#which probably accounts for the numbers there

[hugs4neth-backup]

update:

(if this cuts off suddenly, its cause my mom walked in. better to give yall something than nothing) some of this information wont be relevant to everyone but im tagging my irl friend that needs it for reasons ill explain below

if you are poet, read all of this please its very important. anyone else feel free to skip its pretty distressing lol.

reblog if you can so the other moots see this. (also so they can find this account, only 19 of yall have found it and should be over a hundred)

tw for parental abuse and self harm

we're still lying low. i cant afford to get caught on tumblr rn

love yall so much, im glad so many people have found this blog

my mom is fucking pissed. ive lost my phone completely, and i might be losing the ipad too. im hoping that because i use the ipad for school she wont take that. my computer is safe for now, she doesnt know the password and knows that people would ask questions if she took it

my texts have been comprimised. im not allowed to text anymore, and shes reading everything. already got texting from my ipad once, fortunatly i dont think that she knows it was from my ipad so she hasnt taken it (yet)

poet we need to figure out a way to comunicate from my computer that isnt tumblr.

my mental state is stable-ish currently, but it wasnt 2 hours ago.

she has threatened physical abuse.

she has also said "I wish i had the luxury of kicking you out"

due to number 8, im working on a go bag.

number 9 is probably an over reaction but im not getting caught unawares

the only sh ive done so far is head banging, which is bad but not the worst form. i think i left a bruise tho. no signs of brain damage

i got my grades back and theyre all pretty high, so im not in trouble for that. but i think she is pissed that im doing my work in school and not at home? idfk

she promised thursday to put me back in therapy. she has taken that back

apparently the reason she thinks im not disabled is because she thinks im faking all these injurys. her reasoning for this is "last time we saw [dr name] he said that nothing was wrong" (he said that there was nothing wrong other than the previously diagnosed severe generalized hypermobility syndrome) i think its fucking hysterical that she thinks i would fake not being able to do fucking anything because of my pain

i did absoluletly have a full full full mental breakdown from about 10:30 this morning to about 3:45 in the afternoon

if i get anymore "injuries out of nowhere" shes gonna cancel all my summer plans. (translation: no medical care for the rest of the year)

@poettheythem

#da cool shit #<- lmao the irony of my talking tag

[stinkykitty8]

DOING YOKI FIRST :3

(Yoki belongs to me!!! Everything else credits to Gatobob!!!)

WARNING

This post incudes very heavy topics, nsfw, 18+ stuff, and overall just not very good things. Do not read if you are sensitive to these things.

Read warnings before pressing more please!!!

(Events of BTD 1 happen with Ren and Strade but Ren was kidnapped at 19 and decided to escape at 21, still dealing with a bit of stockholm syndrome he never actually goes to police after.)

After escaping Strade and building himself back up Ren ends up paying a prostitute to fuck during his heat. And because of this it caused an accidental pregnancy she didnt want. She wanted nothing to do with the baby but she also couldn't afford to get rid of it. Instead she just waited it out and after having Yoki she tracked down Ren and gave Yoki to him. Ren took full custody of her and Yoki's mom hasnt been seen since. Ren named Yoki (full name Yokino) and raised her all by himself even thoughit was a bit of a struggle. Ren allowed Yoki to be more free and give into her animalistic instincts more which also caused her to be much more animalistic then Ren. Aka being more feral and getting triggered much easier around like blood or food (especially when hungry). As a young child she really liked meat of course, especially rabbit. Due to Ren taking her out into the woods sometimes and allowing her to hunt she enjoyed bringing back a fresh kill with her bare hands (even when being young she was still able to do it). He doesnt mind Yoki hunting on her own, actually enjoys it and is happy it makes her happy. As long as she doesn't come back home covered in blood or brings the dead animal she killed on the porch he doesnt care. Hes proud of his little girl. At a young age Yoki was introduced to Rens jobs but she didnt really care. Since she basically grew up with it even as a baby its sorta just a thing she knows about and Ren does. They are animals afterall. They have to give into their instincts at some point. Over time Ren started disposing of his 'stars' a different way by giving them to his private chef and asking them to cook it. It helped dispose of bodies easier and quicker all while having a good meal after. Because of this Yoki developed a taste for human flesh. Now she can't go a week without having her favorite meal, human heart. From rabbit hearts to human hearts. Yoki absolutely loves shopping and spending daddys money. Like once a week she gets his black card and goes shopping. Ren doesnt mind though since at this point hes pretty loaded. Plus he loves making his little girl happy. Ren and yoki have probably the most healthiest relationship out of all 3 kids. Ren has raised her well and the best way he can all while giving her a comfortable happy life.

As a young child yoki was often bullied in school for being a freak since beastkin are rare to find. It wasnt until around highschool she started to gain popularity due to her getting popular online. Shes your average tiktok and Instagram girly and being the daughter of a rich guy everyone wanted to be her friend after that. During middle school though she did make a few friends (and a few enemies) but nothing to serious. Basil was her number one friend all the way though just because of how well they bonded together (or well she bonded with basil). She saw him as a close friend and even better a brother to her. And with Hanz. Well he was the little prick. He was the main person that targeted both Yoki and Basil, picking on them and even going so far as to pull on Yoki's tail. Then one day he hust stopped and started staying to himself. Nobody knows what happened to Hanz during that and he never said what happened. Yoki alway knew Ren had scars but never knew what caused them. After learning some information from Hanz when they were older she gets help from one of Rens men to get on the web and check out of what she heard was true, and after snooping around on Strades account she finds out why Ren is that way. And due to this she gets in a small fight with Hanz but they end up settling it out. Yoki and Hanz are sorta a thing when older? But not? Its nothing serious. Mainly because Ren doesnt accept or like it at all. If he could he'd kill Hanz and Strade. He wants nothing to do with strade whatsoever even though Hanz did nothing wrong. Ren found out about Hanz and Strade during a parent teacher conference. Ren knew about Hanz before because Yoki would complain he would pick on her but after finding out it was strades kid he seemed to hate them both even more. Ren would have pulled yoki out of school if it wasnt for it being the only decent school around and plus he wanted Yoki to interact with other children. He couldnt just take that from her and hide her away. So he just protected her from afar. Ren wants nothing to do with Strade and as long as he doesn't bother him or Yoki he doesnt care. Strade likes the thought of fucking with Ren even if hes not doing anything. He could just sit back and relax as Hanz does all the work for him.

Yoki does know a bit of Japanese from Ren and Ren taught her a bit about their culture (trying to remember what his mother taught him). After getting older she could maybe only remember a few things but not everything.

IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ASK!!! :3

(Hopefully i wrote everything correctly and it makes sense X3)

#btd #boyfriend to death #btd oc #fan kids #btd fan kids #ren hana #strade #tpof #the price of flesh #kittys fan kids #yoki hana #kitty8 ocs

[vsaintsin]

Writeblr Re-Intro

Yo! I'm V Saintsin. Or V or Vin or Saintsin or whatever you want to call me that sounds right on your tongue. I'm a self-proclaimed Social Media fumbler who got a late start to the party and has never quite figured it out. I hate how hipster and edgy it sounds to say "I'm bad at social media" but like I used to work with some people who actually managed the social media accounts for the business we worked for and there were rules and whatnot and damn, I think online media is just not my medium. That being said, here I am! Hah

I'm an author and general mess who's hoping to be the miracle man (somebody who makes a living writing silly little stories). I do use a pseudonym but please hear me out when I say I didn't realize how edgy it sounds, it just has some sentimental value to my personal life. I'm so sorry that I sound like I'm in my emo phase HAHA

About me -

He/Him Transguy from the American Midwest (arguably the south, depending on who you talk to, but the older people still say "Sodi-pop" and "ope").

I'm dysautonomic, bendy, permanently sleepy, and a survivor of Crappy Doctors Who Suck At Doctoring.

I like DnD, Pathfinder, Baldur's Gate 3, Cyberpunk, Dragon Age, and other things in that vein.

I do make art of my stories and characters (Tablet is currently not working so I'm in a dry spell).

My writing background is predominantly ancient, dusty RPs from as far back as the foopets days and fanfic writing on Quizilla - I am an old and wizened elder of the net.

My formal education was music performance and behavioral neuroscience, I don't really know how I got where I am.

This is not my first rodeo with tumblr but it is the first time I have anything to SAY instead of just lurking.

In the event of malfunction, you can put me outside for 5 minutes and I'll probably factory reset.

My existence as I know it hinges on a massive number of sticky notes plastered throughout my room.

What I'm lookin' for -

Idk, whatever? I'm down for most things. Did you write it? Cool, let me see. I'm not too bent on genre or anything, just fascinated by the art of storytelling.

A bit tentative with fanfiction but that's just because if it's not a fandom I'm familiar with I am rather clueless about what the hell is going on and if it's a fandom I am familiar with I HUNT DOWN THE DEEP LORE.

I like art a whole lot, including fanart. Also art advice, love seeing things from different perspectives and learning something new.

Mutuals, really, for any reason. Building better connections on here, getting to know people. I am hideously bad at this but I try.

What I write -

Science Fiction with heavy subjects that matter to me - trigger warnings on a story-by-story basis.

High Fantasy (eventually books I think?) characters and their backgrounds for DnD and Pathfinder - I have been tempted to share these to help people get ideas or just for free use?

Things that I delete because I have crippling imposter syndrome and publishing makes me nauseous (doin' it tho).

Stories that I hope will make people feel less alone or that people could relate to, stories that I wish I had when life was worse and I was reaching out for anything I could find to keep me afloat, stories that try to be critical of things that SUCK in a way that's any helpful.

Lots of curse words and cussing (that's just how people talk 'round here), dubious science, things that I hope might make you cry but in a good way though.

Character-Driven stories that revolve more around the development of the person and less around the plot itself if that makes sense.

I've put blurb things below for my primary project/series which features a grumpy, queer, 37-year old chain smoking Frenchman and his misadventures with life and love and unbridled rage. If any of that sounds cool stick around and hang out? (This part is a plug bc I did a thing and I'm proud of it) And if my books sounds interesting the first one is 99 cents on Kindle and you just need a phone and a free app to read it!

THE SECRET OF LIFE (Published) - Sci-Fi/Psychological Thriller, Bi M Lead, Lovers to Enemies, AI but the oldschool cool kind not the real world thing that's stealing our future

Carlisle-Trystan Antoinette is a mercenary on a hard road, navigating life and death itself in an infinite cycle started by powers above his understanding. He has one mission - warn The Dianican Space Station of the coming threat and put a stop to a war that would encapsulate the whole of the Sol System before it can ever begin. Unfortunately for Carlisle, reality is a tenuous thing, made up only by our understanding of it. At least, according to his Psychiatrist, who tells him that there is no war, that he was never a mercenary, and that what Carlisle is experiencing is a severe but manageable psychotic break. Stripped of his combat enhancements, his bio monitor, and everything he's every known, Carlisle has a decision to make. Does he give in to the thoughts and memories, so real that he can almost taste them, or does he live a life of comfort and ease, returning to a husband and daughter that he left behind?

TWs: Domestic and War Violence, suicide, rape, medical trauma, grief, drug use

THE SILENCE OF ANGELS (Due July '24, TSoL 2) - Betrayal and Rage, Learning how to love again slow-burn romantic subplot, Learning how to Dad, A general inability for any one thing to just go right

(Quick Rough Blurb that offers no spoilers for TSoL) Making connections isn't easy for somebody who's accustomed to burning bridges. Isolation has always been Carlisle's mantra for surviving his life. Playing a role comes second nature, pretending to be the man that everyone else wants to see in him. When an old friend is murdered Carlisle finds himself as the primary suspect with all evidence pointing to him so clearly that even he calls to question what he is capable of. Unwilling to believe that he could commit such a heinous crime, Carlisle sets off to find the truth of his friend's death - was Carlisle framed or does he truly have the capacity to bring such harm upon those he loves? Old and new bonds will be tested, faith broken, and the future of everyone called into question as lines are drawn and sides are picked.

TWs: Violence, mentions of SA, graphic character death, more grief, more death

I don't know what else to say... Later!

#booklr #lgbt fiction #writeblr #writeblr intro #authors

[phantomrose96]

So I know this isn't anything that like actually needs an apology but it'll make me feel a bit better to say it. Oof whoops this ABoT chapter is super late. Timing kinda sucks since I wanted to have some updates out while s3 was airing but

Been kinda mega busy and stressed since October with the whole condo buying thing which rolled right into immediate day 0 plumbing and boiler issues I had to get fixed and general moving hassle and financial commitment stress and I kinda just fried myself hard. Plus then acclimating to a new place without my familiar street or familiar grocery store or familiar room or any of that. Like there's no "just go home and take your mind off it" to this cuz home is the "it". So I'm just kinda enduring until I can calm the hell down.

And anyway I definitely have progress on ch47, like 7000-ish words of it, but it's the kind of like "there is writing there" and hasn't exactly hit the "there is substance there" that I want ABoT chapters to be. Like this in particular is a chapter I want to be good, not just be done. So it's taking time to get my brain somewhere that can do that.

#anyway #i mean just in case anyone was like wondering if its discontinued to anything #its still going i just can't make it Good quite yet #(plus i need to get furniture cuz as it stands the place is really quite empty and bare except for like my room and the kitchen) #(also the bank had my address wrong so they havent been able to send me any of the mortgage information which was technically due already) #(ive been in contact with them but it's a whole thing) #(plus im still not quite finished with all the utility switching. i still need to get water in my name) #(and the boiler issue fucked up my gas bill so now ive got a crazy high gas bill i just need to... pay) #(i have actually started seeing a therapist but thats a whole other Thing now figuring out insurance and deductables and using my HSA #account and just... it's a lot) #(oh also my homeowner's insurance policy number doesn't actually work for getting me into the online portal. and the geico guy said he was #looking into it but I havent heard anything in a while) #(its a lot im just gonna melt for a while i guess) #(plus all the upfront stress has made it really hard to associate the new place as 'home' instead of 'place of great many plumbing evils') #(i sat on like 4 million couches this week and the only one i really really like probably doesn't quite fit in my living room) #(the downstairs neighbors tv is too loud and i need to talk to her about it in a way which isn't 'hey im holding on by a thread and this #one small inconvenience is the thing which is making me turn into ash') #(oh thats right i have to go pay my january HOA dues...) #(oh also I need to file for the owner-occupied tax exemption thing now that its 2023) #anyway......... ill be normal eventually. im just not normal right now. #chrissy speaks

[nottonyharrison]

It's just so riotously funny that this rumour about Daniel Ricciardo having two races to prove himself was started by the NZ Herald of all publications.

For starters, the Aotearoa NZ media in general has zero in-depth understanding of how F1 works at all. We don't send journalists to races from any of our outlets. We only care about F1 because there's a chance a kiwi might have a permanent seat in the near future and is like... probably gonna be pretty good if he does. It's highly unlikely that any journalist here has contacts within the paddock beyond Lawson and his family.

Like to understand exactly how much this country does not care about F1 from a media perspective, they didn't even talk about it when Brendon Hartley was driving. Probably would have been different if he was doing well, but he wasn't. Motorsport news in general doesn't even have its own section on the sports page of our most well known news site, despite Supercars being pretty big in this part of the world.

Every time I read an article about F1, or see a short segment on TV (which will always mention Liam Lawson in some way, I am not kidding, they will find a way to work him in there), it's almost always laughable the lack of in depth understanding the reporter has on the matters, particularly the intra and inter-team politics, the impact of money and sponsorship, and even just basic stuff like strategy being a major part of the outcome of a race. Or how a driver can have value beyond their race result.

Then, you have the Herald specifically, which absolutely loves a clickbait article to drive traffic. In fairness, this is very much a product of the state of our media at the moment, which is currently undergoing an absolute gutting. Personally, I find the Herald to be riddled with minor factual errors, constant and egregious spelling and grammatical mistakes, and spin. Keep in mind that this is in the context of the NZ media, which is generally considered very factual and accurate on a global scale. They're not like... the Daily Mail, they're a reputable outlet that isn't tabloid journalism, but they're not exactly afraid of wild speculation when it suits.

So yeah. I saw someone post a screenshot of the article, and had to hold in my laughter.

#I'll probably delete this later #posting F1 on main oops #formula 1 #RB is absolutely not gonna fire DR before Miami #when he's at the peak of his marketing value #and is buds with the cashapp guy. Which #by the way #is an app that has no value in many other parts of the world due to our banking systems being functional. #Like we don't need an app to transfer money because if we give someone our bank account number #the only thing they can do with it is give us money #youre not gonna fire your cash cow rught before their most valuable weekend #itll be so ironic if next year Daniel stays at RB to mentor Lawson after all this #which is what im starting to think the plan is

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #cursed image #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #honestly we're lucky it took this long to get truly cursed #walked into the leasing office and they were appropriately concerned it still wasn't fixed #they sent maintenance who said yeah we'll need to call a contractor #so I gotta walk back again tomorrow to make sure that's actually in process #plus! just as a fun little bonus! #the internet is acting funny and att is such a garbage company it is literally impossible for me to reach customer service from my phone! #because my wife is the one with all her info on the account and their website is broken so I can't verify my phone number! #and they point blank refuse to let me speak to a human being if my phone isn't associated with the account. #so I've gotta just put pressure on her to bother them about it when she can which sucks for both of us! #if you have a non-att isp in your area you should probably just go with that one instead #whatever it is at least it probably won't be worse #I'm Having A Great Time Thanks For Asking

[exopelagic]

okay facing consequences of my actions

#I thought I’d gotten away with it this time #okay it’s 3am and I may have discovered something that completely ruins me #everyone is asleep so I can’t tell if this is me being sleep deprived or not! #so I need to sleep now but I haven’t cleaned my code up or written my answers #I do Not have time #if I don’t sleep now I’m gonna be having a bad time tomorrow morning and I am significantly less productive rn than I could be #with other people around I kinda need that y #so I should go to bed. but also. this code needs cleaning. but also. even if I fall asleep now I’m only getting like 5 hours MAX #I need a good few hours tomorrow morning to have a shot at doing this properly #so it would be more useful to sleep now and wake up as early as possible than keep going tonight bc I’m not going to finish tonight #okay. fuck. I hate this #if I could think straight I’d be able to fix this easy which is probably a good reason to sleep #it’s just an annoying logical problem that I gotta follow through bc currently I’m stuck between three possibilities and there might be more #I have these two rasters and I gotta calculate the area overlap #the first method counts the number of presence points in each (probably) and then counts the number in overlap raster w manually set values #the second counts total predicted points and points where they’re predicted to be alone and does a calculation with that for each species #that one with all points from both species + pseudoabsence. vs method 3 which does that with just individual species coordinates #method 1&2 are now homologous now I JUST caught the logical error but method 3 is what he gave us #but actually he might have fucked up in not including pseudoabsence #i don’t know if method 3 works for two different species either honestly #it gives me results I like much more (my overlap is 100% for one of the species and that shoooouldnt rlly happen even if it’s possible) but #I think it might actually just be wrong because it can’t account for #wait so the line is taking the prediction for all coordinates for each species for each species’ initial coordinates. and not pseudoabsence #and that set of predictions for each species coordinate set is then taken and yeah it’s no longer comparable you can’t count each alone #not with two different species bc you need an overlapping dataset to do that OKAY I have solved that logical problem my initial method works #which is annoying bc the result sucks but whatever I checked the rasters and it’s actually identical so #okay now I’ve figured that out. twenty minutes later. sleep I think it’ll help most #luke.txt

[rosemarytrash]

there has got to be a way to like. do some kind of diagnostic as to how many of your followers are at least semi active users

#hypothetically reached a follower milestone but it is beyond promised that at least like.............. #probably half? maybe more maybe less #of those accounts are no longer active #at least since 2017 #and i could manually do this yes but i do not want to #the number feels Unreal #which is slightly sad #anyway #i should draw #txt

[bestdressedchuuya]

Trying to log in to my old neopets account to see what's going on in there, but for the life of me I can't remember the number combination I used in my username. So sad so sad

#thinking out loud #I still remember my password too #and most of my username... it's just the numbers part #and I can't retrieve it cuz god knows which email I was using back when I set this account up #probably my old elementary school email #long deactivated #sigh

[ocpdzim]

This is an outfit from when Filonyn was very young, but they do still have it. Since it was before they were living among humans, they didn’t have to wear a big hat with it.

#my art #oc tag #my ocs #monster of the week #motw #i have a lot of different period outfits for them bc they’re fun to draw #this one’s 9th century AD. they still have it though #filonyn’s closet contains some of the best preserved medieval clothes in the world #entirely because they never throw shit away and are obsessive about keeping all their clothes in good condition #they’ll occasionally break these historic garments out for the local renaissance faire #they have a booth there where they sell fabrics. #general audiences are no longer interested in old fashioned handmade textiles so they must sell at the renaissance faire #really they’d probably do numbers on any social media website but unfortunately? #their main social media presence is an account on a sewing forum that was popular in the 1990s but now has almost no users #they go on there and post extremely detailed explanations of nearly lost sewing and weaving techniques #which are only viewed by the 3 or 4 old ladies who still use the website #when i design these outfits i combine elements from both menswear and womenswear from the time period #a lot of them look very feminine by modern standards but that’s just bc men’s fashion used to be better than it is now #the miniskirt here is actually menswear inspired. no medieval woman would wear that #but men did!!!! #the bodice is based on a gown though #filonyn

[jejciu]

day no.2471 of waiting for my tax return

#I'm waiting so long bc I still have not figured out how to tell them my bank account number #I tried! I really did! But all I found was advice from 2017 to file bunch of forms which I couldn't find anyway #I asked my parents too but they just got annoyed I was bothering them and told me to 'do it online' #Which is hilarious considering how many times I had to show them how to copy paste links to whatsapp and messenger 😑😑😑😑😑😑 #And my tax return won't even be much bc only half a year will count 😢 its so much waiting for what probably will be like 100pln #maurycy talks

[roboromantic]

I had to make a 6-digit PIN for my new phone account thing and it's like. how DARE you make me come up with something other than my ancient 4-digit Runscape bank account PIN that I use for almost everything

#I think I ended up using it bc I had a bank account in Runescape way before an Actual bank account #and it was like 'well I already have this number memorized why make up a new one' #and now probably almost 2 decades later it's my go-to when I need to make 4-digit PINs lmao #(I know in theory I should have different numbers and passwords for everything but who the hell wants to keep track of that) #(Like I have a password manager but even then it's more just to remember which combination of the like 3-4 passwords and PINs I use -> #- for a particular site/app/whatever)

[rudescape]

hell o

just gonna vent in the tags real quick

#sometimes i miss this place #ive had this account since i was like...13? 14? #im 27 now which is hard to believe #i remember venting on here constantly as a teenager about how i didnt see myself living past like 19/20 #now im just a random adult person floating around in obscurity #ive been debating on permanently leaving the internet for all reasons other than pure and deliberate research #and i honestly just might do that #but i logged on here yesterday again #which makes this like....the second or third time ive logged on within the last couple of years probably #i dont keep an eye on these numbers but i can tell you how easy it is to scroll down to posts i reblogged in 2018 #which says enough about how little i check in on here #anyways...it got me thinking about this site and all the memories i made on it #you may be thinking it isnt that deep and thats being generous considering the strong doubt in me that anyone is even reading this at all #but yeah you'd be right #it isnt deep #all it comes down to is nostalgia in its purest form #and a part of me knows that i wont just suddenly start posting regularly on here again #but in this moment i can only hope to feel a connection with something that used to bring me relief from my real world pain #its time to shut up! its time to shut up!! #goodbye

[fazcinatingblog]

Would my boss hate that there's like three desks downstairs that are all sort of mine, there's my normal desk (without a computer) then my other desk that has the computer and then Jenette's desk that we use to lodge things but three desks for ONE PERSON

#no but like she's so gung ho that 'every desk must be filled' #to the point where there's technically only three offices upstairs plus her own (which she never goes up to any more) #and she plans to have four accountants up there #like??? #so there's three bookkeepers downstairs & she'll have four accountants upstairs (hired a guy today & apparently another interview on Monday) #and one admin #see she would justify this by saying the business is growing #i naturally internally freak out at 3am because no we're not really growing #she was worried there wouldn't be enough car spaces and I'm worried there won't be enough desks and they'll have to sit on each other's laps #colleen was right #colleen got out at the right time (Colleen would probably say she left three years too late) #i mean with more staff means more wages for her to pay and then she'll expect the invoices every week to match that???? #like come on that's not what's going to happen #my boss' brain doesn't work like a normal brain #she's in the wrong industry #she'd be much more suited to running a theatre restaurant #yeah I'm fine #this all just drivel at 3am and I'm sorry #i need to get it out and hopefully i stop tossing and turning and getting annoyed by the number of accountants being employed and #i just #i don't know

[hpmort]

Today (as of 2:46 EST) I have written the same number of words as this year it is!

#highblogging #nanowrimo #petty bs #I haven’t officially entered bc I am a coward and joining would make me accountable #getting high got me productive but it did not seem to assist the ibuprofen in reducing pain #which is unfortunate because it’s gotten really bad #not as much as I had during my teenage years #but still worse than anything in the last few! #anyways 4 capsules (which! my GP said I could use as long as I didn’t exceed 12 of them in 24hr!) #is not doing as much for the pain as I had hoped #but maybe if it wasn’t high I’d get even worse? #the only interaction between it and weed and my meds was just supposed to be dizziness right #maybe a flavoring agent is involved or maybe it’s one of those things they haven’t recorded #because they probably want to get even two drug interaction down before they get more complex with it #I think this increase might be exponential but it might not #wait wouldn’t that be limited because there’s a difference number of meds than a multiple of three #unless maybe it is???

[thelifestoryofkara]

I’m so glad I don’t have a tumblr following

#I block bots and weirdos and never had that many in the first place #even now the number is probably at least half inactive blogs if not more #which isn’t weird for an old account but it brings my number way down #which is good! #bad for dating though. I know some of you have met partners on the hellsite #I’ve never cultivated one #I don’t make many original posts and go out of my way to post my art near-anonymously