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horreurscopes · 11 months

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watching death note and house of the dragon simultaneously earlier this year did something permanent to my galaxy brain

#THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING BUT THEY'RE SO DAEMYRA CODED !!! IM LIVING IN 3023 !!!!!!!! if this doesn't flop i'm doing a couple other scenes too #timeskip rhaenrya is long haired near. you abandoned me! ive been alone! and look at what my life has become without you. droll tragedy #also: the choking scene. L never told you. did he? (:#anyway yes targeryan AU problematic etc etc. im living my truth <3 also the age difference here is the same as canon #mello is illegitmate maybe. a la heathcliff wuthering heighs #death note #house of the dragon #mello dn #near dn #mihael keehl #nate river #meronia #near x mello #artists on tumblr #horreurart #ALSO i cannot believe i got these done in 4ish hours. i was aiming for fast and fun and not-for-profit. im :0 #these look SO good. there's an art lesson here somewhere #incest / because: targs

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valvarads · 4 months

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@pscentral ⤷ event 24: team tools ➵ gradient tool/map ⤷ anniversary event: take two 2.0 ➵ dynamics + tropes + vibrance @userdramas event 14: contrast ➵ yellow/purple contrast trope

YELLOW and PURPLE are complementary colors, i.e. colors on direct opposite sides of the color wheel. They create high contrast next to each other, and cancel each other out when combined. (x) YELLOW symbolizes optimism, deception, and vitality. PURPLE symbolizes ambition, extravagance, and divinity. (in/sp)

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risingsunresistance · 1 year

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more stuff from the skyblock fanfic that lives in my head rent free (the fic does not exist)

#ark this one is for you. you know EXACTLY what this is about #when the. when the magic of the world brings life even in death. starts sobbing and crying and screaming etc #sb #my art #im not tagging him i dont wanna be perceived jgdjfh but ur welcome to reblog if you want #i love making messy drawings like this it's sooooo soul healing #lets me get ideas out without caring about how they look or how well they come across #and it doesnt use words #i hate words #im bad at words <3 #he is a bit too large for the doorway hhdkfh. maybe he's just REALLY tall #my techno is like bowser. one game he's 6ft tall at best and the other game he is the size of a building. and that's okay <333 #rising sun

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designernishiki · 1 year

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as much as a i understand and respect ace kiryu truthers, i really feel like kiryu is the type to really take the idea to heart that sex is something vulnerable and meaningful and thus reserved for someone completely trusted and special to him– someone who feels right. after years and years he’s still never legitimately voluntarily slept with someone, always tries to turn women away or is at least apathetic when they try to get physical with him, never feels that deep and specific bond with a woman– nothing compared to some of his bonds with other men throughout his life. and maybe, hopefully, one day it’ll hit him that there’s a pretty big, glaring reason why no women have ever felt “right” to him.

#I’ve become a pretty devout gay kiryu trigger at this point #it just. makes the most narrative sense / is the most narratively interesting / explains So Much #kiryu #yakuza #kazuma kiryu #honest to god though it’s. the most realistic way of explaining why he jumps to the assumption that he must date or kiss a woman or whatever #as soon as possible with little to no room to actually fall for one #with yumi he’s literally in the classic comp het situation of ‘well someone told me I’m in love with her so I guess I’m in love with her’#no deeper thought no proof of falling for her etc #sayama’s more convincing and they start out actually building a dynamic that could end up being romantic maybe- but then they fucking jump #the gun and have kiryu randomly kiss her like something he saw in a movie instead of. you know. talking about things first. or anything.#partly because they’re in a life or death situation and are essentially pushed together via traumabonding #and that’s Extreme when it comes to the end of kiwami 2. honestly that makeout scene was just. really weird and uncomfortable. for multiple #reasons. I mean for one he says something like ‘I’m sure she (haruka)’ll understand’ in between the making out in reference to him not #even trying to get further from the bomb or anything #and just lowkey choosing to kill himself (disturbingly similarly to nishiki mind you) like uh kiryu did you forget that haruka. literally #lost her mother in an extremely similar situation. in front of her. and nearly lost you at the same time. kiryu’s personality is Not one to #just shrug off something like that- either he was purposefully choosing to kill himself because he felt like a failure and that haruka would #genuinely be better off without him Or the writing there was INSANELY out of character as to make him seem more focused on the supposed #Romeo and Juliet tragic romance situation than saving his daughter the grief of losing EVERYONE CLOSE TO HER and reliving the worst night of #her fucking Life #god if anything the ending of yk2 just screams ‘this relationship would not work out under normal circumstances and both of them are just #clinging onto whatever’s closest out of desperation and need for any kind of emotional catharsis available’#if you can compare a pairing to romeo and juliet . it’s probably not #a pairing that’s meant to be #sorry im going off on a huge tangent about how weird the ending of yk2 was to me uhhh anyway I could write a video essay on why kiryu being #gay is the most realistic and interesting interpretation of him possible . send tweet

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burningarchitecture · 2 years

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Me with Victor Frankenstein 🤝 me with Light Yagami

*clenches fists* It's not about the god complex Oh my god. God complex is only useful in a Christian ish interpretation. But these characters care little about religion so "defying it" isn't their main motivation and shouldn't be what we use to describe their ambitions most of the time. Hannibal Lecter is more obsessed with god than these guys. There are other ways to describe ambition/wanting power. The issue isn't that they were trying to defy nature or whatever, the issue is that they didn't take responsibility for their actions/had a flawed ideology and literally killed people. Like I understand that it's tempting to say "haha this bitch crazy he literally thought he was gonna become god lmao what a freak" but that's not very accurate and extremely surface level. It was also exadurated in adaptions in both cases

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conop-8888 · 11 months

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tenderness and compassion would fix me but my impulse to pull away and build a concrete wall around me so I can steep in misery and self pity in solitude is wayyyy stronger

#I'm sorry it comes off as if I don't wanna talk #it's very much nothing personal #ptsd is a bitch #negative vent etc \\#i AM aware i'm an asshole for not explaining to people and just being a dimming light in their lives instead #most likely making them feel like it's personal #but gods the words just don't come out...#showing my true thoughts and vulnerabilities????? nobody NEEDS to be dragged into my death wish pit #life's hard enough without someone making their lives even more gloomy #anyway someday i'll be able to afford therapy i hope

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marcusagrippa · 4 months

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becoming more invested in one random side character who is fucking dead by the time my main plot starts than the actual protagonist is just a rite of passage for my writing process at this point

#big oc ramblingin the tags warning u h.#save me melisadd...... isa............#a horrible ugly name for a horrible ugly guy #however. every lover is a soldier. etc etc.#yes he gets killed because of his own ambition but he also gets killed because of his devotion to his city. and by extension his paradoxica #devotion to rhys (who has become the city itself in a weird parasitic sort of way). he hates what rhys stands for and he hates his idealism #and his tyranny andsuch but they have such a fucked up (literally) cannibalistic relationship going back to faustus and the ivy war #that neither of them can function without the other. rhys' fate is sealed the moment he kills isa because theres no-one left to balance him #out and challenge his plans. and he spirals from this genius up-and-coming ruthless commander willing to do anything to keep his home safe #into a lazy power-hungry beast relying on the prestige of his ancestors and the fear of the people to keep him fed. and he misses isa #as much as he hates to admit it #and he misses argent and he misses what they all had and as he gets older he starts losing the ability to distinguish between the past and #the present. hence the public display of argent's innards and isa's rotting corpse being dug up and given a seat at the table at the feast.#but back to isa. isa doesn't want to fight rhys - he believes there's good in him up until the last second of his life.#his execution is the death of any hope of redemption rhys might have had.#noneof that makes sense but anyway you get what im trying to say right #<- what a late republic hyperfix does to a mf #they are based loosely on the first triumvirate and should all eat each other !!#i can make my own narrative ghosts god dammit #dyrposts #r. a. bicinius #m. f. voscium #i made these guys like. two days ago??? but i cant stop thinking about them #if anyone is interested. i will say more things about dr #writing #augh #rhys isnt technically a main character either feel like i should clarify that he. dies in the first chapter #story focuses on eos furi and gabier !!! yippee !!!#jase writes #FUTURE ME EDIT: THIS IS ALL WILDLY OUTDATED :DDDDD OH WELL

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nagitoedit · 8 months

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you don't have to read this is for screaming in the void

#trying to explain that i'm struggling without saying the big most important part of why i am struggling is .#like oh i'm struggling because uh . the issues. what are the issues? well . they are issues that i refuse to elaborate on #so it doesn't help anybody. but like how am i supposed to explain to my mom that the reason i've become so severely depressed is because #i'm suicidal. like oh btw ^-^ i hate the life you gave me and brought me into so bad that i want to die. but it's no big deal so don't worr #about it.#which like that wouldn't be how i meant it at all but of course that's also implied or something #which just makes me think of other things like that if things weren't so bad id be able to get help but help is inaccessible.#ughhhh i just hate this it's so agonizing. like cant things be a little less bad. i'm not having fun being like this and people are #reasonably irritated with me because only based on what i'm willing to tell just. isn't the full story at all and would obviously just.#not make sense because i'm leaving out major parts of what's happening and why.#and tbh i'm constantly going back and forth between like. coming out as suicidal. mainly because like. well. it kinda worrying me.#because for like months now i've almost daily been fighting off suicidal thoughts and often even having suicidal meltdowns #yesterday i was standing near a ceiling fan and was like hmm wouldnt it be nice if one of the blades came off and stabbed me through #the back of my skull and killed me. but then i thought no that would be too traumatizing for my family #as if me dying at all wouldn't be. which i also thought of. idk just thinking about the idea of #i want to live but not like this. because yeah. my mom said that she thinks reading bad news is why and it's like well . of course it is #but should i just stay completely unaware of what's happening in the world. but also bad news is just unavoidable #but yeah it is why i'm depressed. climate change racism homophobia transphobia covid wars economy etc like #these are things that i can't just. ignore? and am i seriously the crazy person for being upset about these things?#well she does think i'm crazy for still being scared of the dangerous virus that is currently the third leading cause of death in the us #like last night she was like ' it's good to be cautious but you're going over board' i'm friends with people who could die from covid.#'over board' i care about them and other people and i don't want them to die. i don't want to be permanently disabled by a virus with #a 20% chance every time i catch it to permanently damage my immune system and give me long covid. <- according to cdc #but whatever. i do genuinely want mental help. i think i need s different medication or a diagnosis bc uhmmm . i am unwell #but that's expensive.#i have an appointment with a doctor today for a med check because i don't think my ssri is working . obviously #as i am as you can tell absolutely overcome with severe and debilitating anxiety and depression. lolzors #whatever. except not because ouuuughhhgh <-unimaginable suffering #mypost

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catsniffer420 · 9 months

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just sent my psychologist a huge email about my recently-developed fear of mortality. time to cook dinner

#the one thing about suicidal depression is that at least you live without fear of death #like i used to not fear planes/boats etc because i felt like i had nothing to lose #if it's time to go it's time to go #but now i'm like.... wait i want a future. i want more of this deliciousness called life #so it feels like i have something to lose and that's weird and scary #diary

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strawberrycircuits · 10 months

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My favorite number is 7! whats your favorite poem?

aaabh... mary olivers wild geese is a v good one i thibnk...

also the crime of being small / 10 legs 8 broken fucks me up hard

#i want to make like. a comic w the crime of being small and my ocverse ivywood.#like the first portion would be paiges perspective #'to the spider; the shadowed creature in the corner of my room; i hate you.' cherry being this thing always in paiges mind that she fears-#coming back to ruin all shes done so far. 'you scared me just as your brothers and sisters did before you' referring to the other cyborgs.#'you are a trespasser that does not belong here. you entered without knocking. roamed freely like this is YOUR home and decorated MY walls-#with unwanted silk webs without asking' cherry coming to regrowth for justice and answers and ruining everything like paige feared. cherry-#not belonging at regrowth OR in the real world bc of the jensens actions.#and then the rest of the poem would be from cherrys perspective. but it would veer into evies perspective too.#cherry wld be lines like 'but i was born this way. whats your excuse?' 'if you could count your murders how long would you be counting?'#'am i really this threatening?'#and eveline being the lines like 'i didnt know being seen would cost me my life' 'you are still standing and i am still sorry'#and some of the lines embodying both of them ie 'if i was the same but looked different maybe you wouldnt hate me'#'maybe you wouldnt have loved me' vallen and frankie dont love evie they love cherry / 'maybe you still wouldnt have let me stay' -#the marshalls taking in and loving evie and decidedly not cherry #'mercy wouldve been enough' would reflect all of it. maybe if evie was shown mercy by the jensens. maybe if paige was shown mercy-#by the people around her. maybe if cherry had been shown mercy he wouldnt be in between life and death. etc etc #sorry. my ocs make me crazay

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doctrpepper · 1 year

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"batman should just kill the joker" what if i just killed you. how dare you not take into account the moral struggle of batman dccomics.

#The moral quandary of not overstepping his role vs protecting those he loves!!!!#Batman CANNOT take a life because then he becomes what he cannot accept #He does not make the decision of who lives or dies that's the point that's the point that's the point!!!!!#And (when he's written right) he BELIEVES IN SECOND CHANCES! AND THIRD AND FOURTH AND AND AND #Death is the end of any chance of redemption #Who is HE to decide that a person is irredeemable and undeserving of life????#And is that the correct decision? Debatable! The joker is there as a test of his will #Re: another post about how theyre wondering why the joker is always batmans main enemy: THIS is why.#He challenges Bruce's fundamental ideals #The joker hurts and kills without thought. Barbara. Jason. Etc etc etc.#And Bruce has to decide whether to give up his values of right and wrong to become the vengeance he claims to be #nd that's why Jason and he fundamentally cannot fully reconcile! Because Bruce chose his ideals over him #And neither of them are wrong.#Man. I claim to not care that much about batman but damn.#When batman is written well he is soooooooooo #Batman #bruce wayne #my post #Saw one of the billion batman should just kill joker lol! Posts and got. Mad

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fist-amidst-the-hands · 1 year

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hi I haven’t been able to stop thinking about this all day so. what if ed had admitted to izzy that he’s bored out of his skull even slightly earlier. before stede. what then. ‘is this all there is?’ what if izzy responded with ‘it doesn’t have to be’ what if what if what if

#ofmd #blackhands #ofmd au #(kinda)#i just... this is like an entire other major plot point that COULD have happened (shh yeah yeah I know it couldn't but it COULD)#okay because we all know ed can NOT keep his focus on the same thing forever. babygirl just gets bored and he can't help it #and honestly good for him because same #but I kind of want to / need to / carnally desire to know: would izzy alone have ever been enough?#could they find enough new ground and cover it /together/ or would they settle into patterns and get 'boring' (read: comfy) again??#is there a limit to izzy's patience for ed's shenanigans (we've seen yes in canon but! is that because he felt ed was slipping away??)#is there an expiration on ed's need for new and exciting people places challenges etc. (so far in canon not really but will he settle?)#(btw no i don't think he'll settle because isn't that the joy of older characters? not that they can't change but moreso that they've #discovered who they are and what they need or want from life)#really what it boils down to is that while i want to explore every little branch of what these blorbos could be put through one that i want #to know very strongly is what would have happened without stede in the picture #would ed reach a breaking point with his wild erratic moods and get himself (or izzy) killed or would izzy snap first and force them to come #up with a solution that a) doesn't involved death b) cures the boredom and c) maybe just maybe gives blackhands a real shot #just a little post

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lucy-ghoul · 1 year

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SO close to strangling my dad for what he's saying about berluconi... what a deeply ignorant little man he is at heart

#also he's sprouting a lot of catholic perbenismo that's making me nauseous #and my mom parroting him because she's got no actual opinions of her own...... (i'm sure she'd be parroring ME if i ever breached #the silvio discourse with him)#the thing about my dad is that i don't like him. i love him to death and he and my mom and siblings are the most important people in my life #and idk how i'd live without him #but i don't like him as a person. i don't like his opinions or temperament. i hate how he practically forced my brother in the closet #~to not hurt his DeLiCaTe sensibilities (aka homophobia) while my brother has to swallow his fascist nostalgia/apologia #and all the bs he says. i hate how he NEVER takes me seriously and laughs at me whenever i get angry with him #and treats me like a china doll/a misguided 15-year-old just because of my mental condition even when he claims i'm an intelligent person #i hate how he finds an opportunity to belittle my mom and mock her and never treat her as an equal at every turn #and she has to bear with all of this + his untreated anger issues (ever since i was a little girl i remember i promised myself i would NEVER #end up in a marriage like theirs and since then i've always been highly sceptical of marriage as an institution)#i hate that he always thinks he's right even when he makes 0 efforts to research a subject my brother is infinitely more knowledgeable about #because apparently he's ~suspicious of even basic stuff like reading the wiki or a fucking book and gets his Superior Knowledge #from the Heavens/God Almighty/his famously Big Brain etc.#i hate how he thinks he's the pinnacle of morality even if he's just a mean-spirited 'mussolini ha fatto anche cose buone'#kind of ~uomo perbene. he's just an unpleasant person i'd normally never associate with (no wonder he has no friends) except he's my dad.#val speaks #txt

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minionwater · 2 years

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enjoy my first costume sketches for my black parade stage adaptation that’s in the works >:3

#sanders art tag #my chemical romance #mcr #the black parade #for reference this is the patient’s full show costume and the parader’s mama costume (at the very least. probably will show up more)#this isn’t wendigoon’s ghost guide theory either it’s my ghost guide theory #which differs pretty heavily in character backstory/interaction/etc #n also there’s no overt religious interpretation. like obv there’ll be religious imagery given the nature of mcr #and the fact that that translates into at least the patient but likely both leads being religious #but there’s no ‘does the patient go to heaven or hell’ that’s up to you . all the patient does is die #there’s ghosts and that’s the extent of the paranormal as far as I’m writing #tho tbh. a bit of a rant incoming #I kinda think the patient going to heaven or hell kind of fucks w the story?#he can hallucinate hell but the moment you imply it’s real it removes a lot of the mystery and also the impact of the show #to me death without a grudge (like the parader has which ties them to this world) is just void #like they say in the song it’s sleep. the patient’s courage in the face of death has lesser impact if we know there’s life after. even if #said life after could be damnation. I don’t think you can die on your own terms with a confirmation of a god #and this story is about moving on and dying on your own terms #okay rant over

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unlimitedhorsepower · 2 years

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on top of some stuff my 20-year old horse is feeling unwell:( she is a finnhorse and her name is hippu and she suffers from an old traumatic injury that has changed her locomotion pattern and simply old age-related arthritis (partially due to her awful conformation because she was a twin foal and was squeezed in the womb)

ive owned her for over a decade and cant imagine life without her. a horse could live up to 30+ but 20 is old too of course... its just a shame if her life quality gets too bad to be sustainable due to an accident that happened years ago:(

i want her to live pain-free for as long as she can but options are a little limited money-wise, besides physical rehab that i should do but cant do super often bc of my own cringe fail health which is also such a shame:( i just dont want her to be put down yet just because of my own health and incapability to do certain things so i hope...

i wanted to be a professional equestrian once and we did showjumping (higher than this obstacle i promise haha). and then i wanted to be a horse masseuse too. funny to think about right now. heres a funny picture of us probably from a decade ago

please send hippu good thoughts!

shes a very sweet mare. shes also very temperamental but she treats you well as long as you treat her well. she was put on sale because she was too wild and i had a horse girl movie arc with her from the horse who “couldnt go anywhere alone/doesnt stand for the farrier or vet and has to be sedated lest she try to kill the person/cant be trusted in competitions” to a horse who led me home when it was winter and it became too dark for me to see the path in the woods and i told her to take me home, so she did and i eventually could see the lights of the stable and knew where i was haha...

i hope she feels better soon:(

#ive probably lived more of my life with her than without. like life i actually remember. my childhood is a black hole i can barely remember #hippu is really important to me but stable stuff is such a fucking shithole weve had awful luck at stables in the past...#shes gotten hurt at some stables and even used without my consent to give lessons etc:( i just want her to live well in her old age #she loves the foals at the stable we are at now and works very hard to be their cranky but loving grandma...:( i hope she can continue doin #animal death - i suppose (referenced as being put down)#my horse

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soutsuji · 22 days

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Do you even understand what Chiori was to Morisu

#.txt #decagon house #mansion murders/yakata series #she was the love of his life and his lifeline and symbolized everything that was good to him #he believed so earnestly that she was perfect and flawless and incapable of wrong #she was like a god to him in a way #and believing that she was perfect and perfectly innocent was his religion. in a way #of course he thinks she couldn't have gone to a party and gotten drunk #that goes against his core beliefs #of course he thinks she could never have gotten so blackout drunk of her own will to have died #of course he thinks she was pressured into doing all of this #of course he thinks that she was murdered #ideal victims create ideal perpetrators etc. etc.#of course he thinks the mystery club killed her #he doesn't care about what motive they could have had (for they had none)#his god was dead and they killed her #of course he decided to kill them in turn #of course his 'last reason for living' became to 'paint a world without those sinners in it' (not direct quotes but close enough)#of course he fancied himself as some sort of divine judge #'i know Man can never become a god' and all #and who knows who chiori actually was #maybe she was just as morisu made her out to be. maybe she wasn't #in the end it doesn't matter #in the end chiori is only relevant as the driving force behind morisu's actions #maybe he always believed her to be so. or maybe he retroactively defined his beliefs around her death #we will never know #kawaminami and also sort of orczy and leroux give us more information about chiori #but even then she could really just be a normal girl who was pretty and kind and shy #who decided to have some fun for once and took some risks and died because of it #and it's just morisu who's absolutely deranged about her

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