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u ever get so tired of ur period that u cant even remember life when it was normal before

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It's important to drink a lot of fluids when you're sick so that your body has the raw materials to generate gallons of snot.

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If I could be soft for anyone,

Let me be soft for you.

Please ignore my calloused hands,

My scabbed knees from falling

For the wrong person-

My broken voice

From screaming my defense-

My thickened skin,

From toughening up,

From being “less sensitive”,

from being told I need to be more resilient.

Please, I have become so hardened

To survive this long

Only to bring you all of my jaded, broken, toughened pieces-

But I could be soft for you, if you’d let me

If you’d give me your hardened pieces too, all your jaded and cracked and toughened bits of you,

From people telling you to toughen up,

To be less sensitive,

Maybe we could be the grit

And turn each other into something smooth,

Something that glimmers, something polished.

Maybe we could be soft for each other.

#poetry #lovers #i love you #soft aesthetic #softcore

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cw: death, grieving, cremation

Ashes

Thinking about all the ways they touched me

And all the physical places

And all the kisses

And all the nudges

And all the hugs.

Embraces held too long

Or not long enough

And thinking about the two small bullets with their ashes

What part of them did I get?

Was it a part I touched?

Or was it an organ

Maybe a bone

A piece of intestine

Now I’m considering looking up

What happens during cremation

But also considering

Just leaving it nice.

I feel like grief books don’t prepare you

For the question

“What part of my best friend did I get”

#death and dying #poetry #my best friend died #i’m dealing with it #more or less

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cw: blood, female bodies, menstruation

The Body’s Revenge

Today, my bleeding feels personal

Like it knows I was relieved

That it was almost over for the month-

Like my body is taking

It’s vengeance on me

For the Plan B pills I took.

As though it is holding up it’s hands,

Bloody and raw,

Looking at me, weeping

Asking me why I deny it

It’s biological imperative

As though this body is not mine

To control.

As though it is merely

A vessel for another life.

I can’t explain the economy

To my body. Even though the stress

Of keeping the bills paid

Leaves me with a twitch in my chin and eye.

I can’t explain

That it’s not yet the right time

To the dull ache below my belly.

Instead, I hold my body

Like a screaming toddler

To stop it from throwing itself on the ground.

It does not understand it cannot have,

It only knows that it wants

And it wants.

And it will take it’s vengeance out on me

And let me wash away the evidence

Of it’s little trantrums

From my undergarments

With smug satisfaction.

#menstruation #menstrual cycle #poetry #adult human female #women #periods