thesadlesbian120

[thesadlesbian120]

dry heaving in the bathroom at 4am on the verge of tears because all your memories come flooding back as to why you hate yourself

#im just a girl #insecurity #am i sick? #not that deep #I will pull my hair out until i’m bald #just girly things #a me problem

[thesadlesbian120]

they/thems got a CHOKEHOLD on me.

#my love #i’m so happy #i have a crush

[thesadlesbian120]

my full time job is slowly eating me alive. to be dramatic, I seem to be drowning. i’m not having fun anymore. I feel like i’m losing my sense of self and all of my self confidence. I feel like absolute garbage and that I will always disappoint every single person I work with. i’m not sure if I can do this anymore. all I want to do is cry. and quit.

I wake up at the ass crack of dawn and go to work every single day. I work my ass off and at the end of the day, I still don’t do a good job. my best is still not good enough. and the fact my boss went told me that to my face. I have never felt so defeated and embarrassed. I just feel so alone there. I know for a fact it’s all going downhill now.

#my work #i cant do this #i give up #im tired #i hate this #i hate my existence #i hate my job #i hate it here #so much #i’m gonna go feral

[thesadlesbian120]

I am never going to be good enough. I never was to begin with.

#just thinkin #its fine #sad? #annoying #im just tired #im gonna cry

[thesadlesbian120]

when my adderall kicks in all I do is yap

#adhd #just yappin #i love to yap #kinda funny #haha make me shut up challenge

[thesadlesbian120]

my rage feels like a hot stone I can’t swallow, it’s stuck in my throat. my teeth trying to snap my tongue in half. I can feel my lungs fill with fire. stop me, before I burn this place down.

#angercore #maybe idk #i hate this #i must scream #kinda sad #annoying #im just tired

[thesadlesbian120]

I miss the sun.

#i hate winter #snowstorm #kinda sad #over it #just thinkin #seasonal depressive disorder

[thesadlesbian120]

they make me my favorite tea because I am sick.

I am happy with you and my tea.

#my love #i hate being sick #but i love you

[thesadlesbian120]

i’m not trying to be this person and I know my music taste is trash but how DARE you not like it

what the fuck!

#road trip #from hell #screaming crying moaning throwing up #third wheel #annoying

[thesadlesbian120]

question of the day: is it valid to hate a best friends bf cause he’s an asshole to you? and when you told her that he was mean her response was “he’s just playing”

BUT

she gets upset with me because she told me that I was being mean to HIM. fuck y’all

#just annoyed #i hate this #besties #boyfriend #ew yucky

[thesadlesbian120]

I want

soda

#so damn fine #addiction #bad day #at work #craving #i want to go home

[thesadlesbian120]

my roman empire?

Laika, that little space dog.

beautiful girl,

touch the nebulas’ and staurn’s rings for me, and may the stars and the moon provide you comfort and light that the human race never could.

sleep well beloved Laika

#space #spacedogs #i just love her #makes me sad #laika tag #laika the space dog #i’m gonna sob #just thinkin #heartbroken #heartbreak #poem? idk

[thesadlesbian120]

we sat down on my couch in my childhood home and watched a movie with your favorite actress. I loved it because you loved it and I loved you. we ate chips and gummy bears and sipped on cokes we bought with my moms 20 dollar bill she gave us. we walked half a mile to the grocery store because we couldn’t drive. we had done this so often it became almost a ritual every summer.

we grew up. started driving. tonight I watched the same movie. alone. in my bed. i haven’t seen it since that summer. I did not walk to the store, I did not buy a bag of chips, and you were not there.

#childhood #breakup #childhood friends #growing apart #a little sad #was it my fault? #was it you

[thesadlesbian120]

you stayed up all night working,

but you still bought me a coffee.

you still thought of me,

even though you must truly be exhausted.

I am going to sip on that drink all day,

and it will taste like you.

#my love #i’m so happy #my partner #so slay #i’m thinking of you

[thesadlesbian120]

i’m just really fucking tired

when i’m not exhausted i’m angry or sad. it feels like i’m not good enough for anything. I’m just defeated

#im just tired #just thinking #kinda sad #need sleep

[thesadlesbian120]

you are so faithful.

you remind me of every single reason why I left.

god won’t solve my problems. he is silent.

#religous trauma #ex lds #religon #exmormon #trauma

[thesadlesbian120]

i am in my body. i am in this moment. i am real. today is real. time is passing and I can feel it.

I feel dizzy and sick but it is not permanent. this feeling is not permanent

#dissosiation #i forgot to take my meds today #and yesterday #grounding #so slay #i dont feel real