#out on everyone around you. its not like i dont understand its just not an excuse and it still wasnt okay and you've hurt MANY people.

[pinkandlilacroses]

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Angel - Paige bueckers

part 1

• summary {when an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star}

•warnings {none (for now)}

•comment if you would like to be added to the taglist

bellas pov

“Im just saying, a rom com romance would be fantastic tight now” I state to my best friend, Avery. “i mean everyday is the same thing over and over” i continue. I can tell she doesn’t care, Avery’s been in a relationship with her high school sweetheart, Jake since freshman year.

“you need to stop being desperate” she says scooting closer to me on our couch.

this may sound rude, but thats just how Avery is, ane i guess ive gotten used to it

“nobody understands me” i say dramatically as i get up and walk towards my room.

“remember, we are going out tonight” Avery yells

fuck. i forgot.

i hate going out, theres to many people

i feel like sometimes Avery relyes on me, i mean sometimes i wanna hang out with other people, not just her. Avery on the other hand, im her only friend and i understand why, i love her but she is so mean to any and everyone that she comes across.

a few hours pass and i begin getting ready. i put on a matching pink set with a tube top and a mini skirt, i feel cute, i cant wait for this to get ruined by a bunch of drunk, sweaty college students.

i know i take a while to get ready, i mean its taken me two hours to pick my outfit and do my hair and i haven’t even started my makeup yet. my excuse is that you can never rush perfection.

“bella cmon we gotta go” Avery yells, ‘how is she ready so early’ i think to myself, finishing my coat of mascara.

“ok, ok, im ready” i say 20 minutes later. i can tell shes pissed, but it doesn’t bother me.

“your so dramatic, its a 5 minute walk” Avery says, annoyed, as always.

“i am not made for walking”

its only been 5 minutes since our arrival and i want to leave

“hey baby” a clearly drunk guy says, while he slyly brings his hand to my bare waist.

“who are you” i say, bluntly

“hey loosen up princess” he says, getting closer

i do like that nickname. but i hate him.

“im gonna go now”

i dont know if im straight, to be honest. i was raised in a household where anything but straight was a sin, so i never really questioned my interests. but whenever i see a girl who is tall and strong, my straightness goes out the window, and i feel like im sinning. ive never done anything with a girl before and im scared, i dont know if i ever would.

i walk away from the drunk man and towards the bar

“oh my god im so sorry” ‘fuck. why am i so clumsy’, i say to the girl i bumped into

“nah your all good” she says, looking down at me

i hadn’t looked at her, but now that i am. i never wanna stop. shes tall and blonde.

“hi, im paige” she says, breaking my admiration.

“im bella” i say, shamelessly checking her out

she has on grey sweatpants and a black tshirt. hot.

“do you go here” she says, continuing the conversation.

“uh, yeah, im a junior” i say, stuttering. why am i stuttering

“are you nervous?” she says, bringing her face closer to my own. yes, i am so nervous, you make me so nervous, ohmygodohmygodohmygod

“no” i say, unconvincingly.

“you sure?” she questions again. im not ok

“your on the basketball team, right?” i say, attempting to shift the conversation

she chuckles

“yeah” she states, moving back to her original position, further away from me. come back

“have you heard of me” she says, cockily

“i think everyone has here” i say, to be honest, i dont know anything about basketball. but ive heard of her before and her eyes have me trapped, there so blue and inviting.

what am i saying

“i wanna know more about you though” she whispers, moving closer than before.

“what do you wanna know” i say wrapping my arms around her neck. i dont know where all this confidence has came from

“yo paige” some girl says, she turns around and breaks the position we were in.

“iceee” she says, dapping up her teammate

im offended.

i make my way from her and towards my friend group. i want to go home

“was that you flirting with paige bueckers”

“we were just talking, shes not interested”

“girl, paige would be interested in a tree if it had a pussy, she is definitely interested” chanel says

everyone laughs. but me

im confused, why am i attracted to her, i like men, not women.

“bella cmon, lets get you home” Avery says, i mentally thank her from saving me from this conversation.

i tuck myself into bed after taking my outfit and makeup off and get ready for my favourite activity. sleep, until.

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hey is this bella?

what the fuck. do i have a stalker

bella

- yes

xxx-xxx-xxx

- hahah thank god

- this is paige

what the fuck

A/N - first fic, how do we feeeelllllllll

#paige bueckers x reader #paige bueckers headcannons #paige bueckers smut #paige bueckers fic #paige bueckers #uconn huskies #uconn women’s basketball #uconn wbb

[howlonomy]

in all the 'trauma siblings' stuff with Clover & Kanako, I keep coming back to thinking about how Flowey engages with this

Like, here's someone who went through an at least similar ordeal of getting a human soul mixed into a monster body, leading to a lethal, traumatic injury, into a rebirth into a new body whose physical and emotional state are all way the fuck out of wack

Except Flowey was shaped a lot by having to go through the traumatic aftermath alone, and lives in the weird space of having experienced unknown years of resets but also is still mentally kind of a child

So I have to think that Flowey sees these kids and that little Asriel part of him is screaming "don't let them wind up like us", but being Flowey he also has no idea how to really comfort anyone.

Leading to sweet moments like Clover collapsing somewhere and before anyone else in their family can even pick up on something being wrong, there's already vines springing up to catch them, because of course Flower would know how to spot weakness in people after years of doing that, but now there's a productive positive use for that instinct and it's nice

But also moments like "Gee how do I cheer up Kanako about that appointment with Alphys... I know! We'll torment her! What a wonderful idea!" Because hey, a little bit of sadism always cheered him up when he was suffering

And he'd probably settle toward a crass & hyperbolic style of comforting people with hit-or-miss moments, like a sort of "Wow clover you ate SHIT just now", trying to get them laughing at the misfortune instead of crying, but obviously sometimes It's Not The Time For That or he reverts a bit back to thinking something really fucked up like "Man, that person was really rude just now, we should kill them and everyone they love" and the kids look back at Flowey like "dude what the fuck"

And everybody's different ways of processing trauma are constantly both helping and clashing with each other as these kids help each other figure this shit out because as much as the adults want to help nobody but these 3 can really come close to understanding how it feels

this has been a big ramble for an ask and not really an ask but I wanted you to have this

THIS IS SOOOO GOOD BECAUSE YOURE 100% RIGHT

flowey struggles with knowing the concept of empathy and compassion but not really. KNOWING it. i imagine he can at least remember how it feels being asriel and during the final boss but. its easy to know what it is and harder to put it into practice when you dont actually feel it

i think youre right in that he would try his best to help but not really know HOW. like it takes him a bit to realize that oh, i can see the weaknesses in people, whatdo i do with this information now that i cant use it to exploit them? what can i do to help instead of harm? what is objectively the GOOD thing to do with this information?

hes still an asshole and a bitch but he cares. hes learning to anyways. even if he missteps a lot the people around him are forgiving and willing to help him on the right path and correct him. i love…. flowey :[

#asked and answered #monster clover au #mcau lore #i love character studies and analysis. i love them so much #im not very good at writing them but read this was absolutely a joy #ohhgghh flowey kanako clover frisk friendship is literally everything to me #flowey kanako and clover support circle where they talk about trauma #flowey and kanako talking about isolation and the lab #AUAUGHUHH

[spacedlexi]

the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭

#twdg #i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment #i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying #anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that #them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school' #anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast #theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with #because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left #i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out #but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is #they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable #they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious #zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭 #sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community #the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way #s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is #the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me #it speaks

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

if you have some, do you have any headcannons for barnaby?

honestly! not really! i don't have hcs for any of the neighbors!

#the way i interact w/ welcome home is uh... slightly differently than how i interact with more mainstream / company-produced media #like if you compare how i talk about the neighbors/wh to how i talk about characters on say... my dc blog #there's probably gonna be a notable Difference! #with mainstream/company stuff i go Hog Wild with hcs and aus and i form my own version of everything in my head #(while still understanding & respecting canon as the true source) #but wh is Different! i can't really do that! #it isnt some big production created by a team & mass released #where the actions of some fans just fuckin around and having fun won't directly affect anyone or even reach the ears of the creators #and where upon releasing it everyone Knows that its gonna be dissected & torn to shreds & played with like barbies #wh is more... personal? there is one main creator. these are His characters. its Their story. #i can't in good conscience make headcanons and honestly? id much rather stick to canon trivia & facts than create my own #theyre not my facts to create or believe in!! #sometimes ill make a post saying 'hey this would be cute / neat' #but as soon as i post im tossing that thought away. i dont let them stick or become hcs #(NOTE THAT I AM NOT BASHING ANYONE WHO MAKES HCS. THIS IS ALL MY PERSONAL OPINION!!! MY OWN PERSONAL INTERNAL RULES!!! FOR ME!) #rambles from the bog #like even with the lights out au im being careful with it. im trying to be faithful & respect the characters and the source #its an... exploration i think #ive never approached making an au this way bc usually im just flinging characters around and treating canon as a chew toy - scrap for parts #but i cant do that here! im Not Complaining At All im simply stating! i cant! #sorry you probs weren't expecting a lil mini rant in tags my b <3 #this has just been in my head since i first discovered welcome home #i remember feeling myself start getting really attached & interested #and i recall telling myself 'ok. we cant approach this the way we would other things' #and i have done my best to Stick To That. ive relaxed a lil since then but im still standing by my one rule #Be A Little More Normal About This Than I Would If It Were Mainstream / A Company-Made Production

[opikiquu]

im going to be so annoying all week

#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH #★ arin rambles #BRO BRO PLEASLE #PELASE #my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will #get #actually no just Unfollow entirely #ITS THE ADHD #PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW. #I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH #I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE #HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER #aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy #actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life #i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now #‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him #im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak #Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool #Hes so pretty im so happy #I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP #I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE. #i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling . #like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor #its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am #DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM #i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma #this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony #i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier. #HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL. #oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.

[verflares]

speaking of. midlink and midzel are fine and good but i think we need more midzelink toxic polycule shippers in the world. whos with me (i look out to an empty audience full of chirping crickets)

#this is like. /hj please dont take me too seriously. but the idea is very deeply funny to me i hope you understand that #im not serious about anything from tp really its just not that kinda game imo. i think i said this in my zink tierlist but w/e #twilight princess is about turning into a dogy and running around castle town and scaring the shit out of everyone #and thats all. end post #personal.txt

[veronicathegoddess]

i hate when someone invites me to like do something or go somewhere but they also invite someone i dislike, that they know i dislike and when i say i don't want to come because that person is there they're like it's fine, just ignore them...because i want to spend money i barely even have to spend time around people that have hurt me????? like if i don't like the person, idc who else is there and if i can ignore them, i'm not gonna put myself into a situation like that and idk why that's so hard for people to get

#my friends birthday is tomorrow #and she decided to spring a last minute plan on me to go to some hotel and stay for the weekend #which is a horrible idea for several reasons #we used to be a trio and then the other girl stopped talking to me because she was jealous #and we havent spoken in a year but they’re still friends #i hate her #she hates me #and we dont see each other and i want to keep it that way #secondly i hate last minute plans #it gives me unnecessary anxiety #thirdly the other person who's coming we aren't that close #so its just a mess all around #and lastly i literally told her i cant afford this because my internship hasn't paid me #i have less than 200 bucks to my name rn because idk when im gonna get paid #and shes like oh well ill lend it to you and you can just pay me back #like the issue isnt just not having the money rn #its that this is the type of thing id have to save for in advance #even if i borrowed the money from her #itd still put me out because i simply cant afford it #and its perplexing to me why she cant understand why a last minute overnight trip to a hotel isnt something everyone can just drop money on #especially in this fucking economy #i think i need better friends #rants and ramblings

[paging-possum]

Who up listening to good luck babe by chappell roan and having it resonate not in the way intended but resonating nonetheless. About to go ham in the tags about the overlap of being a lesbian and being aromantic...if u even care....

#my art #gore #organs #its 2am so not a lot of this is going to be very coherent but this song makes me feel a lot of things about it all #like. its the Expectations #the expectation that im going to date men and the expectation that im going to date at all have always felt equally stifling #theres that feeling of not trying hard enough or not realizing it at first or trying to lean into what you're told you should feel #and having it not pay off time and time again and wishing you could just make it work #because everyone else around you has it just fine and you dont get why you're struggling with it so much #THERE ARE MORE SIMILARITIES BETWEEN THE TWO IS WHAT IM SAYING #like obviously figuring out aromanticism is especially weird because its a lack of something BUT THEYRE PRETTY SIMILAR #realizing I dont want to date anyone mirrors realizing I didn't like boys but like. idk man its worse sometimes? #I wouldn't trade it for the world it means a lot to me but its almost like people go out of their way not to understand it sometimes #at the end of the day I am the you in that song #it was a very very long road to being okay with never falling in love because that was something I wanted for a very very long time #at the end of the day I will never have to be someones wife and I think its better that way #but its also hard not to get jealous sometimes #like I know its irrational I know I get physically ill at just the thought of being asked out but like #sometimes ill see my friends with their girlfriends and ill feel like clawing my own chest out with want #but also if anyone asks me out I will have to dig myself into a pit and never come out. I think. #I want to be with women but I dont want to Be With Women if that makes sense #its another layer of difficulty that I dont think I'll ever be able to get past #I feel like at this point I should just be trying to conditioning myself out of any form of desire because its just not an option for me #which definitely isn't true and like chappell roan says. you'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. #but its also so tiring to have to sit here with the feeling and feel bad for having the feeling. #I dont know #I think if I felt a little more or a little less I’d be fine but I’m stuck in the middle #it feels very weird talking about this openly but also its very difficult to talk about with friends because most of them dont get it #anyways something something Josies monologue from bottoms #im going to bed

[qumiiiquinnquin]

ill never be good enough at anything

#vent #events of today only proved it #im genuinely so close to giving up completely #i dont feel happy when I draw because I know its not good enough and im ashamed when others see it because I know they think the same thing #I dont feel satisfied or accomplished when finishing schoolwork because I know others will have done it better and responded better and im #the stupidest person of the entire class. some things I just dont understand but I know everyone else or lots of others did #i cant do anything right. i cant socialize correctly. i cant remember to do anything. i cant keep any stable relationships #i know if i get a job they'll ly me off or fire me within days max weeks. i dont expect to be able to hold down a job for long #i dont have the skills necessary to become what I want to be which is a meteorologist. i struggle in math and that career is a lot of math #i actually want to be an artist too but ill die a lonely death. i cant even do this class. and artists are not paid enough to survive #hell what I do right now with art in my spare time is much worse than others. a mouse and microsoft paint. both arent good enough #i cant not compare myself to others. i know that they're all better than me. and im around these people every day and see it on social medi #i really want to put my art in our shredder and permanently delete files. i want to drop out. i dont know what to do with myself because i #know that im not good enough for anything except lay in bed like the depressed piece of shit i am and end up getting kicked out #i thought about just leaving class today and throwing myself down the stairwell from the top floor i was already on #just over the barrier thats right next to the first flight of stairs that prevents people from falling off the stairs from a height #the one you can look down and see the following flight of stairs. just throw myself down from that and hurt myself significantly. #ive been thinking about jumping again. from a new part of campus thats higher than where i initially wanted to fall from #if not those then sl!t my wrist or run into traffic #i just need to d!e. There's no room for someone as worthless as me #i cried when I came home today because im just done. i cant carry on and itd be better if i didnt. itd be preferred.

[mariautistic]

why is every advice on this site about writing like "you dont actually have to think about what youre writing and if anyone says you shoudl theyre worrying too much"

#.txt #the discourse about like. worldbuilding and fantasy settings is so annoying #there's a reason lotr is still culturally relevant and its in big part thanks to the level of attention he put to his world #im not saying everyone has to pull a tolkien but like #if people are like its annoying when people dont actually want to understand the world around them and how that would translate to fantasy #its kind of counterproductive to advice people to not think too hard about it. and it is specially tone deaf when people are like #hey this thing in the real world is in big part due to colonialism and if you just add it as some natural part of your world youre implying #something. its not politically neutral. and you can add it as worldbuilding and make your world actually have a long history that didnt lik #manifest one day out of thin air fully constructed! it would actually add depth but what do i know

[todayisafridaynight]

ok but in aokis defense i too am bitter about former failed love interests some 10-15 years later

you should never start an ask with 'in aokis defense' bro get over it 😭😭😭

#snap chats #YOU CAN GET A MASTERS DEGREE IN THAT TIME #YOU CAN BECOME A DOCTOR IN THAT TIME #YOU CAN BECOME A REALLY SHITTY POLITICIAN IN THAT TIME #maybe i just dont know what its like to be in love maybe i just dont understand heartbreak so maybe im just an asshole #like i was gobsmacked seeing my friend be moody over a guy for like six months i cant imagine a decade and then some #but no aoki was so bummed out over this shit for two decades mfer based his entire career around it #bro said 'that woman changed our lives forever ichi' MY MAN SHE WAS DOING HER JOBBBBB #IM SORRY YOU HAD TO WALK IN ON HER SAYING YOU WERE SCARING HER WITH TALKING ABOUT BUYING A CONDO BUT LIKE #SHE VALID im a yumeno defender idc. and im p sure like. everyone agrees she didnt do anything wrong

[munamania]

anyway. i am going to be SO incredibly livid and angry and throwing an absolute tantrum on thursday if i dont get good feedback on my script.

#and by good i mean anything actually helpful not just 'omg wow this is amazing' tho ofc that's acceptable too #like a month back now u. might remember that the day i was supposed to get feedback on my outline i literally ended up #holding back tears in class bc it was so. just. pointless and rude and genuinely not helpful #and last week everyone was soooo boring about the scripts that were due like no one was giving helpful critiques or anything #it was all just sooo insufferable u people are not being constructive about like actually helping someone develop their story or whatever #ur just being stupid. and by that i mean it. like they didnt even try to just understand the humor or worldbuilding of this one kid's scrip #t it pissed me off. #and i actually had fun with my script finally it's a first draft so u know it's gonna have its weak spots but eye had fun hanging out #w my girls <3 so. if people could attempt to be helpful this time around that'd be awesome. #like last time a few people made snide comments like 'um about this - well i can't even remember this one's name' hey girl. you could #probably look at the very contained outline i wrote that's right in front of your face instead of saying annoying shit like that to the #writer's face! #the vibes have just been off. that class was so fun for a while and lately it's been such a bitch fest. #they were so mean about mine and my friend's i think people r jealous that that's our bestie prof's class but like. he doesnt treat us any #kind of way you know. and he's supportive of everyone like u dont have to make this weird #sorryyyyy for complaining about what i THINK is wrong with everyone but like! idek how to deal with their passive aggressive shit anymore #they're mean to each other too sometimes #just gonna go crazy with it on thursday #abby talks

[dog-girl-zezora]

My problematic trait is that I will watch chaos unfold around my coworkers and not offer any help unless they look to me for it

#personal #its not out of malice or anything its more like #these 80 year old ladies are very stuck up and they value respect #so much so that i cant force myself into their work without them feeling disrespected. #this has happened when my other coworkers pitch in to help when not asked and later the old ladies bitch to me about it #so i just watch. and they mess up. and they give themselves anxiety. and they dont know things. #and they never really look to me for help. #but that also means they dont consider me a bitch so #i will watch them fuck up on purpose :) #the intricacies of respect and hoops i have noticed between the 50 yr olds ans the 80 yr olds is super super interestinf. #im in my 20s and im not about to start pointless bullshit. if you want to fail on your own go ahead. #i told my other coworker that i do not like the old ladies. they do not understand why other coworker puts their 2 cents in. #its because they are fucking up and they are arguing with people and need an outside solution to pitch in. #it will not be me to do that. because i love boundaries and if the old ladies consider that disrespect than i respect that line. #just gotta know how to play all of them #and the 50 yr okd coworker who always pitches in to help me i greatly welcome it. because if im fucking up. i need need need help #i will take it and thank you so much. #my autistic trait is to know the script for every human person around me so im everyones favorite person :) its less stressful that wau

[mummer]

its insane how much my writing has changed im literally looking at a story i only wrote a year and a half ago and awwww it's not good <3 but you tried and thats what counts <3

#should be getting published online next week. Unfortunately its not that good. but what can you do #the way i opened it to do my small requested revisions and immediately thought of 400 ways to rewrite it from the ground up #but i am not allowed </3 like its good that im growing or whatever but i can barely read this #i love sentence fragments but yeah everyone was right this is so many sentence fragments pull it back bitch... #god maybe i SHOULDNT be writing in first person. this is shocking development people #but when the hell am i gonna have time to write this year now that im not being academically forced to. this is sooooo sad #like u dont understand i need to schedule out time to just sit around and Have Ideas #like WHYYYYYYY is my worst thing getting publication shut uuupppp #personal

[portokali]

there is. definitely a lot to be said about the merits of having the ability to turn off Shipper Brain Mode and enjoy a story without ever demanding a ship be canon or even shipping any of the characters. however there is something about a hint or a promise of romance in works that aren’t explicitly romantic that makes them somehow more tantalizing and interesting. anyway this post is about james and erin derrygirls where i had 0 expectations of their feelings ever being confirmed and simply entertained the idea of them as a what-if-james-likes-erin-lol on a completely different tab that was left open in my brain but when it Was confirmed in s3 and the way it was left unfulfilled but all the same promised absolutely has done numbers to my brain chemistry like the small and tender crushes of two kids living ordinary lives under extraordinary circumstances. something about that yeah.

#like sometimes i feel a lot of Shipping is all abt for the sake of shipping and so u can project a Whatever romantic ideal #which often has nothing to do w the characters presented on screen (or on page etc ykwim) and more abt fandom building a fanon around t #the ship and making it all abt coffeeshop college aus etc... like its more abt inside consumption and deformation of the original ship #to be sth it wasnt meant to in canon but what the fandom wants it to be. i dont rly like this kind of shipping #BUT when i see two blorbos and their love is real it touches my soul...... blease understand #like im SO HAPPY w how little screentime their romance actually takes up its EXACTLY as much as i needed in a story out of derry girls #any more wouldve been too much cause honestly theyre all just losers who dont pull and the story is abt friendship and coming of age anyway #but also..... the jerin story so so good and important to me fr. #no bad tracks. the way it happens so quietly and you can pick their feelings up by SQUINTING? impeccable #the way HE is whipped for HER (a must in a het relationship) but absolutely sees right through her bs and keeps it real always #the way james absolutely Knows and Sees erin for all of her and still oh god oh shit #disintegrating to my bare essentials im gone #cause erin diary girl erin erin the author erin the writer and james you should write that down derrygirl james my best friend james #the i can wait........ like literally so mature of them to realise theyre not mature enough yet but YET theres potential for sth #that they cant just fuck up w their teen bullshit!!!!!1GOSH. FABULOUS!!!!!! #AND the way everyone's parents mirrored the girls in the flashback episode and now erin and james seem to rather grow to be similar to #erin's parents aka a loving marriage and relationship that endured objectively A Lot and provided shelter n family not only to their kids #but also officially unofficially james too james who never knew his dad james whose ma kinda umm doesnt love him. lets be honest. #like theres n o reason for me to be losting my shit so mcuh over them except there IS. #except i am! #the fact that their ship name is jerin? erin with a j?? an absolute w for j community on top of everything #no bad tracks im telling you #the quiet tender kind of love that short of develops as a bytheway as an aside to the main story #as an of course id have a crush on you. of course it would happen. of course it's not going to be the main story #its not the end of it either its not even the beginning not really #you know im such a fool for you....... but now im feeling it even more......... etc #jerin #derry girls #derry girls spoilers