#you guys are the reason im making this project

[heartorbit]

just how can i protect your smile?

#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi #pjsk #prsk #project sekai #proseka #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #ruikasa #AUUUUUGH. #this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism #putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009) #this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted #i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay #tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine #me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt #im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit. #emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me #Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here #im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked #i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it #but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH #wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg

[baconplasm]

Long time no KH art

(semi-redraw of this)

#kingdom hearts #kh #kh roxas #roxas #bacons art #since after kh3 came out ive been drifting away from KH fandom as a whole #no particular reasons just interests changing lol #but some of you guys might remember my kh phase #it lasted pretty long #also I think project d*stati have been reblogging a lot of my old kh art from 2017 ish and AUGHH TEARS MY HAIR OUT #im so glad people still liked them and continue to give it notes but as an artist those drawings are CRUSTY #partially the reason why I decided to make this new drawing #nostalgia aside lmao

[shurisneakers]

ok and if i wrote harmless in a different font. so what

#the first part is 1.6k words long #and i am looking for supernatural slash paranormal ideas to use in here for future parts. so if u guys wanna. yk. #make it a community project like harmless was <3333 that'd be lovely and fun <3333 #but im waiting to write a couple of parts b4 publishing this one #bc of health reasons #anyway in unrelated news #i have another drabble series coming out on saturday #a letters series where bucky is Shit At Talking so he just writes letters to his bestie who he's in love with bc his therapist told him to #it's a drabble series #and also if u wanna send in word prompts for that. that would be very helpful and i will worship you #anyway im done talking #ari talks #bucky x reader

[boyfriendunsolved]

the new video was greatly needed if watcher had any hopes of staying afloat. unfortunately, this backpedaling does not change the fact that

1) high production "television quality" content is what they want to make

2) this content is evidently not what people want to watch (even post-apology i'm seeing a lot of people saying they liked bfu better than anything watcher has produced)

again, if they have a clear vision of what they want to make, that's great. but unless there's a market for that content, then it's not going to turn a profit, or break even for that matter. yes, artists deserve to be paid for their work, but art is always bought by people who want and have an interest in said art.

im an artist pursuing my dreams too, but i don't expect people to buy my niche paintings just on the principle that i am an artist creating what i want. if i wanted to make money from this and turn it into a business, i would take commissions and specifically create what other people want. that is what having any kind of artistic job is about, unfortunately.

it's great if what you want to create and what people want to see overlap, but that's not always the case. and i really fear this is the case with watcher and they won't pivot enough to fix any of their problems

#here's an example #i know gmm is a way bigger company but #rhett and link do gmm stuff #but occasionally produce something a lot more involved and creative that is inspired solely by their wants #those videos dont do nearly as good as gmm does #but its an outlet for them to still have some creative control #and the people who like those videos love them (im one of them!) #so it is possible to both produce content that is profitable and to make content that pleases you as an artist #you just have to find a balance with it and unfortunately watcher has no balance at all #like even watcher's 'lower quality' work uses so many resources like. guys theres a reason youre bleeding money #and people giving you $6 isnt going to fix it #they need an overhaul #cut back to basics to find their footing before trying these super ambitious projects that they're not sure will pay off #watcher #im talking again

[plan-3-tmars]

okay i know I preach about voting however you want because that's the point of milgram but I genuinely don't know how you can listen to kazui's voice drama and then vote him guilty

kazui is litteraly asking es to give him a reason to stop lying (cough cough an innocent vote)

an innocent vote is NOT going to make Kazui think what he did was right, nor that lying was a good call. He didn't think that in Trial 1, he hasn't shown any signs of thinking that in Trial 2 and that is not the thought process he will go down in Trial 3!!!

He's not asking for his lies to he forgiven, he's asking to be FREED from them. The guilt of what his lies caused now more then ever is waying so heavily down on him that he just wants to see a reason that tells him that telling the truth will be okay and that his 'sin' is not this horrible thing that he or others around him chalks itself to be

#im not saying i understand him better then you... but if you want to take it that way! #joking joking im not serious #obviously i cant predict the future but i highly doubt an innocent vote will make him think he did the right thing all along #you guys forget that he genuinely cared about hinako and still does #yes he feels guilty for her death because he was the reason for it but also that was his friend bro!!!! #just because he didnt love her romantically and was well aware of that while going into their marriage #doesnt mean he didnt feel bad about what he was doing!!! he did!!! his sad moping is litteraly everywhere in half and cat!!!!!!! #maybe its because im gay and can relate heavily to the feeling of being terrified that someone will find out your dirty secret #hashtag outted gang #but idk... i just dont think he deserves such a tight ratio #milgram project #kazui mukuhara #milgram

[termagax]

i hate to make the cr thing sound like a dumb ship war but they canonically had beauregard confess to being in love with her best friend, the party member she was objectively closest to and had the best chemistry with, to whom she was the turning point for her entire major character arc, and then immediately walked it back to pair them up with the characters they flirted with in episode 1 and had no chemistry with. and then spent the rest of the series making arguably lesbiphobic jokes about it.

#NO CHEMISTRY AND IN JESTERS CASE SHE HAS AN ENTIRE ARC ABOUT HOW SHE DIDNT ACTUALLY WANT TO BE WITH #THE GUY THEY PAIRED HER WITH. LIKE SHE HAD A WHOLE ARC LIKE WOW IM PROJECTING ONTO FJORD BECAUSE I WANT A STORYBOOK #ROMANCE BECAUSE ITS WHAT I BELIEVED I NEEDED TO BE A REAL ADULT WITH A FUFILLING LIFE NOT BECAUSE OF ANYTHING ABOUT HIM #AND WHEN HE RETURNED MY ADVANCES I WAS UNCOMFORTABLE BECAUSE I DONT ACTUALLY WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM #I WONDER WHAT THIS COULD POSSIBLY INDICATE ABOUT MYSELF AND HOW I SEE RELATIONSHIPS. HOW DO I FIND WHAT I REALLY WANT. BEAU YOUR MUSCLES #LOOK REALLY GOOD TODAY. BEAU IM SORRY EVERYONE SAYS YOURE MEAN I DONT THINK YOURE MEAN. BEAU YOURE THE ONLY PERSON I FEEL LIKE IM ALLOWED #TO BE MYSELF AROUND BEAU YOU MAKE ME FEEL FREE TO EXPRESS MESSY EMOTIONS THAT SCARE ME BEAU LETS GET MATCHING TATTOOS #and then. wimp.womp shes back with fjord because for some reason weve decided beaujester isnt a viable endgame option :T

[synthshenanigans]

Continuing from my last post bout Mind, we also need to talk more about how paranoid & untrusting/second-guessing your mind can be cause i think its very interesting

#as somone whos way too paranoid for its own good i like seeing it portrayed into mind #im not projecting you are shush #but like especially the way he sometimes assumes heart is lying or doing thing for attention/pity #cause its like when your brain would tell those things #or maybe thats just my mental illness talking #also not trying to paint heart as innocent here this was just a mind post #heart can also be a bit self centered or the whole claiming to be the victim thing #but also thats not bashing heart either i love the guy too #this is just me looking at some lyrics and how the characters operate and going #“omg hes just like me fr fr” and projecting #none of them are okay and its fun to characterize the reasons why #heart always claims to be the victim mind thinks hes better off without the rest & souls answer to the problem is to off everyone/himself #all bad thoughts but to heal we must take funny lil guys and make them sad #and project said feelings & thoughts unto them #okay im realizing a main reason i like hms/cjs music is i might relate to it too much #im fine i swear #i haven't even talked about the fact i like his two wuv hokum all ye faithful & hallelujah covers a lil too much #i need a cj's music trauma bingo card/j #okay rant over #chonny jash #cj mind

[carcarrot]

well everyone now that sparkstember is over i can now devote my energy to being insane in other still sparks-related ways

#planning my next projects #on the one hand glad to not have to get a whole video done in the span of like 2 hours every day #on the other hand it was a fun creative challenge that gave me a sense of purpose. it was fun #but i need to keep myself busy as we descend into winter and ✨seasonal depression✨ #if i dont get it done today over the next couple days im going to make something silly for goofball's upcoming birthday #and then once that's done i dont know. i want to get back to work on my screenplay and try to FINISH IT!! but idk how long that'll take #i also have to finally finish watching that film course i bought oops. maybe ill start it over #and then????????? #i have a vague Idea of a possible short film i could make. that would also be like a kind of prequel to my Main Film Idea #and its something i could actually reasonably do as a short film and its not like insanely big budget like every other idea i have is #and I'm debating abt emailing my old film teacher and being like heyyyyy maybe you could help me make this short film???? #but id want to have this idea way more planned out and written before then. but OUGH WRITING ANOTHER SCREENPLAY??? #WHEN I HAVEN'T EVEN FINISHED MY FIRST ONE??? sigh. #the road to making my Big Great Movie is long and arduous. will we get there. who knows #oh also debating abt writing a letter to those silly guys. but i don't knowwwww #OH lmao i keep forgetting to mention i finally got my passport (it actually came earlier than expected) #so like. goodbye everyone im heading to the sydney opera house on halloween (JOKE i am not that insane. but i wish i could)

[compacflt]

Okay. Need to know after seeing your graph breakdown. Who told Bush and/or Obama about icemav???????? Please I need answers

i mean all they’d have to do is just look at them.

#not that hard to figure it out LMAO #But a serious answer is like ice is funneling $3k+ into mav’s bank account every month im sure that might’ve come up on a bg check #also other admirals who know & see it as their sworn duty to notify the govt of personnel liabilities #which like. fair. #icemav is kind of a liability. #my ‘fatal flaw’ is not that people wouldn’t find out it’s that people DONT BRING IT UP WITH ICE & MAKE HIM CONFRONT THE TRUTH lol #’uh you are paying this guy you are fucking to live with you? and he’s uh. your subordinate? hm.’ #ice: oh yeah were good friends we invested in an airplane together :D its our big project :) #’yes all very legal yes.’ #mr president sir jsyk one of your rear admirals is likely engaging in fraternization with the most dangerous pilot the navy has ever seen #dubya: I DONT CARE IF THIS MAN IS GAY SO LONG AS HE FIGHTS A GOOD WAR IN THE MIDDLE EAST FOR ME #Obama: ‘well let’s let ‘em get away with it. and lets not say anything about it to him. it’s good for the plot.’ #asks #ive been saving ‘pancho and lefty’ for sliders songs but it’s like my no 2 tom kazansky song for this reason

[solarpunkani]

How much am I allowed to post/ramble about the solarpunk zombie apocalypse story I'm working on before it gets annoying.

Bonus points: I haven't actually gotten to the solarpunk part of it.

#out of queue #ani rambles #Ani's Solarpunk Zombie Story #yes there's a tag now im preparing for the inevitable future where i go off on some wildass tangent #ive been working on this shit since like. 2022 i think. and i still only just wrote the end of the first night last week #its one of those 'im stuck on everything else so maybe i can do this' project #and usually when im stuck on everything else im stuck on that too #but yknow what? fuck if I didn't write some paragraphs on it last week so now my braincell's all like #OOH! can they have electricity in a post-apocalyptic solarpunk society? should there be a stream near the community for current generation? #but wait! what would they use electricity for? but wait! can you do viral research without electricity? how'd they do it in the past? #when was electricity invented? were they doing viral research before that? they had to be right but were they? but wait #does the society work as envisioned in my briancell without electricity? what if candlelight? candlelight could be fun! but would it besafe #wildly off topic but waste! what do they do with waste? did they make a wetland system to deal with the waste? but then all the pipes would #need to go to this wastewater system! if they didn't already in the buildings they repurposed then there'd have to be work to reroute them! #would it be more reasonable for everyone to have composting toilets? how do you make composting toilets in the apocalypse??? #is there just a team of people every day who get paid to make the rounds and take away waste buckets every night? but where to? #what's their PPE like? is there PPE in the apocalypse? there has to be right! but how? what from? like my guy has PPE #because Briar worked for a research facility before it got overrun #but how did THEY work? did The NEST have electricity? leathermakers? where'd they get food from? vials? materials? supplies? #god its a lot to think about #on the one hand i can take the 'its sci fi dont think about it too hard' but on the other hand it has to feel REALISTIC #or else I'm a BAD AUTHOR who's CRINGE and NOT POG and am doing BAD SOLARPUNKING

[messageiost]

Top 5 SCARY videos to watch while DRAWING!!!!

The editor crashed while typing this out i have to do it again. 1. THE FINAL MINUTES ZOMBIE PLAGUE Part Two: Aftermath 2. The Infection 3. The Tangi Virus 4. The Oracle Project (Sequel 2 Tangi Virus)

5. Absolute Zero

2 and 5 are pretty nostalgic for me. Dewpoint makes some BANGER eas stuff, absolute zero is alright but it was my shit back then.

theres probably more but none i can remember now

#eas scenario #shitpost #watch these!!!!!!!! #oughhhhh you wanna watch the final minutes sooo bad!!! #learned one of the guys i used to watch was outed as a groomer while researching this... huh. #oracle project makes me sad :( #also i recommend alert world for people who like more visuals and fast paced stuff. i think theyre interesting #i just wish they were longer since thats basically the reason i binged the hell out of eas scenarios #tfm part TWO because its much more interesting than the first one in my opinion #like you only need to watch the last 10 minutes of part one to get a gist of what happens #wow my followers are gonna think this is so lame im sorry

[lhrry]

x

#ive had an amazing year in this fandom #i saw louis and harry for the first time in seven years - the first time since my otra show #i somehow got so close to louis in berlin that he kept making eye contact with me and it was the first time i was surrounded by so many #pride flags apart from pride and i definitely felt safer than at pride there #i started rainbows for lights up which i will forever cherish and im forever grateful that you encouraged me because the entire hslot europ #was something absolutely amazing and magical #and in many ways it was obvious harry knew and then we did the Prague project for lights up and harry knew about it and did a double take #for the flag before the song even began #HE KNEW he LOVED IT and we had another rainbow project and a loml project and i stood so close he saw me #and there’s this interaction during which he definitely saw me and i saw the video the other day and am still gatekeeping it but #i had that #and it was one of the best days of my life and one of my best achievements and #seeing harry do what he does the way he does reminded me what i want to do in my life and who i want to be and was key in me taking the job #that i did a few weeks later that changed my life #i saw louis in freaking malaga at his own festival where i travelled by myself and it was a nightmare for many reasons but i DID IT and it #was an incredible show and we did an absolutely incredible rainbow project that was acknowledged by louis there #and that was acknowledged even afterwards when they registered copy the day after #i still can’t believe we pulled that off and he kept pointing to us like that and so many people said it was such an important moment #i made and met some of my best friends in this fandom to date this year #liz Petra Lisa raine hope im looking at you guys and i love you #i discovered and saw otp thanks to louis (and Petra) #i got to be here for harry and louis’ new albums and achievements and world tours and it was INCREDIBLE and im so proud and it brought me #so much joy and happiness to be here and they really were with me during a majorly defining period of my life once again #so i am grateful and filled with love for the projects for the friends for the music for the memories for the shows i went to and am going #to next year (my teenage self absolutely cannot believe) and im excited for what’s to come #but right now with everything that’s going on im taking a short break from the fandom for the sake of my mental health and to consider how #i engage with the fandom and some matters in the future #i’ll be back after new years probably and i hope you have an amazing start to the new year and spend calm holidays with those you love!!!! #love you guys!

[hella1975]

my friend watched banana fish and im actually.... kinda annoyed about it

#this is SO DUMB #but basically i did all the 'guys omg NEVER watch this show' with my mates when i finished bf #while secretly hoping one of them would watch it so we could talk about it #but like genuinely the longer it goes since i finished that godforsaken anime the more it matters to me? #like 'matters to me' is a bad way of wording it bc it makes it sound like a GOOD THING #and i mean it matters to me because it is so incredibly harmful to me individually #like i really fucking projected some serious trauma in my life into that show partially bc of the time i watched banana fish #and also just bc i see a lot of myself in ash which was something i realised in episode 1 #which meant i watched the ENTIRE thing aware of this just to have THAT ending happen. it was really devastating #but at the same time im aware that 80% of the reason banana fish was so sad for me #is bc of my own personal lens i watched it through #the other 20% is just the fact it's an actual sad anime #so now my friend has watched it and she's doing all the 'oh that was so sad! let's talk about it!' #and im like idk how to tell you this but i CANNOT talk about it with you like i literally cant #and for the past few months my whole 'omg NEVER watch this show' has actually been 100% serious #like i do not want my friends touching this show it's MY thing it's very personal #which is why this is such a dumb post like im literally trying to claim this anime #but it's just actually kinda invalidating to have my close irls watch it in a very casual way #it's one of those things where it's fine on tumblr bc tumblrinas GET IT bc NONE OF US are normal about our shows #but people irl are so determined to consume media in a very normal way lmao #and basically my friend is going to start making out i overreacted i just know she is #and i cannot STAND even an insinuation that im being a baby about something but i also will prove her point #if i go off on one about WHY bf is such a big deal bc i'll just look defensive #does any of this make sense #tldr: sharing media that's important to you is nice but also it's Bad and i want to Gatekeep #banana fish #probably #delete later #bc this is pathetic LMAO

[puppyeared]

h

#im going nuts. it is 9 am i am supposed to be learning about the design research project #teacher asks us if we know what wireframes are once and i start thinking about how one of my neighbours put chickenwire under their porch #to keep rats out and hearing wireframe made me think of chickenframe. and then some how i remember the fact that chi-chi can canonically #lift goku with her own bare hands and i start thinking about son 'i love my wife' goku from dragon ball z and hes just a silly little guy #i really like goku! and then somehow thinking about chi-chi makes me remember that chi-chi is supposed to be named after milk #because dragon ball characters are named after food for some fucking reason. and then i remember the wiki stated that this is also true in #spanish because apparently its also a euphenism for breasts in mexico apparently #and then i start thinking about it enough times that i start thinking about the song chiquitita by fucking abba #and whenever i try to explain my real time thought process to anyone they always ask me how i jump from one thing to another #its so frustrating!!! its like how i suddenly thought about whether or not whale stomachs are connected to their airways if they have #blowholes (they arent) #and then i spent 20 minutes in class digging into it and i couldnt focus. whenever people ask me what goes on in my head i want to grab #them by the shoulders and shake them furiously like NO YOU DONT WANNA KNOW #yapping #ITS 9AM I CANT DO THIS RN

[fujianvenator]

WHO WOULDVE FUCKING GUESSED THAT HIRING A PROFESSIONAL TAP AND BALLET DANCER FOR A DANCE CENTERED STAGE SHOW INSTEAD OF A RANDOM CELEBRITY FOR MARKETING AND ACTUALLY USING A CLICK TRACK ON THE SONG IN 13/8 WOULDVE YIELDED GOOD RESULTS? WHO COULDVE GUESSED HONESTLY. NOT ME!

#vic.txt #as gaudy and. Like That as cats is THERES A REASON ITS SO SUCCESSFUL. THEY JUST SUCKED EVERYTHING GOOD OUT OF IT #the cats in cats are literally just.ykno how cat owners will anthropomorphize our little guys. the poems are literally just That #theyre personifications of the personalities we project onto them. this isnt to say cats dont have individual temperaments n personalities #BUT YKNO WHAT I MEAN. how we project a sense of self importance onto them. thats what the poems are #and for the musical they take those personifications and put them onto stylish 80s Abstractions of the concept of a cat #fluffy arm warmers and face paint and feline confidence. our brains fill in the blanks #but nooo tom hooper was like No no they need to pantomime irl cat behaviors. Make them lap from a bowl of milk #like. Ok then! Thanks! Fuck you! #when will the entertainment industry understand we dont fuckjng want film adaptations of musicals WE JUST WANT THE STAGE SHOWS FILMED #LIKE PHANTOM 2011 AT THE ROYAL ALBERT HALL. LIKE THAT!!!!!!! #JUST PUT SOME FUCKING CAMERAS AROUND THE STAGE!!!! PLEASE!!!! IM BEGGING YOU

[sirompp]

just saw a l0whunt post where they KISSED feeling VERY violated even though it was properly tagged and i was the one who clicked on it anyway. but.

#IN MY DEFENSE i was just expecting them to be like standing next to each other #because like 70% of the time when i click on a l0whunt post thats jst what it IS #anyway im never projecting my aromanticness onto another character again because this is just hell #i could say all the other reasons why other more normal people hate this ship but ill be honest i dont really care about any of that!! #its just fuel to the fire to me. to help me feel more justified on why seeing it makes me genuinely want to cry #URGH. I JUST. WHY IS IT EVERYWHERE #YES im biased but SERIOUSLY it GENUINELY SUCKS AS A SHIP. #is it because its the only possible m/f ship in the show. be honest. is it #is that why this ship with no more development than about a dozen frames of blushes from 1 guy who easily blushes anyway #became more popular than fucking L//UMIT//Y #<- CENSORED SO IT WONT SHOW UP IN TAGS IVE GOT NOTHING AGAINST THE SHIP #i mean i dont really. Care. about them BUT I CAN PERFECTLY TOLERATE THEM ON SCREEN WITH NO VISCERAL DISCOMFORT WHICH MEANS ITS WELL WRITTEN #because. AGAIN. im AROMANTIC and very Very romance repulsed #<-''but siro if youre soooo romance repulsed why are you a fan of the bug and cat show'' i literally cant explain it #i genuinely dont know why i love the show sm when i literally have to cover my eyes any time they start RECIPROCATING FEELINGS EW GROSS!! #ive gone off topic #and i cant even be like. lowhunt fans dni. because. thats EIGHTY PERCENT OF THE FUCKING FANDOM #i follow like a DOZEN PEOPLE who ship it!! #actually ALL of the owl... um. the owl show people i follow ship it aside from like TWO PEOPLE #<-trying to figure out how to get my point across without this showing up in the main tags because. hoo boy. i dont wanna deal with that #oh and itd upset people or whatever. Sad! They all upset me constantly but i guess i have to be the BIGGER PERSON or whatever #UGH <-annoyed but would rather die than upset other pepole #im tired of being respectful. i want to let hatred into my heart #this is like the 1 thing in the whole entire world i let myself hold any feelings of animosity for #i just. HATRED #ANGER AND HATRED AND #twitter is so fucking smug about it too #like ill see posts with the most. stupid of things and itll be QRT'd a million times with #''lets see the lowhunt deniers explain THIS'' #like. I hate your guts