#wish i could just hug someone

[v-67]

Do you remember him standing on the ledge after when Johan told him that what would he do if he finds out that no one wants him

And he's standing on the edge of that ledge

With that look in his eyes

Questioning everything

Slowly being pulled into the pit of despair, which ironically he couldn't even feel, or recognise?

He didn't jump off that ledge, he never wanted to die

All he ever wanted, was someone to want him.

To just, lovingly, and warmly, want him.

And then Mr. Grimmer came

And took him off that ledge

And hugged him from behind.

Held him

And told him

That he was born in this world because someone wanted him

And he cries

Holding onto that child.

He cries, and he questions Tenzo 'what is my expression?'

And Kenzo replies

'You're crying.'

Right now, I feel like that child and I feel like Mr. Grimmer. I'm stuck on that ledge, but I don't have Mr. Grimmer.

I wish I could be enveloped into that hug. I wish. I...wish. I really. really. wish.

Edit : got my periods, hormones were all over the place. I'm okay🌻

Not that anyone's really reading but also more of a side note to myself. Tumblr has become more of a personal diary thingy.

#grimmer #wolfgang grimmer #wolfgang #johan monster #monster anime #monster #writeblr #random #tumblr #writerscorner #writer #anime #feelings #heart feels too heavy #wish i could just hug someone #or wish someone pat me on my head and told me everything will be okay #i wish i could just #not exist at all #tenma kenzo

[cerise-on-top]

Hiya! May I ask for a fluff alphabet for Price, if you haven't done that already. Since I saw in a recent post you only do 8-9 letters at a time now (which is okay!), may I specifically ask for: A, B, C, F, G, H, N, & Q? Thank you! 💗

Hey there! Sure you can! I've been in the mood to write something for Price anyway, so this came at a good time ^^

Fluff Alphabet for Price

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

On the one hand, he really loves going out to do something with you. Something along the lines of the occasional short hike, taking care of your shared garden or even just taking a stroll through the city, taking in all the sights and finding new ones you weren’t previously aware of. Those are things he likes to do when he’s been home for a while now. However, if he’s gotten home not too long ago then he’d much rather just stay in and sleep a little bit. Will want to cuddle you or just have you be his background noise. Don’t be mad at him if he dozes off while you’re watching a movie together, he’s just extremely tired and needs that rest.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

He admires how resilient you are. Price knows that life isn’t easy, that it always makes an effort to throw one impossible thing after another at you, but you never seem to give up. No matter how rough life gets, no matter how often it knocks you down, you always get up, dust yourself off and continue to smile. Even if it really took its toll on you, you strive to make your life better. Although it may get you down when you’ve had the worst day of your life, you still won’t stay down forever. You do what you can, and that’s what Price loves about you.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

When you’re sad he’ll give you a hug, provided you’re okay with it. He’s a very good hugger, his hugs are very comforting and warm. Afterwards he’ll put on your favorite movie or series and watch it with you. If enough time has passed and you still feel down, then he’ll cook something you really like. Although he knows he can’t make the sadness go away forever, he’ll try to temporarily cheer you up. If you need to talk, if you need some advice, he’s also your man. If you have a panic attack then he’ll try to calm you down by taking you to a location with few people. Price can talk for a while if he needs to, so he’ll ask you to focus on his voice. Might also give you a rather simple task to take your mind off of things, such as counting backwards from 100.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

If it’s you, then he would forgive pretty easily, as long as it’s not something too big. If you accidentally knock down a mug he likes, then he might sigh and be annoyed, but he’ll forgive you. If you cheat on him, then he won’t. He’s usually calm and collected, even while fighting. Sure, he could be aggressive towards you and snap at you, but he loves you, so he tries not to. It’s sort of obvious when he is annoyed, his sentences become much shorter and he’ll actively try to get away from you. Won’t yell at you, won’t do any erratic movements either, but if he’s too angry then he’ll simply walk away from you until he’s calmed down.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

Yes, he is aware and he is very grateful. How could he not be? You have the patience of a saint when it comes to him. He knows it’s rough to be with someone who is part of the military, he’s away more often than not, but you still decided to stay with him. You cook for him when he’s tired, you draw him a bath when he’s sore, you reassure him when he feels like you deserve better than him. You’re so much more than what he deserves, he doesn’t feel like he could ever repay you for everything you’re doing for him. He tries, though, but it’s never enough. Price could give you the universe and it wouldn’t suffice.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

Aside from the obvious, such as military intel, he doesn’t really hide anything from you. Price doesn’t see the point in keeping secrets from you. You’re together, aren’t you? You deserve to know just about anything about him. He might not tell you everything from the get go, but once you’re close enough you can ask him about anything. You wanna know about his time as a private? Sure. How he came to be a captain? Yeah, he can talk about it. Just ask and he’ll likely tell you. But in the same vein he hopes that you trust him enough to tell him just about anything as well.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

He doesn’t really use very many nicknames. Just the classic ones, such as “love”, “sweetheart” and “dear”. Sometimes he feels the urge to call you “sunshine”, but he usually represses that since that’s what he’s called his soldiers before. As much as it would fit you, he tries not to bring work home. He likes to call you by your name too, though. But aside from that there’s nothing he really calls you.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

He can keep calm in just about any situation, so he won’t lash out on you. He has an air of authority to him, so it’s not too often that someone is being a dick to him. And that extends to you as well. Price is a well respected man, so not very many people will come up to you and demand something from you. You, too, will be respected by most people, he’ll make sure of that. Regardless of whether you’re shy and timid or loud and boisterous, no one will bad mouth you. Price can fight, he will protect you. He will also fight for your honor if he needs to. He may have self restraint most of the time, but no one should ever talk badly about his partner.

#cod #cod x reader #john price #john price x reader #I didn't think I'd receive any more requests for the fluff alphabet but I don't mind either #I think a hug from Price could heal broken bones #okay that's an exaggeration but I do believe that his hugs would be so very healing. he's warm he's tall he's strong #what more could you possibly want? I've been talking about hugs again a lot as of late haven't I? but I just can't help it they're so good #I hate it when men touch me but I'll make an exception for some of the cod men. I am just so touch starved #some praise from Price would also make me feel better. just a small “you're doing so good love” and I could keep going #I've also commissioned someone to draw Price for me. once I have the full tf141 set I'll post it #I already asked her to draw Ghost and Soap #now only Price and Gaz are missing #I asked for the four of them with a turtle each. turtles are just such cute and precious little creatures #definitely my favorite animals. I wish I could give one a little kiss on its head. but alas there's salmonella to worry about #anyway Price with a turtle. cute. show stopping. very much needed in my life #I don't care about canon they will be turtle owners and love and care for them. they will build them nice things and take pictures #they send each other unsolicited turtle pictures

[castrotophic]

you know i kept seeing everybody's posts about hannibal baby trapping will with abigail but omg i did not see it until now... trou normand is genuinely insane... hannibal literally said ?? we are her fathers now????? and will was like yeah so true guess i have to lie directly to jacks face and be an accomplice to murder for you guys!! anyway the parallels between lawrence wells and will are driving me crazy rn as well bc like. wells' only act as a father was to destroy his son... and now will is a 'father'... and hes going to do everything he can not to destroy his daughter... im throwing up im insane... trou normand also made me hate jack crawford with such a fiery passion its actually insane. like, first of all he needs to take will off of duty because he is soooo obviously unstable and has literally told jack and hannibal multiple times and hannibal is like 'will you need to stop doing this to yourself' and alana bloom tells him again and so he goes to jack and is like 'hey im unstable and insane' and jack is like '🤨willllll do u need to tell me something bbg🤨🤨🤨' like GIRL he JUST DID please take him off duty... also the way he questioned abigail about nick boyle was sooooo not cool. like yeah i know she actually did everything he thinks she did lmao but i do NOT appreciate how mean he was when he actually has no real evidence that shes done anything. also shes literally my babygirl daughter and i love her and support all her murdering. anyway last takeaway from this episode is that i know hannibal is an insane psychopathic serial killer but ??

this scene??? lost my mind. lost my entire mind. hes literally her dad now. yes he does know what monsters are he literally IS a monster but like. this just makes me feel like he loves her. i have no idea if he does but ohhhh boy it sure seems like it. overall im totally rooting for hannibal+will+abigail to go have a little murder family and i know they wont but man a girl can dream

#also i want someone to hug me like that #would not complain if it was hannibal but yk #ill be so real during that scene i genuinely thought 'i wish hannibal was my dad' #i need therapy #just like will tbh #hmmmm wonder who could be my therapist...... #hannibal #hannigram #hannibal lecter #will graham #abigail hobbs

[gibbyslounge]

been feeling very crazy over "to whoever wants to hear" because dream to me is already the epitome of wearing your heart on your sleeve and embracing everyone and everything that comes your way and just very pure love, that the concept of the drEP being a further extension of this makes my brain and heart feel like its gonna explode. his letter addressed "to whoever wants to hear" is not about himself, but about telling people to focus on all the moments and people that build you up instead of the ones that make you fearful or sad because those moments and people are what matter in the end. he tells whoever wants to hear to “be yourself” because the people who make you feel like you’re on Everest will love you for whoever and everything you are. this is the message that dream has always spread. in an album about his own life and stories he continues to instill the hope that he can make someone’s day or life better. he spreads so much love and wraps whoever wants to hear in it

#im so proud of him my chest literally hurts should i call someone #i cant imagine how hes feeling it seems like hes been working on this for a rlly long time ;) #im so ready for the ep and to stream it and do everything for it bc it sounds so gooddd and i loveee dream #but hes also impacted my life in so many ways its ac v crazy #like i dont think anyone would believe dream mc youtuber has helped me feel like i could be loved for just me lol #i wish i could give him the biggest hug he deserves the world #dreamwastaken #dreamblr #dreammysunshine

[statementlou]

It’s too bad that some people have to ruin a nice thing. Louis is going to places that really don’t get a lot of big concerts. He’s going out of his way to reach these places and probably isn’t making a whole lot of money, and in return some people are being so gross. We all know that there are the stalker crew that follow the tour and fight local fans to get to the barricades, so odds are high they’re part of the problem we’re seeing now. I wouldn’t blame him if for the next leg there is no more barricade run.

While I'm aware that most people aren't as chronically online and tracking Louis' every mood and movement as I am, at this point even a mild engagement with the fandom in the runup to your show- which I feel like its safe to assume anyone putting in the time to get on barricade has- is enough to let you know that at this time he is not enjoying people tugging at his clothes and it is not the moment! I think there are the privileged foreign fans following him around who carry that sense of privilege into their actions on barricade, I think there are probably local fans who are just wildly excited about their one show and getting a little crazed in the moment (or just being jerks) as well- personally I wish that instead of having it be an all or nothing thing that Louis would just do it when he's feeling it and having fun and it feels fun and silly to let people tug at him, and simply take the day off when he is, for example, sick and struggling through a lot of back to back shows, the same as he lets the songs that are harder at certain times be taken off the set list as needed and only does the stage door fan time when he feels up for it

#tbh I think part of the problem is that he is still doing barricade partially to distract from the fact that he's struggling #or because he feels guilty for the shows not being 100% #I watched the afhf doc last night and the whole thing is just him being SO STRESSED about doing good enough its actually painful to watch #and I just kept thinking about how stressed he must be right now about his perceived failure to give 110% at every show #when most people won't have noticed a damn thing!! as for example the people on barricade #who are just fully oblivious #I bet he's scared too about losing vocal capability long term😭I wish I could send him all the hugs (from SOMEONE ELSE not me that's scary) #blah blah blah

[fluffle-writes]

I wanna. Pick them up in my mouth and shake 'em around like a dog obliterating a squeaky toy

#you can tag anyone you feel this way about but I was thinking about Rook hunt in particular #tbh I feel like he'd picture the same - just with Vil and Neige #he wanta his oshis to be besties (he is just lime me fr) (just a liiiittle furyher frim reality) #(I view neigexVil as nore of a crackship until we get more Neige development/lore) #(our queen Vil doesn't deserve to be genuinely shipped with someone who's kinda 2D rn. #But I respect people who flesh out neige with headcanons - they write the dynamics realy well tbh) #(hopefully we get more RSA development at some point I think that'd be cool) #(plus I'd cry if TWST just. stopped. after the last NRC OB) #(I mean it'd make sense aince that's where the story is based and it'll probably end once Yuu finds a way home #- which feels close now thanks to Ortho) #(But at the same time I. have been following this since it first came out when I was about 16 - same age as the first year squad lol) #(and I feel like it'd feel weird if we stopped getting main story updates) #(Im rambling a LOT lol - probably because I'm tipsy haha) #(hope someone can relate to my lamenting of future woes though) #(Oh well - I should atop borrowing sorrow from the future and live joyfully with the now) #(I do miss my friends who've stopped being in the fandom though - and my friends who deactivated and idk how to contact now) #(sugarandmelody... zacrazyvalentine... I miss them. but we had fun #writing and stuff. and I suppose that's what matters in the end. that we had fun.) #at least - I hope they had fun too. and I kinda hope they think about me how I think of them sometimes. #have a nice day if you're reading this. I rambled in the tags a while and I understand that it's kinda long lol. #and probably riddled with typos #I'm tearing up for some reason haha. well it is what it is #I hope each and every one of my followers know how amazing they are - I hope y'all have a wonderful day - evening - or night #I wish I could hug people across the internet lol #I should stop posting on tumblr while drinky haha #tw drunk #tw drinking #i'll tag it just in case #don't wanna cause discomfort and stuff

[blessthishouse]

It feels like there’s a lot of heavy energy right now

#everything just feels kind of hopeless and I feel like I’ll like #never be financially stable enough to leave my family #and like I’ll never have a deep and significant romantic relationship #like at this point I am just waiting for my dad to die and hoping for some semblance of peace and normalcy for the rest of my adult life #maryam's posts #like fuck man I just want romantic love #but it seems like everyone is just weird or burnt out or does the bare minimum #and here I am looking and feeling like an idiot #like I’m just tired #I wish my family wasn’t so scarily homophobic I could be comfortable enough being with someone who wasn’t a man #I just feel all alone #And I wish I had someone rn who could see that #and who could give me a hug and say that they loved me

[needylittlegirl]

#hes me #i just got very like umm #i need to hold someones hand but that someone Needs to be my younger self #like i wish i could hold my hand so tight right now #growing up is scary and i just want her to know that im okay. that ill be okay #and that even if she isnt proud of me im proud of her #21 was always a big age in my head #in the sense that like. for awhle i was so sure i’d be dead by then #like i knew id graduate highschool and i figured i’d make it a few years but never to 21 #so just the fact that ill be 21 in a few hours really is. So wild and so scary #whatever im fine #also completely unrelated (i swear) i just got my panic attack chest feeling #i think its because i havent been sleeping much so im just exhausted #whatever #i want to grab little 8 year old me and just hug her so tight #i needed it then and i need it now #i hope shes okay. i feel her sometimes and i hope she knows im strong for her #everything i do is for the little girl i used to be #amd i hope everytime i tell her i love her it somehow reaches back through time and she can feel it #tbd

[hazmatazz]

realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me

#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again #or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. . #so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude #i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me #(<- guy who's been friends with it for years) #like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that #like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr #and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf #this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend #so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow #i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise #i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3 #godddddd #🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always

[theeblackmedusa]

just a sad broke girl who reads smut for serotonin

#and i really don't feel like partying tonight but i promised i would go😔 #someone send imani a hug #i wish i had a job so i could just buy my whole amazon cart and have that temporary bliss of retail therapy #personal shit #theeblackmedusa🐍🐍

[unfortunateaffirmations]

“Here in the garden

Let's play a game

I'll show you how it's done

Here in the garden

Stand very still

This'll be so much fun

And then she smiled, that's what I'm after

A smile in her eyes, the sound of her laughter

Happy to listen

Happy to play

Happily watching her drift away

Happily waiting

All on my own

Under the endless sky

Counting the seconds, standing alone

As thousands of years go by

Happily wondering, night after night

Is this how it works?

Am I doing it right?

Happy to listen

Happy to stay

Happily watching her drift away

You keep on turning pages, for people who don't care

People who don't care about you

And still it takes you ages

To see that no one's there

See that no one's there

See that no one's there

Everyone's gone on without you

Finally something

Finally news

About how the story ends

She doesn't exist now

Survived by her son

And all of her brand new friends

Isn't that lovely?

Isn't that cool?

And isn't that cruel?

And aren't I a fool to have

Happily listened

Happy to stay

Happily watching her drift

Drift..

Drift away…

#drift away #drift away omnichord #losing her #losing someone #losing someone you thought you could love #being naive #being a fool #unriquited love #just a bit sad #haha trauma #i wish i could hug dream

[ronkeyroo]

I know it can be hard to see ourselves and our work through the eyes of another, but if you could, you would be able to see how much we cherish your presence and everything you do. Your value goes of course beyond just what work you put out in the world, but who you are and the energy you share with us. I wish you could see yourself the way we see you. You breath so much life into the work you create and it makes me so happy to see when you're thriving and my heart goes out to see when you struggle. Please always follow your passions and do what makes you the happiest, that will be gift enough for rest of us <3

P.S sending 1000 "<3"s for our favourite wolfy bois, you make me fall in love with them all over again everything your art pops up on my dash ^.^

#Anon...I've been coming back to re-read your message so many times throughout the past week and I just... #I cannot describe how much life and joy reading from you and feeling your love has been poured back onto me #You made me feel so loved and seen...I wish i wish i could hold your hand and show you how dearly this all means to me #because god how ridiculously speechless i've become under such tenderness... #Thank you for being here #for seeing my passions #for loving my work #for seeing me the way you do - For encouraging me to look at myself from an outside view of someone who just...loves me #regardless and outside of any struggle I may have with myself #thank you thank you thank you #ive had such a tough week...But all of this love is so so deeply and dearly empowering and Ill cherish that forever #Ill continue following my passions and making my art - no matter what #especially that of our beloved wolf bois!!!!!!!! #hugs you tightly// #Tender Vibes #Ronkey replies #anon asks #ask memes

[sysig]

DAAAAAAAAAAAAX <3 <3 (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #DAX #ZEX #Hello I have been inconsolable ever since ZEX mentioned that he wished DAX were there so he wouldn't be the only VUX #It is a hideously addictive thought - DAX being there to support his Admiral - he certainly could use it! #Talana got pulled in from Zelnick's girlfriend's ''real'' counterpart - why not Dexter!! Hghgh #It sets my brain on fire (terribly affectionate) #I love DAX sm ;; I love ZEX sm! I love their dynamic sm ;;;; #He would've been such a comfort hhh my head is full of all these horrifically self-indulgent scenes of They ♥ #Firstly of them meeting up with each other!! ZEX is very tactile haha <3 He needs the physical reassurance so bad haha ;u; #Not quite like twining arms but DAX won't recoil at least <3 Hugs good! #Can you tell that second one was a spacefiller lol #ZEX very well acquainted with crying now haha - at least it's for something positive! For once :') #Ugh imagining their little differences in approach is so fjdkslafdf - same stimuli different outcomes! I love them hgh #I like to imagine DAX just observing the showers with a distant annoyance-interest like ''What the heck is that'' lol #Very dissimilar from ZEX's Intense interest but not actually picking up any skills from the experience lol #But really it's just my secret desire for DAX to learn how to wash hair so he can corral his Admiral into taking care of his body haha #Two VUX would have a very different kind of scaffolding of learning how to get along! They'd both benefit from whatever one finds out! #Might keep ZEX just a teensy bit more on track of finding things out to report back and help DAX out hehe <3 Maybe possibly lol #Still wouldn't stop him from hitting on DAX hehehehe ♪ What's this? Someone he likes and trusts in a human form? Hmm :) #Hhhh they ;; Recreating the scene of Max coming onto Dex and then Dexter turning it around on him - not that they'd know #I'm fine this is fine I'm not crying or anything ;;;; Parallels are my favourites I can't stand this <3 <3 #There's just so much to think about! And it's all so much to me!! ♥

[doveotion]

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#diary #religion rant incoming lol #i keep thinking about Christianity lately and how its impacted me #theres something in me that wants to give all my hurt to somethinf bigger than me so i dont feel so alone #i didnt even realise i was doing it until last month but i pray often. its mostly just wishing for a better life #but sometimes i wake up early to the sun streaming through my blinds or i hug someone really tight or cry and i feel closer to god #its such a weird thing to talk about because religion undoubtedly traumatized me and I'll never fully heal from that #but i dont blame god or jesus or whatever. i blame men in power for that #i still dont know where i stand on religion #im neither religious nor atheist. i think agnostic is the closest term that could describe me but im more spiritual than anything #i guess im religious in the sense that i believe jesus was a humanitarian. he loved humanity even though they were going to be his downfall #i can relate to that kind of devotion.

[arealcrow]

my one hot take about astarion's personal quest is that im glad they dont let you hug him after the confrontation with cazador. if i had just faced off with the person who had ruined my life for 200 years, i would not want to be touched until we left the building tbh

#i just think . its nice that the game lets him have his moment to grieve everything he's lost #esp since he purposefully brings you into that grieving later at his grave. when hes ready for it #astarion seems like someone who needs time to process his feelings alone without anyone interfering with his opinion sometimes which. #makes a lot of sense right out of an abusive and controlling situation #this is a veeeeery personal preference tho i totally get ppl who wish they could hug him lol #bg3 spoilers

[the-yearning-astronaut]

Oh hello 3am existential crisis. Haven't seen you around in a while...can't say I missed you.

#i don't understand how i can feel so alone and so isolated while also having a number of good friends #all of whom im a little in love with in different ways #how can you love so many people so much and still feel lonely? #is it because of all my friends only one is in brickspace and i rarely even get to see her? #i know my lack of physical contact is rather alarming (i get one or two hugs a month if I'm lucky.) #(and even casual non accidental touches are rare. i get maybe one of those a week.) #is that why i feel so alone and isolated? the lack of physical connection? #i wish i had a friend i could move in with. i wish loving people didn't hurt so much. #i wish i could believe the sentiment that all relationships are important and that platonic love isn't lesser than romantic just different #but ive yet to actually see that be true. i feel like ill never be someone's most important person. or even 6th most important. #im just so fucking tired #of everything. #is it me? am i off putting? do i do things unintentionally that keep people at a distance? what am i doing wrong? why can't I connect? #i KNOW im not broken for being autistic or ace or aro etc etc but fuck if I don't feel broken most of the time #fucking hell #definitely time for bed #i bet these feelings are being exacerbated by pmdd just like my fibro and my stomach and my sleep #doesn't make the feelings any less upsetting #fox thoughts #☉