I'm tired of them #Get em off #Oh yeah and the other thing #I am in fact changing #Slowly! #But it's happening. And I'm not going off T after all it's done to help me #So they need to come off before I read as a man and also there are tots #I admire people who can embrace that duality and also I'm not one of them #Sdk does trans stuff

[brionnne]

note that i will only ever call mithrun "stupid" jokingly. by "stupid", i only mean "frustrating behavior that i am immensely familar with". seeing him do something that makes me groan aloud, closing my eyes, sighing "stupid (affectionate, mournful)". like when he fucking... his dumbass "i don't want to [use the bathroom] right now, so it's fine." oughh. i know you! i know you! that's not how that works!!! and he's smart!!! he's so smart... but god, god... he's kind of an absent professor. he's kind of a cloudcuckoolander. i love him dearly. he gets called a dummy, a little idiot, and i flick his forehead, a little bonk of hard-heads, like "try again, idiot. that's not how bodies work." and "ooh, 'that's not going to work'. yes it is. shut up, stoopid. stubborn little man, my god." rolling my eyes forever.

#mithrun #i'm not devaluing his intelligence #i feel like both can be true - that someone can be really smart but also take really stupid actions conversely #i fucking KNOW i do all the time #and i don't think there's anything particularly wrong with the word #it's not that his intelligence is compromised in any sense or that i think he's incapable #and it is solely #the fact that he is a stubborn little guy who doesn't listen and just goes 'that won't work' / 'i don't want to' / etc. #like... BUDDY... #buddy BOY #dummy #you are NOT a good judge of this ok? #zip ya lip little man #i know what you are #and i ain't fuckin listening to ya! #god. 'that won't work'. blah blah blah. okay sleepy. see you next panel. #fuckin knew that was going to happen #'i'm not tired' (his body stops working and he doesn't know why) #oh. OH. you're NOT? buddy i KNOW what happened ok? you need some fuckin rest #like - i'm gonna kick your legs out from under you + you're going to fall gently into bed + i tuck you in and smooch you #but i also fucking complain because OF COURSE YOU'RE TIRED ! you bastard ! go sleepy bye #it's his poor decisions and i know why he does them - because he doesn't know - but by god #it's also a little like please... listen to yourself... #on the one hand he doesn't know and never will #on the other hand ... you have been awake for hours and hours without sleep... please get some rest... #but yeah as someone who forgets needs and has little sense of that it is like... objectively a stupid experience #and i don't say that with judgement in my heart but it feels REALLY stupid when your body does something and you don't know why #it's not the disability though that makes me say as much - it is fully the fact that he is SO STUBBORN! SO STUBBORN!!!! #you say you're not tired and fall down? hm? then maybe you are? i know you don't know but whatever. let's get you to bed boy. ok? #caring for him + shaking my head like i get it so much but you gotta sleep! 'this won't work'. ok liar... i already know it will.

[daydreamtoropova]

I'm the [tumblr] person who overuses comments in tags.

[tumblr] autosaved my tags even though I used them once.

Look in the tags and have a laugh.

(Possible tag game?) @author-of-the-year @jenumarts @thonethatflies620 @iamunabletothinkofablogname @ all my mutuals

#yeah i would've done something about it but now it's too late #he is not happy to be there. #why torture me like this #why all are my favorite characters evil??? #like bro why does it sound so ominous #“fedora kink” bro wtf #why is the universe so cruel #you're that mutual that i don't even know why i followed you #and i never played deltarune so idk why i am even doing this #why can't i have them #i like to imagine that humanity wasn't started by adam but by lucifer bc why not #uh is it not normal to chew on nonedible things? #damn i can't do russian or italian because those were already done #also pigeons? damn when i'm at a city i usually chase them #oh my goodness i love this #this is why i love this deer man <3 #i love this deer man (aroace ically) #the autism is autisming #goddamn my femboy obsession is acting up #why is everybody i see autistic these days??? wait i think i might be neurodivergent nvm #nah cause why is he trying so hard lmao #don't ask me how i know #so i usually stay up late on my computer until i'm tired enough to finally go to sleep and not wait hours in bed doing nothing

[pinkcrittertomb]

I, no joke, often dream about a scenario where Sanji realizes he can fight women without disrespecting them. Something happen or someone open his eyes, saying that he "respect" women so much by not fighting them that he is straight up disrespecting women by not seeing them as worth fighters, that may exist women who will take advantage of it (like we see zillions of times in the anime) but there is nothing more humiliating than someone not seeing you as worth to a fight and refusing to fight you as equal

#this text may be all wrong written but i'm too tired to write english properly rn #anyway can you see the vision? i'm so tired of sanji bullshit #he having a Mob like moment when Mob got the talk from that muscular lady #<-- it's been years since i watched it and still makes me cry #ok i will not lie like i don't find it funny when a woman be like “oh nooo don't kill meee i'm a defenseless fragile girl :(((” #because like. that's her problem #but now if a man be like “i refuse to fight this gorgeous female thing because i respect woman by not taking them seriously” #<-- die. see women as equal or fucking die no one will miss you. #one piece #black leg sanji #sanji #woman rights #op

[jennyandvastraflint]

Ok so since I literally could not avoid the fucking TenAgain bullshit (since some people, not many but some) couldn't tag their posts with even ONE of the like 15 tags I've filtered, all this has proven to me is that yeah RTD is indeed just erasing Thasmin and Yaz as a love interest of the Doctor (while bringing up fucking ROSE like time to fucking MOVE ON.), and is generally making some really icky moves... I was right to say the vibe if just OFF. I'm not surprised to be proven right but part of me is... disappointed. Like. What the actual fuck.

#dw spoilers #doctor who spoilers #doctor who #anti rtd #oh also if I have to see DT in Doctor Who even one more time I'm going to bite someone's face off #no offence to DT but the DW franchise is soooooo oversaturated with him i literally don't wanna see him anymore #DT is great as an actor but I'm so tired of seeing him in Doctor Who #anyway I was right one and a half years ago #I was right over a year ago #I was right the entire time #like 9h great a trans character wouldn't it be grand to NOT FUCKING ERASE THE DOCTOR CANONICALLY HAVING A SAPPHIC LOVE STORY FOR INSTANCE #like this arrogant man prides himself on being sooo great or whatever and then pulls shit like this? #Also if I have to hear one more rose mention I'll fucking jump into my tv and kill her and ten both so the fucking MID ship that is T*nRose #doesn't get dragged on like this for decades

[thelonemockingjay]

" I'd walk so far just to take the injury of finally knowing you. "

Excuse me sir, who gave you the permission to break my soul into a million little pieces and have me try to patch it up to the best of my capabilities just so you could find more crushing, creative ways of shattering it all over again?

#andrew hozier byrne #the man that you are #why do you have to have me in this state #every word you've ever uttered is poetry #and I'm so tired of being crushed this way #I should stop and listen to some roblox music #instead of subjecting myself to this torture #but oh god #how could I #when i know of the reach of your words #hozier #unknown / nth #unknown nth #unreal unearth

[hoshigray]

I'm coming back here bc of the jjk leaks today. Yuuta nation, my son is back again FOR THE PLAN, as you can see !! All y'all who got sum smart to say about my son, talk to my nicely but have respect for my goat thank you very much 🥱🥱🥱 okay but fr tho, someone please get him outta there, I know what Gege is doing, and i am not on board in the slightest. He's setting him up, he REALLY is, so please, Yuuta, turn back, turn the fUCk BACK—

#oh lord have mercy just when that chapter was stressful enough #the last pages just had to appear and my heart has never been filled with such false hope #Gege........please I'm begging #you alr took [REDACTED] from me last chap so please #spare a mother 🏃🏾‍♀️🏃🏾‍♀️🏃🏾‍♀️ #𝑯𝒐𝒔𝒉𝒊 ˖⁺‧₊˚🎐˚₊‧⁺˖ 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚 #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk leaks #jjk 248 #jjk manga #jjk manga spoilers #we got week break after this man it's so over for me #i'm tired of it #i really am 😔😔😔

[ratcandy]

my classmates will go thru 6 hours of class the day after a long excursion through the countryside and then just get up and go run around in town for hours going to movies and shopping and whatever and I'm just sitting here like Aren't you all exhausted . Aren't you all sore and pained. Where are you getting this energy. Can we calm down

#if nothing else this trip has really opened my eyes to how much chronic pain/fatigue does impact my life compared to others #i dunno I guess I just never really noticed. but I just don't have the energy other people do. Not even close. Not even a little bit #I go through a day of class and relish in the thought of spending the rest of my day resting because the agony in my legs #and the unbearable tiredness I feel just beckons me to collapse into bed #but everyone else is just so . energized. and ready to explore. and wanting to run all over the place and do 1 million things all the time #and this is normal? this is how normal people are? Because I'm the only one out of my entire class who seems to be the opposite #everyone just has so much energy. and I Do Not have that energy. I had to stand for most of the past three hours and it's taken me out #for the day i'll be honest. but everyone else just seems so undaunted #and it sucks because i'd love to hang out with these people and join them and whatever but when I do force myself along i'm just so tired #and so pained that all my responses are either dry or i don't say anything at all. i'm just completely out of spoons but I hang on because #i Hate the feeling of being left behind #oh well. eye-opening experience I guess #vent #<- it became that so yeah I'm tagging it #clamtalk #and also? my bee sting? IT ITCHES. Who was going to tell me it'd do that. What the Fuck Man

[gender-euphowrya]

spell of explode all transphobes Activate

#god i'm tired fkfhdj #i just want some kind of like #Worldwide Rule where you're not allowed to talk about shit you know nothing about #like. oh you have an opinion on trans people ? how much do you know about the effects of hrt ? #can you cite an accurate statistic about the rate of detransition ? have you researched what puberty blockers are ? #have you met and talked to a transgender person before ? a psychologist who has worked with trans patients ? #can you give a broad definition of the word ''non-binary'' ? do you know what a pronoun is ? have you heard of stonewall ? #can you name even one trans man ? #fail any of those and Sorry you gotta shut up now you're not qualified for this conversation #apply to any topic. racism. the climate. palestine. fatphobia. etc #too many damn people are comfortable parading around their Terribly Uninformed takes for other dipshits to parrot and spread #like i'm sorry but if you can't even tell me what tucking is why should i listen ? why should anyone #like this isn't even in-depth understanding i'm demanding it's literally the fucking basics #at they very least. if you don't know shit. then fucking say so. #''i think __ but i'm not an expert and i could be wrong'' something like that #rather than ''I THINK __ FOR NO GOOD REASON JUST GUT FEELING AND I'LL NEVER CHANGE MY MIND'' #just being louder than the people correcting your blatant misinformation doesn't fucking cut it. it shouldn't.