#too much effort and also don't care

[bookwyrminspiration]

every time I think about my gender I get confused so I simply stopped thinking about it. it is not my problem

#gender #gender stuff #genderqueer #voidpunk #sometimes I start to question things and then decide no #too much effort and also don't care #who knows what the fuck's going on it's not my problem

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely- #-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't- #-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me. #my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're- #-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think-- #is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/ #but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/ #listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts) #but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance- #-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course! #but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people. #tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso. #ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

[oseike]

Do you think Choi Jung Soo and Lee Soo Hyuk wanted to drag Kim Rok Soo into farming because they recognized he suffered from trauma as much as they did, but with KRS's personality, was more likely to internalize and never ask for help about it? That they feared if he was left alone after finishing their job that KRS would sink into depression real fast and not have any means of getting out?

Farming or even just gardening, an act that moves the body and results in sustenance or beauty, can be rather therapeutic. Aside from being a family business, I can see CJS and LSH wanting to do it for their own therapy reasons, and then going "Hey KRS needs this too, let's make sure we drag him in. We can keep an eye on him."

#tcf #i think those two understood krs very well #probably why LSH reiterated the promise that KRS farm after everything was over when he also handed over the Embrace ability #there's just something about their dynamic that gets me #KRS is always looking out for his people #and they all look out for him too but most of them don't actually know truly what he has been through #so they can't speak to his needs or help him in this way #only choi han knows but i don't think he knows how to address it as intimately as CJS or LSH do #CJS and LSH feel more like big brothers caring for their younger brother who is hard to read and never asks for help #the effort they put into him...... #just how much of their work for GoD and beyond revolved around helping him i wonder #tcf spoilers

[worstloki]

saw someone on twitter say "one of the main characters in a loki show should have been thor odinson, not some random Sylvie or Mobius.

...... It's like a written law"

wdyt do you agree

I don't think it was necessary to make Thor a main character in a Loki show, the same way it WOULD be possible to throw together a Thor movie without having Loki be a main focus.

The issue comes in the quality of the narrative itself, and writing that if evidently without intention to care for (whichever) main character's importance will not work out. Neither the Loki series nor Thor 4 cared about the arc, motivations, history, or continuity of the titular characters beyond trying to make the media marketable.

Overall messaging can add a layer to the impact a story will have. Musical score can be a bonus way to control tone or tie a story together. Supporting cast can be vital to tell a good story. Prioritising their presence over anyone's (especially Loki's) characterisation is what the Loki series suffered from, not that other, original-adjacent characters were there.

#i'd say it was tell not show but frankly the plotline was so poorly done i don't think showing would have helped #it would have solidified the side characters better though #if they had put effort into characterising Loki right then poorly done side characters could've been a non-issue #messing up the main characters which are supposed to be part of a continuity is the number 1 issue #not managing the screen-time well was the number 2 issue #too much time wasted setting up characters that were going to monologue about their importance anyway?? #too much time spent trying to establish the TVA as something important and controlling but somehow good #so much could have been cut out of the show and still gotten all that across #the relationships people built did so in like 2 days in-universe iirc so i wouldn't call them solid #season 1 was a useless introductory setup for the multiverse that didn't have any impact because there were like 4 other setups #scrap the characterisation and call it a reboot and it still threw Loki out as a weak and completely conventional protagonist #that's not engaging when every other character is also boring overall #even if their concepts weren't boring the way it was done was #The Loki Show #i can't be bothered thinking about the show because there's just so much #where would one start #i don't care enough about it to hate the show but i did find the fight choreography lacking too #the camera angles and general videography wasn't good #i have the same complaints about the choreography with every other disney+ show they put out #not even bothered with the MCU frankly #i'm happy to pretend the movies stopped after phase 2

[goldkirk]

Patreon question

I'm focusing hard on budgeting, and one of the things I want to do more of in the coming year is support independent creators/small groups on Patreon and Substack, even if I can only do a little bit at a time. I have a few creators I already support on Patreon, and two on Substack, but I'd love to support more.

I know you've got creators that you love to support on these platforms! Tell me who you support and why you started supporting them if you have creators that are especially unique or near and dear to you. Anything and everything, across the board, I love supporting small business and I love finding new people and niches I never heard about before. There're no wrong answers here!

#I support a few freelance artists and writers and a couple of content creators like Crash Course and Jo Beckwith #I want to hear anything and anyone you've cared enough about to donate to/support! #ALSO FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. IF WE ARE MUTUALS OR FRIENDS AND YOU HAVE A KO FI OR A PATREON LET ME KNOW #THAT IS NOT A REQUEST THAT IS AN ORDER (unless you really truly don't want to. but if you just feel like it's too prideful or not a #'big enough' thing/deal or you don't want to 'bother me'. DO IT. I WANT TO HAVE YOU ON MY LIST TO SUPPORT IF I CAN #I often rotate small amounts of money to different creators every few months in a cycle so I can spread it around still even though #I can't help much. it feels so good to do and makes me feel like I do when I shop a true small or local business. direct action babyyy etc #especially if the creator is going through a health crisis like Physics Girl #2024 #to do #reply here or send me a dm or drop an ask in my inbox or make a post and tag me #whatever #i want to hear why you love what you love #i want to hear what you care about so much you already do or want to in the future financially support it #the world is full of so much amazing work and inspiring creativity and massive efforts #i love learning about them so i get to acknowledge and witness and support them too #i love GitHub for the same reason lol

[maeflower]

my mcs + social media / alma wiseman (ft. @griffin-wood's button maia!)

x, playlist

so alma's info dump (bc i got lots of brain rot while working on this hdjhj):

loves puppies, rom com and everything sweet. hobbies include volunteering at local animal shelter & playing games (which she streams at twitch), esp animal crossing

usually very, very shy, easily intimidated and socially awkward. but turns 180 degree when talking about or handling tech stuffs, she becomes very serious and terrifyingly competent

her insta handle matches with sally! hers is .zip bc she's a hacker & sally is .jpg bc she's an artist

doesn't like having her pictures taken but loves taking pics of her beloved ones (& things). that's why her insta handle is .zip bc she posts compilation of all her favourite things

definitely has borrowed annie or cass several times to do a puppy photoshoot session. has been granted the puppies coparent title by kent

best friend w @/griffin-wood's maia! idk the kind of multiverse power needed to make 2 buttons existing in the same timeline sdjhk but they're def going to underground music venues together or having double dates w glitch & kent every weekend

she loooves leverage, it's her fave tv series growing up. she learned hacking bc she wanted to be like hardison and her moral alignment chaotic good mostly came from watching the show. fave character is def parker

the muppet highlight story is for nick and her friends bc.. she loves muppets! she still sleeps with her old kermit the frog plushie until now

likes things the old fashioned way: flowers before date, being serenaded, love letters. keeps every poetry glitch's ever written for her in a box under her bed

#mind blind #mind blind edit #mb : alma #mb : alma x glitch #glitch parker #i think glitch needs more love #this is the fastest i've ever finished an edit sdjhj #and i had so much fun with it! #all the things she posts in her insta are highly personal stuffs + she doesn't care how it looks like #so i don't need to make it ✨aest✨ #also alyaaa sorry i keep promising to write alma maia fic but unable to finish it so consider this as substitute...? #i miss mind blind it's been on my mind since the last update :( wanna make edits for all my buttons but it'd take too much effort haha #timeline is around one year after button's enrollment in aeon #*my edits

[cleargreyskies]

Nothing like the end of a year to really drive home your feelings of loneliness.

(some venting in the tags, it's that time of the year again. also to the two people from offline life potentially reading this: this is obviously not about you and I care about you deeply)

#delete later #i might leave this city next year and i do not have any friends elsewhere and even the ones here are not enough. it scares me. #justo nce i would like to spend new year's eve with a group of friends who care about each other and me #i love my girlfriend and i am so happy to spend time with her and looking forward to shared celebrations and all. i just need some other #additional connections somewhere and at this time of the year the loneliness that is pretty much part of my personality now always gets the #better of me. #i felt fine and mostly content with my social life in summer. #but the uncertain future and the already existing lack of deeper connections in a quantity and also qulaity that would be good for me is #draining. #i am also behind on work and stressed and my mother has a broken leg and can't move much so christmas will be bleaker than usual already. #actually everything combined might just be something to talk to the university's mental health counseling again. you don't always have to b #at breaking point to ask for some guidance. #/end of oversharing #ergh rereading this makes me want to delete it right away but this is still my diary so #i also have to add that i am making some efforts. i go to a martial arts class. i play d&d with some people (admittedly my flatmate and my #gf + 3 others). i go swimming with my gf + 2 people. i am active in a nature conservation group at my university. just - everyone there #always seems to have enough close connections already AND i am scared to get too close to people i might have to leave behind. #typing this out has actually helped me get some ideas on what to do. so i am cringing less about having put this out there. #still feeling bad but willing to make an effort #personal log

[booksflowersmoonwings]

you ever get sick and tired of thinking about how sick and tired you are of being sick and tired?

anyone have cute art of asra (the arcana), shino (naruto), or john doe (uncanny valley game) they feel like sharing?

or gush about something cool they just finished creating?

I dunno could use some. goodness.

#chronic illness sucks #chronic pain sucks #chronic fatigue SUCKS #how am I supposed to take care of my spouse and my home and my critters if all i ever want to do is sleep? #how am i supposed to actually put in the requisite effort to my mfa #and writing in general? #how am i supposed to work out and get stronger or eat well #or work on other projects I've committed to? #head hurts every day #ibs acts up most days #never feel rested no matter how much i sleep #back pain joints muscles bones etc #and I've been so depressed and listless for so long #my partner works as a nurse full time and is also getting her masters degree because she is a badass #she has reason to be exhausted #technically i do too but it doesn't feel like it because i barely have done anything today and everything i have done came with struggle #but I'm still exhausted #perpetually #for as long as i can remember #and i don't know how to fix it #and I'm tired #and it's not fair #by which i mean #it's not fair to everyone else who works at hard as they do #that i DON'T anymore and still feel like shit and am allowed to not work a regular job anymore #it's not fair #I'm so tired

[woolydemon]

I am cursed with the burden of liking so many things but not having energy to make art for all the things I like 😭

#i want to make legos art i want to make art for niche video games i want to draw all the cartoons that inspire me #but i cant 😔 #i have a hard time making art i think is post worthy quality on a consistent basis </3 #legit don't know how ppl can post so much girl i would Die #also im p occupied with school rn so i rlly shouldnt be spending time on non mandatory projects #and making art of stuff thats more niche or not what i have an audience for?? idk theres the risk of it flopping #while i know stuff like that doesnt diminish the value of my work it still stings man. esp when its hard for me to make stuff anyway #its like. why go through the effort if i know ppl wont care yknow #though i have gotten better at just not giving a shit anymore i still will make posts/rb abt stuff that everybody just ignores #but i dont care bc i need to have weird music and videos and images on my blog. I'll die without them. its my lifeblood #hopefully i can channel that energy more into posting abt leas popular things. maybe even original stuff- #lol sike there's basically nothing in the world that will make me confident in posting my ocs lmaooo #sorry i just dont think too highly on my abilities to develop my original content #so i just keep them all to myself to avoid the possibility of showing them to other ppl and they just straight up hate it ajdgfkfjhf #rando thoughtz

[angryducktimemachine]

When will my mother learn to use he/him pronouns for me like... Ma'am, it's been almost a year. The "I just have to get used to it" excuse is slowly getting old.

#quite frankly I've gotten tired of correcting her too #i just stopped caring like quite frankly that's her problem not mine at this point #sure i love her and I'm glad she reacted alright to it all and she gets the name right but still the effort on the pronouns side... #1 star out of 5 on that side #also god it's so 'funny' how even when right pronouns are used you can tell when people still see you as a woman nontheless #and it's alright like it's people like coworkers and a friend I'm not really close with so i don't really care #my coworkers are already doing their very best #I've got other problems besides that #and well with my friend i don't really see him much anymore so yknow #i'm sitting there like.. yeah. please continue telling me how you're the one 'real' man in this room #maybe this is petty but i think i deserve to be a little petty

[hgduo]

Um yeah, enjoy some little people I guess if you want- also please click the pictures to enjoy them better <3 [full under the cut]

#dream smp #dsmp fanart #doodles #my doodles #context: a long time ago I made these little mouse doodles of the dsmp cast #I found it again recently and decided to add the rest of the people that have been added since then #and update some older designs #this was mostly suppose to be silly and low-effort but I ended up spending way too much time on this LOL #on the original some of the characters even have like alternate 'costumes' representing their other skins #I actually posted an earlier version of this awhile back which was just the og L'manburgians in their uniforms I think #I'm not gonna tag everyone btw lol #also I might rb this again in the morning idk- I kinda like how this turned out #for a silly mouse drawing #I drew most of the characters from memory but #later I started using references- I'm sure you can tell which ones I drew later based on that lol #I wanna still edit or redo some of them but at some point I had to stop myself- this is suppose to be just for fun #not something to stress out over lol #I don't even care that's late rn I'm posting this LOL! #Edit: I definitely DID NOT forget Connor- YEP-! #(I can't believe I forgot him- he is here now tho so hopefully that makes up for that blunder) #(also yes I hear you asking 'what about vik and lazar?') #(they're dying off camera theres your answer) #(edit edit: .... H is here too now.... im so sorry for forgetting to add him too 😔!)

[rancidarling]

haha why on earth is the most effective method to stop self destructive behavior just: make it inconvenient and be apathetic about everything

#like why have I (mostly) stopped cutting? #I do not care and taking care of it is more effort than I can be bothered to deal with ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #why did I stop starving myself? #my scale ran out of batteries and I could not be bothered to replace them #also I just Do Not Care anymore #why did I stop trying to get drunk in the middle of the night? #bc alcohol is gross af and I don't care enough about the effect to deal with it #why did I stop arguing with everyone and everything? #because it's too much energy I don't care anymore #why did I stop trying to trigger myself? #looking things up = effort. I don't care #why'd I stop considering suicide? #killing yourself is too much effort to plan and do #... my view on none of these things really changed #I don't think they're bad or anything #I just can't be bothered to do any of them #and that's more effective than just trying to reinforce that these are Bad Behaviors #ofc I have heard that extreme apathy is a depression symptom so take that as you will ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #ah but whatever #r.r #sh #sui #ed

[fitzfunnymoments]

As you can probably tell I'm having way too much fun with this plush lol

#aladdin iago #aladdín #my video #listen i don't care if this meme is dead I still think it's funny #also I put way too much effort into this to just not post it #now i'm (hopefully) going to bed ajdkakssajdkakssks

[astrxealis]

TAKE CAREEE OF URSELF AND RESTTT, try calming urself down by doing things that u know can help bring u peace D: I'm not sure what ur overthinking about but if u ever get the chance to, try clearing it up to "understand" what's actually going on either by asking or talking about it with/to someone!!

wahhhhh tysm sam sam TvT <3 💖 i'll try my best to take care of myself (n i will go to sleep soon hehe), i'll try to fo that ^^ >< ✨ thank you TuT <333

#— sam! ♡ #⋯ ꒰ა my galaxy ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა letters of stardust ໒꒱ *·˚ #headpats to u :C 💖 #hmmmhmmhhm i'm not too sure how to explain it but once again i am thinkin about like >.> #URGGFHDUEHSKAK MIGHR JUST VENT IN THE TAGS SORRY TvT feel free to just move on if u like hehe either way tysm for this ask TvT 💞 #so like hmmmmhmhmhm it says quite a lot abt me that the kind of ppl i appreciate most in a sense r those who pit in the effort to not make #me feel left out ? bcs my 1st crush. who made me realise i too Like Girls. i liked her esp bcs of the fact she was rlly Nice to me even tho #i was especiallt shy that year ?? that yr was when i got more withdrawn and all TvT but she made an effort to include me in stuff so BOOM ! #idk but i just rlly appreciated that super much also bcs !! that's what i try to do for others !!! but then ofc w that it's a bit inevitabl #that i get disheartened when it doesnt get reciprocated (i still do it anyway tho) or if. it seems like they just brush it off or dont care #WAIT OFF TOPIC EIWHDIWJ thats not what i meant to talk abt but yeah that too >.> #hmmmhmhm so the thing is that feeling left out or seemingly 'forgotten' is a huge thing for me esp bcs i observe a lot n tho the logical #bit of my brain ofc knows it's not necessarily on purpose - beinf vv observant makes it that i'm more susceptible to wnvr things don't go #when things don't go that way yk ? like ik i'll just move on like always but :(( <//3 diahudhwidnwodndk #HELP HUH WHAT (thonks) hangon wait i can't explain properly hmm but like #when i notice that i'm somewhat 'forgotten' or if i feel like someone is deliberately trying to avoid me or distance from me or wtvr #or if i notice they do this smth for others around me but seemingly not for me :( like it's likely just overthinking that ill get over w #soon enough but it just still sucks and all TvT </3 and yeah yeah yeah all that wahhh #i feel like bcs i try to put all of my heart and soul into the things i do - including my friends whether online or irl - it just BAMS more #wnvr it goes :( and then wnvr i notice smth that's prolly just Eh but i read into it sm that it doesn't just seem Eh it like. gets agghhhhg #OSHWIWHWIDJ I'M JUST DESCRIBINF W RANDOM WHOOSHES AND ALL BUT YEAH #blinks. in any case i'll stop rambling ere now TvT but like yeah TuT siwhidhsis IN ANY CASE #>:O if u actually did read this i'm (huh) but ty >< but if u didn't hehe ik u won't see this but nevertheless ty for being a good friend <3 #jurududuwhwuhdiwjd i feel this way a lot and then stuff like overthinking and all that stuff get in the way n make it worse and like #i kind of objectively know as to why i feel this way and how i can improve it but since i'm still relatively young ... it isn't easy to #?? yeah ??? hrghruriruehdkskspndksw it doesn't help that i'm stubborn too OEHWIDBWK #IDK WHAT I'N TALKING ABT ANYMORE HELP anyways ill head to bed in 30 minutes ... i think. hopefully. maybe? #in any case advanced gn from me to everyone on this world💪🏼✨

[sir-snow]

I don't believe in therapy.

Let's just read Neitzsche and do kinky stuff together.

That'll be healthy, right?

#my thoughts on therapy are much more complex than that #I just know that 90% of people in every occupation just plain shouldn't be there #And I really don't feel like window shopping through a bunch of peusdo intellectuals #When all I'm trying to do is better comprehend my reality and my role in it #And the major-majority of therapists #That I've had personal or professional interactions with #Either just plain don't care #Are giving you that look like #“Oh god is this going to be the person that beats me to death with my own clip-board” #Or are just waiting for you to say something incriminating so they can involve the police #There was one older lady in particular I talked too #Not even realizing she was a therapist until she started asking me a bunch of personal questions #And the subject of careers got brought up #And this gal was genuinely shell-shocked when I gave minor details about one of my verbally abusive father figures #It was as if she'd only heard about cases like that in books or on TV #And my reaction to her newfound curiosity was sort of blasé #Like yeah #Have you literally never interacted with a lower to middle class drunk or any of their kids before? #Granted I only said 90% earlier #Because there's one dude in particular I wouldn't mind buying a beer for #Now that I think about it #There's also a nurse I wish I could apologize too #Even if she was being holier than thou with her Bible pushing #But some people don't seem to realise that bastards are naturally predispositioned to being atheists #I just can't seem to fathom why a boy who grew up without his biological father #Doesn't like to hear about a guy who's father created him just so he can die for the sins of others #And that it would make much more sense for her to put her efforts into preventing some other kid's life from being more fucked up #Than it already is #Rather than trying to unravel the issues of a young man whom they just met with a pre-printed out sheet of paper #Wow I really didn't intend to write this much

[klara-rosa]

You know it's gonna be a rough day when you stayed up til 4 am the night before and now you've been sitting on the couch in a freeze for the last 4 hours because you realised once again that you spend your life waiting, and not living, and you don't even know what you're waiting for but life goes by anyway?

#basically i'm stuck in survival mode and i re-realised that again today and now i'm like #what's the point of all this #I have nothing or no one i have no hobbies no passions no ambitions #sometimes i don't even have opinions on things #just a plastic bag floating in the wind #that's what i feel like most days #and on top of this i'm also worried because my best friend who is also a coworker may transfer to another office #and then i'll lose her too like i have lost anyone i've ever cared about #AND THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I'M SO OVER TRYING WITH PEOPLE BECAUSE IT'LL JUST HURT IN THE END #Like i'm just so over investing any time or effort into relationships because no one ever stays and nothing is temporary #at the same time i'm lonely and want friends #also my colleague who told me 3 weeks ago i should maybe think about quitting basically is coming back from physical rehab next week #and the thought alone stresses me out so much i'm just UGH i suck at human interactions #I can't read people very well like they just confuse me a lot #and also i have to take an exam for work in like a month and i'm already stressing about that TOO #so i can just feel it getting really bad again #I'm just overwhelmed with everything and everyone #personal #mental health #anxiety #depression #can someone please tell me if i'm on the spectrum