#when theres no guarantee

[slutdge]

my psychiatrist admitted he's unsure about how to advise me in our session today cause my situation is so horrific there's no drug or therapy he can prescribe to fix it so lets pop bottles cause i won the gold medal in mental illness wooooo!!!! 🍾 🥂

#dont fucking talk to me aboit ''it gets better'' no it doesnt ill be trapped in hell forever what kind of a fucking life is that #just shut the fuck up i dont care yes im satisfied dying miserable and alone #if at least thats the first time ive ever had autonomy and dignity #anyways no im not gonna do it right this second but i really cant take another ''youll get better'' message #when theres no guarantee #why cant toxic positivity mfs ever get a grip and say ''what youre going through is bad and abusive'' #instead of waterboarding you with ''it gets better'' #k i need to go drink myself into a coma now goodnight yall ✌

[mewtwo24]

You know idk if it's just me being oblivious af but mxtx sure does enjoy putting her protags through the trolley problem when it comes to her works huh /j

#mdzs #mxtx #i say this not to be critical but because she really does prove how time and again #people want a scapegoat and an easy target to blame #and so much of her work is abt proving how faulty these philosophical absolutes are--nothing is that simple. #literally the arguments made to put everything on wwx (at least for now) appear to be faulty at best #i mean sure sometimes he puts his foot in his mouth but like ;;;;;;;; the kid is just doing his best wtf #everyone out here like WWX IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN YOU except for lwj and i'm just like #1. hes literally like 16 yrs old or smth #2. whether or not he stepped in during the cave scene was kind of a non-question?????? #the wens were so clearly going to engage in egregeious violence regardless of the rationalizations that came after #pointing fingers is legitimately pointless and fallacious logic #if mianmian wasnt targeted theres really no guarantee smth similar wouldnt have happened #furthermore working tg and refusing to play by wens' rules was p much the only feasible option #lwj was young and afraid and had lost so much but he still had enough clarity to insist on working tg #i also really love what he said abt suffering bc its just true. #the way he claps back to his uncle by saying that nobody would be spared violence and atrocity #the only choice they had was to try to band tg and mitigate the dmg--basically 'war is hell' #i find it such a stark and lovely contrast to the common perception of others abt him #that lwj stands alone and thinks of no one else; quite the contrary #he's v self-contained and v disciplined but he's not indifferent to suffering or apathetic #i think so much of the natural love that blooms between wwx and lwj is rooted in their mutual desire to do good #wwx wants to help--he loves to see people smile. he would do anything to protect the ppl he loves #lwj is honestly the same--he's just more abt structure and stability #wwx is more spontaneous and more attuned to the people around him #im a little shocked that people werent able to tell lwj was just as obsessed with him #just bc wwx is loud and mischievous about his interest doesnt really???? to me mask the ways lwj is so responsive. also i ???????? #still don't understand the mental gymnastics of madame jiang insisting it was all wwx's fault when she literally targeted wen's mistress -> #in retaliation???????????????? all this 'pick your battles what the fuck is wrong with you wwx' and she goes and instigates their wrath?? #i mean idk fellas i was just sitting there like 'you could have handled this so many ways and you picked the TNT option. wat.'

[sebek-zigbolt]

I don't think I'm strong enough not to pull for bday sebek even tho I want to save for ch 7 cards...... bcause yea........

#text #i remember when I first got the game I had a wishlist w my faves and like #i realised how bad the chances are and yeeted it #halloween vil? in this economy? #masquerade or groom idia? HAH #wasted like half a pity in portfest and harveston each #n then decided NOPE ur either silsebe or u get NOTHING #n then general lilia and rollo cards dropped but IRRELEVANT! #I NEED SB TO HOLD ME BACK I LOVE BLOOM SEBEK SM #AND I JUST.. WANT THE OTHER 2 BCAUSE ITS SEBEK!!!!! TALKING ABT HIS FAM N SILVER N AUGH #but like ok consider. My luck is... questionable. I want to have a Full guarantee saved for the cards i want. Problem is.. including the #ones that havent been released yet but we know will happen soon ish(AND EXCLUDING bdays)... thats..... #like 7-9 cards.... #so 1400-1800 pulls... #gaslighting myself into believing i dont want em but it doesnt work bcause i already DO THAT W MOST CARDS I WANT #deuce event cards... sniffle sob #i NEEED diasofam ch 7 AND rollo ok #NEED em #and equestrian club... personal attack... theres a chance they will suck n not even have horses so that would save me but also would b sad #gacha rambles #thats y u should enjoy this game as utube fan translations and nothing else

[skunkes]

#i keep having little things in my life that make me go god i want to leave #but like. it wld take too long. #it wouldnt be an immediate change #i would still need to relearn to drive which would take forever bc i hate it #and i would need to look into certs that wld get me employed #or anything that wld get me employed #i know the time will pass anyway but that doesnt work for my brain that has trouble Startin especially when theres no light #at the end of the tunnel. like doing those things wont guarantee me a job so why bother #i get lulled back into well living here isnt so bad i can take it. moving out would be worse. id be alone and i wouldnt #feed myself and id have a job i hated #but then Something Happens and the cycle repeats and im miserable #and i want to leave but how can i. and it would take forever. so ill stay. but it sucks. and i want to leave. but how can i. and it w #talkys #i can take it. but not for much longer. but i can. but i cant. but i have to. but i dont want to. i can. i cant #idk how people Live #my issue is i want to leave Now i want to leave Yesterday.

[dorkicon]

bitching abt my job again

tags contain frank mentions of transphobia and homophobia

#this happened like. i dont know. a month ago or something but i still keep playing it in my mind #for those unawares: theres been a fucking community outrage over the pride display at the library i work at #and have been working/volunteering at for 5 years #only it never went up. it never went up. bc the mayor came in as a quote unquote private citizen and demanded it taken down #despite the fact that patrons are required to fill out complaint sheets and even then it isnt ensured a display will be taken down #so obviously its a misuse of power that hes spinning into him being a concerned citizen #and i made a whole post bitching abt it and im doing so again (hi) bc i didnt like how our director responded to it #and yeah. so there was a board meeting after that right. well i set up for them as i usually do and let me tell you. that was the first #--time more than like 6 people came to spectate. it was insane. #and i guarantee that this months meeting wont have half as many people that fucking crammed themselves in there to complain abt gay ppl #bc of course they dont give a shit about the library #they just care about how scary the queers are #and yeah it was a shit show. i learned we have a far right organization in our town #and i was sat right in front of her husband the whole time #(standing actually. i was standing between him and my moms chair and he was sighing and grumbling the whole time bc he couldnt muster the #--balls to ask the 5 foot 2 fag in front of him to please move lol. small victories right) #when i say her i mean the leader of the freaks. idk. chairman? anyway she had a whole speech about how like queers are bad and cutting #the penises off little babies or whatever and she pulled up this passage from a book that was part of the display #its some book by the youtuber rowan ellis-- here and queer i think was the title. it was cataloged in our ya section and contained passages #talking about like having safe sex and what dildoes are and all that kind of shit. just really clinical descriptions imo. im not familiar w #--the youtuber really but im assuming they wrote it as informational bc shocker: teens be having sex. unsafe sex. especially queer teens #sourse: i was one of tgose #and...think for a moment. remember when you were a teen. youd rather fucking DIE than listen to your parents give you the sex talk #and chances are if youre gay your parents arent even going to know WHAT gay sex is (hugging without shirts on) so youre going to look #--elsewhere #bc if youre a hormonal fucking teen youre going to figure it out one way or another! especially if youre from (cough) a podunk shitwater #--town like mine that ran on abstinence by way of sex education #i think teens deserve to have access to that sort of information through trusted means. and i do mean het teens too #but no these fucking morons put on airs like everyones waiting till marriage--no! not my becky sue! as if they werent fucking around in #--holy shit i reached taglimit. i didnt ecen know there was one. hold on

[sdd-mod]

id like to thank the one singular person that still vaguely gives a shit about the => arc. idk who you are but youre probably out there somewhere so thanks for that

and as for everyone else sorry yall im a stubborn motherfucker were seeing this shit through to the end and then im never doing anything like this again because jesus christ. the effort

#how has it been a month already #time isnt real i think #genuinely didnt think it would take this long so uh #sorry abt that gang #was gonna say mb but no actuallt you guys sent in the asks #you couldge just made him go to the roof day two this is all on you actually #anyway #i do genuinely want to finish this soon #ive got plans for the end thst im excited to do and also i just. miss him #my boy #plus the general anxiety/horrors that come witj doing a vaguely self indulgent thing in a public space #like holy shit theres 350 of you and i guarantee none of you followed for this #but here we are #stuck in hell together #lets see if i have literally any audience when we make it out :]

[farmersliga]

btw it’s pathetic to me when artists do a ‘world tour’ but it’s literally just north america and europe. just say ur worldview is western-centric and go

#im gonna preface this by saying this isnt just a fault of olivia rodrigo specifically and is smth ive seen soooo many western artists do #(and btw i am a fan of her and her music like srsly this isnt coming from a hater pov) #but what im saying rn is a direct response to olivia’s announcement as an example #and i mean she said theres more dates to follow #but personally i think it says something when ur very first announcement of this ‘world’ tour has only north am and european locations #like the rest of the world is the afterthought #idk i just think she couldve said ‘the north american and european legs of my world tour!!!!’ and that wouldve been loads better #but instead its marketed as a world tour with those locations only and no actual guarantee that shes gonna go to other continents besides #—a super vague mention of extra dates #and that irks me #its like the basic conditions of world tour is america and first world europe and anything else is bonus #anyway. westernization is a curse etc etc #footballisms

[haveyoureadthisbook-poll]

I followed recently and love the polls (thanks for all your work with it! :D) but I also found it kinda funny to see mostly no answers lol. I know this blog follows the format of other "have you ___ this?" blogs but have you thought about adding an "On my TBR shelf" option? Because there are a few books I've seen that I definitely plan to read but just haven't gotten to yet.

I use this to find books to read. Have you considered a ‘no but I’m interested’ button?

I get the impulse - im often like "i haven't read this, but i want to!" But i feel like its better not to add too many answers

But you can always tell us in rbs or answers if somethings on your tbr!

#i hope thats fine for everyone #i dont like it when polls have too many answers it makes it confusing (confusing is not 100% what i mean but theres no better english word) #also at least for me something being on my tbr doesnt guarantee ill ever read it #asks

[thebigqueer]

literally unbelievable that annabeth wasnt even thinking of bob. as if bob isnt one of percy and ananbeths biggets guilts since leaving tartarus. fucking unbelievable

#theres no way!!! absolutely no way #i guarantee they have nightmares about leaving him what did rick even mean when he said that #tsats #riordanverse

[ufolvr]

Still trying to finish dinosquad - I'm at the second to last episode and man they really decided to cram in some never before seen character traits before the show died off huh

#kinda cool i hard read buzz as an artsy kid ill give you that. i know one when i see one #but genuinely before this id never seen him as a slob in general. huh? theres other ways to portray social awkwardness hi #this could work as a gyrian episode i guarantee you. #📡 incoming transmission 📡 #💛buzz

[love-birds-stuff]

Oagh thinking trisona thoughts

#im still like cooking a design for him but like #ok i havent talked abt this but i f/o but vash and knives (separately) and i like to break my own heart right #its sand falling though ur fingers #and i keep thinking that like ultimately my guy is aligned with knives first and foremost (thats a key thing) #so like vashverse (thats what im calling it where he guns for vash instead of knives) its like hey check this out how tragic #could i possibly make this right #bc rosario (trisona; thats his name) will always put his loyalties to knives and the ghg before anything else #that includes vash #so every time they do come together its never set in stone when itll be the last #theyre just biding their time until the inevitable #double owie if you consider ww into the equation bc looks wise rosario and ww look eerily similar #so going off of like vashwood thats like so theres this guy that looks like ur dead bf hope that doesnt cause any problems #i think their involvement hinges on that loss being fresh too; a perfectly aligned coincidence #trying to fill a hole someone left behind with someone else #AGHHH they drive me crazy bc theyre always coming together like stars on course collision; always dancing around eachother never to fully #meet and when they do meet the mutually assured destruction of one of them is guaranteed #(listen all the ghgs DIE; rosario is no exception) #anyway go crazy go stupid its 3 am aaaa #its sand falling thru ur fingers #bird chirps.txt

[aggressionbread]

i dont know what ive stumbled upon here but i support it

#love when youtube recommends me a channel just showing off a person's very specific hyperfixation #like i am guaranteed to learn a whole lotta something about one particular thing #also its like? joyous? theres people out here with hobbies that make them happy and we get to see them

[sebek-zigbolt]

ok next fucker im pulling isssss rollo... waiting mode ygadygsuag

#twst.. the waiting game.... #whats 5 months... haha...ha...haha.. #see this is why i couldnt not pull for bday sebek like #what am i supposed to DO in this game when i pull like #3 times a year like come on #*regrets not pulling more for rabbit deuce* #ok to b fairrr i want 3783798732 cards n have to restrain bcause like i need to b able to guarantee pity silver n sebeks ch 7 cards #epel harveston MAYBE ill pull for u next time even tho ur a traitor #but ya for now im waiting for rollo n then knight sebe #n crowley MAYBE not rlly #text #no but the equestrian club cards r my weakness I #if theres horses.... ill have to get em all.... #n malleus ch 7... eventually.... in a year dasgugydsydas #god this game is so stingy w gems i cant have fun n pull for silly rabbit wear

[nerdie-faerie]

I've got two family events coming up during term time and I'm trying to decide if the trips are worth the cost by asking if my family is actually going to be attending them and my mum's response was 'I might be able to convince your dad if we know you're going :)' girl I'm not spending nearly £60 just to come down for the weekend only to then find out I'm going by myself

#+Extra #travel tag #one of my cousins has a babyshower coming up in may on a Sunday when i have class on Monday #i already know my mum isnt intending to go to that one and my aunt that lives in between me and them also isnt going so i cant go with them #its the most inconvenient of the two and i have to be home a week after so ive declined that one #but another cousin recently announced an engagement/housing warming party weekend at the end of april #and when my mum told me about it i asked if she was going so i knew whether or not to look into tickets #and she hit me with the 'might go if you do :)' girl im not risking £60 on a maybe especially cus getting there will be a nightmare #its not all the way down south with the rest of my family so its technically closer but if im travelling there i need to know #whether to come early and go all the way home so i can arrive with my family on the day or travel down the day of & get there a little late #in the day in the city where its happening and figure out how to get to the event by myself and sort out getting ready and everything #or like to not bother what so ever and theres no guarantee which day theyll go cus its both Saturday and/or Sunday #ideally id only go Saturday cus i got class first thing monday but i also dont wanna be there by myself #im not close with my cousins and my dad doesnt get along with my mums side of the family so its highly likely id be there by myself #which i absolutely do not want especially if im getting there late cus of relying on public transport #edit: itll cost between £50-£120 to travel o.o depending on how i travel #if i get the train the whole way cus its quicker and times are more convenient itll cost £120 for a return for a 3 hour trip #or i could spend £40ish to get there by train then £10 on an overnight coach back #which is cheaper than the £60ish it would cost to get coaches both ways and the travel times for coaches were ridiculous #but jesus christ 🤦‍♀️

[lesbianyosano]

we’re getting a bsd art book release ily polish manga publishers <33333333

#i think there mustve been a spike in bsd sales over the last year or two #bc we got beast/dead apple and now were getting the first two light novels and now this #i was honestly so suprised when they annoubced the ln bc there are so many of them #and ig theres no guarantee we’ll get all of them but two is a start #ill probably get them and not read them bc i do t really like the way theyre written #but i feel the need to own every piece of bsd i can #however im being brave and not keeping the irl authors books anywhere near the manga #not that i could i doubt i could fit it together anywhere #speaking of which i need. to order these tanizaki books at some point grrrrr #txt.

[rouge-the-bat]

*this would mean finishing the ending twice at separate times

#no guarantee if ill follow the majority votes in the end but im conflicted rn n maybe this could convince me in a direction #tho im also impatiently trying to figure out what i wanna do rn so if this doesnt really get votes soon i may just decide on my own anyways #LMAO #can you see that i have executive dysfunction #i wanted to keep playing okami and beat the game n collect shit later until i got to this 😭 #i wanna continue but i dont wanna have to go thru the ending a second time after collecting everything... #but i also dont really feel like going on a collection hunt rn... #and i wanted to start persona 5 royal after i beat okami so im like. fuck should i just go ahead n pick that up JGJDJFJDJ #im so !!!! indecisive !!!! #tfw choice paralysis when theres only 3 choices