#while twitter self destructs

[aonik]

#pokemon #typhlosion #hisuian typhlosion #art #while twitter self destructs #i'm here #10 times more bitter and with rekindled hatred #but here nonetheless #edit: nvm tumblr became ugly too

[hejustcancelledit]

He's acquiring more and more power, and we can only hope to survive the fallout

#if they do legit let him do that i will become a mad lions fan for life probably #because this would be the funniest and simultaneously potentially self destructive move ive seen in a while #between him and the heretics shenanigans on twitter i havent been bored despite lec not starting yet #(which. why does lec start so late. and why are there three weeks break before season finals. are they trying to doom eu at worlds or what?) #carzzy tweet

[akuma-homura]

...honestly, people aren't wrong about the whole '>backlash >whoops! sorry, we didn't mean it like THAT!' thing being a usual song and dance for companies including tumblr, and I even did mention it in the tags of... one of the related posts...

I was still surprised they bothered responding so early, but. ...yeah, I guess we'll just have to see. The whole "Outdated" wording was extremely worrisome, so...

#[ ;text ] #if I AM being real? I likely won't leave tumblr even if they did do bad changes to the Following feed #I've been here for so long. They would have to get to Musk's Twitter level of self-destruction-- past that actually for me to leave #twitter I don't have attachment to. tumblr I do. #which perhaps is stupid. it's a social media. #but. #...idk i already said moving places is exhausting #I'm already at other places #and if I gravitate more towards them naturally bc of tumblr making a shitty choice and less enjoyable while the other place feels better-- #--then. like. i guess so be it there. but. #shrugs #gonna be real my main thought is just being on dreamwidth WHEEZES #i have a pillowfort but no one I know is on it actively so I don't have a connected feeling towards it and... tend to forget to update my #- art account there for months on end... #inkblot just feels bad design-wise right now #plurk is the most likely candidate alongside dreamwidth. funnily. so. #also of course discord but i don't really count that as much #oh yeah. my neocities sites too.

[fromisgetsetreadyshow]

showing back up on tumblr after all these years like a sopping wet dog whimpering on your doorstep after getting caught in a storm like plez..... i made a mistake.......

#i cannot believe twitter hit the self destruct button while i was asleep #it was genuinely the only social media i used for a few years #and it just won the destroy your own platform any% speedrun record #anyway i guess i'll be here now #fuck u elon #sop.txt

[onceuponatown]

Goodbye Tumblr. You ruined it!

Hello followers!

We are sad to say that we are discontinuing Once Upon a Town.

We started this blog in August 2013 with the aim to find, research and show historical photos in high resolution formats. The main idea was to present history as documented through photography - from the very earliest to circa mid-1950s. The large format quality we favored for our blog was chosen for its immersive properties. We wanted the past to come alive and to show you all just how much has been lost with ever increasing development, historical erasure and plain carelessness, but also to show just how quirky and eccentric many of our immediate ancestors were. Where possible we have included explanations for the images and in the process we learned a great deal about very niche corners of our recent history - and just how little we generally know about people and life from just over 100 years ago. It has been an enriching journey and we hope people who have followed this blog feel a little closer to the Victorians and Edwardians and homesteaders and flappers and dogs and cats and places captured on camera so many years ago. Much now is gone and only exists in these old photos.

In order to post this high resolution photography, we have since 2013 used a customized theme that allows large format to show on our website main page, which we recommend is accessed through a browser on a computer for a more immersive viewing experience. But thanks to Tumblr’s discontinuation of the legacy editor, this is no longer possible. The new editor they have forced down everyone’s throats (over the complaints of many) arbitrarily crops new posts and ruins the overall look of the website page. In short, it messes up the entire concept of what we have come to regard as a visual archive of the late 19th century and early 20th century. And while it still looks the same in the Tumblr feed, it’s the website most people outside Tumblr access and link to. This is our front page.

Regrettably it seems to be a trend among social sites to force unpopular changes on the people who create the content. They have become big and arrogant and care little for what users want. They keep “fixing” what isn’t broken by breaking them more. Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Flickr, Deviant Art and now Tumblr have all gone through these self-destructive processes over the heads of their users and all have become worse platforms for it. 

However, even though we will no longer post new material here - at least for as long as Tumblr maintains the discontinuation of the legacy editor - we will leave the site up for people to peruse at their leisure. Our old posts are, as of yet, not affected by Tumblr’s changes and we simply can’t get ourselves to delete ten years of collecting and research. We recommend you make good use of our archive and hashtags. There’s a bit of most of everything in the deep depths of this vast collection which counts thousands of images by now. And you might just stumble on something really weird that you didn’t know about. 

At the time of writing this, Once Upon a Town has a total of 44,394 followers. We find that kinda impressive for a blog that doesn’t contain porn or manga. So here’s to all of you! We thank you for your interest and feedback over the years.

-OUAT

#goodbye tumblr #legacy editor

[suppermariobroth]

In Super Mario 64, an extremely rare event that can happen is the Chill Bully boss in Snowman's Land self-destructing by walking off a ledge, which it is not normally supposed to do.

Top: a close-up of the event, showing the Chill Bully walking off the platform.

Bottom: another occurrence of the event showing that Mario does not even need to be near the Chill Bully for it to self-destruct, with it walking off the platform while Mario is being preoccupied with a different activity somewhere else in the course.

Main Blog | Twitter | Patreon | Small Findings | Source: 1, 2

#super mario 64 #nintendo

[kaelio]

To be honest, a lot of the politics you see online--on Tumblr and Twitter--are predicated on the biggest posters with the biggest followings being people who had a lot of potential they squandered, and their spite drives them to encourage other people to engage in self-destructive behaviors. That's also why you see a lot of "gifted kid" discourse from them, while sprinkling in the occasional "lol why even go in to work, fuck your boss." They're mad other people succeeded. They're more angry that other people succeeded than they care if they succeed. They want things to suck as much as possible so other people are on their level, even if it means, for the most part, people being dragged down and certainly not lifted up. Black unemployment is the lowest it's ever been and they secretly want to throw that away so that immigrants get shot at the border, because behind 99% of these snappy, cynical accounts is someone secretly seething that immigrants who come to America tend to benefit from that and apply it towards the welfare of their families, as productive members of a community. They pretend to be "left-wing" but look at what they're actually doing. Look at the implications their preferences actually have. They need that because if you actually evaluated their stances and the implications of the behavior they promote, it's a pound of flesh at everyone else's expense. The lowest quintile of incomes is doing better under Biden than in the last 40 years (very much taking into account inflation, because it's been driven by low-income workers finally being paid more and this being reflected in the cost of goods and services). If they cared about uplifting the poor, they'd tell you things like that. And on matters of foreign policy, since that's what they're using as cover right now, they'd be upfront about the foreign policy differences between the two parties (e.g. Trump got his Muslim ban and wants a stronger one, and it is constitutional, and he will do it--including his literally announced plan to deport anyone on a visa who protests, which is also actually constitutional).

Among other things, their professed position tends to rely on the idea that the USA is uniquely despicable but the US government should also be bigger and do more things for people. Any actual political thinker who is thinking politics-first will have a coherent answer to that, because it's on-its-face contradictory. But again: it's not driven by actual political principles, they're working through personal resentments and using politics to make you think you should listen to them and validate them.

[nitewrighter]

I think what's depressing but also interesting about like, both Elon Musk and Ph*tomatt's general presence and handling of any perceived slight against them is we're seeing kind of a generational shift in how the rich and powerful react to what they believe is supposed to be their space, their property, even though both Twitter and Tumblr like, as part of their general design, are meant to be these shared spaces and they're just supposed to just maintain user experience while profiting off of user data and advertising. I was there when David Karp was "Daddy." I was there through the porn ban. And now I'm seeing two rich grown-ass men throw shit fits because their platforms aren't treating them like the respective princes and ultimate authorities on the respective souls of their sites. Rich assholes used to just cocoon themselves in their wealth and wait for the consequences of their own actions to blow over, but now we get to watch them self-destruct in real time. And like, the depressing part of this is it's definitely an attitude that's arisen as a result of late stage capitalism--you need to be constantly growing, constantly expanding, constantly bringing in new sources of revenue, so there is no waiting, no weathering. There is only attempting to "clap back," to fight back, to punch down to try and control the narrative, and only further proving your vindictive childishness in the process.

[yridenergyridenergy]

The wholesome-ish friendship between Shinya and Kyo

Their latest playful Q&A in Haiiro no Ginka vol. 100 has prompted me to compile examples of this weird but overall wholesome relationship that Kyo and Shinya have and which is not obvious at first.

Situation #1

In October 2017, Kyo gifted Shinya with a custom white version of a MadaraNingen one-piece. As far as I remember, that article of clothing was not available for purchase in white at all, to the public. And of course, we all know that Shinya prefers to wear white.

Situation #2

I think that in response to Shinya sharing a video of him briefly playing with the minicars that were sold as tour goods in This Way to Self-Destruction, Kyo posted a story on Instagram of him revving up a bunch of mini-cars and persistently making them hit his phone propped up on a counter and displaying a picture of Shinya. At age 43. To which Shinya made an Instagram post vaguely hinting that: "Good children should not play with the mini-cars to hit someone's picture!"

Kyo's Instagram Story "The proper way to use mini-cars" video

Shinya's translated response

Situation #3

In late 2022-early 2023, Shinya publicly celebrated his bandmates' birthdays via emojis on Twitter, and Kyo was the only one to respond, in kind.

Situation #4

Kyo posted a cryptic picture of Shinya's video meeting with Mana in an Instagram Story and he has mentioned on Twitter at least once that he was watching Shinya Channel (the making of the FaFa onigiri).

In the same vein, Shinya took his failed attempt at needle-felting a pink bunny in March 2022 and turned it into a miniature hammer-wielding bunny in October 2022, in response to sukekiyo unveiling their Mosaic Shoujo PV which featured Kyo in the killer bunny suit.

Situation #5

This very old video of Kyo teasing Shinya by pinching the side of his dress, Shinya reacting by pushing Kyo a bit and Kyo falling into a robot dance in response.

Situation #6

The coffee maker. In one of the live talks held during the COVID-19 pandemic at concert venues, Shinya mentioned having a coffee maker which was of no use to him, and Kyo expressed interest in taking it from him. Later, in the Galacaa livestream talk between the two, it was revealed that Shinya had promised to give Kyo his coffee maker, but he never pulled through on that offer. Kyo, sporting a doodled face to hide his own, insistently questioned Shinya on this unreliability when the topic was brought up by fans in the comments. Shinya kind of struggled but ended up explaning that the coffee maker was really useless because of a defect, that it would not have been an appropriate gift anymore. But he forgot to update Kyo about it after he tried to contact the manufacturer. Kyo replied like: "Oh, alright then."

At some point, Kyo took the matter to Twitter, confronting Shinya about it with their respective member photos to illustrate the dialogue, and Shinya replied the same way.

Situation #7

In that same livestream, Shinya is so used to Kyo's bullshit by now that he completely ignores Kyo's doodle face sheet and casually leans forward to look past him and at the interviewer, sat on Kyo's right. After a while of this, the interviewer points out to Shinya that Kyo is insistently staring at him with this disturbing face, which is when Shinya becomes startled and nervously laughs upon realizing that, also making Kyo chuckle.

Situation #8

More often than others, Shinya and Kyo are documented chatting on the chairs backstage while they wait for everyone to be ready to start the show. Maybe there's something to be said of how they are the two members of the band to leave the stage the quickest, while Kaoru, Toshiya and Die stay for a while to throw picks.

Situation #9

Miscellaneous pictures of the two:

Situation #10

Apparently it was Shinya's earbuds that Kyo used to play with the cat (also Shinya's?) in this famous old video.

Situation #11

Other interactions on Twitter include commentary regarding the song battles that fans were voting on via that same website, during live broadcasts from their manager Fujieda on Galacaa. Kyo and Shinya were the only two members reacting to the songs that were pulled out of the box, Kyo sometimes replying to Shinya's own tweets wondering what he meant or outright questioning his preference.

Another interaction consisted in Kyo copying Shinya's tweets regarding the release of their Phalaris album and twisting Shinya's cute comments into hellish versions.

Situation #12

Probably a bunch of elusive comments throughout the years, but here's an example of something that Shinya said about Kyo in a magazine interview.

Situation #13

In Haiiro no Ginka vol. 100, the members were asked to send each other member five questions. Some chose to personalize them based on what they actually wanted to ask of the others, while a couple decided to send the same questions to all, but members were not told who the questions came from. Kyo picked up on that anonymous part of the game and when answering Shinya's set of questions, he ended each of his short answers with a second sentence that can either just be the Kansai dialect for: "Aren't you Shinya!", or in other dialects, translates more to: "Shinya, you bastard!" hahah. From what I saw, nobody else hinted at who they thought the questions came from in their answers. In reverse, Kyo took up two of his five alloted questions for Shinya with the simple statement: "You don't know you're dead yet!", a quote from Fist of the North Star which is highly intimidating as it hints that someone has defeated the character so easily and lightning-fast that they are a dead man standing, their body having trouble catching up with the reality that they were slaughtered. Shinya, in response to that repeated tease, stubbornly replies in his polite and formal Japanese that: "No, I'm not dead." Their Q&A with the other members were not nearly that quirky.

Situation #14

At his SERAPH birthday concert in 2023, Shinya said that his three treasures in life are:

DIR EN GREY

SERAPH

sukekiyo

Situation #15

Kyo replying to Shinya's post featuring a very old picture of Kyo (which was however respectfully hidden by Phalarisu-kun) by pulling out the oldest/youngest postcards of Shinya he could find, also commenting to paraphrase Shinya: "Postcards that probably no one has anymore." His own postcard depicting him peeks from underneath.

Shinya replied to that with: "I tried to look for it but couldn't find it 🥺"

Situation #16

On Twitter, Shinya posted a photo with other artists which he explained as: "Yesterday, we had a birthday celebration for everyone born in February and March 🎂 Happy birthday everyone 🎉🎉🎉"

To which Kyo directly replied: "I wasn't invited." (born February 16th)

And Shinya responded with: "The DIR EN GREY guys are a bit mean 🥺"

Kyo never replied to that.

Situation #17

Going to combine two things considering how long ago they were.

Shinya and Kyo were the first members of Dir en grey to meet, and the day right after I posted this compilation happened to be the 28th anniversary of when they first performed together.

There's also an anecdote that, way back then, no one in the band knew how to contact Kyo because none of them had his phone number, but eventually Shinya just casually revealed that he had it all along and said: "Oh I'll just call him"

Situation #18

Shinya and Kyo are the only members who are clearly dog lovers in the band, while Die and Toshiya are part of the cat team. Shinya used to have a dog (chihuahua?) and Kyo now has Pun-cha. Shinya recently wore a sweater with a dog on it.

Situation #19

In a tweet that Kyo has since deleted, he wrote that if there was one grudge he still held, it was that he never appeared on the cover of a Rockin'f magazine. Shinya also wasn't featured, so he added that while he doesn't have a grudge against them, he has declined interviews and comments for a certain magazine after that.

Situation #20

During their European tour 2024, Kyo and Shinya embarked in a playful spat on Twitter, seemingly out of boredom while traveling on the tour bus. It was funny the way it culminated in both of them forcing the other to subscribe to their fan clubs to find out more. On Kyo's side at least, I didn't see anything related to that on kyo-online for real hah.

Situation #21

Shinya took the time to snap a picture of Petit Brabançon playing on the Yunika Vision screens while he was out solving a game, then posting that on Twitter and promoting Petit Brabancon. " I heard Kyo sing while solving a mystery in Shinjuku"

He also made numerous mentions of the Petit Brabancon posters around Gorilla Hall in his video touring that venue:

... Did I miss any? And there will undoubtedly be more to come!

Thank you very much to shinyaburashka, mementoboni, lamenty45 and degtau for your help!

#wholesome-ish because then he goes and says that yukihiro is his favourite drummer whom he has always wanted to play with #while in active bands with Shinya and Mika #amongst other things... #but hey let's focus on the actual cute moments #Dir en grey #interactions #interaction #compilation #Shinya #Kyo #京 #twitter #instagram #meguro rock may kan #online event #livestream #gifs #video #translation #list #and at least it's not teasing that can be really uncomfortable and went too far #AKA I'm not doing this list for the other members #Youtube

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA for completely ignoring a very long and thought-out apology message?

TL;DR: Abusive ex sent me apology after two years of silence and I’m not sure I want to acknowledge it.

So I was in a very abusive relationship with my ex for around a year. I’m going to try not to go into too much detail, but I tend to ramble and this is a hard topic for me so I’m sorry in advance if this ends up super long.

When we started dating, it was great for the first six months or so. I noticed certain things that made me question if she could have BPD (intense jealousy, sudden mood switches, impulsivity, self-destructive behaviour) and encouraged her to speak to her therapist about it. She eventually did and was diagnosed with BPD, but she wasn’t able to get on medication for another few months. After that, everything seemed to just… completely spiral. She started to control who I could speak to (I was only allowed to be with friends for an hour, and if I was even a few minutes late she’d be blowing up my phone accusing me of cheating etc. and ignoring me for days), she wanted me to cut off every friend who didn’t like her or warned me about the relationship and would accuse me of disrespecting boundaries if I objected, she would shout at me 24/7 (e.g. we’d be talking fine, she’d tell me she had a headache, I’d say I was sorry, and she’d suddenly be yelling that she didn’t need my pity and that I was patronising her), she constantly tracked where I was and who I was with, she lied to me constantly about things both major and minor, and by the end of it she was physically aggressive. This eventually culminated in her cheating on me, me giving her another chance (zoinks), and her cheating on me again less than a month later with a man she knew had SA’d me in the past. After that I just couldn’t take it anymore and finally got the courage to leave.

This unfortunately made everything worse. She split on me - basically a BPD thing where your opinion on someone goes from love to hate or vice versa in an instant - and she made it her mission to make my life hell. For almost a year and a half after our breakup, she was sending things to my house, to my family’s houses, she was stalking my social medias and sending me death threats from burner accounts, all of her own social medias became solely dedicated to talking about me, and then the worst part - she knew I wanted to go to college to become a primary (elementary) school teacher, and so she called up the college I was going to attend and told them I was a pedophile. She went all out with this accusation and was posting it all over Twitter, messaging my friends, getting her friends to post it - it was crazy. Thankfully it did not actually affect my education because I explained what was going on and I had evidence that things she was saying happened were false, but it was a super terrifying and stressful time.

While that was going on, she used the fact I was an SA victim against me - at one point she told me to “shut up and go get raped again”, and another Tweet she made accusing me of being a pedophile was followed up with “Shame you’ll never get that teaching job, I hear they’re not so kind to people like you in prison”.

Making everything more confusing is the fact that every few months it’s like she’d switch back - she’d send me an apology message, tell all her friends it was a lie, get back in contact with me and tell me she was on meds and going to therapy and everything was getting better, and then a few weeks later she’d be posting about how abusive I was again and blocking me everywhere. It felt like there was nothing I could do - if I ignored it, she’d step it up to get a reaction, and if I did acknowledge it, she’d step it up anyway because I was reacting.

Finally, FINALLY, I threatened to get a restraining order and everything stopped.

Almost two years pass and nothing. I’m now happily engaged to a wonderful girl who was my best friend throughout that whole relationship and knew exactly how affected I was by it. I’m going to therapy, was diagnosed with PTSD, and have been slowly moving on. I still have nightmares about her, and sometimes things will get me (e.g. a few months ago I saw someone who looked like her on TV unexpectedly and had a panic attack), but things are good. Much better. I was thinking of it all much less, I wasn’t dedicating energy to it, I wasn’t even angry or upset anymore, it was just a past lesson I’d learned and didn’t need to worry about anymore.

Then last week I wake up to a message. Again, it’s been two years.

Now, this message was LONG. It was from my ex, apologising for everything she’d done. It was a genuinely nice message and clearly had a lot of thought in it. She said she knew it was selfish to message me when I’d moved on but that she had things to say for her own peace of mind. She said she was happy to see I was engaged, that she’s done a lot of self-reflecting and healing. She said she tried to date again and ended up “karma’d “ - that the relationship was scarily similar to ours but with her in my shoes this time - and that it had made her realise just how disgusting her actions had been and how badly she’d fucked me up. She made it clear she wasn’t looking for forgiveness or to reconnect, just to apologise.

Part of me is mildly skeptical because of the fact she’d apologised multiple times before and it never stuck, but the two year gap and the way it’s phrased makes me believe this is truly genuine. She seems to have matured and changed as a person.

Thing is, I just… can’t bring myself to respond. Every time I go to do it, I remember things she said or did to me and just can’t. I feel like if I just responded and said no hard feelings and explicitly told her I have moved on and am doing better, I could give her the same closure that this apology might eventually give me. It would be closing this chapter for good for both of us and I could just never think about her again.

And yet I just. Haven’t. I’m scared to open the window of communication again in any way, I’m scared it’ll be taken back, I’m scared that this will take me back to square one because she’s put herself back in my life (even tangentially) and now I’m thinking about her again after so long of trying so hard to heal.

So WIBTA if I just… didn’t acknowledge it? If I let her essentially wonder forever it it was ever seen or read because I just don’t know what to do about it, even if I’m potentially keeping closure from her for my own comfort?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[kabii-kins]

I'm going to be honest. I'm genuinely baffled-- like unphathomably IN AWE on the self-destructive thought process of spending BILLIONS OF DOLLARS TO ACQUIRE A SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORM only to just FUCK IT straight into the goddamn ground.

Firing everyone who once worked for the company before they had a chance to work for you. Considering turning the platform into fucking REDDIT when Reddit is a forum based social media while Twitter is more or less a microblogging platform. Invalidating the legitimacy of verification and as a result, MADE IT PAY TO FUCKING WIN AS A RESULT. Which became the biggest fucking joke on the internet-- by the way. Making Blocking and Muting other people functionally useless and Circles almost dead on arrival.

That's merely the surface of the shit he's done and it hasn't been a fucking year since he bought the damn platform. He lost money because of this acquisition without knowing shit about the professionals who ran the fucking company and "desperation" is written in his attempts on at least TRYING to break even.

You have to walk on fucking eggshells when mentioning him or anything against his ideals or his "vision" for the platform. And if you aren't tying your hair back and sucking him off, you're not even worthy of being listened to. Let alone have a platform to stand on.

Which begs the question-- what the fuck is even the POINT of getting Twitter if you're gonna make it but a broken shell of what it once was? To own the libs? To dunk on those sensitive snowflakes? Because the only fucking person who's a goddamn snowflake is the cuRRENT FUCKING CEO OF TWITTER.COM.

Before he became CEO Twitter had solidified its spot as an essential social media platform. The place where people go to learn things first. It was the quickest and easiest of ways to keep your audience updated and engaged. News broke there much more effectively and in a far more broader sense.

It was a tool.

A hub of information and socialization. And it although it was also a toxic cesspool, and still is, it was still a viable platform for anyone to be on. Even the people who don't deserve a platform and are generally really shitty people.

Never before have I seen such a hard fucking decline of a platform in my life. And I was here for the Tumblr Porn ban. I was there for when Deviantart sold itself out.

Cut your fucking losses, Musk. It isn't fucking working.

#long post #rant #twitter #twitterpocalypse #social media #elon twitter #elon musk #fuck elon musk

[twentytworoses]

Kinda find it hilarious how a lot of ppl compare Aventio to "Haikaveh but just in another universe". Although other than their designs having similarities, that's literally where the characters' parallels stop.

If we compare Ratio to Alhaitham, they couldn't be anymore different; throughout the leaks and what's already been shown in-game, Ratio is incredibly arrogant, overly ambitious and hinted to have hidden insecurities and dissatisfaction with himself despite having so many grand achievements. Whilst Alhaitham is comfortable with himself, his ambitions center with him living a peaceful and comfortable life (dude literally wants to step out from being grand sage and return to his dusty desk job lmao) and he's not arrogant, just mistaken as because he's blunt (and autistic)

With Kaveh and Aventurine: Aventurine is incredibly rich, a lot of people dislike him and don't trust him, has a shady ass and cunning personality, and he's arrogant too. While Kaveh's selfless and kind to a destructive point, he has a lot of issues with his self-value, and he's broke as hell. People like Aventurine Kaveh would fucking hate lmao. They do have something similar thou (apart from being both blond and fruity), and that's gambling with choices that could have high consequences. They're both risky when it comes to what they want, although Aventurine is smarter and intuitive with his life choices than Kaveh is.

Aventurine and Ratio's relationship isn't yet revealed much, I read somewhere in a leak post that their relationship is described as two coworkers who bicker and tolerate each other (I can't remember which post, it's in twitter).

I do enjoy the headcanon that Dr Ratio is a Haikaveh lovechild

#thoughts #idk i just wanted to post this #damn its been so long since i used tumblr #aventio #haikaveh

[joesalw]

I am tired of these Maylor theories that act like Taylor Swift wasn't completely in love with Joe at the beginning, that she did not have a great time with Tom Hiddleston, that she wasn't in love with Calvin at the start, or that she didn't long for Harry Styles for about two years and even said he would interrupt her wedding. I would bet that Taylor wasn't hoping for these men to be Matty. What it seems like is that Taylor imagined what it would be like to date Matty (why she would want to is beyond me), and then she got the opportunity to date him, but she didn't have the chance to get bored of him, so she will never have closure in that sense. I think this whole "Matty the one that got away" thing is very recent, as in the last year or so.

same i'm tired of seeing maylors trying to rewrite the history. there was even a thread on twitter on why 1989 is about matty😂.

imo sure they had a fling in 2014 but taylor was definitely in love with joe. she didn’t write reputation and lover for nothing! what actually happened is that joe didn’t fulfill her wish of getting married so she started resenting him. when jack reconnected taylor and matty in 2022, their relationship was already struggling and she opened up to matty about her insecurities about these things. so matty exploited her confessions and started love bombing her and promised all the things that joe wasn’t fulfilling (eg marriage and kids) so taylor being the loser she is, left her stable relationship for matty. he love bombed her all the way through and then suddenly dropped her out of nowhere (very much deserved) and ghosted her. also i'm not blaming this solely on matty either because taylor was also pleasuring herself while thinking about him, hence calling it a mutual phase of self destruction. all this to say taylor isn’t the victim she and her fans think she is! she made her own decisions, and now she's regretting them.

ps. she was still writing songs about joe while being with matty, she was so bothered that she arranged pap walks for her friends to publicly unfollow him one by one. she released you’re losing me. she was still crying during champagne problems. so that relationship wasn’t as deep as maylors are portraying it to be. as per her own words she took a temporary move on drug and is now dealing with the consequences

#anti taylor swift #anti swifties #swifties dni #being an ex swiftie i can actually comprehend what she's trying to say with her lyrics lol

[ririya-translates]

Domina

For Neji's birthday (a day late), Ishida posted a backstory for Domina on Twitter. It comes with a drawing and a BGM link as usual. The BGM song this time has English lyrics too. I'd really recommend checking it out, especially for those familiar with Neji's backstory.

This is also the only story we've gotten so far that requires reading the one prior for more context so please read Jire's story before this one. No winter play spoilers. I've done my best to keep formatting consistent with the original. Thanks to @himehikoshrine for looking over this for me.

While there was no status of nobility in Havenna, After forceful seizure Of the former Vena family territory, The rebel clan who overthrew them were the closest to this title.

The ones who stole away the Vena family lands, Welcomed in those with hidden wounds of guilt. They attacked merchants and settlements in the area, amassing considerable wealth.

Among them, were deserting soldiers who fled from the southern country.

After suffering defeat by the northern country, Some remnants of the southern army arrived on Havenna's shores. As a part of the rebel clan, they gained power and influence.

These army remnants gave themselves the name of Quatle. They gained power then fought relentlessly against the other clan members. In the end, both sides inflicted wounds on each other to the point of self-destruction.

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The Quatle Litus family, descendants of the Quatle line, Was the one family in particular That was unable to maintain their wealth and influence through the conflicts.

After being burdened with a tremendous sum of debt, The head of the household sold all 13 children And used the money to flee Havenna, Disappearing far into the southern lands.

Liz, youngest child of the Quatle Litus family, was sold to a struggling mugwort den. She readily tossed aside family pride and lived the life of a Havenna woman.

Years later, the owner of Pontartia fell for her on sight. She flattered him, started using the name Domina, And eventually took over the greatest mugwort den in Havenna.

I don't get Domina. (From the notebook of Kokuto Neji "Liz Quatle Litus")

Ishida's note: This is fanfiction by an original creator. What is written in the game itself is always canon. Towada reblogged the post as well.

(TL note: It once again uses the idiom 'wounds on one's shins'/すねに傷のある which typically means a guilty conscience but also might reference Sissia.)

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[mxmarsbars]

made a little analysis thread on twitter and thought I’d share it here too if that’s chill ^_^

anyways traffic!impulse using self destruction and the destruction of others as a way to cope with his own frustration and resentment throughout the life series: a messy ramble-y post because I’m crazy.

most of this behavior really only starts after third life. his destructive behavior before then is usually outward and not with malicious intent. instead, he hurt others in third life because he was asked to. it was a part of a greater plan he was undoubtably loyal to and that would later get him killed and tarnish his reputation for seasons to come.

that’s why in last life, he’s much more open to antagonistic behavior (which he barely partook in before and only would if asked of). this mostly includes all the stealing he did that season, the numerous break ins, and of course, spawning the wither. this could also include his personal insistence on becoming the boogeyman and even planning it out in advance (which would later get him killed, his own hubris). he was itching for it to be his turn.

it’s such a huge shift from how he acted in third life, and why? personally, I think it’s because of all the strain and pressure put on him by others and their disdain towards him. specifically the rumors spread about him and the reluctance of others to believe and trust him after what he’d done the season prior. which for some people is justified, like ren and etho, but for others, like bdubs, is not. and this was shown to upset impulse a lot, given how it resulted in him being thrown under the bus, even by his own teammates.

but he’s supposed to be nice and considerate and smart to make up for all he’s done, right? that’s why he sticks with his alliance the whole time and makes a point to be loyal to them and them only. but that doesn’t stop the resentment and anger boiling, and he can only take so much before he has to let off some steam, and destructive behavior seems to be a means to do so.

it turns from him doing bad things because he’s asked to to him doing it because he wants to, to cope. which is why when all else fails and the southlands fall apart, despite him taking the measures to prevent it earlier on, he helps grian spawn the wither, even with the risks and deaths. and he insists on doing it at best’s base, because they ruined him. it gets him killed. he should’ve been smarter.

it gets worse in double life, specifically when homewrecking is proposed. while he’s not the one to bring it up or start the rumors, he soon grows comfortable enough to start talking smack himself. him and bdubs deliberately try to ruin the relationships of others, and they tell themselves it’s to steal away half of each pair for their own benefit, but maybe there’s more to it. maybe they ARE projecting, just like joel had said.

it doesn’t help that impulse is having his soulbound questioned and bdubs “needs” a clock and the horns won’t shut up. when they’re exposed, he takes his destruction to the deep dark. he throws snowballs, he spooks unsuspecting people, he yells into the dark when he finds out his voice can trigger the sensors. throughout the season, he makes multiple efforts to cause distress in the deep dark, malicious intent or not. and maybe it’s to cope with the fact that bdubs keeps sending him down there or etho won’t stop yapping about how bdubs doesn’t want him or how bdubs put a major target on their backs.

and this is when self destructive behavior really starts, too. impulse gives away valuable resources when he realistically could’ve not, he takes risks he absolutely doesn’t have to take (despite how much he values his and, by extension, bdubs’s life), when he’s linked to the fishing rod sequence of death, all he says to bdubs is that it was fun while it lasted. and then he loses their first life trying to get a music disc.

whether he means to or not, he’s slowly killing himself and his soulmate, too. and eventually, by the time he’s red, he just gives in. he starts blowing horn (surely there’s some symbolism there), he terrorizes those better off than him, he wants to cause problems. yet there’s always still some humanity in him that shines through, regardless of his destructive ways of coping.

but this isn’t about that. before the final fight, he even grabs the golden apple him and bdubs had been stashing away, saying if they can’t win, no one can. he would’ve ate it. he should’ve ate it. yet he didn’t, and he died by bdubs’s hand again. more resentment grows.

by limited life, it’s obvious he’s open to dabbling into more chaotic pastimes. bdubs’s ignorance and unwillingness to see his flaws and apologize only fuels the fire. when he’s chosen as the boogeyman, he has a time with it. but he still has the mind to know not to hurt his team, even refusing to use skizz’s accidental death to cleanse himself. but he bombs bread bridge freely, somehow even getting tango and skizz to help him. it’s almost concerning how much fun he has with it.

then of course there’s the complete destruction of bread bridge, which he happily takes part in. and tango’s boogey kill on bdubs, in which he lures bdubs to his demise (something he had been itching to do for seasons). he amasses a huge kill count over the season, his first time murdering anyone since third life.

most of his behavior this season turns more outward, and he grows more keen on sustaining himself the more faith his team puts in him. he is also shown to hold other alliances much less dear than ties, even if they benefit him. this results in the betrayal of many, most notably mean gills in the finale. he fights like hell, he gets his final revenge on bdubs and ends his season, and yet it still isn’t enough.

he begs martyn to kill him, because he’s alone, and he’s scared, and he did all he was asked to do. but they keep him around, despite his pleas. he’s given the illusion of free will, a chance to win, to be given a fair fight. martyn slaughters him in cold blood. a cruel betrayal.

secret life feels like a reset, and most scores are settled, and secret tasks heavily dictate how the sessions go. he isn’t given the chance to cause mass destruction like he could the season prior. he’s not sure if he wants to. most of his mistakes are honest, no self destructive or malicious intent, same with his tasks.

he’s with a team he can trust and confide in. they help him. they care about him. his first two deaths are consensual and willing, something’s he’s never known. the season is rough, but he’s happy. he tries to use his trap as he’s being chased, risky as it was, a final act of stubbornness.

he dies, alone and scared, hearts quivering. nothing’s new. he’ll just have to be ready to cope again tomorrow. get some blood of his hands, whether it’s his enemies or his own.

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[foxo-lotl]

from twitter

blame the otdiaftg account for this

TW/THANKSGIVING MENTIONED/LOTS OF PAIN, ANGST, SELF BLAME.

Neil blaming himself for Thanksgiving.

He knows he shouldn't, it wasn't his fault and he'd do anything to take it back, but Andrew's words come back to him the November's following it in the years to come.

"You misunderstand. I wasn't asking, Neil. You helped create this mess. The least you could do is help clean it up. Where's your sense of responsibility?"

the words plague him, threatening to choke him all throughout the weeks.

He knows logically it wasn't his fault, he would never choose such a thing, but Andrew's words were like a knife, buried deep and leaving a bleed too hard to stop.

When Neil wakes up from a new nightmare full of blood and sirens, following it is always the belief that it was his fault.

and while he knows, logically, he couldn't have predicted it, it kinda was his fault, right? his fault for pushing, his fault for insisting, his fault for asking.

Neil doesn't sleep.

His eyebags match Andrew's now, match the dark skin like a sick irony, it makes sense that they'd match, right? Neil tells himself it's the least he can do, after all, he caused it, right?

Aaron starts being more volatile, screaming at the top of his lungs insults during games and practice, cornering Neil after class, demanding things like Neil to just leave, that's all he's good for right? so just go. Andrew won't miss him. He hates himself more at that, and even more when he dies grab his duffle and shoes, slowly slinking to the door in hopes nobody wakes up. all he has to do is get out and leave, and then he's gone, gone, gone, was never there in the first place.

He has the door creaked almost enough for him to slip out, when he hears feet rushing to the door.

He turns around and is met with Andrew's disappointed, almost panicked face. Neil thinks he can even see a little sadness.

Words are hard for Andrew right now, so Neil is surprised when he hears a strangled, choked out 'rabbit?'

he's a mess, hair messy, eyes squinting in the light, body tense, still wrapped in his blanket he's hardly left for the past few days.

he looks so much smaller, he's small already, but he does everything to make his presence larger, but now, in the morning sunlight, he looks tiny.

Neil waits for him to say anything else, but it's clear he can't get any words out.

Andrew reaches a hand between them, small specks of blood still under the fingernails from when Neil found him scratching at himself in sleep.

Neil's unsure what to do, surely Andrew doesn't want to touch him, right? he's the reason Andrew can't sleep, the reason every breath feels like knives in his throat, the reason for his near constant migraines, Neil causes nothing but pain.

Neil stares at his hand like it's an alien.

Andrew keeps his hand raised, looking to the door, the duffle, his shoes. He hadn't realised before, too tired and fuzzy from the for once peaceful sleep he was having. Great, Neil ruined that for him too, of course, he can bring nothing but destruction. Andrew's eyes return to the door, before meeting Neils. He looks so vulnerable, Neil can see the panic in his eyes, in the shaking in his jaw and hand he's still holding up. What hurts the most though, is the pained 'Neil' stabbing it's way out of his throat. It's gravely, panicked, forced and painful, voice sore, Andrew's not talked for days leading up to this.

Andrew stares at the door like it betrayed him, when really, he should be looking at Neil like that, right? I mean, Neil really did. He hurt him so bad, and then he let it happen again!

Neil doesn't realise he's crying until he hears it hit the wooden floorboard, and then he feels the tears rushing down his cheeks, warm and fast.

Andrew stares at Neil's face with shock, as Neil begins shaking.

Neil let's go of the door and drops his duffle, and Andrew uses his chance to push the door closed.

Neil finds himself sliding down the door to the floor, head in his hands, muffling his sobs.

Andrew slowly lowers himself to the floor, every movement taxing on his body, using every bit of energy he has left.

That's Neil's fault too.

He cries harder.

Soon, Neil's sobs are accompanied by words, apologies spilling from his mouth, how he's so so so sorry, how he wishes it was him, how he would go back and do it all over again, his he would take Andrew's place a million times before ever letting him step into that room, how Andrew was right, he caused it, and he understands that he's nothing, worth nothing and doesn't deserve to stay, he should just go, before he hurts Andrew again. all he can bring is destruction and pain. It's like a dam on his emotions burst and now he can do nothing to keep them at bay. Towards the end of all his admissions, he can only manage to choke out 'i should just die' before going silent and hyperventilating. Andrew just sits there, shocked.

Neil doesn't even realise the silent tears streaking his face until he's finished, and feels even worse for making Andrew cry.

He can't breathe, can only feel pain and pain and pain and it's worse than any stab he's ever felt.

He feels Andrew's hand rest on the back of his neck, and counts as high as he can in all the languages he knows.

He closes his eyes, and when he opens them again, Andrew's face is in front of his, cheeks red and eyes puffy

To his surprise, Andrew doesn't let go, hold tight onto his neck, slowly moving closer, resting their foreheads together, he croaks out a 'no'. Neil nearly reels back, thinking the no was for the touching Andrew initiated, but he meets Andrew's eyes and realises he means no, to everything Neil was saying, no to all of it.

Neil nods slowly, and watches as Andrew joins their hands, and starts to rise.

Neil rises faster, and pulls Andrew up too. Neil grabs his duffle, and for a second Neil sees the panic in his eyes, before Neil starts to walk to the bedroom.

Neil drops his duffle at the end of their bunk, before trying to release his hand from and Andrew's to climb the ladder to his bed. But Andrew doesn't let go, instead gently pulling to his bed.

Neil is surprised, Andrew can hardly stand touch right now, let alone sleep in a bed with someone else in it.

Still, Andrew leads him to the bed, only waiting until he needs to get in before letting go of Neil's hand.

He situates himself with his back against the wall, snuggled up in the blankets, before reaching a hand out to Neil.

Neil wants to climb in immediately, missing Andrew's presence and touch in the past few weeks, but he needs to be sure.

He asks 'yes or no?', meeting Andrew's eyes.

It's clear he's out of words, but still, he manages to whisper a yes whilst nodding.

Neil slowly lifts the covers, getting in, leaving a comfortable distance between them.

Andrew slowly reaches his hand out to Neil again, and Neil slowly twines their fingers.

Andrew pulls at his hand to encourage him to move closer, watching as Neil slowly shifts closer, breaths ghosting Andrew's face, meeting his eyes.

Neil sees the relief in them, contrasting his earlier panic, before he feels him slowly relax on the mattress beside him, watching as his eyes close and he settles into what is hopefully a peaceful sleep.

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