#so i have money but it is inaccessible

[tearfest]

mini life update in the tags bc i need somewhere 2 rant < 3

#u can ignore but! #in the process of secretly prepping to cut my mum off bc shes got total financial control over me (im 26) #i got a lot of money when i was 18 from an accident n shes basically in control of my assets bc she made it that wah #*way #if that makes sense #like i can only access my money if i go to the bank with her. she lives in a house i boyght her free of charge #sje bullied me into biying another house in wales so she can rent it out as a holidah home n use it as a free holiday spot n said i would #get an income from it but shes given me nothing in the 4/5 yrs weve had it #she put her name on the deeds to all my assets #so i have money but it is inaccessible #i need some bc i need to fund my phd next year but sje wont help me #anyways! thats lowkey besides the point #my dads got a brain tumor n my mum doesnt know i still see my dad bc she thinks i havent spoke to him since je left like 3 yrs ago #but i helped hjm leave bc she was abusing him n had been since i was like 9 #n now im stressed out bc my dads not well and i feel like um running out of time with him #but hes in the hospital at the minute after having a siezure a few weeks after his brain surgery #so ive visited him like 3 days in a row n he remarried this year and my stepmum/sisters are so nice #its like having a real family #and it makes me feel guilty yo say that abt my mum n sister #like the guilt of havi g a bad parent is so real tonight fellas im just gonna sit n cry for a few dags #tbd. #if u read this far i love u .. whats hr zodiac #but yeah! this is why im so inactive #n bc im doi g my masters degree but . that pales in comparison rn

[secretlythatsme]

i've seen a lot of dp fans in the dpxdc fandom talk about not having access to comics so here. it's completely free, good quality scans (for most things), basically any dc comic you could want is there. you should have an adblocker but the ads aren't the worst if you don't, just noticeable and annoying. you're not gonna get a virus, i've been using the site for years, as have many other fans.

if you genuinely want to read the comics, take advantage of the sites comic fans have been using. there's new and old stuff and everything in between. crossovers too. whatever you want to read, you'll find there.

#it was genuinely surprising to see people talk about inaccessibility and cost of comics here #like ik most of you arent dc fans but i was still surprised #literally everyone in the dc fandom knows about this and uses it regularly #i just forgot that people who arent comics fan wouldnt know about the free comic sites lol #new runs are updated too! its not just the old stuff! #so no you dont need a comic store or a shit ton of money to read the comics #dpxdc #if we're talking movies and shows then use fmovies #DEF use an adblocker (and vpn if you have one) for that though #and since this is directed at dp fans id highly suggest watching the bat.man scooby doo crossover! #its amazing and imo is a great example of mixing bat.man with a more comedic child friendly vibe #bat.man is so goofy in that movie i love it aldhg #oh man... thats making me think of dpxdcxsd crossover now... #is the acronym for scooby doo sd? that feels wrong #well anyway if you want to read the comics for free you can lol #remember! the dc fandom has been here for decades! we have all the resources you need!! dont be afraid to look or ask! #and if you dont know where to start reading - just pick your favorite character and find a masterlist made by an obsessed fan #and start there lol #but if anyone wants recs let me know and ill be happy to help :)

[is-the-owl-video-cute]

i think the most annoying part of dog food discourse is how many people will act as though proplan/hill’s/Royal canin diets aren’t extremely and prohibitively expensive and that THAT is the reason so many people look into healthy alternatives.

People complain about corn being in the first five ingredients on most of those feeds because, regardless of other factors here, that is not an expensive ingredient. But it makes up a large chunk of the dry food. So the dry food should be fairly affordable, right?

Oh… with tax you’re spending about $100 for one 45lb bag of food where the third ingredient is wheat and the fourth and fifth ingredients are corn.

Oh… well! It’s slightly cheaper! But the second ingredient is rice, third is wheat, fourth is corn, and then fifth is poultry byproduct. None of those are very expensive so this just must be the low end cost of dog food unfortunately. The vets recommend it so surely that means prices aren’t inflated, right?

Oh? This one has similar ingredients with the only real difference being no corn? And it’s half the price?? Well surely that’s just a fluke.

Oh. Oh no.

This one even has CORN in it and it’s $20 cheaper?? Wow!

Like listen at some point I don’t care if your dog food has the ichor of the gods in it, I’m not spending $100 every five days if there are cheaper options with just as many “good” ingredients in it. If you think I’m a dog abuser because I can’t afford this overpriced garbage, that’s too bad. I don’t care. My dogs are perfectly healthy with the food I give them. Great weight and great coat. People giving dog food recommendations that aren’t those top three hyper-expensive dog foods aren’t trying to epic own those dastardly vets half the time, but I really don’t blame the ones who do lose trust in vets when the only heartworm protection they recommend lately are expensive triple-action brands like Simparica Trio that costs $120+ as opposed to the other heartworm protections that are only about $40-$60 on average, which is still cheaper even if you add on a $20-$40 flea and tick protection separately, and only recommend dog food that costs $85+ a bag even if your dog doesn’t have specialized dietary needs.

Those top three foods are GREAT at making competent prescription diets, I don’t deny that. I do still have to criticize the pricing of those prescription diets though because I have spoken to DOZENS of people who had to pull their pets off of a prescription diet and struggle to find something comparable because they couldn’t afford the food, and that’s terrible! These are not poor companies! Purina, Royal Canin, and Hill’s can ABSOLUTELY afford to lower their prices to make their food accessible to people who need it for their animals but they don’t. They probably never will. Because at the core they are run by greedy corporations. It doesn’t matter how many good nutritionists are on board if the company is run by people who put profits over customers and make the food impossible for people to afford.

#I keep seeing posts from people on both sides of this #and it is frustrating to see how many vets don’t seem to acknowledge #that a MASSIVE part of the dog food debate has and always will be #the inaccessibility of these three brands #because whether corn is good or bad or neutral for a dog #It’s a cheap ingredient #any meat byproducts are a cheap ingredient #wheat in any form is a cheap ingredient #rice is a cheap ingredient #they aren’t putting Diamond dust and gold flakes in the kibble it’s very accessible and affordable ingredients for the most part #and many comparatively smaller companies use very similar ingredients and make food people can actually afford #So yeah when people look at these factors it does make them distrust vets who will almost exclusively push expensive brands #and that’s where the distrust is coming from #it’s not primarily smug tiktok kids who think they know everything #it’s just people who have less money than you and get treated like they care less for their animals because of it lol #and people who feel scammed because anything veterinary is already expensive to the point not everyone can afford it as regularly as needed #the fact people have to give pets vaccines themselves to make ends meet because most vets charge so much just to walk in the door #is a sign of a larger problem #I criticize people who avoid taking animals with surprise sickness or injuries to the vet #but it’s not exactly hard to see why that isn’t even an option for a lot of people #people can’t even afford surgery on themselves if they’re suddenly injured out of the blue in this country #So I can’t pretend to be shocked they don’t have $10k squirreled away if something unavoidable happens to a pet #no one is entitled to an animal they can’t afford yes yes but a routine vet visit shouldn’t be $600-$1000 per animal sorry #give me a copay or something

[soldier-poet-king]

On the one hand I need to move out or go fully insane, on the other hand my family is like the only social contact I get and maybe the urban loneliness will ultimately kill me faster than putting up with their bullshit

#franposting #anyway. had a metldown. looked at apts for 1 hr. did nothing #sorry work. i promise i will get this done before the due date #also like. is the possibility of saving my brain worth all that money #its not even a guarantee it might tank the brain worse who knows #and maybe ill hate it and be afraid #i dont LOVE the big city i like having things nearby thi #i REALLY hate the urban spraw suburbs #that arent even gentrified bougie burbs #it's poor immigrants like my fam and endless strip malls and inaccessible transit #god. im just. fuck. it rlly is just. not great lately #and im unsure what to do #if i move out. i could get a cat #but devon rex is gonna be a couple k$ #bc im apparently too allergic for shelter mutt breeds #but also. a cat would probably make me not want to kms. maybe #ughhhh i still dont even have my nee contract so idek how much money ill be making #so im just assuming rn that my pay doesnt increase at all #even tho depending on the position and given my expertise i could be making 10-15k more #which is like. lets put rent at around 2k/month. which is insane ik but thats the LOW end in the city #and extra 10k is nearly half the yearly rent (not counting taxes) #what i ACTUALLY need is routine and extra curriculars and getting out regularly #which is near impossible where i live w/out a car #and im already spending 2.5hrs+ daily commuting on transit #im not gonna add EXTRA HOURS to commute time #BC it rlly does take nearly an hour to get ANYWHERE on transit from my parents #and thats being CONSERVATIVE. usually its longer

[twistedappletree]

wtf is even the point of western medicine fr

#been fighting this stupid ass flu SO hard #and all the crappy otc shit did nothing #until i was finally able to see my chinese medicine doctor #and literally everything he gave me kicked the majority of my symptoms in a few hours #lmAO #LIKE #CHEAPER THAN WESTERN MEDICINE TOO???? #is2g it’s all designed to make you spend more and more fucking money that’s all they care about #fever aches chills sore throat runny nose cough - all gone after 1 dose of herbs #and that’s only 1 of 4 for the day #anyway #go to your preferred trad doctor if you have a flu you’re gonna feel way better than whatever westerners give u #apple babble 🍎 #non fandom #also editing before anyone flips #i’m NOT against modern medicine #just the fucked up system that makes it so inaccessible #and the majority of western otc shit that literally does jack shit #gotta clarify bc there’s always that one person that’s like #‘AcUpUnCtUrE cAnT cUrE cAnCeR’ no shit sherlock #but some trad medicine legitimately works for low tier health conditions #and it’s more affordable in western countries #which some of us need bc we can’t fucking afford a $15000 doctor visit lmAO #exaggeration for dramatic effect so chill tf out thnx

[angelnumber27]

It sucks so much not being able to get the medical care I need because it’s too expensive. I never ask for help even when I’m having really bad symptoms or a horrible mental crisis and know I need to see a professional because when I attempted suicide and was in the ER convulsing from taking so many pills, my dad stood in the doorway and said “this is going to be so fucking expensive.” and then left :-)

#and even when it’s not expensive it’s so inaccessible #couldn’t even get rehab when I had to get off of fentanyl and had to wait FOUR MONTHS to even see a therapist. #when I could have died at any moment #and it scares me bc I’ve gotten so used to living like this #so I know if something terrible happens I’ll be like no I can’t go to the hospital too expensive #which I’ve done before multiple times when I was in life threatening conditions because I knew my dad would be mad about spending money. #also when I brought this up to him later he basically told me it was all a waste because I ‘didn’t even take enough medicine to kill myself

[lesbianlenas]

i finished playing totk i did every side quest & adventure all the shrines went to all the caves mapped out all of the depths filled out the whole compendium and i can def say that it has beaten out botw as my favorite game ever bc it is literally botw but like 10x better lol. i would lump them in together as number 1 though just to make it easier if i was going to make a list. but anyway i started playing dark souls 2 and here is the thing…..is it easier than dark souls yes i can tell it is for sure bc i died WAY more in dark souls at this stage & i also just defeated the first boss w/o dying lmao. BUT. the fact that your heath bar goes down 5% every time you die is the most insidious game mechanic i have ever seen…..like oh you’re dying a lot? now you’ll die more bc you have less health 😊 esp in a game part of a series as notoriously hard as dark souls…..like it genuinely makes me kind of mad fr that they did that like was it necessary? was it kind?

#michelle speaks #i have a lot of issues w dark souls in that a lot of things abt the game are just to #make it like borderline inaccessible if you aren’t a specific type of player #but the health bar thing in particular is like oh so you truly just do not want anyone to have any fun playing this huh #like it reaches the point where it feels like they did that just to make sure you don’t have fun #bc the thing is that when u play & u keep dying it’s extremely frustrating #plus if you lose your souls and ESP if you lose them multiple times #& once you die enough times & ur on half health you just die even more & get even more frustrated #so it’s just like. idk mean spirited. and it’s like i don’t want to waste all my human effigies so i have to wait until i’m really low #on my health bar to restore it. and then suddenly i have a way easier time bc i have my whole health bar i worked hard to get. hm. #the character creator though……that made my money worth it……i made a character my mom has said has the most hideous face ever 🤩

[sharkieboi]

so I’m trying to move cause this apartment sucks, and my dad suggested I see if my aunt (who is also my godmother) would let me move in with her, cause she’s got a big house and she’s been living alone since her husband (my uncle and godfather) died. and she lives a bit far from work but not terribly inconvenient, and she loves me and likes animals so neither me nor my bird would be unwelcome housemates.

and like trying to move I’ve shifted some priorities cause I’ve realized I don’t actually like living in the city proper and I would like to have trees and nature around and yknow not have my home be a mice-infested basement with no climate control with the entrance off a back alley that’s filled with dead rats and broken glass.

and it is taking everything in me to not just cave and ask her if she wants a housemate asap. she’s retired, she’ll love my bird, and I will be the best resident ever if she would have me.

but she’s also 30-40 mins out of the city with no public transit that goes to the city, and my car just absolutely shit the bed so I would have to get a car and/or figure out borrowing one from her or another family member

but also. cheap rent and guaranteed meals and in-house laundry and a big house with a big yard and a big garden and also I’m genuinely worried about my aunt living alone as she gets older so like???????? I’m very very very tempted.

#shhh sharkie #biggest thing in this current like literally today right now moment #is that my car just absolutely shit the bed so I am car-less until further notice #I’m gonna get a bike and I can do public transit and that from where I live now #but I don’t want to stay where I am now. it sucks for a lot of reasons. #but it is a straight shot to and from work #(and honestly biking more often is gonna be good for my knees) #and her place is a 30-40 min drive from the city #so unless she’s got a car I can use or someone else does until I have the money to buy a car #it’s not feasible for me to live with her at the very current moment #but my dad keeps pressing the idea and I keep thinking about it more and more #she would be lovely to live with and she would love my bird #i don’t think she has any other pets and she lives alone and she has a four bedroom house in the country like??? why would I not! #i was even saying like. I don’t really do night-life city stuff anymore. it’s not my jam and it’s not important to me really? #so it wouldn’t horribly cramp my style to live there. i’d have to reconfigure with some DnD stuff but it’s not totally inaccessible yknow? #ugh I’ve got a lot of thinking to do in general im gonna end this here and go try and clean my house

[toolazytodecide]

I adored Matilda the musical movie and it got me thinking about other musicals they could adapt. What musical would yall like to see adapted? Personally I'd love to see Heathers and Waitress

#musicals #matilda the musical #with other things adaptions are kind of pointless but musicals are so inaccessible in their current format #apart from soundtracks #seeing something live costs serious money and thats if youre luck enough to be near a show #and even then you cant go see it whenever the urge appeals like you can read a book #Also Wicked but theyre already adapting that #hamilton too but at least theres the recording of it on disney plus #Oh! oh! and Hadestown! #that one would need a serious budget but it would be epic #i feel like id be satisfied with a quality recording of waitress but not all musical movirs have to be super elaborate

[the-hawks-rye]

hands down the funniest thing i assumed about a show i don't watch was when i thought teen wolf was british. my sister showed me clips with dialogue and told me that at one point the characters lied about going camping in mexico and i just didn't question this. yeah these guys with american accents who fucked off to mexico totally live in the british isles why would i think otherwise

#i live on the east coast have no money and can't drive so i mean cali & the uk are ~totally~ equally inaccessible to me #i'll go with that as my totally valid & reasonable excuse. that makes complete sense #also it sounds like a bbc drama. #mitch rambles #misc series #teen wolf #swearing

[bytebun]

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#aware that i sound completely unhinged by saying this but i think getting a new hobby will fix me #never has my life been more together than when i'm obsessed with some sort of Work tm but right now everything i enjoy is either #inaccessible or can only be performed in limited quantities #for various reasons #i need to be desperate working hard so that i have more time for my hobbies instead of.... whatever is happenign right now #ok. i think. it's a choice between bookbinding or woodworking or guitar right now #leaning towards bookbinding as the most practical & enjoyable #tomorrow i will go get the materials for it so that i can visit my friend wed or thurs so that i can pick up my delivery at the same time #which means that i need to finish cleaning and unpacking /right now/ so there's room for new supplies #and i need to make sure i have enough money which means finally doing the paperowrk for my loans and paying back my friend #there. you see. it is all coming together #which also means i should aim to schedule my prof meeting for friday so i need to be doing conference paper work tmrw and thursday #which means i need to get off my ass now #bytebun rambles

[irul]

things r getting 🤡 i think im gna have to start a gfm or smth for deposit n rent like why tf is everything so expensive

#and most of it is bc everything is so inaccessible. the amt of money ive had to spend on autos as opposed to if only i could take a bus #p #running out of money having no income to sustain myself while getting more n more disabled by the day #i want to draw n earn thru that but my mental health is also extremely bad and i use art as an outlet every now n then n my therapist asked #me not to monetize it yet bc ive just been spirals upon spirals

[mycomori]

agonizing iver money for weed transferring into my account in time for me to actually go pick it up (i’m the only person in my house with a med card so i get to do the bi weekly dispensary runs yay) but then i realized i have cash moneys in my wallet i don’t even gotta stop at the bank or atm like i was planning to and tomorrow is friday so i get paid tomorrow so i can replenish my savings and stop staring at that terrifyingly low number

#i have other savings but they’re inaccessible atm #so as of right now i’ve got like $300 to my name tops #including the cash i’m about to spend most of #i’ll use up my points at the dispensary tho that might take some money off since they don’t roll over into january anyways

[ohbutwheresyourheart]

literally what is even the point of trying

#personal #vent #i'm trying so hard to be positive but it's completely unsustainable #basically everything that is supposed to *make life worth living* is inaccessible to me because I don't make enough money #(despite making damn near the average uk salary lmao) #i will never own a property (or at least nothing WORTH owning i.e. not a suicide-inducing mold hole) #i will never be able to keep up with my more normal and successful friends #and i don't mean in a keeping up with the joneses way #i mean if a friend asks me to go on vacation i cannot afford to go #fuck it's lucky if i can afford to go out for dinner once or twice a month #the economy is getting more and more fucked by the day #but my brain doesn't work properly so i can't keep up the career climb because working actively makes me want to die #but also having nothing to do also actively makes me want to die #basically i just want to die and there's no good reason not to #and my brain cannot be unfucked because it just works that way #and treatment of any kind is inaccessible until i'm ~officially~ diagnosed #which could take a year or more to get an appointment #and in the meantime i'm supposed to just... lmao idefk just die i guess #i am so so so terrified of the future i want to die just to escape it breathing down my neck #i'm at the age where my loved ones are building their own lives with their partners and having kids and beginning to draw away from friends #into their own family units #and i do not see how i will ever have a family unit #so either i'll be genuinely alone by the time i'm forty #or (worse) i'll be the pity friend who gets invited as the awkward plus one to gatherings #literally look me in the eye and tell me my future is worth staying for #i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i want to fucking die i want to quit i want to quit #fuck it we ball

[stellarspecter]

my dad got me a new phone so I just switched over last night and I only realized getting into my car to go to work this morning that it doesn't have an audio jack. which means that I can't play music at all in my car because the bluetooth doesn't work. why do they keep making these neutered ass phones and why do people keep buying into them

#what is this grudge ppl have against making things backwards compatible!!! not everyone hates cables bitch!!! #what if i wanted to charge my phone and listen to music at the same time and i dont have a bluetooth device #like what i do literally every time i drive somewhere #like guys!!! guess what if you keep the audio jack in there you can still use bluetooth too!!!! its not that difficult!!! #like cables WORK why does everyone hate them #and they're so much less complicated than bluetooth. just plug em in and ur done. boom #and what if i dont want to buy yet another little dongle. or bluetooth earbuds which are more expensive than wired ones #some people dont have the money to dpare on that!!! why are we letting them make portable music more inaccessible!!! #*speaks

[david-watts]

first new clothes since fucking. february I think. and it doesn’t even fit

#she deliberately ordered the wrong size. what the fuck. #I told her that whilst that size does fit for about a month it's not going to stay that size and I was thinking in the long term #and what does she do? says she's gotten it in the size I asked. the receipt and the actual product say otherwise #it doesn't fit me Anyway so it wouldn't have mattered but god. #oh wait no I got a new pair of jeans in june because I had money to spare and they were half price. #because of that jeans I am starting to be ok with because at least two pairs fit and the other whilst too large I can use a belt #everything else though? running out of. because my clothes are either inaccessible or worn out. #so tempted to buy another binder but I'm scared of that because it's $70 that I don't really Have #and it's gonna wear out too soon #that's why I haven't been binding recently plus like what's the Point lol