astarionsdarling

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im just someones weird mutual

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For the love of sushi 🍣💗

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what if i just rest my eyes for a second

#me tag

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parad1se01 on Twitter

#bg3 #astarion

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#omg the way i've struggled with this my whole life but esp in the last 2 years #also not to mention the literal trauma i experienced back in october that REALLY fucked me up about this #sometimes i just wear my blanket at work because i dont want anyone to perceive my body #i've stopped dying my hair so i can't be easily pointed out anymore #also i can't go anywhere in the town i work in without getting recognized so i don't really leave my house anymore #sorry for traumadumping at 9am but MAN this post struck a cord with me #imagine trying to simply exist and do your fucking job and constantly worrying about stepping on a landmine

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"On your knees… darling" finally I can show my art for Astarion zine >///<

#bg3 #astarion #fave

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Reblog with your favorite Animal Crossing villager in the tags, I want to know what people think. Mine is Daisy

#BEAU!!!!!

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hate it when I'm eating and my stomach starts growling

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Looking at something?

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Lieutenant Anderson has been officially assigned to the deviancy case. What do you make of him?

I think he's irritable, and socially challenged... but I also think he used to be a good detective. He's an intriguing character.

#dbh #connor #connor + cherry blossoms is a good combo

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just curious as they're always things i've never questioned just doing but people in my life are often surprised that i don't mind doing them alone

🔁 pls reblog for sample size

#none 😭 #it was a huge step for me to drive alone and still when i go to new places it gives me a lot of anxiety #also when i go places alone like restaurants or the mall or whatever and see people in groups having fun it makes me kinda sad

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#rat!

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they should make an international travel that is free if you're internet friends

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madohomu

#pmmm #fave

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them!! ☝️☝️

#fave #dbh #connor #markus #kara

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credit to @abyssal-gaze for original idea

#a cafe :D

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I love Hank and Connor’s bonding, feel kinda personal to me <3

#dbh #hank #connor