#while we were praying

[tittyinfinity]

I just remembered that up until 5th grade, all of the sports teams I was in weren't separated by gender. I played basketball and baseball with boys. And we did just fine.

It wasn't until 6th grade when they segregated it by gender. It didn't make sense to me. I was now in softball because of baseball, because "softball is for girls" and "baseball is for boys" (which confused me bc my dad was on an adult softball team).

Now, my brother's all-male team didn't win a single game. My all-girls team won every single one.

They presented the boys' team with this HUGE trophy, and if you wanted replicas of it, they were $30 each.

My team was presented with a very small trophy. Extras were $5.

That's when I decided gender-segregated sports were bullshit.

#my mom went off on my brother's coach for that #said that it wasn't fair that my brother's team got to celebrate more than us despite actually winning #(it was through the same sports program) #she said she wasn't gonna pay $30 for a trophy whenever he was a horrible coach #bc the boys he had when they were on my team with my coach did just fine #their coach was this horrible egotistical guy who would scream at tbem for not doing good enough #when he didnt even KNOW HOW TO PLAY and was just there bc his kid was praying #my coach was this cool ass dad that was very calm and gentle with us #the coach was like ''oh so you don't think your son deserves to celebrate?'' #my mom was like ''he should but he needs to learn that he can't be rewarded for losing while #my daughter is barely rewarded for winning and i don't want to teach him that gender inequality is okay'' #(my mom is cool af sometimes) #we both quit playing after that

[bluesidedown]

Gratitude time

#today im doing it because it's easy and im overflowing with thankful things #very often i do it because it's hard #probably good to remember it CAN be easy #anyway #thankful for my team im gonna be travelling with and the enciuragement they are #its good to remember i am not on this ceazy ride alone #thankful for a genuinely good rich fulfilling day of class/prep #and the stories of God’s amazing provision from an incredible middle eastern guy who shared with us #and for the moroccan lady i met who now somehow is cooking us lunch tomorrow so now i get to try moroccan food #and her hospitality #and for a good comfy bed and the gift of a private room this qeek #and wifi cuz hey that's a bonus (not to be taken for granted this next month) #and a remarkable number of solutions for dumb lil problems #and for the fact that my goodby with The Boy tonight (the big goodbye. for 8 months) #which both of us were dreading because yknow the Big Sad #didnt actually hit either of us emotionally while we were together #which was such a gift. we got to spend 3 hours together just being peaceful and present and having good conversations #and thinking about how to do dating well this year #and praying together #and it was just. so good #and i am so so glad i get to date him this year and share this crazy thing with him even though itvis gonna be really really hard sometimes #and he made me a bracelet to take with me 🥺

[jils-things]

SKADJKAJFKSFSAA content warning: embarrassing moment during my dinner out... /lh

#so - my dinner party right? while eating - i couldnt help but notice the waiters that attend to our tables were... young and nice looking #SAGFHHJAHJGSDSAGAS LISTEN JUST LISTEN #one of them stood out to me - he just looked.. really good looking #i promise you i dont fall easily irl -- but this guy just caught my attention #he had the whole waiter outfit though it was more casual - i frowned noticing that he didnt have a nametag on like the other workers ASDDJA #everytime i passed by - i would glance at him and just.. idk appreciate him adjsahsjfksfs im so sorry if this sounds weird HELPLASDAWHA #he just kept visiting our table since there were many of us and i would just smile when he pops up #now when everyones done eating - he would pick up their plates and bro. he took one plate in front of me and i was not ready for it SDFGSHF #picked up the dish next to my sister and i was like ASDAHFJSDAGSD (BREATHE) #BUT YOU KNOW WHAT GOT WORST? (OR BEST?) #IT WAS GETTING LATE. THE RESTARAUNT WAS CLOSING UP AND THE WAITERS KINDA SLOWED DOWN WITH THEIR PACE #they were moving the chairs back in order. the guy i like decides to sit down. and hes there. just breathing #SUDDENLY HE STARTS TO REMOVE HIS BOWTIE AND I WAS LIKE.OH OKAY OKAY. OH #i thought that was it BUT THEN NOOOO HE UNDOES TWO OF HIS BUTTONS AND I SAW HIS COLLAR BROOO I WANTED TO GO HOME SO BAD #AND THEN WE WOULD ACCIDENTALLY MAKE EYE CONTACT WHAT KINDA FUCKIN WATTPAD STORY IS THISSSSSSSS #I WAS SO . EMBARRASSED BUT ALSO LIKE AKSJDAKJFS WHY IS HE SO FINE HHHRRR #i was legit praying to just think back to steven like i dont know how to handle this genuinely ahjdfksafhsfsa #what a day that was...... #~ rambling #man i hope this never happens to me again /lh

[isa-ah]

been following you since PRE bubblegum karkat days and it’s been really nice watching you grow and heal and whenever i see you on my dash and think of your growth it reminds me of my own healing journey. i find that really nice

HAHA that was AGES ago dude. my god. i cant believe youre still around, that was like, the worst of it LOLOL weve both probably come a looong way since then, yeah. life used to be abysmal but now ive got my hubby and mother in law and were moving to nola next month so theres nothing to fear =')

#we found the perfect house in the perfect neighborhood in the perfect part of the city so #we are hoping and praying. our sickass real estate agent did a walkthru yesterday and said #'its been on the market for a while so if you put in for it youll probably get it' #very exciting news theres even a patio we can screen in EASILY for our cats #right outside our bedroom door! it would be perfect for entertaining! #were finally going to make irl friends!!!!! sdkjksdjfksd #i had a couple freak friends in phoenix and like 2 cool friends but like. mostly. freaks. #so im hoping to make real actual friends this go round cause we sure as hell didnt out here in the sticks of al #yippeeeeeeee #babe is also going to get a job so i can take a break bc ive been doing coms to support us for years now and its STRESSFUL #im gunna get to go on a small vacation and kick back like #life is so good #im so excited to rest and chill #im gunna sew!! so much stuff!!!! #maybe ill even list some on here for people to buy like i just want to make so many little dudes all the time #but i dont have the time or energy to devote to that bc making patterns takes time and materials #IDK IDK TOTALLY OFF TOPIC #i dont talk about my daily life much actually its usually just specific shit so im taking the opportunity to say. #i grew up in a VERY bleak way. brother were talking moldy food bank food house rotting both my guardians so so sick #dropped out of middle school to be a fulltime caregiver lost both of them anyway #then a bunch of falling out with my family etc etc i had NOTHING going into my twenties but a FUCKTON of trauma and mistrust #and now im heading for my thirties and i am the healthiest and happiest i have ever been in my entire life #i look great i feel great i do pretty good for myself and the people around me #i love love love my friends im t4t gay married i have a cat thats like a pokemon partner. to me. its perfect #yes weve made a lot of plans that have fallen thru and were not where we thought we would be by now #but honestly? honestly? my life is really great. were broke as fuck but we get by and we love each other and thats whats UUUUUUUP #youll get there! just keep going! you have no idea what kinds of opportunities youll be offered in your life that can change everything

[avatardoggo]

I HAVE FEELINGS FOR A BOYMAN

#sooooooooo BASICALLY i haven’t really been as active as normal bc of school and yk taking 5 courses is not for the weak but i am strong in #Jesus Name AMEN!! so this update might seem a bit random but ya we move. sooo this guy isn’t to be confused with pool table guy from october #that guy is cool and all but we only ever talk about anime and he leaves me on delivered a lot sooo on to the next ig but this guy that i #have developed Feels for issssss hmmm well call him Friendly Giant ™️ (FG) bc he’s like taalll (6’1 ish?) and dark skin and cute and all but #like he looks intimidating but then has the softest deepest voice and it’s all like aaaawwwwww #but basically he’s just this big sweet guy and at first i thought we were just friends and all but then yk you kinda can’t beat the Just #Friends allegations when you ft call a girlie up on CHRISTMAS bc she’s trying to figure out how she’s going to cross the boarder BY HERSELF #bc her siblings are of no help AND THEN when said girlie ft calls you the next day yall stay on the phone for 4(!!!) hours and THEN you offe #r to reach her how to drive and you brought her soup when she got her wisdom teeth surgery and when she bought something using your prime u #said she didn’t need to pay you back and when she insisted said FG GUY SAID AND I QUOTE “LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU FOR ONCE 🤯 #LIKEEEEE #all this while tho i was in fairytale land thinking about how he’s such a great friend and la dee daa bc i didn’t think i was his type and #all that but then i was praying last night and the i was like Holy Spirit do i like this man? and He was like yes and you’re trying to #rationalize your feelings but you like him and he likes you #so nooowwww i’m all like 🙂👍🏾🥳😳😳😳😳😳😳 #YK?????????!!!!!! #but ya that’s the latest update 😚 #i like a guy and he likes me 🥹😶😃👍🏾😳🤯 #mutuals my beloved <3 #vk overshares in the tags

[soupforstars]

I find it genuinely hilarious how many signs there were pointing to us being a system from ages ago... As the host whos been here the longest I'm surprised I didn't look into it sooner, like I SERIOUSLY wondered on MORE THAN TWO SEPERATE OCCASIONS as a teen whether I had DID, but brushed it off both times because I thought "oh I'm not traumatised enough" and "you have to experience blackouts and time jumps and I haven't so I can't" (spoiler alert, I definitely was incredibly traumatised and I definitley have had blackouts before but even then I didn't know that those weren't fully necessary for a diagnosis).

And this is without getting into "my" love of any media that involved characters with alter egos, "multiple personalities", etc. Like I LOVED the Jekyll and Hyde musical when I found it, my favourite Total Drama character was Mike (the one with DID but like. when people still knew it as MPD. also he wasnt the best rep lol), I loved the Markiplier and Jacksepticeye egos, for a short time I was into Sander Sides, I had full on "characters" that were "aspects of my personality" but also next to them was just. My actual sona? Completely seperate from them, which actually represented me?

I just really thought I liked media with alternate egos/personalities but methinks the call was coming from inside the house sdjshsnsjsbdjdb

#talking tag #🌒 tag #any other systems have that kind of experience?? #mostly adressing traumagenic systems soz endos i just have no idea how you all work /lh #i only realised it this year thanks to anti's help and even then we were bamboozled lmfao #uhhh idk how to tag this and im scared to tag too much svdbsbsb #did system #osdd system #dissociative identity disorder #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #i hesitate to use the tags 'actually did' cus even tho we're medically reconised we're still technically not diagnosed and- #-i really do feel that sweet sweet (/s) imposter syndrome + host denial kicking in #brain is silly ;w; #wishing i could be like anti and just not have anxiety #its crazy. i can feel how much less anxious he is when hes fronting and how easy it is for him to brush off anxious thoughts like #if he wasnt constantly in a state of mild sensory overload all the time i think he'd be too powerful /hj #i feel bad for him tho :c he loves fronting but its sensory hell for him #not to mention he has really bad heat tolerance which is ok for now while its winter in aus but we dont have an aircon so- #-when it becomes summer hes praying we get out of emergency housing by then so he doesnt have to suffer all day in the heat #sjdbsjbdbd adhd train of thought go off i guess

[kyghostly]

i need to protect every teenage girl and kill all teenage boys.

#Genuinely I feel like I was just starting to feel comfortable going out with friends again #And then a group of 10-15 boys my age came over and started harassing us #Telling us “oh what we would do to you” #And following us in the dark #Luckily a group of nuns came by and then they backed off and talked to them #But I have never felt more anger and fear in my life. #the fact that this happens to every girl is just. #I rlly RLLY want to look more masculine and pass as a boy so these things don't happen to both me and my friends #the fact that it all happened near a church? while everyone was inside and praying and probably not paying attention? #The metaphors write themselves #As usual my mom is no help with telling us that they were just fooling around #She did give SOME advice but no comfort so 😑 #I rlly just. Sigh. I am so so tired #kyro.txt

[lightgaswaterelectricityrent]

the only blessing for a meal I ever learned was for everyone to hold hands and emphatically bounce them up and down while everyone rhythmically says "blessings on the meal"

#wellll except we had to pray before lunch every day at school but I don't even remember what they said exactly #my aunt asked me to say a blessing at her house a while back and I said something so weird 😭😭 literally didn't even mention God #I was like I thought this was a blessings on the meal family??? #we were all in a state at the time she probably didn't know what she was even asking either

[aria0fgold]

Bro... what happened to my copy of OMORI...

WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE THAT??? I use 2x Resolution, Windowed mode (I have a fear of putting anything in fullscreen). And the last time I played the game, it did not look like that. It looked like that when I booted it up and thought loading a random save might fix it maybe but no.

This ^^^ is an old screenshot from last time I played where there's no unnecessary black void wasting space.

SO WHAT HAPPENED TO IT NOW??? THERE'S A VOID EVERYWHERE! I didn't touch this game for nearly a year bro, I also didn't touch any of my Steam settings so what the fuck is that.

#aria rants #i was thinking of finally revisiting OMORI but i aint playing this game like that bro. the black borders aint even balanced ugh... #its also either that horrendous looking thing or 1x res which is the tiniest lil box i aint playing with smth as tiny as that #also the reason why i have a fear of putting anything in fullscreen is that in the past we had a different pc #it bluescreened once while i was playing osu! and bluescreened another time while i was watching a vid on fullscreen #and no matter what game or even just a youtube video. the moment i put it on fullscreen itll start lagging and freeze for a bit #and i just start praying that itll recover long enough for me to get the thing off fullscreen so i wont have to ctrl alt del #all bad things happening whenever i play or watch smth in fullscreen that i just have a slight trauma of it #so i never play a game or watch a vid on fullscreen at all even in this current pc #cuz ngl even if i had to put smth in fullscreen for a bit my heartrate just shoots up so much id be scrambling to get it windowed #tbf i think our old pc is alrdy gettin in on its years when it started getting problems but the absolute horror it gave me when #it bluescreened for the first time and it just kept going downhill will never leave my mind. #it was also the first time i saw a pc actually bluescreen. it aint even instant. there were glitchy colourful lines appearing #and i couldnt move my mouse. ctrl alt del didnt work either. the lines kept increasing. panicked so hard i called my sister #i dont remember what happened after. dunno if the pc blacked out entirely to show a bluescreen after or if it showed before blackin out #so anyway our old pc gave me some insane pc trauma that i still fear fullscreen to this day

[cruell-summers]

mexico city night 3 WON the surprise song race of the entire international leg. idc what happens next I can sleep peacefully every night knowing I was in the crowd when Cornelia Street/YOYOK happened. I'm never getting over this wtf

#taylor swift we forgive you for your sins (rwylm in santa clara) #IT'S JUST. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. #I HAD COMPLETELY GIVEN UP ON YOYOK #the first time she sang it i held hope bc she could repeat it #but when she sang it in LA i just knew it would be a while before she did it again #me and my uncle had an entire joke about how CORNELIA STREET was pretty much all we had left #all the time we were waiting to get in we were joking with other ppl about how we had to get cornelia street tonight #heck my grandma even prayed we would get it (i'm not even joking and the fact it worked is lowkey making me think there is a bigger force) #AND WE ACTUALLY GOT IT. AND YOYOK LIKE HOW TF DID WE GET YOYOK JUST. WHAT. #I GOT TO SCREAM 'I GAVE MY BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS FOR THIS' #IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I WAS BAWLING MY EYES OYT #I don't remember anything between yoyok and anti-hero bc I was crying so fucking much it was that bad #this was the best concert ever i don't think anything will top it #i'm gonna need like 9 years to process it #📀: lover #📀: midnights #🎤: taylor swift #cornelia street #you're on your own kid #yoyok #lover #midnights #taylor swift #the eras tour #the eras tour latam #swifties #cee speaks into the void #cee goes to the eras tour

[juusasu4evagrrl]

Genuine question, does anyone want to hear about naruto from the prospective of a Liberian person grappling with the generational trauma of a brutal civil war or is that too heavy??

Like there's, I like sasuke cause he's a cool dude, very wholesome do tell, and then there's, I like sasuke cause the government also tried to eradicate my people group that one time and holding empathy for that dumbass kid teaches me to examine a my own experiences with compassion, honestly what a downer like who cares.

I don't know thoughts???

#do i even wanna speak on it #maybe i should just rewatch pray the devil back to hell give my dad a hug and tell him how proud i am of him #on second thought #maybe we should go the naruto route #like i promise their are a lot of wacky connections between the warfare in naruto and the liberian civil war #general butt naked eating hearts kakuzu also eating hearts #Samuel doe ( may he rest in pieces in someones digestive track while his soul burns in hell) and danzo #the thing i like about connecting fandom to my life is that it teaches me thing that provide empathy in spaces where it did not naturally #exist but the thing is i dont want to have empathy for a lot of those hos and i think thats valid actually #i think its important to bring our personal live into fandom though cause its all we really have #idek i think it would be best to keep the real world seperate from fandom in this case but #my dad just completed a trip to Liberia for the first time in 30 years (round of applause pls) for the first time since the war has ended #a confilct that started when he was my age (younger actually) and ended a month after my birth and has left so much instability who knows #if its ever really over #were all struggling to come to terms with the Liberia left behind by those events the family and friends we leave behind #and i feel like it would be easier to talk project it all onto stupid lil alien ninja wars instead of talking about it irl #i love sasuke cause i deeply relate to his struggle even though im a generation removed #but i feel like this fandom would not be receptive to the way i would disscuss his character if i made that connection in an analysis #so maybe ill just stew in my emotions a little longer and when i go back to Liberia this summer wth the fam ill decide weather to make #that post or not onece and for all #no that'll be perfect actually cause then i'll be able to make it a post for liberian independence day #ughhh like i don't be wanna talk about it irl but i don't feel this would be a good outlet either #naruto commentary in relation to the liberian civil war sounds like a dope essa but should i write it??? #probably not but we'll just have to see #thoughts feelings opinions?? any other Liberian naruto fans on here??? pleas siblings put some sense in me #naruto #not naruto #god i don't even wanna make this post lets see how long she stays up #im writing too many naruto analysies rn anyways lemme worry about that first

[broken-academia]

I swore you mentioned being raised by religious sisters/nuns. What was that like?

my childhood was asdfghjkl complicated but! yes i did live with them at their convent for a couple years. here was the average weekday!

-> wake up at 5am, leave by 5:30am, Sisters say the Divine Office on the way to school

-> Mass at 7am, short breakfast of pumpkin bread/granola at 7:45am

-> School rosary at 8am, school until 3pm

-> on Thursdays, visit the elderly and say a rosary with them at 4pm

-> help the Sisters with what they need until about 5pm, get in the car and back to the convent, Divine Office on the way back

-> Chores/Homework until 6pm, my chore was getting the eggs from the chicken coop, skimming the milk, cleaning up the bathroom, things like that

-> 6pm dinnertime, while we eat, a Sister reads from a spiritual book

-> 7pm: clean up dishes, do more chores, homework and free time until 8:30pm

-> 8:30pm: night prayers and lights out at 9pm.

#we weren’t obligated to say the Divine Office with the Sisters but we were quiet while they said it because we’re all in the same car #also ummmm #there was no TV except on Friday/Saturday/Sunday but tbh we never noticed because the day was packed with other things #on Saturdays it was chores day and we would bake or help with other things #and then Sunday was Sunday! #catholic #2022 #asks #ask #on Saturdays we’d also go for a walk and pray the Rosary then

[lottiecrabie]

well pray for MY soul🤭🤭🤭

this title is soooo accurate bc you guys will rly have to all pray for me so i get a chance to see the pearly gates

#god: well you were blacklisted but we just got an influx of people vouching for u so i guess u can come in for a while…. #pray for my soul #ask

[lhrry]

x

#tbh over years we’ve had SO many moments where we were like oh yeah so louis is bringing F up and they’re ramping it up again to end it #so so many times some of which are even more recent like the walls era #so i’ve been repeatedly saying that i’d like to think that’s what they’re doing now with the interviews #and i can guess a few scenarios as to how they’d go about it all now (although i did expect them to keep eleanor around at least for a #while after bbg ends so i’m really curious to see how they’re going to work with that one #+ what’s going to happen with it in general bc last time i checked she was still following him) #so i’m really keeping my expectations low because we literally have been there #but there is sth happening for sure and i want so desperately to think it’s good #the checkered outfits of HL that were complementary as well and we even predicted it are sending me #(also they seem really in tune with the fandom rn and idk if these are coincidences but it’s fun) #the way they’ve both been so happy especially since the time around Amsterdam:) is sending me as well #like they both have been glowing recently and louis wore blue sun and the postshow song was a thousand years today like???? ok you sap #and the interviews and pap pics were so weird and i still dont know whether i’m sold on it being only bc of the tickets #so anyway i do think sth is happening and i am sideeyeing the august 4 date a bit more intensely now skmsk #or well the 7s lately i have also been thinking about the 7s sksmsk #but it will be interesting to see what happens #(and whether anything at all #but i think it will at least in connection to E because that’s hardly a glitch) #and i really really am wishing hoping praying for the best despite having been in this situation so many times because #he deserves to start off lt2 promo with a clean slate so much

[s1ck-b1tch-2]

While we’re living in difficult, scary times, it’s important to take the time to be Jewish and happy. It’s Tu’Bshvat!! The trees are older! These amazing plants create food from the sun and water! And we gather each year to celebrate these beautiful plants. These antisemites will never take this away from us.

#I think about the story of Chanukkah #while we were being prosecuted and killed #we resisted #we learned #we prayed #and we survived #and this is not the only time! #we have overcome and will again!

[myatlantispoets]

I had the weirdest fucking nightmare lmao

#like i just repeatedly got lost #first with my grandma while we were tryibg to save this dog in an accident or smth?? #and then i was trying to run away from a creep #and then i got lost whilw trying to go home and i was at my uni but it was flooded and then i waa flying above my city centre and everyone #was in like historical clothing and thwre was this procession of priests and they made me pray to these weird #royal priests on thrones but i refused to. but then i was crying with the like the woman?? #and then i never even managed to return home but i was so scared i kwpt going back #anywaya ywah #personal #weird dream