#this still rots my brain every now and then

[philistiniphagottini]

Sticky Sweet

Back again with another hit banger because I currently cannot seem to escape this sudden, oral fixation that is rotting my brain. So now, you can all suffer with me, I will be disturbing the peace because I am a feral gremlin. I've already written something similar to this already with Blade that I already uploaded to A03 but I also needed to plague Jing Yuan with this idea as well. Please, feedback is appreciated and please for the love of god indulge my oral fixation I am going insane over here. Enjoy~

cw. smut, oral sex (fem receiving) clit warming ((like cock warming, but with clit instead)) somnophilia (it's very light and reader-chan does wake up during but still)

You awoke in the early hours of the morning to a pleasant heat simmering low in the pit of your stomach. Your eyelashes fluttered over your cheeks as you stirred, struggling to peel your eyes open as the warm rays of sunlight peeked beneath your bedroom curtain and kissed your warm skin. You were coaxed awake as a pleasant tingle rippled along the ridges of your spine, tickling your belly as your eyes finally snapped open. The sight you were greeted with made your stomach do flips. 

Jing Yuan lay beneath you between your plump thighs, lazing on his stomach like a cat on a lazy Sunday afternoon. His large, warm hands calloused by hundreds of years of combat curled around your hips, thick fingers sinking into the soft pudge of your stomach until it spilled between the splayed digits. His mouth was pressed flush at the apex of your thighs, lips shimmering with beads of your arousal as he trapped the pretty pearl of your clit between the bruised skin. You inhaled sharply, hips jolting in his grasp and blood simmered hotly in your veins at the debauched sight of your lover.

"Jing Yuan!" you exclaimed. 

A warm hum stirred in his chest in response, the vibrations feeling heavenly against the small, twitching bud of your clit as your nerves flushed to life. His eyes fluttered open as he peeked up at you beneath thick lashes, golden eyes smouldering like the hot embers of a forge as he continued to warm your pretty clit in the hot, wet cavern of his mouth. He coaxed your hips back down to the mattress, his thumbs brushing against the alluring v-line of your sumptuous body and making every hair on the nape of your neck stand to attention. Your head fell back into the comfortable confines of your pillow, heart pulsing so loud in your ears that you almost didn’t hear your own laboured breaths. You stared down at Jing Yuan in a daze, head dizzy and full of cotton as your groggy mind tried to comprehend what was happening. 

You would be lying if you said you weren’t pleasantly surprised with what you had woken up to. 

You carded your shaking hands through his thick hair, wisps of his silver mane curling around the tips of your fingers as you rubbed your fingers against his scalp. Jing Yuan purred in response to your gentle caress, throat bobbing as he swallowed the budding saliva on his tongue and let your taste linger to the back of his throat. You briefly wondered how long Jing Yuan had been at this, warming your exposed clit with his mouth and doing nothing else. You figured it must have been a long time, chest sticky with his cooling saliva and the wet seam of your cunt throbbing desperately for attention as the hot knot in your stomach winched tighter. Beads of your arousal dribbled down your quaking thighs as long locks of Jing Yuan’s hair pooled around your soft stomach, setting every single nerve in your body on edge and turning the tips of your fingers numb.

Your body twisted in the sweat soaked sheets beneath you, toes curling into the soles of your feet as your pussy pulsed, drooling and clenching around nothing as you were slowly coaxed towards a blissful release. The thing that was making your head spin so much was how Jing Yuan wasn’t even doing anything special with his mouth, just simply allowing your clit to rest against the slick muscle of his tongue and be soaked in the sticky strings of his saliva. You struggled to keep your eyes focused and prevent them from rolling into the back of your head. You swallowed around the lump in your throat, tongue feeling like lead in your mouth as you slurred your words like a drunken fool. 

"Jing Yuan" you moaned, almost choking on a hiccup of pleasure. "So close. Gonna cum…"

The corners of Jing Yuan’s lips twitched in a smile as you raked your nails along the back of his scalp, trying to spur him into action. His movements were slow like molasses, his breath hot against the silky lips of your pussy as he slowly opened his mouth. You peered down at him with eyes just as dazed as your mind, crystalline tears threatening to spill from your eyes as he rolled the bud of your clit along his tongue, letting the tightly packed bundle of nerves melt on his tongue before he swallowed the twitching bud back into his mouth with an audible gulp. You threw your head back as stars wavered in your vision, the gentle suction of his lips against your clit enough to make you keen and drive your body over the edge. 

You whined his name as the hot coil in your stomach shattered into tiny pieces, veins flooded with white hot euphoria as your slick juices spilled from your core. You mewled with bliss as Jing Yuan lazily made out with your pussy, your ears burning red hot at the sound of his wet lips smacking together and a pleased moan rumbling in his chest. Your thighs twitched around his head, legs squished against his cheeks as he scooped up a mixture of your essence and his saliva before swallowing thickly. Your hips chased the warm feeling of his mouth as he dragged his tongue through your creamy folds, hair spilling around your fingers as you tugged on the baby hairs lining the nape of his neck. He let go of your slippery clit with an audible pop, the tip of his tongue continuing to tease the overstimulated nerves as he languidly flicked it with his tongue. 

"Good morning" Jing Yuan finally greeted; voice thick as sleep still clung to the edges of his tone. 

A warm hum bubbled up your throat as you petted his hair, eyes lidded and a warm smile tugging at your lips. 

"Very good indeed" you replied. 

A chuckle breezed past Jing Yuan’s lips as he placed a sloppy kiss over your messy pussy, enjoying the way you squirmed in his hold when his tongue gently lapped at your soused folds. 

"I just have one question" you mumbled under your breath, body still twitching in the aftermath of your pleasure. 

Jing Yuan hummed in response, signalling you had his attention even though he couldn’t tear his hungry gaze from the way your succulent pussy drooled around his tongue.

"Why?" you simply asked.

Jing Yuan pondered the thought for a moment, fingers drumming along your plump thighs and rubbing soothing circles into your body to calm the erratic beat of your heart.

"Your clit looked pretty, glistening like morning dew. I wanted it in my mouth."

You snorted softly, unable to contain your bouts of giggles as you fondly shook your head. You noted that Jing Yuan still had yet to release his grip on you, greedy hands kneading at your soft skin like a needy cat as he kept you pressed to the mattress with the majority of his bulk. His lips hovered over your leaking cunt, pressing so tantalisingly close as pleasure sparked in the depths of your belly once more. He shot you a lazy grin as he rubbed his cheek fondly against the inside of your sticky thighs, tongue swiping over his kiss-swollen lips in anticipation. 

"I think I may need to indulge you again."

#my writing #hsr #hsr x reader #honkai star rail #honkai star rail x reader #hsr jing yuan #hsr jing yuan x reader #jing yuan x reader #hsr smut #honkai star rail smut #x reader #fem!reader

[throwing-starss]

Idk man i feel like we moved on too fast from this

Who needs wedding rings when you got matching weapons

#god they’re so married #i want whatever tf they got going on #this still rots my brain every now and then #haikaveh #kavhaitham #Alhaitham #kaveh #genshin impact #alhaitham x kaveh #kaveh x alhaitham

[watchingwisteria]

im so sorry i get it now i really do, the gay angels have me shaking screaming crying at all hours of the day and night, they mean everything to me i am literally thinking about them all the time and what it would mean to love someone steadily and silently through eternity, what it would mean to love across the lines of a divine war of supposed good and evil, what it would mean to carve out a space for oneself and ones lover in no man’s land, in the grey and moral ambiguity when you were created to be black and white without blemish. god i love them so much i just

#update from the tags : posted this after watching s1 knowing the end of s2 #and i was like hm hope im not too offbase #but imagine my surprise when they literally said ‘i love this space we carved for ourselves’ #I WAS SICK #ineffable husbands #<< u dont get it. i used to see that and it meant nothing to me. now its like a knife inside me #good omens #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #ur girl watches good omens #experiencing full brain rot. like every song is about them somehow #im imaginging edits in my head bc i do nawt have time to make them for real #i just bought the book and i am about to devour it #lol another update #the drama in this post is so HDISJSISB but i was FEELING IT #i was GOING THROUGH IT… #and when i think abt them for too long i still am

[mightybeaujester]

Comparing Mechs fans spotify wrapped with others shows us scientifically that we're something else

A friend of mine is in the top 0.05% of Sleeping At Last (almost 8mio monthly listeners) with 7.4k minutes

I'm just in the top 0.5% of the Mechanisms (36k monthly listeners) with 9.3k minutes

This means that you needed less minutes to be a way higher listener of an artist with 205 times as many listeners.

So there aren't many of us, but I can almost guarantee that not a single one of us is even remotely normal.

#The mechanisms #This is extra funny to me considering that sleeping at last used to be MY top artist #I was in his top 1 % every year until now #And like #The reason for that is that he has the atlas saga which while not as musical y as the mechanisms tell a more or less cohesive narrative #That is way longer than the mechs albums #So it's also a musician that i can listen to from start to finish for days on end #It's almost A trade mark of mine to include a sleeping at last song in all my Playlists #But the mechanisms is just a different kind of brain rot #I will stop with Spotify wrapped posts about the mechanisms soon I promise #It's just so fascinating for me #I wonder if the mechs still get a Spotify wrapped for artists bc I would loooove to see it #Considering sending Kofi an ask tbh

[misspoetree]

KinnPorsche + Text Posts: Pete Edition - Part I

[Character Editions: Pete Part 0.5 (Pre-Vegas) & II | Vegas Part I & II & III | Tay | Tankhun Part I & II | Porsche Part I & II | Big | Kinn Part I & II | Kim | Porchay | Chan | Macau | Pol]

[Episode Editions]

[Themed Editions 1| 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | ?]

#I made a Pete Edition after episode 9 #and I made a ton of Pete text post memes for my episode editions #AND YET I STILL GOT MORE 😂💀😂 #so please enjoy another Pete edition #with a few leftovers from episode 11 (my favourite episode I made so MANY Pete text post memes for 🤣) #and a few fresh ones from the later episodes #I think about this man every single day ngl #also: TWO text meme posts on the same weekend? #Is it obvious that I miss the show a lot ? 😂😭😂 #(and I feel like I can only think in text posts by now send help 🤣💀💀) #kinnporsche #kinnporche the series #thai bl #kinnporsche meme #kinnporsche + text post #pete phongsakorn #vegaspete #kinnporsche ep11 & ep12 & ep13 & ep14 #because the kinnporsche brain rot is still real #text post meme #1000 notes

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #hmfcu #riley savage #graydon weaver #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #furry #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[thyandrawrites]

As we wait for the reveal to drop, I am begging someone with access to a photo manipulation program/app to turn this dramatic ass picture of dabi

Into the waiting narcos meme

You can use that frame of him sitting in the lovechair from Twice's dialogue with Hawks for extra brownie points

#Dabi #Ok full disclosure I have been laughing at that still frame for two weeks now #Because it's so blatantly meme material I couldn't take it as anything else from the start #Or maybe memes just rotted my brain. Idk #But I would be a fake dabi stan if I didn't tease him for his dramatics every time he acted this extra #Thyandra.txt

[lisxdumbr]

The whole "if a person is mad at you it's their responsibility to tell you" thing just made me realize how fucked my situation is. Like just. woah

#who wants to hesr the story of how I lost my irl friends recently (you will I'm spitting everything right now) #anyway so last year one day one of my friends decided to randomly backstab me and she started talking behind my back #and yeah this all made me mad because?? what the fuck #she started talking and revealing stuff that i had confide to her to other people and they slowly started drifting from me #BUt the thing here is that she was manipulating the story. she changed it every time she told stuff to people to make me look bad #i heard one of the things she said about me once and i was like ?? she even make me dislike me in her version which like woa #anyway I didn't understand why she did that because it was ? so random? and then she started ignoring me and has not talked to me ever since #the thing is. she apparently didn't have enough with just doing that. she slowly started to rot my other friends' brains too? #in the sense that. suddenly the rest of my group was ignoring me too. they never said anything to me. or stated that they had a problem #they just ignored me in my face? and yeah that. hurt #recently i found thanks to a third party that one of them decided to stop talking to me because apparently i had hurt her uncountable times #and she was just soo sick and tired of me doing that. which. honestly made me mad because she did not ever express that to me?? so #what was i supposed to do. if she never said anything. #anyway one of my friends confronted her about the treatment they were giving to me. the whole exclusion thing. and her answer was- #”well it's not my fault that she doesn't have more friends and doesn't talk to people” #and i was like. woah. what a poor reply. is that really it.. also apparently they all had agree to stop talking to me as a group- #-and they never informed me so. thank you? #and I'm still here asking what i did to that ex friend of mine. later on i found out she had hooked up with the guy i used to like btw #and she kept it secret. oh and then i started dating my current partner ! person she also felt attracted to. and that's my only explanation. #she started gossiping after what happened with the first guy. so that's really everything that comes to mind as a reason #ANYWAY now that i was at the hospital i didn't receive a single text from any of them. so i guess that was it. people who don't care- #-like that are not friends. those people are not my friends. people who ignore me on purpose and gossip like that are not. my friends #so yeah that's why I've been feeling down lately but ! here I am i ended up ranting so. much #rant #vent #? #woah i actually feel so much better after spitting it all #I'm also following that sour grape advice btw I'm not giving them the privilege of cutting me out. I'M the one who dislikes them now

[wabblebees]

just finished the new fantasy high episode and havent seen anyone talk abt this so i wanted to say i am 100. one HUNDRED PERCENT sure. that fuckin fourdogs was at that party invisibly (the One And Only buttfucker to NOT make an obvious appearance?? rules-follower or no, i dont believe that for a SECOND) and that she stole the piece of the cloud runner that went missing, and that the moment of her swipe was the "something" riz missed on his check -- i also really *hope* it wasn't oisin that made those damn ice mephits (or "muffets" as my beloved drunk adaine christened them lmao) act up like that, but immmmm pretty sure thats exactly what was goin on since it wouldve given his party member advantage/an easier access point :/

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #listen i was oisin to be good & real & nice SO BAD. HOT RIPPED TATTED DRAGONBORN WIZARD ??? PLEASE #but. im also a suspicious-ass bitch lmao #also wait ik they spelled his name without the accent on his character art #but doesnt the name oisin have an accent over one of the i's?? idk jack abt shit so i could be wrong ofc #in any case. i like the concepts behhind the ratfuckers as a party (*except buddy. seeing him made me feel fucking ILL lmao.) but #i neeeeeeed them to get fucking TROUNCED by the bad kids. i NEED it. theyd be so much more tolerable if they got briefly asswhooped #like i think after that they could TOTALLY be friends and work together. before that?? FUCK no lmfao #anyway. i love-hate fishykitty whatserbucket and i need to see her lose #i cant wait for the ratgrinders to meet the unstoppable force that is the bad kids bigass hearts #deciding to team up with local shitheads & therefore turning them into op allies by sheer force of will and love #its happened to ragh its happened to aelwyn it kiiinda happened with kalina (jury's still out but my fingers are crossed!!) #spring break i believe in them!!! #bee speaks #its happening yall. i try to keep my incomprehensible blorboposting to a dull roar but now that im fully caught up on d20 i fear i may start #going full pepe silvia trying to figure this out #i cant binge it all in one go and have it rot thru my brain like slow-eating acid to leak thru in a contained matter #waiting for a new episode every week means i have time to THINK

[katyspersonal]

#personal #internets #at this rate I've unfollowed both of the kinda.. 'controvercial' blogs I've been following #since there was a good chunk of actually good takes about how bad media is now and society and braindead internet 'activists' that- #-had it too good in their western countries and NEEDED to invent the reason to bully and excile people #could honestly resonate with it despite some other posts causing genuine pain. but mostly about terribly handled media #like you know that thing when corporations do terrible ass rep to pretend that they care for minorities #or artificially fabricate online backlash against their new actors to show investors that people show interest for their product because- #-of all the clicks on their article? #like discussion of this kind sorta keeps me sober #as a person with BPD I get contaminated by opinions VERY easily and as an autist I will believe everything if it is put together 'logically #that's why I HAVE to be exposed to every possible opinion so I am forced to make out my own rather than being swayed anywhere #but at this point those blog became kinda.. bad? like they don't just have 'opinions' but they hate just to hate #but now my dashboard and recs are full of exclusively things I can fully agree with and I am scared that it will rot my brain #like.. emotions are always the same. where is the 'wait WHAT' effect? where is anger? where is self-reflection? #but ALSO I realized that 'those' blogs are no better than those western 'warriors' I despise and they become narrow-minded too in the end #they advertise themselves as 'open to debate' only to always sway debate into trying to win and not into actually discovering the truth #I cannot trust any side because they're all narrow-minded and hostile but I cannot trust people without any side because- #-they're fence-sitters without morals that side with the winner #is there a secret third thing? like is there a way to not take a side but to still HAVE ideals and opinions? #my problem is that if I am not exposed to people that trash everything I value I forget why AM I valuing [a thing] to BEGIN with #and that won't do will it

[georgieluz]

guess who decided to ignore all their current wips and start writing an f1 au for the hbowar boys instead

#you can guarantee that if i'm in a fandom i've written an f1 au for them whether i've uploaded it or it's still in my drafts #it will be there #band of brothers #the pacific #yes i'm giving you red bull liebgott mercedes webster #bc webgott brain rot dictated so #they're gonna hate each other so much #but they're also gonna make out in the mclaren garage too #i'm so close to putting web in a williams tho #just for some spicy IF I HAD A CAR THAT WORKED I'D FUCKING DESTROY YOU AND YOU KNOW IT #bc liebgott would 100% be that smug ass red bull driver bragging that he lapped the williams driver twice #and it would frustrate the hell out of web bc he knows it's an unfair comparison #bc his car is fucking held together by nothing but british stubbornness and sheer refusal to leave the grid #but its shit #it's utter shit #and so he'd be inches away from punching that smug look off lieb's face every race weekend #OH WAIT #i know what i'm gonna do now #I KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN #just working out plot points in the tags of a one sentence text post #wip #julian writes

[milo-is-rambling]

I wish I had friends near meeeeeee to distract me from my brainnnnnnnnnn

#need to talk to anyone irl who isn’t related to me or dating my mom or my therapist #anyone else near me please I’m losing my mind #nature isn’t healing me sleeping in a fully dark room all day isn’t healing me how do I magically fix this without having to put any work #into it oh I can’t oh u have to do the work okay how do I do that. therapy once a week. oh. okay. yup. #can I speedrun it? oh no? I can’t. oh damn. okay fine whatever. therapy once a week. AND I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LISTEN AND DO WHAT SHE SAYS. bro #what the hell okay fine #well here I am !!!!! where is the fixing where is the feeling better I feel like all I do is stir up all these touch emotions from every #part of my life at once and then she sends me off to rot for week before I come back and talk again #I just feel like I’m losing it!!!!! and ik it’s extra bad bc birthday countdown is on in my brain and im stressed and i feel like a huge #fuck up that can never be fixed and like I will die having done nothing with my life except weigh other people down and so exhausting and my #brain won’t ever shut up like yes I get it years and years and years of built up shit that I never properly dealt with and still hold blame #for constantly and I feel like I will never be fixed like I CANT be fixed like this is a losing battle and I just am struggling today man #idk what I was saying I just took my morning weed hit to try and relax my back a little and now my brain is like scrambled eggs #which is good that means it’s working #I’m gonna try to take a nap maybe cause I only slept four hours and it was like choppy thru the night and then maybe I’ll go to the lake #later I’ve been feeling the need to be in a body of water recently

[tenspontaneite]

I have to say, I am Massively enjoying not being active / writing in tdp fandom while all the s5 leadup is going on. I've been following the short stories and watching the clips and I'm....not massively stressed about it?? I'm not having a crisis or panicking every time because every detail makes me need to re-evaluate my massively complicated ongoing project? Instead I'm just like. Oh that's cool, I enjoy this, this was not an ordeal.

Ngl I'm going to actively try to stay out of writing for tdp while it's updating this time at least, because it's letting me actually enjoy the show again. Sorry tdp readers, but I'm liking this unstressful experience too much 👌

#life of sponty #like I'm steadily realising that writing in fandoms that are actively ongoing is like. bad for me #because i extremely do not cope well with not having canon stability to work from #every new canon detail is hugely stressful because i never know when something is going to pull the rug out from my projects #and i get so so so invested in my projects that this fucks with me a lot #so yeah im glad the rain world brain rot got me now of all times #really well timed hyperfocus #gonna see if i can keep it going #and in the likely event it runs out before s5 drops i will try to still be writing for it maybe #so that i can enjoy s5 properly as a show i like #rather than a massive source of stress #sorry my many tdp readers but we're going on hiatus a while i think

[mister13eyond]

also please forgive my unhinged rambling attempts to explain how i can feel exactly as positive about something as i did previously but it no longer occupies the Hyperfixation Zone, i know it's probably incomprehensible and i always feel like i'm Letting People Down when the hyperfixation ebbs into normal enjoyment

especially since i Still Love a lot of the things I was hyperfixated on, I just don't have that same Creative Itch about them? like 'wow this piece of media will stay with me forever and shaped me as a person. but the imaginary switch in my brain that fueled the unhinged creative machine about it has now clicked off through no decision of my own and i can no longer Make Stuff about it.'

#i mean thats how hyperfixation Works i know #but i always feel a little ashamed #that being said i still Love and Adore those pieces of media and hold them close to me #diavolo and doppio are just going to rest in the same place that hannibal and will or sans and gaster and alphys or bb and mello are restin #where my blorbos go to retire and vacation #but i will also habitually reblog media about and feel a small spark of joy about every piece of hannibal or undertale or death note fanwor #that i ever see for the rest of eternity #so you know #but i always feel like i have to Apologize #like 'sorry the thing you followed me for is no longer actively rotting my brain' #'now i just like it like a normal person'

[oatbugs]

thinking abt that psychology lecture where they taught us how thinking about good memories makes your life obiectively better over time

#personal #i think i subconsciously equated memory and nostalgia. and i dislike the feeling of nostalgia so i avoided so many memories #i asked the masters student if every love song he listens to is about philosophy and he said everything is #everything is about the thing you love if you love it enough. i saw a star through the london light pollution (caught in an eternal nightly #daylight) . i was with a friend and another friend who had just gotten an unexpected diagnosis #we told her congratulations you're autistic and that means you may now explore a revolutionary depth #inside yourself. and it was all still about philosophy. (you sent us back a letter in said in capital letters #THE UNIVERSE IS GOING TO CATCH YOU.) one day i grabbed my friends arm and we jumped over a rusted metal fence #the soap-beaten bleach-eaten clothes i was wearing at the time still smell like rust and metal #for a brief moment i sympathise with the rusted case of a computer i saw when i was 5. i wondered if it had died #violently. i am spending my life protecting their ability to learn. and each time i ask a neural network what led to its choice of #planetary object it gives me the same blank stare of a young child which is in truth a black box to drown in. #when i was too young and i used to think of death too often i imagined my body was a machine. i imagined #liquid gold around my joints. i could never hurt a machine. i could never hurt a body that was a machine. #my neuroscience professor paused after a long lecture and told us #your body is not a computer，it is a flawed and gooey and imprecise mechanism. your nervous sytem is an intricate machine. #is every song about philosophy? is every song about the way machines learn? on the weekend i ignore the parts of him that have #rotted and pull the passion right out of his nerves. he told me he needs a way to kickstart critical periods so that he may learn well agai #and i told him taking every drug on the planet wont make a clever brain cleverer. he confessed he didnt plan #on making it far enough for it to matter. i checked his pulse and i told him that his body is a liquid imprecise delicate machine. #sometimes you become terrible but you are not an exception to being a winged thing. if you hold me you will smell like metal for the rest #of your life.

[stinkrascal]

my boyfriend is getting his desktop THIS WEEK !!!! which means that i can steal his laptop and play the sims FINALLY way sooner than i thought im so happy i really thought i was gonna have to wait two whole weeks to play the sims 🎉🎉

#thank GOD my brain is literally rotting with ts4 content #i made poses for a cute vlad/brie post a week ago and i only got to take two of the screenshots before ts4 stopped working on my pc D: #its gonna be so cute im so happy i miss them so much #its like a day in the life post. but theyre just being lazy the whole day #king and queen of not working and lounging about and being literally attached at the hip all day every day #they are the most annoying couple i love them. theyre literally like teenagers except theyre 45 and 300 yrs old #and im still writing the vlad/brie backstory reprisal!! theres so many cute characters i wanna show off #its almost a hundred pages :D :D :D #theres like a whole vampire's council that i created + councils for other supernatural creatures living in my head #that i want to create NOW!!!!!!! but i CANT!!!!!!! bc my pc said STOP PLAYING TS4 JAIDEN!!!!!!! #also i just woke up from the weirdest nap ever. i had a dream about smoker one piece and EA VLAD.... #in my dream ea vlad was like really old he was probably in his 50s which i know that's more accurate than my early-30s vlad but stfu #he had a really cool top hat and he was very suave and he asked me to dance with him #i kept stepping on his feet but he was like 'Ah that's no trouble darling you're quite clumsy!' and i died in real life #he talked kinda like the guy who voices scar in the lion king but with less of that lion affliction that the voice actor does in scar's role #which totally isn't how my interpretation of vlad sounds at all. my interpretation of vlad has a russian accent and hes more soft spoken #but it fit the vlad in my dream he sounded like an old geezer lol i really am out here having dreams about EA SIMS #not even my own sims? just EA SIMS......... and smoker one piece of course. but that seems a bit more reasonable to me #anyways im replaying the spyro reignited series again so seeya <3