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Beautiful Cinnamon Roll Too Good For This World, Too Pure

#i would give anything to go back to that moment

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A little psa from your 82 year old aunt: live your life. Go do the things you want to do. Do the things you've procrastinated forever. Been meaning to watch the barbie movie? Go do it now. Go on vacation? If you're able to financial and job and stuff wise go book that fucking vacation. Wanted to learn how to do something new? Start now. You never know how much time you have left. Do it so you don't kick yourself for not doing all those things while you're still able. You never know what could happen to you. So just live. For fucks sake live or I'll punch y'all. Tomorrow is not promised.

#there is nothing like mourning your old life #life that you will never get to live again #do it so that if you do end up like this at least you'll have something to look back on #“I did all those things before i no longer could”

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BEN AFFLECK Jan 04 2024

#that's me trying to fix my body

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#mine is a single short word #and i get other people's mail all the time because apparently they can't remember their word has a number after the word

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one of the greatest tragedies in life is that you will always be loved more than you will ever know. someone in class finds your presence inviting and warm, even if you’ve only ever exchanged a few words with them—maybe none at all. someone on the street loves your smile and it gets them down the next few streets. someone you used to be friends with still wishes to fondly call your name. someone you used to be friends with five years ago would give anything to be in the same room as you today. someone who regularly comes into work is disappointed when you aren’t there to brighten their day. someone missed you today. someone noticed you were gone. someone loves you when you’re there; someone loves you when you’re nowhere to be found at all. you think you have always disappeared when you’re no longer in the picture, but you’ve never left the frame.

#yeah nah #i might have believed you 3 years ago #but i have learned A LOT about people and the world as a whole during those last 3 years #people can only tolerate you for so long #in the me/cfs community there's a thing about million missing #people who are missing from the picture #forgotten by everybody #the government friends family other people you used to know #you're just gone

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3 years ago my life got ruined forever

(:

#i don't know why i'm still alive #i have nothing to live for anymore #every good thing i had in my life save for one is now gone #i don't even remember what it was like to have some resemblance of a life anymore

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staring at the blank page before you open up the dirty window let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find reaching for something in the distance so close you can almost taste it release your inhibitions feel the rain on your skin no one else can feel it for you only you can let it in no one else no one else can speak the words on your lips drench yourself in words unspoken live your life with arms wide open today is where your book begins the rest is still unwritten

#that song is like 20 years old and i am also old #when did that happen

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Hello tumblr people, what's up, is there anybody left here or have you all gotten a life

#miss you all

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3 years and I still can't believe this is my life, that it's always going to be my (significantly shorter than most people's) life

#maybe getting Alzheimers 10 years from now won't be so bad #if i don't remember the life i missed out on #i'm gonna enjoy the shit out of not knowing about people doing everything i never got to do

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i miss people and shows and theatre and things and living

#3 years next month #3 fucking years of absolute nothingness #and no end in sight

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i read something recently about people only leaving tumblr when their life is very good or very bad. during the 10 years of being on here all here everyday i had always always always thought i'd leave once i finally got a life. and then i left because i completely lost my life and couldn't even do silly little tumblr blogging anymore.

#funny #just like my life #neverending stream or cruel irony

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making friends via fandom is inherently hilarious because in many ways it's like a regular friendship and sometimes you'll share stuff that's going on in your lives and offer support and talk about food or pets or random cultural stuff because you live on opposite sides of the damn planet, but also some of your interactions are like "hello beloved friend whom I cherish deeply, I have brought you a deceptively platonic gift of lovingly crafted star wars porn"

#i miss that very very much #most of my friendships had been half real life stuff half drooling over women and it was wonderful #wish i could have that ever again

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everyone come over and we can sit on the counch and do nothing

#can you guys come visit me in my bed and chill for 15 minutes and then leave and come in maybe 5 hours for another 15 minutes i'd really #like that and it's all my body can't handle #or can handle #hey at least i have the best excuse for typos now #dementia! #brain damage!

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bye 2023, you were exactly the same as 2022, and 2021, and 2024 is going to be exactly the same, and 2025, and 2026, and 2027, and...

#spending the entirety of every year either in my bed or in my chair #forever

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december 24th 🗓️ 9pm 🕘 eastern standard time 🇺🇸 from here on in i shoot 🎥 without a script 📝 see if anything 🤔 comes of it 😒 instead of my old shit 😖💩 first shot 1️⃣ roger 👨‍🎤 playing the fender guitar 🎸 he hasn’t tuned 🎵❌ in a year 📆😳 (ᵗʰᶦˢ ʷᵒⁿ’ᵗ ᵗᵘⁿᵉ 🤬) so we hear 🙄😬 he’s coming back from half a year of withdrawal (ᵃʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗᵃˡᵏᶦⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ᵐᵉˀ 🤨⁉️) not at aaalll 🎤🎶 are you ready? 💯 hold that focus steady 📹 tell the folks at home 📢 what you’re doing roger ❓(😎ᶦ’ᵐ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ🎼🤘) the phone rings 📞 (ˢᵃᵛᵉᵈᵎ😮‍💨) we screen 🎬 zoom in 🔍 on the answering machine… ☎️

#rent

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Merry Christmas!

#it's nice to show up once a year to do this

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DECEMBER 24TH 9PM

EASTERN STANDARD TIME

FROM HERE ON IN

I SHOOT WITHOUT A SCRIPT

SEE IF ANYTHING COMES OF IT

(INSTEAD OF MY OLD SHIT)

FIRST SHOT ROGER

#am i here #no #but this is tradition #and it brings me joy