traumatizeddfox

[traumatizeddfox]

I take my life extremely seriously along with the lives of others and I'm constantly feeling ostracized and shamed for this. Everyone around me just makes stupid memes and jokes about actual tragedies and I'm the asshole for not finding it funny. I cry when there's a shooting or a terrorist attack and I'm shamed because I didn't personally know anyone. Am I a bad person for this?

not bad at all. we all respond differently to traumatic situations. some use humour to cope and some are more serious about it. it’s all valid.

#anon

[traumatizeddfox]

I'll be honest. I'm scared I hurt someone who was suicidal.

I joined your Discord server a while ago and really enjoyed it, it felt like a nice, comfortable place. I made friends with a person but they ended up heavily depending on me to keep themselves from ending things. But they did it in such a way that hurt each time, they never listened to me and kept sending me such scary messages, but I tried to help, I tried my best, I gave as much advice as I could. I ended up leaving the server (because of strict home life, didn't want to get in trouble) and I ended up silently leaving the person too. They tried to friend me months later, but I was terrified to accept, so I declined. I rejoined your server just to look around a little bit but the last time the suicidal person spoke was 7 months ago, which was when I last spoke to them.

I'm scared that I was the result of something, that I made it worse, that I hurt them because I didn't know how to help and was hurt by trying to help. I didn't know what to do and I feel so bad for leaving now.

I'm sorry if it was my fault they don't talk anymore. I'm terrified I made things worse.

Hi Anon!

I just want to say thank you for joining my discord, but please don’t ever feel like you have to be someone’s therapist.

Sometimes people do rely on other’s for emotional support but it can also hurt both people. I’m not sure who the user was and i know some people kind of come and go in my discord, and my main reason for creating the discord was just so others can discuss trauma and meet people. But please don’t feel like it’s your obligation or job to keep someone from hurting themselves. Theres usually not a whole lot we can do besides talking to them or calling the police/ambulance (even if possible) and sometimes people online can just disappear for multitude of reasons. The situation is hard and i’m so sorry. sometimes when it comes to suicide we can’t do much especially online :/ but please note you were also being hurt from it. I’ve been on both sides of these type of situations.

If that user did unfortunately die from suicide that isn’t your fault.

If you would like to dm me or any of my mods about this situation, please do so!

#anon

[traumatizeddfox]

I agree with your post because I somewhat struggle with portraying my traumas on my stories. I definetly understand the traumas a character might face on a fictional story but I personally can't portray those traumas on any poem or story. I struggle to even write them as in "this happened to me" but I remember them vividly anyways. I really don't get catharsis from it...

I think it’s good for people to do whatever they wish to show their trauma (Within reason of course). i think too many people feel like they HAVE to turn their trauma into some form of meaning or art but sometimes our trauma is so complicated that it’s hard to even admit what happened or talk about it/ create art etc

#anon

[traumatizeddfox]

“would you rather be in a forest with a bear or a man?” a bear won’t rape my dead body. a bear won’t seek me out knowing he wants to over power me. a bear won’t brutally murder me and then post my dead body on social media. a bear won’t go out of his way to harm me without probable cause. a bear would rather be alone than in a forest with a man

#a bear or a man? #ventcore #ok to rb #don’t use this post to mock male victims please #trauma #actuallyabused

[traumatizeddfox]

it’s crazy how people victim blame. like how are you MAD at a victim to have a CRIME done to THEM????

#traumacore #actuallytraumatized #ventcore #actuallymentallyill #ok to rb #trauma #actuallyabused

[traumatizeddfox]

trauma is the ultimate experience of “this will last forever.”

Bessel Van Der Kolk from The Body Keeps The Score

#bessel van der kolk #the body keeps the score #actuallytraumatized #ok to rb #trauma #traumacore #ventcore #actuallymentallyill #actuallyabused #mental health

[traumatizeddfox]

Breaking the thread between my past and my present

All the words spoken

Are all sinking down the drain

Little by little

I can feel no pain

[Why is there no pain?]

Only numbness and distress

For all the times of uneasiness

Not knowing whether I should be happy

Or sad

That I'm losing pieces,

Of all the places in my past...

[I'm a whole different person, it's a gift and a curse]

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[traumatizeddfox]

this is beautifully said! 🫶

btw you don’t have to turn your trauma into a story, art a meaning, anything. sometimes trauma is just something that happened to you and that’s it. there isn’t some deep poetic meaning

#i think it’s good to do whatever you want !!

[traumatizeddfox]

Nobody cares about victims.

i care about victims

#anon

[traumatizeddfox]

My abusers don’t make any sense

My aunts and uncles on my mother’s side who are abusive just back up my abusive parents and brother.

Like I don’t get why they complain non stop about everyone being lazy and entitled when they are projecting they are boomers who were the entitled lazy generation. They ruined the economy for the future generations. They complain their kids owe them, everyone owes them, but THEY can destroy and abuse and use whoever they want and if someone stands up to them it’s always “get over it! Move on already!”

They sabotage my life then complain I don’t accomplish anything. Then I try and they sabotage my life again.

I’m surrounded by abusers and somehow I’m to blame and the problem

Someone told me they just need something to complain about and that’s why they had me.

- Maya M. / Jaguar

abusers really be like why are you upset over the abuse i did to you!!!

#maya

[traumatizeddfox]

hi fox!

do i have to protect my mom when my dad hits her? am i obligated to do it? how should I react? do i have to do anything to stop this?

no you are not, especially as a child. but regardless of your age you do not need to protect her. if you feel like it’s safe to do so, i would either call police or tell someone you trust.

i suggest you don’t interfere because this can make you into a target of the abuse as well

#anon

[traumatizeddfox]

btw you don’t have to turn your trauma into a story, art a meaning, anything. sometimes trauma is just something that happened to you and that’s it. there isn’t some deep poetic meaning

#traumacore #actuallytraumatized #ventcore #actuallymentallyill #ok to rb #trauma #actuallyabused

[traumatizeddfox]

[traumatizeddfox]

Hey fox!

I feel really bad calling myself a "survivor" of child abuse when my life was never actually in danger, but just saying im a victim doesnt sound right either.

So i wanted to ask you and your audience whether it's ok? Does anyone else struggle with terminology like this as well?

(For example, for years i was very hesitant to call what happened to me abuse because i figured it wasnt bad enough to warrant that term. Years later ive come to terms with the fact that i was abused at least)

yeah i hate survivor too because it feels wrong to me because i had no other choice. I know plenty of people feel that way too. I think victim feels wrong too because it feels like society has tainted the word and made victim into this “snow flake” analogy or something.

I also feel like for victims, we don’t feel like it’s enough and that we’re not valid enough

#guess-the-mental-illness