#they'd ALL be so miserable

[jin-zixun]

AU (I guess) where wei wuxian and lan wangji taking su she hostage actually kinda works (despite all the reasons it definitely shouldn't lmao) so now they have to actually keep him around and constantly supervised until they get jin ling back and oh yeah make sure public enemy #2 doesn't get hurt or killed or anything because like. he's a hostage now.

like just wangxian ready to go on their honeymoon and now they gotta babysit su she. because they decided that was a good idea, even though it very much was not. it'd be funny though.

#they'd ALL be so miserable #hey hey guys do you think taking away jgy's travel companion will make him more or less likely to give you back a-ling? #i gotta make a post on all the reasons this is the least serious thing that happens in GT because there are a LOT #unless like yeah w/x actually just wanted to make jgy look bad in front of lxc which like maybe #ok but also wwx starting to not hate sms because he's kinda-not-really like jiang cheng #and sms starting to not hate wwx because he's kinda-not-really like xue yang #and they still very vocally hate each other but we follow the journey of poor lwj realizing the hate is becoming more and more performative #but they're still both very very happy to get rid of him once they have a-ling back

[lucabyte]

Taking pride in One's own appearance.

#you people are becoming my guinea pigs for my finally learning how to communicate information via comics. a thing ive needed to practice at #also BLEGH. YUCK. andrew hussie was right candy makes you sick. this is a little too saccharine for me. yeesh. let me get back to the meat. #isat #isat spoilers #in stars and time #in stars and time spoilers #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #isat siffrin #isat loop #sifloop #doodlebyte #'let me get back to the meat' i say eyeing something similarly sickly in my sketches. at least it's mildly tormented as a counterbalance... #you people have no idea how much im having to stay my own hand. oh i can draw miserable nudity but the most basic of fluff? visceral #anyway i dont know the logistics of picking up a glass eye or where loop got money (besides pilfering from siffrin) & ive previously drawn #sif with a vague blank middle-grey eye as either being scarred over or a blank occular prosthesis put in quickly at the nearest town #i dont know that they'd have a glass eye during the game but considering prosthesis are reccomended to keep the skull etc from deforming #id imagine it would probably come up postgame as something to do now theyre not on a time limit trying to save the country #plus i assume that having it gouged at by a sadness wasnt exactly a clean wound by any measure #all this to say. idk i just wanted to get some information across in comic form to Test my Abilities #and we're far enough down now to say my absolute most wretchingly sweet fluff headcanon that actually inspired this #which is that i think siffrin gets into the habit of not wearing the eyepatch around loop so they kinda match. #and as a signifier to the other that they're letting their guard down around them. vulnerability etc. #just kinda wearing it around their neck so they don't lose it

[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[chronurgy]

In my feels about how Gortash abso-fucking-lutely ruined Durge's life. Just fucking destroyed it. But that's also the only reason they have any sort of chance to make something different for themself. He's the only reason they even have a chance at a happy ending (even though it's a happy ending that he can't be in)

#enver gortash #dark urge #dark urge x gortash #durgetash #bg3 #Thinking about how my durge had just resigned themself to being miserable and alone and hating the world for everything it #Couldn't or wouldn't give them. For being so fucking boring. They had their magic and that was everything they needed. But then #In sweeps this motherfucker who talks to them and understands them and is just as smart as they are and then suddenly #They have dreams again. All the wants they thought they'd ground into dust years ago come back with a vengeance #It ruined them! If they'd just been able to live in the same furious and miserable detachment as before Orin never would've gotten to them #If they had never started feeling alive again then they never would have begun to balk at the idea of dying on their father's altar #Because who cares about dying when you're already buried six feet under? But when you're alive? Maybe you don't want to die #Maybe you want to live. Maybe you have other things to think about besides Bhaal's bloody love and your siblings' resentments #And that's when they get you #Ughhhh I'm going to be fucking sick #Vesper

[angels-heap]

Every now and then, I stumble across conversations about how fucked up the HL(VRAI) fandom was in 2020, and it's so wild to me that the relevant "examples" are almost always individual off-putting fanworks or individual trolls and not, like, the rampant harassment. Guys, the worst part was the harassment!! The handful of people who posted fucked up shit for shock value were annoying, but the overblown response to those trolls and the ensuing harassment campaigns against anyone who could possibly be construed to have anything in common with them were infinitely worse.

... then again, I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of these folks claiming one gross-out fic ruined their fandom experience were also the same people who spread all the discourse and organized the harassment campaigns, so 🤷

#K talks #things have calmed down a lot but it's still so disheartening to see folks take the wrong lesson from all the bullshit #if y'all just left the people you see as 'weirdos' alone you'd be so much less stressed and they'd have less of a platform #instead you decided to make the internet a miserable place for all of us (AND YOURSELVES) for like two straight years #and most of you would do it again in a heartbeat #yet you wonder why so few people are still creating fanworks for your faves

[frumfrumfroo]

Can't believe I never noticed before that most of the dialogue in TFA is... kinda bad? As bad as anything in TROS. The prequels dialogue is bad, but you can tell it's *attempting* poetry. A lot of the dialogue in TFA and TROS is just stating the obvious or trite quips.

It's not a great movie.

#they had one brilliant transcendent thing which could have carried this whole trilogy and made it seem like real art #could have put it up there as actually worth remembering #made it a legitimate part of the story #but no #no #and I've said this before but if they wanted to make forgettable cash in garbage they should have just done that #and done it in a crowd pleasing way which didn't destroy the narrative #they should have had the OT trio together they should have had unchallenging fanservice #because how fucking dare they tear down the happy ending of RotJ with no intention of building to a fuller and larger resolution #how dare they have Han Luke and Leia all die for nothing as failures #never having been reunited #for no reason #they all had mostly miserable lives and no one ever fixed anything or grew up- the entire saga was pointless and futile #and these people claim to be fans #they couldn't have shit on the OT harder if they'd tried #but yeah legit reylo was so compelling and Ben was so perfectly sw it could have papered over the (huge) flaws that TFA built into the ST #IX didn't even have to be great #if it had had the appropriate narrative resolution it would be beloved anyway #RotJ is the weakest film in the OT but it is deathless because of the powerful thematic statement and resounding conclusion it provides #bc it retroactively makes ESB even better and makes ANH much deeper #deep storytelling from the dawn of time speaking profound hope will overcome all superficial issues #it's so satisfying that we don't care about clunkiness in other areas #but guess it's more important to make the deadline for the quarter than to create something that will still be generating money 60 years on #instead of being swept into the slop bucket of franchise offal and buried in a steel drum on Mars to prevent contamination

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Robin will really just go around Kirkwall saying "what if i tried fixing every problem ever" huh

#theyre trying so hard bless them #theyre not dillusional they know they cant *fix* fix things #but this whole place is so full of miserable people and if there is anything they need it is compassion #so theyre trying their very best to give them that #after all they'd be grateful for the same thing in return #oc: robin hawke #laya plays dragon age #my ocs #not to mention that they subconsciously feel obligated to fix everything all the time but dont worry about it <3 #also unrelated but so far theyre the most drawn to anders and the least drawn to fenris out of my hawkes which is intersting! #(as in who they vibe with/understands the best; theyre still p neutral with bela and varric and get on well with aveline) #merrill they're wary of/worried about bc of the blood magic deal but she is also so sweet and sincere and theyre not gonna just abandon her

[virmillion]

hey why the shit is every fuckin therapist in range not accepting new clients in the next two months. ive seen two or three ever and they were all too long ago/quit their location so i cant reach them but all the fuck i need is a letter saying Hey Uh Give This Kid Testosterone. but no nobody is accepting new patients any time soon. which is great bc people are getting help but fucking sucks because i am going to lose my mind it was SO EASY to do the first half with my endo. she literally trusted me right off and wrote the lab request and everything no fuckin hoops to prove i hate my body that much or nothin. and now this. now i continue to be ghosted by fuckin EVERYONE. jobs and therapists and my own goddamn mother because its soooo harddddd to lose ur daughter :(((( YOU STILL HAVE A DAUGHTER SHE MOVED TO ANOTHER CITY AND HANGS OUT WITH HER BOYFRIENDS FAMILY MORE THAN US. YOU GAIN A SON OUT OF THIS DEAL

#labhrambles #GOD it sucks i know first world problems ohhh youre so luckyyyy i dont even get the chance to ask for T :( #OKAY WELL. SORRY STRAWMAN I JUST MADE UP. BUT IM MISERABLE. #everything is so much all the time. when are you getting a job. have you tried this. what do you do up there all day. #where else have you tried. why not reach out again. hard to find a job when you're sleeping until 5 every day #HARD TO GET UP AT ALL WHEN I WISH I COULD WAKE UP DEAD HALF THOSE DAYS. BUT SURE. #anyway. doesnt count as trauma because its not repressed. just shitty #wish i could fuckin break my back again. maybe then they'd lay the fuck off. #do something stupid enough to go to grippy sock jail so everyone leaves me alone forever

[amatres]

anyway my personal ranks of origins backstories just in the game by themselves is brosca and tabris at the top, aeducan at the bottom. cousland i will admit is pretty impactful but i still feel like, as wild as an option it would have been, that a cousland warden should had the option to solo rule. they are from the only other teryn in ferelden and it's even said that it was considered for bryce to rule so like! come on!

aeducan is at the bottom because it so tightly locks you into siding against bhelen, which i suppose is fair for brosca being so skewed in behlens favor bc of rica, but brosca is just Good so i forgive that, while aeducan is just suffering.

i still stand by my idea that the 'noble' dwarven origin shouldn't have been the second aeducan child, they should have been the second aeducan's second in place of gorim. that way there would have been more room for roleplay. also the second aeducan child would have been a secret third option for ruler of orzammar that you would encounter with the legion of the dead that they joined after being kicked out.

you would have to both do the legion of dead quest to give them a noble caste, and also have high as hell coercion for it to work but it would really cool and also so funny to do. that said the origin just by itself is pretty fun, love being backstabbed by my second favorite baby brother from the dragon age franchise

mahariel and the magi warden are in the 'i like them but they don't feel as impactful' as much as it hurts me. they're both just kinda there, however that said if the game let you recruit jowan into your party that would bring the magi warden up much higher. alas.

#ama mumbles #dragon age origins #dragon age #sorry for putting this in the main tags yall can ignore me this is for the followers who want to block the tags lol #magi warden is brought up higher on an 'entire franchise' scale bc they feel relevant while the others... don't #but in just origins i will heartbreakingly admit they can feel a bit disconnected and underwhelming despite all the ties they have. #to the broken circle and to jowan bc of how smaller scope the choices you get in those two areas are #you get two choices with broken circle more or less and you either run jowan off or get him killed. sad. #which is fitting considering the fact they were forcibly disconnected from the world as a child by the chantry. anyway. #what if broken circle just let me kill the templars. what then. #if you could recruit jowan then they'd be tied to a companion and would probably get special dialogue with him #also then id get to drag my miserable adopted brother with me to the ass end of thedas. i was robbed when they scrapped that idea. robbed!! #to be fair magi feels less 'disconnected' in world and more just in a player sense #bc so much of the drama in it is entrenched in the lore of the world and when you don't know That then it feels. odd. #its a origin i feel many new players would have the hardest time emotionally getting into #mahariel however feels Very disconnected from everything. tamlen showing up as a ghoul i feel was added to remedy that a bit #bc otherwise theres really only nature of the beast and later on velanna but it's not even their tribe or someone they knew. so. 🤷‍♀️ #these are just personal thoughts tho #also why is tabris and brosca at the top? bc they go hard and i love underdog stories. #brosca also helps make paragon of her kind like. actually land. i never know what to roleplay otherwise bc Why Would I Care #tabris is just good baby #when will the city elf player background return to me #aeducan would probably be more bearable if they hadn't made harrowmount like That as king. or at least. foreshadowed it better #beyond just ambient npc dialogue bc at that point in game most pl are just running past #made paragon of her kind feel more well rounded. its very hard to get invested roleplay wise when youre not a dwarf pc #but that might just be my own failings i suppose #lots of tags #sorry i rambled again

[mwagneto]

ppl will literally hold my face in both hands and look me in the eyes and say im the most perfect person they know and that im important to them and they want to be there for me. and ill still be like uhm what if they're just saying it to be nice but secretly hate my guts

#not rly true coz i feel more secure w this friend group than i ever have #partly bc forcing myself to recover from mento illness is going great and #partly because well. they hold my face in both hands and tell me they'd kill for me #i dont think they hate me im just always worried im annoying which is kinda new #not even annoying im just scared they'll get sick of me if im too.... too everything ig #and im desperately trying not to think about the fact that im going to move to a #different country and leave all of them and it's gonna be miserable #it's crazyyyy how fast time is moving. i need to enjoy every second coz man... #at least the work we have to do means we're gonna be traveling and living together basically all summer #and a bit in spring too #im literally winning life tbh and it's only the 2nd semester #we'll see. and the bad thing is i have no idea how i got such a big friend group so quickly and i #knowww that if i change majors or move away im never gonna have anything like this again #i literally like going to uni coz i miss them when im home that's so fucked up. like wtf. #im so not used to missing ppl like this and to ppl wanting to be around me it's crazy. hi #barking

[gayboybeetle]

man. man. i'd feel bad venting to anybody and i dont even have words for everything im feeling but GOD DAMN i feel like ass

#this isnt a promt for anybody to be like 'you can vent to me!' btw #i genuinely dont want to talk. i know i should but. i just cant do it man. #im really just posting this to get it off my chest #but FUCK FUCK FUCKING AAAUAGGGHGHH I HATE BEING DISABLED #i know im not stupid or wothless or a burden but FUCK DAMN SHIT it feels like it #and testosterone makes me want to hit and throw and break things but obviously i cant do that #i keep thinking that i make everyone around me miserable and i know thats not true #but everyone seems to be going through it and i cant shake the thought and FUCK #i lost $400 and im gonna have to pay all that back AND pay a $500 medical bill AND still pay all of rent #but hey! at least i cant pay for food bc my debit card was in the wallet i lost so that money is literally locked in my account 🫠 #so that wont get spent! hhhh #and if i get my wallet back tomorrow im going to feel lucky and stupid for feeling this way now #but theres fucking nothing i can do!! and its not like i can help but feel this way!!!! #but god. it feels like I'll be an unhelpable depressed idiot forever. i hate feeling stuck so much. #milo.txt #vent tw #fuck me *running* man. god damn. #i know people love me i know they'd miss me if i were gone i know we mutually deeply care about each other i know i know i know #but come the fuck on milo get it in your head

[jeanharlowseyebrows]

another thing that’s funny is when a writer needs to have some kind of calamity to put the #plot into #motion yet the situation they come up with is like. not that big of a deal at all unless you’re 16 years old and writing about adults and trying to come up with Problems In An Adult World yet they’re like. not really that bad!! but every character is acting like the absolute world is ending. all “you did this!!!! and you’re bad!!!!!!” and the character that Got Into Trouble is like :( i know :( i’m horrible :( i will spend 1000 years atoning for my evils :(

#that shit always drives me nuts too like stand up!!! #i would be victimizing myself all over the place #praying i'd get hit by a bus and die so everyone would be miserable for the rest of their lives knowing how abominably they'd treated me

[ratbrick]

My friends opening their home to me while my roommate has a psychotic break like

#ive never feared for my own safety before so thats new #everything in my life is so unsettled and uncertain #i need a new job that pays me enough to live alone like real bad #when i say psychotic break im not kidding #violently slamming things around #throwing things outside #all of which is made wirse by the fact that im unmedicated and anxious and more prone to anxiety attacks #worse not wirse but you get it #one of my friends said I'd been miserable since i got to this new house and theyre right #i HAVE been miserable #i didnt even realize how miserable I'd been #nothing feels comfortable or settled #everythhing feels sterile or forced #i definitely dont want to spend another year living with someone who gave their lartner a key after less than a month of knowing them #yeah not dating them #KNOWING them #and they didnt tell me until after they'd already done it #i thought they were joking #nope #get me out get me away #im mourning myself tbh #i was so happy living alone #so healthy #so mentally whole #down the drain the second i started living with someone again

[mootmuse]

the downside of subscribing to a substack telling me about US trans news: i now know about US trans news

#and i know about one guy who has a real high chance of being elected in my area if he gets past the republican primary #when have we ever not elected a republican? it's all up to who republican voters decide they want to run #serious post #us stuff #would tag this for trans stuff too but I'm hoping this doesn't end up in tags for anything #venting about it in detail would dox me I guess but. #the 'upside' of not having gotten my shit together enough to start hrt or anything: can go back into the closet pretty easily #is it stupid that i'd chose shaving my face and going back into the closet over potentially having to leave my cat? #he's such a sensitive little dude idk if he'd be able to keep food down if I moved him to a totally new environment. he'd be too stressed #not enough money to get a loan for a house and can't rent a place with all the cats so i'd have to just go by myself if i went #they'd be fine here with just mom but. idk man. i guess we'll see what my options end up being #even if we could magically get a house with a really low loan mom wouldn't have a job #and i've found the least miserable job i'm ever going to be qualified for i think. might be stupid to not want to leave it #just so I don't have to go back into retail #but I don't want to leave the job either. not going to find anything better #so I guess I'll stay even if it would be smarter to go #proud to be an american huh? fuck.

[mosscrab]

ouuughh. college </3 sorry rambling vent in tags i'm gonna be okay i'm just tired

#take me as an example if you're burnt out in high school its okay to take a year or two to just work. because i wish i had now. #i can DO it. #i just feel horrible and miserable and so fucking tired. #like i'm happy i get to go to college i'm lucky for that. its community college with a scholarship actually. but still. #i feel like i'm going to get sick from all this. #and being in the hospital all the fucking time does not help. at least i have a full ride to community college. #now that i'm doing better. i think i will graduate. but i've been considering working for a few years and saving up to come back here #for welding or electrical or automotive. #interesting choices i know but i don't think welding will ever go away. and much of my family is welders they'd be very proud of me. #idk. maybe after this semester i'll be okay. but i have been thinking about this. #maybe its just because i'm bad at taking tests and retaining things right away but with this current setup i can't sustainably study. idk!! #.txt

[zurazakis]

also i think they got together post zaki death because before that it was complicated & messy but not in a like toxic way or anything it was just like obligations & sides & whatever like. zaki having been ssg for so long & his loyalty remaining to kondo first & foremost despite everything even as he worked in zura's joui faction. i do think everyone in the ssg got character assassinated when zaki died BUT rolling along with it means that the only person who saw it for what it is (as in. someone dying & the actual gravity of it) is the one guy who was committed to. this bit. this guy. the bit guy. the guy who is a bit. do you HEAR ME am i alone in here am i sensible hello

#gintamaposting #to come back to life not remembering anything but there's this one guy who seriously deeply mourns who you were #& you can't really comfort him bc you don't know him nor do you know how to comfort people because you have. no memories. #but he's so genuine you start mourning the person you were too. & you feel sorry you don't remember anything #& then something happens & you sort of return to your old self but you're still dead & he's still miserable about it #& he's the only one who's been miserable about it at all for that matter. it really puts into perspective what it means for someone to care #& for a man who hasn't been cared for for the person he is pretty much his entire life bc him being The Bit was always prioritised. well #what i'm saying is that the codependency could be hazardous. but not only. i'm serious about this!!!!!!!!! #once again.;; are you picking up what i am putting donw.... anyone #zurazaki #even tagging it properly. for once. #i also don't actually think they would end up in an unhealthy codependent relationship. but they could! but they wouldn't. #they have the setup for it but not the personalities i fear #zaki takes himself as seriously as zura requires it & he does respect zura a lot so i feel like they'd actually be pretty healthy. lol. lma #now if we look to the right (points at zombies au) we can see a more fucked up version of the facts--