#sure i have a prescription but is it that bad

[moonysdora]

you're telling me NOW is the time I realise Tonks had purple highlights in her hair in HBP???@@(@?@?

#my entire life has been a lie #bye #im dead #am i that blind #sure i have a prescription but is it that bad #😭 #remus lupin #nymphadora tonks #remadora #harry potter #remus x tonks #tonks #natalia tena #tonks x lupin

[guinevereslancelot]

eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist

#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad #and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that #also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :( #tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope #but mostly i hope its treatable #also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol #but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself #but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad #they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses #but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭 #i dont even know how expensive yet tho #maybe i should make a gofundme or something #this has been a shitpost #im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive #probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things #but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰 #and its not early for catching it at all

[dykefaggotry]

I keep getting cheap glasses bc it's all my insurance will cover but the result is I hate them and never wear them. woes.

#I'm wearing an old pair that I do actually like bc it was the last time I had money for nice glasses #and it's better than nothing but they've gotten a lil scratched up :/ #but my eyes have been bugging out so bad lately and I'm p sure it's bc I never wear my damn glasses ahdhshj #I have a very low prescription so it's usually not a problem but alas

[brittlebutch]

a lot of people seem to use Entry #60 as 'proof' for the crux of the "Brian didn't care about Tim, he was Taking Advantage of Tim's conditions and Forcing him to work as part of totheark" thing, but honestly when you think about it there's no possible way Brian could have possibly orchestrated that series of events, like you almost have to interpret that as a baffling group of coincidences

#N posts stuff #mh lb #it's not like Brian has loads of mutual friends that he could ask to call Tim out one night; Tim's departure right as Brian showed up #just has to be a coincidence ; second yes. Brian does steal Tim's meds & that's a dick move but it's almost safe to assume #that Tim and Brian had been sharing prescriptions back in S1 - that's why the pills were at Brian's house that time Jay broke in #even if Tim no longer remembers that agreement it's not like Brian is brimming with other options so i can see the throughline of it #but there's NO way that Brian knew that 1) Tim was going to immediately turn around and come back home OR #2) be in the throes of an attack when he did so ; there's no Possible way he planned for that -- even if you Could assume that like. what #Brian 'knows' the operator is following him & Somehow orchestrated an encounter 1) no that doesn't make any sense and #2) that Still doesn't make any sense bc Tim has been Plenty Close to the Operator before w/ almost no negative effects (like in #Entry 17 when it's Right behind him) so there's no possible way Brian could have predicted that would unfold this way #sure it's weird he sets up the camera in the closet before Tim comes back but that Could Have been something unrelated #after all sometimes Brian DOES deliberately put himself on camera so someone knows he's responsible for something #or maybe he even planned to leave the camera there for later but it doesn't make Sense to interpret that as him Knowing what would happen #like don't get me wrong i'm not trying to say Brian is a pinnacle of ethics and moral behavior lmfao but also it's like #a kind of incomprehensible argument to make that he was Responsible for Triggering Tim's seizure that night when for all the #information Brian had on hand when he broke in he'd think Tim probably wouldn't be back home until much later #(''but the Creators Clearly intended'' yeah sure but since the creators also failed to establish a coherent series of events that SHOW #it then like. the intent doesn't matter anymore; sure they scripted the events in close succession but that doesn't mean they #scripted Intent & if they meant to then they did a bad job portraying it to the point the supposed intent is meaningless sorry lmao) #and EVEN IF you get this far and you're Still like 'but tim went after Jay and Brian would've Known he'd do that' like. no he wouldn't #because in Entry 18 when we see Tim have a seizure the first thing he does when jay approaches him after it is Run Away #so Again there's no consistent throughline of behaviors that Brian could have Possibly known about to orchestrate jack shit

[sanchoyo]

haven’t been on much bc my dog has been sick :( between seizures and an infected tooth we’ve been having a Time trying to get everything fixed (this started around the holidays so our vet has been very booked up…we have been like 3-4 times in the past 4-5 weeks OTL does not help it’s like an hour drive there, so that’s been exhausting) now his new seizure meds are making him sick (was hoping it was like, just an adjustment period thing but he’s been sick for a week and having concerning symptoms…) if I’m not on a ton or slow to replying to messages it’s bc I’m working as much overtime as my job will give me bc Vet Expensive and mentally drained obvi 😞

#it makes me a lil mad his meds were kinda pricy and they literally are making things worse. like sure he isn’t have seizures but he can #barely walk and keeps running into things and keeps having diarrhea so like. 🙃 and the meds are making him sooo hungry and thirsty #I’m seeing the vet AGAIN FRIDAY I know she’s so sick of me but man my little guy. if she can’t figure out a combo that doesn’t have such #bad side effects I’m literally going to scream and cry #he’s the most sensitive boy in the world and my mental health hangs on his and my cats well being. please. 😭 #sanchoyorambles #I’ve also called them like twice to find out if I should stop or what they want me to do and keep getting ‘oh they’ll call u back’ WHEN #GIRL MY PUBBY #if I don’t hear back before his next dose I’m just gonna make an executive decision myself to stop them for now #he’s literally on the smallest possible dose too bc he’s so little. so. they can’t go down in dosage they’ll need to put him on smth else 😑 #which means paying for ANOTHER PRESCRIPTION A WEEK AFTER ALREASY GETTING ONE THAT WAS $30 ON TOP OF HIS STUPID VET BILL #screaming. #and like if I have the money it’s fine. and it’s not like the vet could’ve known he’d have bad side effects #im just frustrated it’s no one’s fault #I could go to a closer vet. the thing is I LIKE the one further away #they have the only groomer I’ve found that can trim him without sedating him! they send me reminders abt his shots! I like the vibes!!! #they seem caring!! but they are always SOOO BUSY it takes forever to make appointments or to hear back from them 😭 #remember how I said one of my goals was to buy a vechicle this year lmao the vet bills are draining any savings I’ve managed to build up 🤧 #my pets are priority 1 tho like even before all the medical stuff /I/ need like lol… that’s my baby #it’s just really bad timing. not that there’s good timing for medical issues but. u know

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

and yknow what. saying this as someone who has been in a work environment where i was ACTUALLY the only one who knew what i was doing and i was the only one capable of keeping things running, including the person who was technically in charge of me*:

even if izzy was right. even if izzy was the only one who kept ed's ship actually running. hell, even if lucius, pete, and wee john were actually slacking off when there was important things to be done!!

you do not effectively lead a team by yelling at them and telling everyone how useless they are and how much they suck. you don't get people to get off their ass and do their fucking job by screaming "BITCH" in their face. you don't!! get things done!!! if you just stand there and tell other people what to do!!!!!

*which is v much not the case w izzy and ed but i have seen this written into some fics, for some fucking reason

#sorry i know i said i wasnt arguing that izzy is bad at his job lol #i kept it off that other post bc that's not about how good he is at his job. but man... #having been in the “im surrounded by idiots” only-competent-employee situation everyone describes izzy in #i gotta say that if izzy's job is primarily managing people. he fucking SUCKS at it #txt #meta #mine #og #izzy hands #izzy critical #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd meta #anyway the work experience was retail pharmacy and let me tell you. big-name pharmacies are a fucking shitshow #the turnover was awful so we were always staffed by people who didn't know what they were doing #i was only there for two years but turnover was so fast i ended up being the lead employee somehow #so i was ACTUALLY in charge of making sure people did their jobs. unlike izzy in e5 lmao #and when our pharmacists took vacation we'd have a substitute pharmacist come in and they almost always sucked #sometimes the sub pharmacist was worse at their job than the people who were there on their first day #i was on my feet all day and i was yelled at by customers non-stop and there's literally no way to count people's prescriptions fast enough #especially when you have new employees who count the fucking pills one at a time #and yeah i had a few coworkers who were like. always on their phone or always chatting instead of doing their job #and it was VERY annoying. even when they were nice and i liked them as people i HATED working with them #somehow i found the inner strength to not be a dick to them!! crazy stuff!!!

[sonego]

gonna get personal in the tags sorryyyyy

shit i ran out of tags to use GKBKGKDKKDBJDMBMN ok rest under a read more 😭

so okay basically my doctor said sure i'll write you the prescription and also wait should i add it to your regularly taken meds page (so i can request it with a click when i run out)? and i was like yeah that'd be nice and i tried to explain that i thought i would only need for a short period of time but i still need it after many months so... but like he didn't care about the why lol

and anyway now that this has happened i'm like. gonna try to Stop doing what i was doing. there is no good reason to be in pain all the time and make my life harder when taking that dose of my med was working okay and making things considerably better. i don't need to punish myself. this is like so so so hard for me to internalize. being disabled is not a fault. even if it might be my "fault", even if i lowkey feel like i might have contributed to the condition i am in with like, bad choices or whatever, it's still not right to punish myself for it. i'm already unwell, i'm already suffering, what's making it worse gonna do to help? why do i need to feel worse just so i can think i got what i deserve for being in pain in the first place?

so yeah. going back to the higher dose. i hope that makes me feel less pain. i hope i can work without hating every second of it again. i do still hope one day i can get better and not need this med anymore, it's not like i've given up on that bc tbh a lot's still unclear and i will try and see if i can find answers. but in the meantime, no more punishing myself. i need to be okay. i want to be okay.

#called my doctor the other day #bc i needed the prescription for the muscle relaxant i take for my back pain #and i've been needing it for like a while but i kept putting off calling him to get it #there's a few reasons for that one of which is that i hate phone calls in general but especially w doctors #just makes me v v anxious #which is related to another reason which is that i was so scared he'd tell me no bc this was was supposed to be a temporary “fix” #like a little help while i actually got better #which clearly hasn't happened so i still need it but like. i am so used to doctors trying to like decide what i need #not based on my symptoms and needs and what i tell them but just what they think i SHOULD need #bc i SHOULDN'T feel pain i SHOULDN'T need to take that i should just idk excercise and lose weight and try not to be s*icidal and try to #control my moods and oh i shouldn't have headaches almost daily cause they found no medical reason for it #also have i tried sleeping more? have i tried not having insomnia? have i tried smaller doses of x med? #etc etc it's never what i AM experiencing it's what i SHOULD be experiencing. and let me tell you that sucks so bad #my previous gp ruined me so bad and i'm only now realizing it #like every time i need to tell or ask my current gp something i get so anxious bc i'm convinced he'll put up a fight and say no without #listening or he'll write me the wrong prescription or he won't even answer my calls ........... #instead this gp is the opposite #maybe even like. too easily says yes lmao 😭 like i try to talk things thru w him a bit to explain why i need x and he'll just be like #yeah sure here it is and sometimes i feel he's not even listening 🧍🏻 #but anyway like. i was kinda punishing myself i think? #i keep trying to lower my dose of muscle relaxant bc i think i shouldn't need it #and i don't want to need it i actually HATE that i need it. it makes me so mad w myself #so i keep trying even if every time i take less i am in so much pain #and these past couple of weeks? or something i did that even more bc i tried to lower it EVEN MORE #even if the 5th attempt to lower it a bit was unsuccessful and i was doing so badly #bc i was running out and i was killing two birds with one stone by trying to lower it so i would be a Better Stronger Nico #and was delaying having to call my doctor #end result: i wanna cry every time i stop (workiny #working* or studying or giffing or doing Whatever) #bc i'm forced to think of the fact i am in pain

[dreamofbecoming]

y’all i have made a terrible mistake

#been having weird and concerning unexplained cardiac symptoms for a few days #palpitations arm pain dizziness reduced circulation intermittent tachycardia #the works #so i’m behind on homework on account of The Horrors yk #so i have to get it done today and i was like hey i know i have my Get Shit Done meds! #folks if you’re having heart issues please do not take prescription meth lmao this was a Bad Choice i did #personal #(fr im pretty sure im fine but my roommate knows to check on me in a bit so i’m not like. dying. i just feel like shit lol)

[on-my-way-to-the-woods]

Okay, so the reason for the boots theory post a few days ago was that it seems pretty clear after less than a month that F's going to need a different doctor, apparently 3 times out of 3 there have been major errors with how the prescriptions were submitted (plus, y'know, the other concerns), but we're busy doing things like calling back and forth between the pharmacy and the doctors office and don't have the amount of time required to find a doctor we'd be confident would be helpful.

#while they didn't say so directly #I'm pretty damn sure the reason F was getting sicker for a week was that the meds they swapped her to after the bad reaction were supposed #to be taken twice a day but the prescription was for once a day 🙃 #which TBH I think is a much worse error than getting the patient's info wrong such that the pharmacy doesn't realize F got a prescription i #or not sending in some of the prescriptions #(both of which have also happened) #*sigh*

[thethingything]

I would love to know why we keep feeling so sick and getting really bad abdominal cramps within like an hour or so of eating even if we have stuff that's normally a safe food for us

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #emetophobia tw #we're constantly hungry but everything we eat makes us feel really sick and pretty much nothing actually sounds appetising because of that #there are maybe one or two foods that haven't been doing this but they're like snack foods so they're not that filling #but also I think this maybe started after we started using the prescription toothpaste again #and I know when we first started using it we felt sick all the time and got really bad acid reflux #hence us not using it for a while but then we got anxious about our teeth potentially getting worse and started using it again #we nearly throw up every time we use it but that kind of just happens with any toothpaste we use #(I'm pretty sure this is going to be really bad for our mental health in the long run especially with having emetophobia) #the only way to brush our teeth without that happening is to use those little travel toothbrushes with the little toothpaste bead thingies #because they're not the same as normal toothpaste so they don't cause the same issues #but I don't think the toothpaste would cause the abdominal cramps we've got because I'm pretty sure we didn't get those last time #they feel like something half way between IBS cramps and the cramps we've had from food poisoning

[wolfsnake]

The idea that there is an universal way people look and behave when they are in pain is really fucking harmful.

Some people go silent, some people scream. Some people's face go white, have expressions while some people say completely neutral! Some people can even talk normally and joke!!

You want to know the best way to judge someone's pain level? Fucking ask them. And then believe them. If you are a medical professional and your reaction to someone telling they are in an incredible amount of pain is to go "well they don't look like it". You are an asshole and I hate you personally

#oh that's very strong are you sure you cant just [insert stupid opinion] #oh dear thats an heavy painkillers those flare ups must be really bad #chronic pain #chronic illness #the worst pain in my life #lasted 3 weeks #bc no doctors would prescribe painkillers #I still have a prescription for the one meds #a doctor ultimately gave me #and whenever I see a new doctor they go #no! I cannot #the stupid strong painkillers #that Ive never taken more than 2 times PER YEAR #is the only thing that stop my flares up #which causes incredible pain #for anytime between 8 hours and 3 weeks #and the correct reaction should be

[boy-above]

went to my psych appointment (in person instead of the phone for the first time since before covid, like a big boy) and walked out with a new prescription, a referral to try out tms, and i should be getting a call about changing therapists. i pretty much havent vibed with my therapist ever since i started seeing her, i was forced to change therapists after my old one got fired (which i will never forgive them for!!) so hopefully things will start looking up in terms of my cringe brain health

#i get new prescriptions constantly #they either don't work or have bad side effects #last ones gave me migraines all the time :I #i sure hope the new ones work. kinda hard to have hope when you've tried dozens and none have helped #except for lamotrigine you are the only bitch in this house that can handle me. i love her

[catfishofoldin99colours]

oh this week is gonna be a BAD time to be off my meds : - )

#catfish speaks #for context i am low on supply and havent set up a doctor's appointment to get a refill cos i had to MOVE BACK HOME #which involved DRIVING ACROSS THE ENTIRE SOUTHERN HALF OF THE COUNTRY #so yknow been a Bit preoccupied #anyway now im suffering from chronic fatigue and pain and also my adhd is going nuts #BECAUSE I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS COS I FORGOT #AND I FORGOT BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BEEN TAKING THEM #i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow #but regardless #i am waiting to hear back on some jobs hopefully #and i BOOKED a doctors appointment tomorrow #but apparently my mum thinks im just not doing anything ever #like hey mum. IM DISABLED #GET OFF MY BACK #im so pissed rn #really fucking hoping the new doctor im seeing tomorrow will just give me a prescription for SOMETHING #and its not a nightmare back and forth idiocy hurdle #i am having a genuinely bad time and possibly liable to hurt myself if i dont get medicated soon :) #(not sure how true that statement is but i haven't fully gone cold turkey off these meds before so. yippee)

[ii-zi]

I always had "weirdly good" skin, to the point that nor hormonal disorders neither weight gain left a single mark in my body. The only ones I had were mostly from bad wounds

But when my whole body basically started collapsing "out of the blue" years ago, intensifying every shit symptom I've ever experienced, the one thing that never made sense was the stretch marks

They literally showed up overnight, years ago, and don't look like they're healing anytime soon. They look as if they "opened" every now and then, and even hurt at times lol

Turns out it could all be connected. There's a single diagnosis that could explain literally every single aspect of my life, including something as innocuous as that

#my throat hurts so bad my cough is v dry n it's scrapping it raw lol breathing is Pain #weight mention #idk im so hopeful about it that the thought of seeking said diagnosis almost repels me lol doctors literally never listen to me #a random doctor from one of those offices inside farmacies gave me a #prescription for prozac???????? when i was there comolaining about fever related symptoms and possible covid?????? #granted i was shaking lol but i hadn't stepped outside of my house for two entire years n there were So Many cars n ppl and #huge unattended dogs #but PROZAC????? im not even sure she's actually allowed to prescribe controlled meds lol #''your stutter is more annoying than normal. here's prozac'' ????? #ofc i didnt bother w the prescription #she didn't even check me. not my temp not my pulse not my throat #(was there for possibly having /had/ covid several months ago btw so not excusable by that lol) #and only looked at me twice between writing down my info n handing me the paper #idk maybe it's just me but like. arent those supposed to be harder to get sjldnflandld #vent #ig JDNAKDKAKFKSK #like if it went like that. what would happen if i went to #a specialist or smth n explained Everything to them #I'd get put down like a fucking lame horse on the spot

[gardenstateofmind]

a deeply annoying but necessary part of my life is needing to stop taking/using a medication or product to know if it's one, doing anything at all, and if it is, what exactly is it doing and to what extent

i've never intentionally done this with my psych meds or asthma meds, but it's happened when for whatever reason, i didn't have access to them for an extended period of time. so the method of finding out really sucked, but i Am glad that it gave me an opportunity to truly see what my meds do for me, be able to actually measure the efficacy of their intended use and the extent of side effects. now i know exactly what my symptoms are, what the side effects are, and be able to make an active choice to tolerate the side effects bc the benefits far outweigh them

i have intentionally done this with skin care products and foods/supplements, which does also suck as an experience bc i have very particular routines in order to manage stuff like acne and ibs, but it's doesn't actually threaten my health, so it's worth finding out

#personal #one skin care product i actually genuinely need is the dark angels face scrub from lush #(i'm sure any similar charcoal based scrub would do the same i just happen to like the one from lush) #i get fairly moderate acne so like it's not so bad i need prescription level treatments #but if i don't have very strict routine my skin will immediately breakout and it is very painful #i have combination skin where it is generally oily but is very sensitive #and most chemical exfoliants will irritate to the point that it gets painfully dry and is peeling #so i find mechanical exfoliation to be a great way to wash out all the dirt and oil from my skin without overly irritating it #and then i use products with low levels of salicylic acid to help fight the acne #anyway this is all to say that i just did a test of not taking the psyllium supplements i recently added to my routine #and i can confidently report that it does in fact help me a lot #(​i am typing this from the bathroom with a tummy ache :/ )

[autisticlee]

If things for non-verbal communication helps you I'd say go for it. Others saying you're not suffering enough to make things easier for you aren't living your life. Do what helps you.

even if I did, the world around me isn't very accommodating. I know all people in my life wouldn't be accepting of it. I don't go out much or have many friends. don't talk where I volunteer but I told them on the form I signed up on that I wouldn't talk and they're surprisingly accepting of it. don't talk at work, but work with my mom so she talks for me basically. the times I would need it would be very hard to use. not sure if I could do it with phone calls or video calls. am known to not call back for important things because dont answer my phone and will try to email them instead and no one wants to answer emails. will beg them not to call in message. they leave voice mail saying they got my message so call them back..... have video calls with my therapist and don't know how i'd use it for that. could help for in person doctor appointments but doctors are so impatient and want me in and out fast, don't know if it would improve much. I already never get to say all I need and non verbal communications is slow. don't know how twitch chat would react, so might be the only viable option...people that know me might be weirded out but whatever. new people might make fun of a robot voice but whatever x2 if I make it part of my "thing" they can deal with it especially if I cam finish making a vtuber and make that their "voice" maybe.... would be hard when playing games having to stop to type and won't say things enough so kinda same problem.....hmmm. could maybe at least work for art streams? 🤔

#sorry for rambling. just working it out in my head #wish it would be easier but world isnt very accomodating so dont know how to navigate that #ah. remembering as a kid desperately wishing i could learn sign language and teach everyone around me so i could acrually communicate #but didnt have internet and couldnt find books for it and no one wanted to learn it for me either #was excited to take it in high school but they got rid of a bunch of classes because not enough funding and cant afford teachers :/ #is alternative communication easier for me if hurdles it has are exhausting too? just emailing places is very stressful and tiring #and they never accommodate that. either ignoring or calling anyway! cant get a prescription because they dont read emails! #S I G H #talking feels so hard for me but am told don't count as semiverbal/semispeaking. makes me wonder how hard is for actual semispeakers #or dare i say....would i actually count and just got wrong info because i explain bad...idk. #am wondering if its common where people get mad because You Can Make Mouth Sounds So I Only Listen Of You Speak! #used to write in notebook to try communicating at school. people say they wont read and had teacher tear paper up and force speech #he got no speech. #pretty sure using aac would be similar “use your voice. i wont listen to that! i know you can talk!” people irl are ignorant and not nice #why this post take 45 minutes to make....typing is tiring 😅 #so used to trying to typer perfect so people understand better and am known to be really good writer. but. so tiring.... #maybe should try shorter wordings. is easier. hope people understand. uhhdhhdhssdhhdbdhefhf tired