Hua Cheng held Xie Lian tightly and spoke in a low voice touched by despair. "I couldn’t get into the Kiln no matter what I tried, and you had to break out on your own! I'm so fucking—" "San Lang, it's okay—it's really all right!" Xie Lian said quickly. "Besides, I didn't break out on my own! […] You helped me. Look.”
Hua Cheng assured him next to his ear. "Don't ever be afraid—I'm right here beside you!" Hua Cheng was right behind him, his hands steady on Xie Lian's waist. He was just one person, but to Xie Lian, it felt like the entire world was supporting him. He breathed in deeply and closed his eyes.
When he looked back, Hua Cheng grasped his shoulders. "Fight freely! It'll be fine-none of them are a match for you. Nothing in this world can stop you!" His chest was the strongest backing in existence, and in an instant, Xie Lian was brimming with confidence. A refreshing current flowed through his body, and he struck back with all his might.
three times in book 7 that hua cheng was by xie lian’s side the moment he needed it
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"ain't nobody's business but ours."
yea so i watched brokeback mountain.
im in shambles
i would've said they needed time, but they didn't have any. they weren't given any. i know, Ennis this Ennis that, he made his choice and he stuck to it but i can't blame him for it.
mmore on my thoughts below teehee
i wrote this last night but it still rings true
brokeback mountain really makes you think
spoiler alert if you haven't watched it btw duhh
yeah, Ennis and Jack never ended up together - Ennis chose to resign, and force himself to be okay with never having Jack, and Jack never stopped holding out for hope that Ennis would give in to him.
but *why* were they that way?
yeah, it's a tragedy, but when you look into it - when you look at the people around you, and the people you see today, it hits you. this isn't just some movie fantasy, this happens. this must've happened all the time.
Ennis was scared shitless because he knew how queer people were treated. Jack didn't give much of a damn, he wanted to be happy - he wanted Ennis to be happy with him, but the world around them never gave offered them that chance.
i love brokeback mountain because it makes you feel how unfair it really is. that this kinda stuff isn't fiction, it's reality, and homophobia may be way more mitigated now but it's still there. sure, homophobia may not come in the form of people tying lassos around your genitals and pulling them off anymore, but there are laws - social divides, military conflicts, stigmatization.
brokeback mountain is so much more than just a love story, or a super sexual taboo man on man action movie. i think it shows you just how fucked the world was, and still is, in a way that makes you really feel or at least see what queer people have had to go through for so long.
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read this on someone's hc post that
Suguru's last words "at least hit me with some curses" can be translated to him saying "curse me Satoru, curse me like yuuta did to rika. Love me so bad that you can't let me go."
and I'm crying, hyperventilating, overthinking literally.
And then more ugly crying because Satoru did exactly that. He did not cause suguru but he loved him so bad that he could never let him go. That he still half smiled upon seeing kenjaku thinking that geto was back even though he was the one who killed him. He knew his suguru was dead, but he still loved him too much to actually think that suguru was back.
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The Story of Young Master & A Fool
Something about the episode starting with Nueng and Palm changing their clothes in separate areas away from each other, only to end with them easily taking of their clothes in front of each other to symbolize them laying it bare and being comfortable with each other and their true selves...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
*turns on "Heart to Break" by Kim Petras*
And when you touch me, I'm a fool
This game I know I'm gonna lose
Palm comforted Nueng with touch several times throughout the episode to reinforce that he was there and not going anywhere, yet this was the one time Nueng finally gave into touching Palm!
And Palm is submerged in happiness because of it. One touch initiated by Nueng, and Palm is gone. Nueng warns Palm to not expect much from him (residual grief from his parents placing expectations on him and feeling like he is disappointing them?), but Palm tells Nueng he already sees the best in and of him, much like Nueng told Palm he wasn't afraid of him when he saw his raw reaction to Nueng getting hurt. They have seen each other at their worst and still like those parts.
Nueng, in fact, likes all of Palm's parts. He is staring at Palm, respectfully "FUCK! Seriously?! It's like you're photoshopped!"
Nueng always flips the dynamic and tries to serve his servant, but Palm gladly gives in this time because he finally has the upper hand on the beach where Nueng is constantly out of his element.
Please, baby Jesus with the historically accurate skin tone, LET THEM GET TATTOOS! Let them be basic boys and get them in Mandarin! I need more tattoos for the collection. María, if your son gives me a scene of them getting tattoos, I will make a budget instead of just telling people I'm on a budget to avoid doing stuff I don't want to do. *sign of the cross*
Cool tones vs. Warm tones. Cold stares vs. Warm stares. Hate vs. Love. But one thing remains the same - Wherever Nueng goes, Palm follows.
This is the buddy comedy I want! The way Tam was screaming for Mam to run was the best friend energy we all need in our lives. Then, Mam is such a mess, but girl, same. I'm not cooking. I'm making the rich boy work. I'm okay with you smoking pot with your boyfriend, but I draw the line at you being his bodyguard. I refuse to dislike a woman with this much audacity.
Palm reassuring Nueng that his mother is probably alive and being taken care of, while Nueng continues to question if Palm's mother can even be trusted is a stark contrast in how they care for each other. They both want to protect each other from unhappiness and pain but have very different approaches.
I hope Palm is right about Tanya because I keep thinking about this scene from the trailer and Nueng crying in the place he shares with Palm to grieve away from people.
And they took that personally
Get these tattooed on your bodies in Mandarin. DO IT!
Phum taunted them by saying they were boyfriends, and Mam also questioned it as well. Palm is surprised by the French and Chinese couple openly holding hands and stating they were boyfriends [This couple is the one getting married on the beach by Mam while Nueng plays the piano and Palm watches from the trailer], yet these two don't really know where they stand now that they no longer have to exist in a world dominated by their social standings. This is what pushes Nueng to clear up the meaning of the kiss.
The gay sheets are EVERYWHERE! 1) Thrilled that Nueng was direct and asked about the kiss; 2) Palm saying he kissed Nueng because it's his job to make Nueng happy is the same energy that Togawa was giving Nozue in Old Fashion Cupcake when he was helping his boss lighten up; 3) Palm asked Nueng what he meant by Palm having no feelings when kissing him, and if Nueng had waited a bit, Palm would have owned up to having emotion behind the kiss; 4) The last man who said a kiss is something special and meaningful had a funeral for a hedgehog then got laid on those gay sheets, so may the odds be in your favor, Nueng.
Next time, if you want to make me happy, you don't have to go that far. You can just act funny or play a joke.
He is staring at Nueng, lustfully. I don't know about y'all, but where I'm from, talking about chile (peppers) and saying things are spicy are innuendos for sex. And saying that Nueng was blushing because it was too spicy, then that his lips were swollen and burning due to the spiciness...yeah, um...
The shift these two have between the degrading and the formal, and how the insults are said with love, yet the formalities are said with sarcasm is such a special way to use language to show intent.
This is some really rich-boy energy he is throwing around, when the first episode had protest banners about taking people's land splashed right outside his gated house. He wants to make a public space his own private escape to the detriment of the locals who told him about it. However, the way the story keeps repeating the tale of the cow header and the weaver girl, I think this will be like 3 Will Be Free, where Palm returns to the beach, and Nueng goes to college abroad but visits Palm. They will be together but apart in the end and Our Skyy 2 will show Nueng visiting Palm at the beach. CAUSE THEY BOTH HAVE TO BE ALIVE when this is over!
Next week we get the rooftop scene from the trailer between Chopper and Ben, and I'm convinced that Chopper released that picture. I cannot be swayed! He is going to spend more time with Ben, and just when Ben is going to fall for him, he is going to find out that Chopper did it, and I'm going to be sipping my Lady Grey tea with glee.
I'm also even more convinced that Palm's dad is involved in the shootings and is working with the uncle. He had the escape plan all worked out for Palm, which makes sense if he was a good bodyguard and father, but he's not. I don't trust him! He called Mam and told her Palm would be living with her a while, so I don't think he planned for Nueng to live through the shooting. Even if this show ends and Chopper and Chanon are innocent, I'll take these beliefs to the grave. Namo 2.0.
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