#or else i’ll forget

[cerisereids]

thinking about the time henry wanted to be spencer for halloween. he was clearly so excited, now imagine how excited he’d be with his own baby :,) i hc spencer as a girl dad always, so i think he’d love playing detective with his little baby girl 🥹🥹

#going to write this soon #i have such a busy week at work this week #but then i have next week off #i need to get my ideas out now tho #or else i’ll forget #writing coming next week 🫡 #criminal minds #spencer reid #spencer reid imagine #spencer reid fic #spencer reid fanfic #spencer reid fluff #spencer reid fanfiction #spencer reid blurb #spencer reid x you #spencer reid x reader #belle’s blurbs s.r.

[transmascissues]

today, my coworkers’ refusal to see me as a man put one of our patients in a position where they felt unsafe for the third time. i’ve been at this job for less than two months total. i don’t even care about getting misgendered anymore, i just want the people we’re supposed to be taking care of to feel comfortable around me.

i work at a hospital where we have to supervise our patients in a lot of vulnerable situations. there are safeguarding rules in place for certain things that male employees aren’t allowed to be present for when it comes to female patients. and yet, the people training me and telling me what to do have repeatedly put me in situations where i’ve been forced to do things that the female patients aren’t comfortable with me doing. and because they have repeatedly failed to teach me the rules for doing my job as a man, i have no way of knowing when i’m crossing one of those lines unless one of the patients tells me.

i’ve had to watch a victim of SA stare at me in abject terror as my coworkers asked her to strip naked with me still in the room. it took several minutes for her to even be able to speak enough to ask if i could leave the room. i found out after that she broke down crying the moment i walked out. my biggest regret is that i didn’t realize what was happening fast enough to leave before she ever had to say something, because she shouldn’t have had to say it. i never should’ve been allowed in the room in the first place, because that’s not something male employees are supposed to be present for. but i didn’t know that yet, because i was training and i thought surely, they wouldn’t train me to do something that directly violated their own safeguarding rules. that moment was the first time, and it’s haunted me ever since, but it wasn’t the last time. not only did it happen for the third time today — it almost happened for the fourth, and would have if someone hadn’t spoken up to say they should pick someone else. i care for these people so deeply, it’s why i took this job, and i’m so tired of hearing the fear in their voices when they have to ask me not to do something i never should’ve been told to do.

i’m very used to the personal discomfort of being misgendered. i willingly deal with it a lot at work as well as in other situations, not because i’m in the closet (at this point in my medical transition that would be impossible), but because it’s such a frequent occurrence with my coworkers that we would never get anything done if i took the time to correct them every time. but to see it get to the point of causing such visceral discomfort in other people? people i’m supposed to be taking care of and keeping safe? that’s something else entirely, and i’m fucking exhausted.

and after all of that, some of them still look at me like i have two heads when they tell me what to do and i say “i can’t do that, only female employees can” because i’m learning now. clearly i’m already seen as a man by our patients, but my coworkers would still rather put them in an unsafe situation than just train me as a man.

#to be clear it’s four different things they’ve asked me to do that im not supposed to #as soon as i find out about one rule they ask me to violate a different one that i didn’t know about #i will never ever forget that girl’s face and i’ll never stop being angry for her #for all three of them but especially her #i hate my coworkers for a million different reasons #the patients are the only reason i didn’t quit this job after the first day #i just want to do right by them and sometimes it feels like i’m the only one working there who does #it kills me because the patients who know im trans have been so great about it too #most of them know nothing about trans people but they’re so willing to learn and so respectful and we’ve had such great conversations #they’re getting fucked over by someone else’s transphobia when they themselves don’t have a single transphobic bone in their bodies #i hate this place because i care about the people in it too much to stand by the way it treats them and it’s killing me #transandrophobia #transandromisia #transmisandry #virilmisia #virilphobia #anti transmasculinity #transmascphobia

[rinphoria]

how's bartender atsumu coming along?

swell ! currently sitting at about 2k words which is kind of longer than i expected (that’s bc i have no self control and wrote a ton of build up <\3) but i’m hoping it’ll be done by tomorrow

#[დ] — diary #sender.anonymous #bro #whenever i’m laying to go to sleep #my brain is like ‘oh shit here’s an idea’ #and i have to get up and put it in my notes app #or else i’ll forget #and that has not been fun #but everything else has

[person25]

for some reason, every time i get back into dc and/or miraculous i always end up here:

#it’s compulsory atp #i’ll never forget my roots💪 #sometimes i forget the only reason i downloaded tumblr was for this ship #also how is there so many fic with them?😭 #definitely one of those ships you’ll only fine on fanfiction sites #and literally nowhere else #miraculous ladybug #batman #dc comics #dc robin #crossover #maribat #daminette #damian wayne #marinette dupain cheng #robin #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #batfam #dc universe #also fun bc they usually have a good family and aren’t awful towards each other👍

[babydarkstar]

so many griddlehark doomers on this website. smh my head…….theyre doomed by fate AND the narrative to be intrinsically intertwined no matter what. i cannot conceive of a finished locked tomb series where theyre not lying dead in each other’s arms or existing together in some fugue state of unbeing. not even death can separate the lesbians that scratch each other bloody and then cry in each other’s arms. they have been fated to orbit one another literally since their conception. one flesh one end, bitch.

#also harrow literally lobotomized to forget gideon and she still couldnt in the end #anyways i often think abt the whole #‘i gave you my whole life and you didnt even want it’ #and the thing is like. yeah gideon. she didnt want it because she never wanted to lose YOU who was attached to it #you who she just bonded with. has had a very tumultuous girlbestfriend situationship with #when i think abt how young they are i fucking scream #this is why i hate john gaius. insane man. kill him to death alecto #tlt #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #anyways. thinking about the saddest girl in the whole world tonight :( #this is a john gaius HATE account all my homies HATE john gaius #anyways. why is everybody so so scared that theyre going to have a terrible endgame #baby theyve already been falling through a terrible endgame thru the duration of their entire existence #i will say. if harrowhark ends up with anybody else i’ll have to off myself #i support womens wrongs but ianthe can go be wrong somewhere far away from harrow #im about to go through the entire series again so i can screenshot and prove why im right about this #theres a narrative thread to follow #and never once have i been afraid of them not finding their way back to each other #the thing is like. above everything. these girls exist to orbit each other #gideon thinking harrow is her past when harrow has always been her present and her future #harrow thinking gideon’s death will be her undoing #because to harrow. gideon is unable to die. she WOULDNT die for so long #and when she found something to die for. she went to it with her whole being #but heres the thing. one flesh one end is more than just becoming one body and dying one death #idk im incoherent i need to talk abt this in a post instead of tags #i will. soon

[theold-ultraviolence]

You guys are so fucking weird about Joseph Quinn and then wonder why he seems different now than how he was two years ago, my god

#joseph quinn #browsing through his tag is an experience™️ #it is literally none of our business what goes through his head 24/7 #you’re forgetting how bad it got when he got crazy overnight success when st4 came out #he’s been doxxed harassed stalked and god knows what else #of course he was bound to change #he’s only human and his privacy has been severely disturbed #I said it before two years ago and I’ll say it again #he’s been treated like a SHOW PONY #when he’s an ACTOR #can we please just #celebrate the roles he’s getting and not get weird about him as a person or his personal life PLEASE

[rickybaby]

‘F**K THAT GUY’ - RICCIARDO FURIOUS WITH STROLL’S CRASH REACTION

#ok maybe stern repressed anger Daniel IS sexy??? #if he wants to lecture me I’ll get down on my knees and say sorry daddy 😌 #but on a more serious note if I see the discourse on the internet going against Daniel for this incident #when he’s simply asking for the other driver to take accountability for ruining both their races it’s on sight 🔪🔪🔪🔪 #because daniel has always taken all his mistakes on the chin #has always apologised for ruining someone else’s race whether it was his mistake or the circumstances #this man went to the Ferrari motor home to apologise to sainz in imola 2022 #and immediately apologised to Lance in Hungary 2022 right after the race when it was mostly mcl’s shit strategy to blame for #(​not to forget him getting sacked later on after that race <3) #the least he deserves is a reciprocation of the sportsmanship he’s always shown!!! #daniel ricciardo #China24

[lovelyreprisethirteen]

okay so… does anyone else see a very clear potential future storyline of adam coming back as a demon and after trying and failing to get revenge against charlie and co. end up as a guest at the hotel in a last ditch attempt to get back into heaven only to become a genuinely better being and happier than he ever was as an angel further blurring the lines between heaven and hell in terms of the morality of the people in them eventually fully cementing himself as a fan favorite himbo by like season 3 or is that just me????

#adam hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel #listen i know this is very specific #but it feels so obvious to me #and when i looked up if anyone else was thinking this would happen #everyone was just like ‘oh yeah adam is a 100% dead #i felt like i was actually going insane #so i’m probably way off #but incase i’m not #i wanted to write it down #so in three years if all of this v specific shit happens #including how the fandom would eventually react #i can point to this and be like ‘SEE’ #and if it doesn’t i’ll just forget i wrote it #also alex brightman replacing alex brightman switching places is so funny to me #but that’s just a theory

[fizzytoo]

i need her so bad or i’ll die

#bg3 #shadowheart #*fizzyspeaks #SHES SO BEAUTIFUL #please i’ll crawl hands and knees through glass and nails for you !!!!! #PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE [on my knees] #it’s me baby it’s me forget everyone else #i’m sending heyyyy with a slutty amount of ys in your dms please answer please #just the lighting UGH and the soft smile on her face ACK

[stuckinapril]

Every time I go through a period of not working out I lose my mind. I truly cannot be outside of my body for too long

#Obviously the toning/being fit is nice & I will not act like that’s not a big part of it #But also genuinely whenever I don’t work out I feel like I’m just not present in my body like I can’t feel myself #When my ex best friend and I fell out I ran nonstop on the treadmill for an hour and it actually alleviated sm of my stress #When my ex and I broke up I was at the gym 7x a week like I was training for cross country or something #Nothing else has helped me quite the same #Saying this as I’m ab to get into a cute two piece and hit the gym (the sun is not up yet <3) #And then I’ll study at the library under the sun and try to forget my problems probably

[melonfell]

happy birthday, kim dokja!! // 2.15

#kdj #kim dokja #orv #orv fanart #kimcom #Kim Dokja’s Company #yjh #hsy #ysa #jhw #ljh #lgy #sys #lhs #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung #Lee Seolhwa is taking the photo #<- the lack of her here was very much not intentional I just… forgot… #by the time I realized I had already colored everyone else in and merged the layers so it was just like… :/ forget it #sorry lsh you deserve better. I’ll draw you next time.

[orkojpeg]

post-trap team had to be awkward for not just the skylanders, but to a few ex-villains too lol

(for context: in the novels, brock used to work directly for kaos before getting fired/quitting)

#skylanders #skylanders brock #skylanders kaos #jj post #this was gonna be for skytober but I think I’ll do something else instead oops #sometimes I forget that a lot of people don’t read the novels so they don’t get really funny scenarios like this

[titsthedamnseason]

okay my darlings, you know what time it is…..SURPRISE SONG GAME TIME!!! except this time it’s extra super duper special because this post is actually queued because today is MY SHOW 🤭🫶 aka it’s atlanta n3 therefore i am BEGGING you to manifest the absolute best of your best picks and leave them in the tags or replies for me to see later and then give you an internet smooch if you win 💗 HAPPY GUESSING

i’m going to guess my absolute dream combo of hey stephen and dorothea

#ps i would love if a lot of people played tongiht 🥺 so since i cant be obnoxious about reblogs if anyone wants to give it an extra rb or two #i will love you FOREVER #just so people don’t forget about it and keep playing through the night #THANK YOU LOVES ❤️ #seriously i’ll be happy no matter what but send me good vibes please and thank you #but it’s okay if you don’t because i too am i bitter wench that wishes terrible songs upon everyone else so taylor saves the best for me. #so i’ll forgive bad guesses. BUT NOT CHANGE. PLEASE JUST DONT MANIFEST CHANGE OR IFTYE #honorable mentions for hits different rwylm yoyok hoax happiness evermore hygtg ikp iwyw cornelia street #better man too #renegade in my biggest moments of clownery #THE STORY OF US #IDK I LOVE EVERYTHING #i’ll probably be posting my list of top picks before this posts anyway #okay i’ve talked too much sorry i’m going crazy rn because it’s so soon #mine #surprise song game #taylor swift #it’s a good thing i don’t believe in self sabotage or jinxing or anything like that bc historically i am a TERRIBLE guesser lmao #my eras show

[brother-emperors]

To begin with, your blog is AMAZING, WONDERFUL AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH😭

You are the main source of my late Roman Republic hyperfixation and I am GRATEFUL.

In one of your post you've mentioned that you have a crassus sulla playlist and since then I can't stop thinking about it. Can you pls tell what music you associate with these guys??

my top three songs for Crassus and Sulla are Hatef—k by the Bravery, Obsession by OK Go, and Seven Nation Army by the White Stripes! sometimes syudou’s In The Backroom when I’m thinking about those moments of Sullan style violence you see Crassus inflict, LUCY’s Boogie Man when I’m more focused on Sulla’s point of view. more abstractly, Daniel Licht’s Corvo Trailer & Polyphia’s Playing God. Anson Lo’s Money to zero in on specific themes!

and ABBA’S Lay All Your Love on Me, ofc!

shoutout to U-Know’s Thank U and Vuja De which also appear on my Sulla-Pompey & Sulla-Caesar track lists as well!

#when I’m really looking to tap into something I’ll put Depeche Mode’s Personal Jesus and think thoughts re Sulla to that #ask tag #also thank you anon! I hope you’re having a nice day 💕💖 #this took a minute to figure out bc it’s my favorite band’s 20th anniversary so all I’ve been doing is listening to their live performances #and forgetting abt every other song I’ve ever listened to lmao #ABBA’s song was from someone else’s playlist and it’s SO correct I put it on all my drawing playlists now

[foursaints]

hello saints beloved what is one thing abt urself that does not fit the vibe / perception of urself u put forth … for the sleepover … mine is that my favorite movie is unironically the sonic the hedgehog movies

ives my precious silver thimble … i know we’re on the same wavelength because my answer would be that MY favorite movie is unironically blockbuster masterpiece pacific rim 2013 …

i like to picture us wearing, like, berets & smoking cigarillos & drinking vermouth at a beatnik slam poetry drum circle but we’re watching Sonic on our iphones

#everything else about me in my entire life is Painfully On Brand however #pacrim jaeger pilots would actually sincerely make the greatest jegulus au of all time but i shan’t SPEAK of it #or i’ll forget how to stop . #a #sleepover tag

[soloavengers]

finally compiled the two back to back transportation fail… best believe i walked to bakbattahl on foot after the griffin, i feared finding out what the game would’ve cooked up the third time

#dragon’s dogma 2 #dd2 #syl & winnie #the slow walk towards the cart in the second is soo funny #“else will be lost!” *her arisen Dies* #the worst part is this one needed to be pulled and i had to do it Twice #these are pretty old but i’ll never forget them