#or is part of me just rotten

[lilyflxwers]

im holding onto the past so hard that the future is slipping right past me. how do i let go. how do i let go of all the anger.

#am i a bad person #or is part of me just rotten #is there a difference? #im in so much pain

[marimeeko]

So you're telling me that we are getting another chapter today when I haven't recovered from Kacchan Bakugou, or "I'm the one who steps in", or the Combat Handhold, or the "Their feelings become one" or the direct eye contact, the disappearance of Izuku's OFA charged tears upon seeing Katsuki again....or katsuki rescuing AllMight, Kacchanmari Damacy, AFO screaming about his brother's boyfriend...

Like I haven't recovered yet, and I am expected to deal with ANOTHER CHAPTER?

#horikoshi is giving me too much lately #brain rotten #bakudeku #bnha spoilers #bkdk #bakugou katsuki #izuku midoriya #bnha 407 #what next #is he even taking breaks anymore?? #i feel like horikoshi is finally at his favorite part of his story #and is just hammering them out #but like in the best way #cause the chatpers are immaculate #i just noticed that ever since kacchan came back its been back to back weeks no breaks #bless horikoshi fr

[nightswatchdisbandmentera]

random but it struck me that age is just another parallel/anti-parallel that Jon and Jaime will share. Jaime was 16/17(?) when he made the fateful choice to kill Aerys, which forever besmirched his honor and caused him to be “the Kingslayer” (deragatory). Jon was about the same age, 17/18, when he made the fateful decision to march south against the Boltons, something that will undoubtedly dent his already shaky reputation and could cause him to be “the deserter” (also deragatory).

We always talk about how Jaime stagnated and wallowed in his nihilism after Aerys’ death, never growing or maturing past that point; in a way, he was always mentally stuck at 17. Jon could very well die given the wounds he received during the mutiny, and though he will be revived, he will be always be physically stuck at 17, never maturing past that point. But I think Jon has been more successful in a way that Jaime never was in that he figured out quite early (when he was 15) that though he may lose his honor, he must keep pushing for the greater good. He understood the concept of “a bastard’s honor”, and is even more fortunate to receive Tyrion’s lesson of using one’s lowly position/lack of honor to his advantage, which he has been doing to enact what he considers to be the moral goods (ref “bastard” “guilty of that, at least”). P.S: I also think it’s funny given Aemon’s advice to kill the boy in order for the man to be born. Ironic that Jon will always be a boy physically.

Jaime grew physically but not so much mentally. Jon grows mentally (it’s actually his strong suit as a character how much he matures with each book) but he will have sacrificed the ability to age normally as a boy would. Jaime lost his honor at ~17 and is characterized but years of (mental) inaction. I think Jon, on the other hand, will lose his honor but will be more and more prone to making decisions, because to hell with it all.

#ok I will say that Jaime is growing though #his arc since asos has been him pushing past that stagnation #but I just wanted to talk about the forever 17 boys having to lose their honor and grappling with that #and tbh I think Jon will have his own little period of wallowments but it won’t last nearly as long as Jaime’s did #and tbh Jon already knows how rotten the institution he is a part of is so that will help him work out of his slump #he just expected them to work past that rottenness and do their damn jobs - but alas! #this is so jambled and is me rambling a bit but whatever #jon and jaime best morally compromised boys ❤️ #asoiaf #jon snow #jaime lannister #valyrianscrolls

[a-sketchy]

man i think yosuke is like, more obsessed with the idea of women than he is attracted to them as people. i don’t think he’s so far gone that he doesn’t think women are people, and i do generally interpret him as being attracted to women, but i think the concepts are a little separated in his head, and a little mythologized. like for example, there’s such a visible shift in his behaviour when he’s thinking of chie as a person and when he’s thinking of her as a girl. like, i think he considers chie the person as someone that’s ultimately really important to him, a good friend that he cares about a great deal, but is also super irritating and not his first choice of person to spend very extended amounts of time around. chie the girl is a Girl. and yosuke Likes Girls, as like a relatively important part of his identity, so he hits on her despite having less than a snowball’s chance in hell. i don’t think he’s even all that attracted to her specifically, he’s just attracted to the concept of girls that’s been built up in his head

#yosuke’s shitty in mundane ways where he’s ultimately a product of his environment rather than rotten to the core #most of it is regurgitating things he’s been taught are ‘normal’ to cover up his insecurity #and he just kinda lucked out with the worst friend group to attempt ‘normalcy’ with #so his shittiness ends up more emphasized than it otherwise would be #which is super interesting #rambles #p4g posting #his homophobia is the thing that usually gets focused on (for very understandable reasons) #but his his misogyny is both more pervasive and more interesting to me personally #it’s difficult teasing out what parts of it are of his character and what parts of it are The Game’s biases though #yosukeposting

[rubiatinctorum]

I get where people are coming from when they say Diaspro in Winx lost the plot for the sake of being turned into a minor villain and that's all once Valtor enabled her to do what she did in S3, but I feel like that was a reasonable narrative choice. It's only a love potion at that point (while I could go on all day about the ethics of love potions, of course, a later season has her straight up trying to do direct murder). She's a noble, guards will do her dirty work, and I understand that she would feel like getting revenge on Bloom while getting back together with Sky. She was promised a position — romantic AND political — she nearly had and then it was taken from under her by a random fairy who wasn't even "supposed" to be in the running. I don't think what she did was nice, but it makes sense for the story and for her character for her to want to reclaim her position in the way she did. Sky's love was an accessory, in part, to her political ascension, and thus he is again rendered accessory and accomplice by the love spell. And, sending guards after threats seems to be the thing to do in the magical universe if you're a disgruntled noble, so it's probably not unfamiliar for Diaspro to have seen occur before or want to do. It's not a uniquely rotten response any more than Radius' behaviour towards the monster (who, he didn't know it, was Stella). If we fault her for this action rather than only the intention behind it, we need to examine how the worlds in Winx Club deal with threats to their monarchs in general, which sounds interesting but I frankly don't have time for tonight. Diaspro did wrong, but she didn't do uniquely wrong there, and Eraklyon has the punitive security structures in place to have enabled that.

Diaspro's later appearances seem to flatten her motives and the symbolism behind why her relationship with Sky was important and what she does about it (who cares what Diaspro's political aims are and how her status might reflect how she deals with problems, the audience needs to see Bloom thrown into fire I guess), but I feel like seasons 4-8 weren't really that good anyway, so I can't even claim this as a fault of the writers doing Diaspro specifically wrong instead of them just doing the whole show wrong at that point. It might be related, and it might be a coincidence, but a lot of the writing choices seemed to become more flat to me right around when the art shifted to that lifeless godawful Flash simulacrum of S1-3's art.

Also like... idk but if some long-haired hottie wizard in a sick coat and contemplative eyeshadow told me he could help me get my promised chance at both romantic and political success back, I'd at least hear him out, yknow, see what he had to say (<- don't trust me I simp for Valtor)

#rubia speaks #winx club #winx #diaspro #winx diaspro #not supporting women's wrongs but parsing them in context #actually you know what. love u bloom but i have a diaspro apologism streak in me #love potion BAD AWFUL ROTTEN but the guards? we need to interrogate the king about that one i think #and make ur guards pass a basic test on the obvious visual difference between a fairy and a witch idk :/ #is diaspro entitled to sky's love and the political position of being his wife? no. does it narratively make sense for her to be mad? yeah #is her position of having been given the expectation of a certain status and result and having it 'undermined' a compelling one? yeah! #i think there's a lot to say about expectation vs reality and the burden of unfulfilled unsealed commitments in Diaspro's situation #and the societal structures in Eraklyon that allow her to act outside of due process because she's big mad as long as the king is cool w he #how the nobles protect their own class and interests even when Sky is acting unusual from VALTOR'S FUCKING MAGIC DAMN #now if she could just drop the magical coercion and the classism and the witch slander.......... #interesting how that arc makes Bloom almost an underdog when... babe.... ur a Princess. #Sky's not out here marrying a commoner he's courting a princess of another world #.... sociopolitical views of Domino by other worlds? Bloom acting vs not acting the part of how a princess acts on Eraklyon? #Bloom as a Lesser Princess because of the condition of Domino? #Association with the Winx and Alfea in general making of her a symbolic commoner? #much to consider about Bloom's 'underdog' role compared to Diaspro in the Eraklyon Engagement Era

[frozenhi-chews]

Pancake and Starlo, the space desert couple

#starcake #rotten star #🌵💫 #the cake doth speak #i need to be Out in the desert #walking on its sandy and rocky terrain at night #gazing into the sky. watching the stars glitter across the dark expanse #the milky way. the galaxy right in front of me. just out of reach #but that doesnt matter. i have the whole terrain in front of me #mesas and plateus. massive rocky spires reaching for the stars #out here. im everything. i am part of the desert itself. not human nor animal. like ive dissolved the barrier between human and the stars #and the desert #nighttime does that to me. im no longer human. the barrier between it and the universe thins #i need fo become the stars. spacial and bright. flying fast over the rocky terrains of the desert i grew up in #a cosmic beast

[alchemiclee]

been trying to figure out what exactly it is about aventurine that feels perhaps relatable, or what it is that makes me want to study him like a bug...

and camr to the thought that he's pretty pessimistic for am optimist...but also ob the other side of the same coin, he's optimiaric for a pessimist. kinda both at the same time,.or depending on the day or how you look at him maybe.

he's an optimist becuase he knows he's going to win. he always wins. he has always won his gambles. he knows it will happen again and again. his luck, or gift, or blessing, or whatever you want to call it ensures that. but he's also a pessimist becuase he knows that "win" also always comes with some kind of suffering for him. he wins all his gambles, but at what cost? a lot, actually. so is it really a win? he knows he will win, but he also knows he will be used, abused, sacrificed, broken, or in pain. he expects those to be a consequence of his winning luck, to the point of making sure it happens and becomes self-destructive because of it. he acts calmly like it's ok and is the outcome he wants and calls that a win because it's what he plans and expects. he bets on it and it happens.

but at the same time, he's slowly breaking and seems to want it to end. he tests the limits of his luck to see if it's a real "gift" or if it is all a coincidence and has an end. he probably wants to meet the end to end the pain and suffering, but knows his "luck" won't allow it. he wants to be against the luck and see if he can win. a whole contradiction it itself. his luck kept him alive so many times and continues to do so. it will always do so, unless perhaps his end is the goal. what if he bets on losing this time? bets in meeting his end? he needs to get lucky enough to achieve that goal. flip his lucky fate by turning his luck around, make his end the final lucky win.

but it seems like he either lost for once and didn't meet his end....maybe his luck truly does intend on keeping him alive...or he changed his mind in the end and got lucky enough to get out of meeting his end once again...

he's still a bit of an enigma to me and i'm not sure exactly what happened. but he's for sure a complex and amusing character (even if I still want to put him into a snow globe and shake it as hard as I can) and this whole penacony story is too complex for my soggy trashcan brain lmao but i'm enjoying the ride

#hsr #hsr aventurine #hsr spoilers #kinda spoilerish tbh #words #i could be very much misinterpreting him but this is just my brain trying to work things out so its not too deep #its a ramble for brain to try organizing thoughts #this quest left more answers than questions #like. FIREFLY?! is she even real! what is she who is she. why did they leave us on TO BE CONTINUED there! #also not to be a rock nerd but aventurine is a very pretty rock. i enjoy that pretty rock #also i reread this and its basically a nonsensical ramble and doesnt really make sense #its vague and doesnt really grasp him. hes too complex to fit neatly into my rotten worm brain so dont mind me and my rambles lmao #am too sleepy to use brain. make me do dailies and go to bed #ah. a thing i forgot to add to my ramble: hes always been alone ever since his sister left him. he only has himself to rely on #hes a very lonely character who doesnt have anyone to trust or rely on. no true friends. everyone uses or betrays him #perhaps hes afraid of this and further chooses to not trust and rely on anyone too much. he only has himself in the end #that part of him is very relatable. i also find it hard to trust and rely on anyone and am forever alone.....

[sandinthepipes]

So you're telling me the shows that trend more, for longer and have a ton of audience are those where there is queerness acknowledged outloud and in an accurate way, and not those who queerbait try to appease the entire spectrum of humanity making it unsatisfactory on both fronts?

Weird, it's almost like there's a starvation of content from a huge chunk of population who's begging to be exploited in exchange for good representation

#our flag means death #ofmd #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #blood origin #i mean i dont want the rotten part of the witcher fandom to fond this but i am taking about blood origin flopping if it wasn't for jaskier #don't get me wrong i loved it it was actually a really cute serie #i just find it funny that nobody cared about bo because twn is a mess so at the last second they put the only thing that saves their ass #truly desperate times for them #inthepipes

[quietwingsinthesky]

like. okay. i have no real horse in the race of “which brother is the secret bad abuser” because the show does not actually care about that or think that either of them is actually treating each other that badly (except for when sam get manipulated, which is always his own fault and he should suffer for it /s)

but what i will say is that the way dean is written sometimes manages to make me more uncomfortable than any of the villains on this show. dean scares me. completely unintentionally, they did write a guy who only gets Worse over time, and it’s compelling, and it’s upsetting for me to watch.

#I don’t really mean this as a criticism because To Me it is just like. a part of the show. #it’s a feature. perhaps a Bethesda’s bug of a feature but. it’s a feature. #dean’s change in character feels natural. watching him get worse feels like the logical conclusion of where he’s going. #(the logical conclusion could also have been ‘dean makes an effort to not be so controlling’ but they didn’t do that. they leaned into it.) #so it isn’t much like. say. Lucifer. Lucifer is a character who just flips. motivations and character completely changed. #so disregarding his later appearances just? makes sense? to me anyway. that’s Not My Wife #but Dean’s character degradation is completely different in that it builds on what’s already there. #and whenever I write him I feel the need to. idk. grapple with that. with that potential to become Worse. #he is controlling! he doesn’t ever really trust sam that much post-s5! he does treat Cas his best friend like he doesn’t matter unless #he’s acting more human! these are just facts about him that show up long before the later seasons and idk! Dean is! he’s a lot! #he and Lucifer have a lot alike in the way that they’re driven mostly by love. and that love can easily go rotten. and it’s terrifying. #spn #dean winchester #sry watching s6 makes me think about. things. #actually no. not sorry. I’m going to get worse about this if I keep watching so stay tuned.

[wazzuppy]

one of the things ive seen a few ppl get wrong about duncan is like,,,, the idea that he doesnt care. that hes just kind of indifferent to what others do or how they perceive him, when like, he definitely isnt and never really has been. even in the first season we see him be pretty protective of his reputation of being all tough and mean. and while i think all stars took that aspect a bit too far, i also do genuinely find it more true to his character than how world tour portrayed him.

#duncan in world tour is just.... yikes #like guys i love world tour too but i do not think enough ppl acknowledge how out of character duncan was for that whole season #like ofc he had good moments but those were mostly all before i see london #after that i feel like his characterization was just. really rotten and nasty. he just got so unpleasant so quickly #its like the worst part of the season for me #although all the sierra and cody stuff isnt really all that fun either #tara says stuff #total drama #td #total drama all stars #tdas #total drama world tour #tdwt #duncan #duncan tarun

[shrowdly]

#rotten art #hollow knight #hk #broken vessel #only posting this so i can stop worrying so much about it #i keep thinking about how much better it could be #its not. BAD though. there are just parts that bother me. i really like bv they turned out nice #anyway. in my files this is called 'my turn on the monarch wings' #which is hilarious to me

[cospinol]

50k clear!! (*ˊᗜˋ*)و

#too early in the month to claim the winners banner and certificate apparently lol it just took me to a placeholder page... #full disclosure i did hit 50k right in the middle of patching in mentions of augustine in earlier chapters. i keep forgetting this damn #mascot character exists even though he's this story's ENTIRE raison d'être (genuinely) !!!! #but now i'm *finally* back around to the chapter i was actually writing after spending the better part of the past week patching in the mos #pressing of those earlier chapters though it's mostly composed of a scene i was hoping to just slot into ch2 instead OTL #(ox prince introduction/meetcute for suzu + actual scripture lore)... i still would like to actually have chapters at the palace and lotus #garden but it's more important to at least finish the rotten fruit temple stuff first. that is super doable though we're almost on the home #stretch already!! i just have to get through this extremely cursory haiko and adonis scene first before we get to the good stuff... #nano tag #txt #nanowrimo

[scoreplings]

it is just that i have been telling myself allll the things to calm me down (theyre just like that because they're sad, it has nothing to do with you, you know its wrong dont let it affect you or they win, etcetcetc) for twenty fucking years and i am SICK of it. but there is nothing i can do to stop people who have more power than me from using it to harass insult and injure me so i just have to take their shit and pretend i like it. awesome.

#sorry for vent posting i in fact find this deeply embarrassing on my part but my bf can only hear it so many times & i have no friends. so. #anyway the guy inspiring this is currently openly ignore multiple safety rules while operating heavy machinery so i hope he flips his ride #and cracks his skull open 👍 but realistically he will not. #and i can't walk out or tell him to fuck off because hes my boss. so i have to sit and listen to his shitty misogyny and bullying for eight #whole hours of my life. working a section i'm not even supposed to be in and haven't been trained on. #and trying not to cry or get openly mad because for some reason me getting angry when im disrespected is worse than the disrespect. #i need to find a new job. but nowhere else around here pays as much and i'm barely getting by as it is. #and i'm supposed to get a promotion soon where i'll technically be in charge of most of the people who are shitty to me (but not this guy #in particular) #but im like. what will that fix. okay so i have power over them now but using it in any way to negatively affect them would just make me th #asshole. most of them aren't any better off than me they're just dudes so they feel entitled to mistreat me. #the culture here is fucking rotten and i can't fix it on my own.

[4arconinoma]

Listen to me listen I sont even know how to convey this right at all I just think Yoshikage Kira is one of the absolute best fucking villains in absolutely everything with rhe Coolest most fuckinf satisfting final battle and demise ive ever seen in my entire entire ENTIRE godforsaken life I am soooooooo

#I truly cannot convey how much I adore him as a villain he is He just interests me infinitely he's so fucking horrible #I despise him as a person but he is my most beloved villain of anything ever so far #This I need to leave this stuff for the DiU essay i fucking hope to write but #Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhg #Idk how to explain it quite yet but. His death beinf what ir is The fact that he consistently ruins his streak of going entirely undetected #in his endeavors and making no mistakes all because he gets so COCKY. The way he dies in such a standard way. #THE WAY THE . ALLEYWAY HANDS ARE WHAT DRAG HIM TO HELL. THE HANDS. THE HANDS ARE HIS DEMISE IN THE EMD #AND THE WAY HIS HAND GETS RIPPED OFF TOO. BY THE DOG AND THE GIRL HE MURDERED HIMSELF YEARS AGO. IS SO #IDC Kira scares me more than any other jojo villain the vampires the gods the mafia bosses All of them #This guy is just so profoundly horrible rotten and fucked up. I'd need to dedicate an entire part of my hypothetical essay to him #HE'S SO FASCINATING IT DRIVES ME INSANE #I LOVE DIU YOU DONT UNDERSTANDDDD YOU DONT UNDERSTANMD #ITS SO #m #Hauuuuhhrjrhrb im gonna go insane Like genuinely fucking oh my god I LOVE PART 4 I LOVVVVVEEEEEEEE PART 4 LISTEN TO ME #jjba #txt #duaurhrhhfnngrbhdjfnnrne.mrmemfjdhdhsbbsb #auhhh fucking dies

[girlbob-boypants]

I use my likes as a bookmark function so I like personal posts to show people support and then unlike said posts a few days later so that's the context otherwise this might come off as more random. anyways. thinking of what you've said about toxic positivity and I have to say being in those circles, it does also get to the point where it feels like you cant even talk about the things you do like and why, because the mentality of just of "if you dont have the same views 1:1 to me then it's a personal attack" so it's more of a personal anecdote but those spaces are severely allergic to any serious discussion even if its positive criticism and analysis lmao

Listen I've got ADHD. "This might seem random but" is about how I start 90% of tangents.

As for the actual discussion, 500% yeah. While I mostly rant about toxic positivity cause it's most of what I deal with, toxic negativity can be just as prevalent. It's the main reason I even mentioned reddit in the tags of the post I think you're talking about. When the changes for the daily system in my current mmo came out, anyone who talked about the good things got accused of "forcing positivity" for the act of not making yet another post about how awful the bad parts of the system were (which they were but also the good parts were just as good as the had parts were bad. Its a fascinating duality)

But honestly go onto any internet connected multiplayer game reddit after a change and you'll see what I'm talking about. Criticism skews towards hateful and positivity is accused of being forced.

I just find that small fandoms within tumblr tend towards being very insular groups that expect positivity. Like to the point where someone in my main mmo apologized for saying "hey do not buy this because charging $20+ for this is downright predatory" because it was "negativity." The act of letting people know a business is trying to steal money with a pretty cosmetic you'll never see for more than 3 seconds at a time being considered negativity in a fandom is insane to me, frankly.

Which if I wanted to argue a cause with nothing but anecdotes, I'd say it likely comes from the way criticism of big name fans within small fandoms will often be met with a response of "Ugh I don't need this negativity in my happy place" regardless of the context or validity.

At the same time tho I 100% know what you mean by pushback against positive criticism even within those same spaces that I find toxic positivity to be prevalent in. Just look at the fact that "im a hater" posts get so many notes. No post about a personal belief can be rb'd on tumblr without easily influenced people altering their personas to fit it here (see: the way funny bitchy posts between friends getting popular and resulting in being rude to strangers). Saying you like something thats (fandom) universally accepted to be bad can be grounds for mockery etc.

At the end of the day it does boil down to what you said at the end, people hate any serious discussion of their favorite media, regardless of whether it's positive or negative. And any variance from the (perceived) fandom universal belief will result in pushback of some kind.

#girlbob.txt #im guessing this comes in no small part from your dealings in om spaces from what i remember of your favorite character and how he's treate #which i 500% get #searching the braham tag is just not a thing i do cause to this day people still say rotten things #and liking him is considered a personal flaw #but even beyond that just liking something that gets dunked on can be considered 'Forced Positivity' #which like. putting that term on the top shelf #anyway long answer to a short statement sorry #i do get what you mean i just tend to bang on toxic positivity more cause i face it in the small fandoms i don't belong to #but share a media with #like the time i said it's suspicious that both of the games DE has a hand in had really predatory mtx around the same time #and someone told me to go to reddit #which fuck that bootlicker first of all but the fact that was considered negative enough for that response lmfao #and god the mmos i like #i redacted this segment i've said so much already

[zeussim]

I've had an epiphany about my masters. I'm not gonna do bioinformatics. It's not for me, I can't see myself doing it for the rest of my life. I really don't want to. It fills me with dread. SO, I'm going back to my first idea, the reason for me wanting to study biology in the first place. Marine microbiology!! The thing I have added though is that I'll take some bioinformatic courses along with it to be ✨️extra✨️(let's not forget I've already taken bioinformatic courses)

#also the reason i went away from marine biology #was...the rotten fish i dissected #it TRAUMATISED me for TWO YEARS #making me completely doubt my ability to study marine biology #BUT hehehe I can just skip the disgusting dissection and go straight to microbiology!! #heheheheheh #the second reason i stopped dreaming about marine microbiology was I was scared I wouldnt be able to get a job #BUT when I add my part specialisation in bioinformatics and statistics #that opens a lot more doors #ALSO hehe my uncle is an emeritus in arctic marine biology he has connections #and i shouldnt choose smth based solely on the fact that I want to have a job #i should also choose it based on what I want to do for the rest of my life #and that's what im gonna do #nonsims