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spn thoughts as requested

tw & spoiler warning

they should have kept the grungy filter and aesthetics from the early seasons

bring back the southern / midwest gothic vibes

dean would've listened to and loved 90's & 2000s grunge - I know that the whole "there's no good music past '79" is a key part of his personality but pre series/early seasons dean is soo nirvana / Weezer / smashing pumpkins coded

there is too much flannel in the later seasons - I miss the carhartt and leather jackets so bad

BRING BACK DEANS JEWELRY

there's so much about cas that we don't know. there's all the episodes where he just isn't there and they never tell the viewers what he's doing or where he went

on the same note, cas's personality isn't nearly as flushed out as sam's or dean's are. who is his favorite musician? what's his favorite place to travel to? why does he like the pimpmobile so much? does he actually like the trench coat or does he wear it just because it's there?

so many people characterize cas as a little guy, and while he is cute, it's important to remember that he's also an incredibly powerful eldritch horror who leads angelic armies and brands Michaels vessel just because

dean is bisexual and in love with cas - I won't take the time to list all of the reasons here, but you can definitely find those reasons somewhere

i would've loved for them to use the handprint as a physical manifestation of their bond instead of having it be just a scar that fades with time

i'm actually really ok with the way cas dies, I think it makes sense for his character and provides closure (for him, at least, not for dean)

the parallels of cas and dean meeting in a barn and then dean dying in a barn

cassie is deans first love, cas is his last

the imagery of the empty as cas's wings in 15x18

why do the subtitles spell cas as cass, its awful

there's a few lines in the early seasons that seemingly reference dean getting roofied / sa'd and are subsequently played for laughs, Jensen Ackles confirmed that dean would've done underage sw when John didn't leave them with enough money. I believe that this trauma is a major reason that dean never accepted his sexuality

the way deans alcoholism is overlooked and joked about is actually insane

having dean be completely ok after 15x18 is also insane, especially after the widower arc where the show specifically shows it's viewers how deeply dean grieves cas when he dies

deans death is literally so stupid. I get that the show is trying to make a really meta point about the characters not having plot armor anymore because chuck is gone, but dean deserved to find peace. if the events of the show had never happened and pre series dean had never gotten pre series Sam back into hunting it would've ended the exact same way - dean dead on a hunt and Sam dying from old age

dean spends as much time on earth as he did in hell, and while he would never be the same, I like to believe that if he had been allowed by the narrative to live longer he would've gotten back a little of the twinkle in his eyes that he had before hell

in 15x20 Bobby says that cas helped rebuild heaven but if he was there he would've gone to see dean. additionally, there's no way cas should have been able to escape the empty. this is such a glaringly obvious plot hole and it drives me nuts

I would've liked to see cas's wings in the show - not just the shadow of them

the only time I tolerate serious discussion of wincest is in the context of ethel cain

i am a Sam disliker - while he does have many positive qualities, I have a really hard time getting past him not looking for dean when he was in purgatory and him joking about deans alcoholism and other traumas

i like Sam the best when he's with Eileen, I think they're adorable together and I'm mad they killed her off

I am a chronic jack defender, that boy has done nothing wrong

it would be interesting to explore cas and jacks relationships with their respective genders

there's no way being forced to murder the dean clones didn't affect cas, we only saw him kill the last one but the first few he had to kill had to have been devastating

i'm really disappointed by 14x13 Lebanon, we get the scene with John and Sam but I would argue that dean has significantly more reasons to be upset with John and it's unfortunate that the episode just glossed over this - I believe a screaming match between the two would have cleared the air a bit and been at the very least cathartic for dean

i'm fairly sure that it's canonical that John sent dean away on his 17th birthday to kill lesbian ghosts. my personal hc is that John suspected that dean was bi and sent him to teach him a lesson

i saw a post on here comparing hunting culture to biker and cowboy culture and viewing those things through a queer lens and I thought it was fascinating - there's so much spn could've done if it cared about the show more than money and losing viewers

every time cas and dean beat the shit out of each other, it serves as further proof of their relationship rather than discrediting their relationship - ie demon dean and cas fighting in the library is used to parallel Cain and Collette. it could even be assumed that their love is stronger because Cain killed Collette but dean left cas alive

The purgatory love triangle was so silly

once dean worked through all of his trauma and toxic masculinity he would've been a swiftie

all of the main characters have old / vintage cars but in like season 13/14 dean sam and cas just collectively own and use this really ugly silver truck from the 2010s. its such a small detail but it absolutely ruins my viewing experience every time I see it

dean is actually really smart but most of the fandom overlooks it because Sam is characterized as the smart one. if you know anything about cars you know it takes an insane amount of brains to build a car from scratch (he did this with baby multiple times throughout the show) also he just makes an emf meter using basically nothing. if dean had been given the same opportunities he gave Sam, he would've been an engineer or something

i will always be a John hater, if this man has 0 haters, I am dead

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Ok I’m actually so stressed

I have been so off my game for the last two weeks, pretty much no exercise and I’ve been eating so much chocolate and multiple meals and not walking many places and bc it’s holidays everything is on break so I’m so scared to check my measurements

But I’m also struggling to get back in to doing things

So I know I’m getting worse but I don’t know how worse and I don’t know if knowing will motivate me to get good again or just make me sad and give up idkkkk

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I love you omad xx 😘

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Just started ballet again it is so fun!!! But omg all the girls in my class are so skinny wtf

And I forgot how fat pink tights make you look 😟😟

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"Men don't like bones" alright, but modeling agencies do.

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Some little update pics 😘 I need a longer mirror lol

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Did a 20 min run today AND ACTUALLY RAN THE WHOLE 20 MINUTES

V happy

It was 3.2km idk if that’s a lot but I’ll write it down for later anyways

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Measurement Update

Bust: 81cm

Waist: 66cm

Hips: 86cm

So now change in the bust but that’s probably not a bad thing ahahaha but very happy with losing a couple cms over the last few weeks

#💡as a 🪶 #progress #i wanna lose weight

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My tips for weight lost:

- drink at least 2l water a day, better 3-4l

- everytime I get hungry/ before a meal I drink a glass of water with Psyllium husks and one glass right after ( you will feel extremely full and it's boosts your metabolism)

- if you feel unwell drink a glass of water with vegetable broth ( it's good for the electrolytes)

- when eating, eat protein like chicken or eggs

- 1200kcal a day (you'll need some energy to be active)

- take supplements (vitamins, minerals)

-do at least 10k steps everyday

- strength training min. 3x a week

- have one day a week where you eat near your maintance ( boosts your metabolism)

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Ok I’m moving for uni which comes with a pro and a con

CON I started losing actually weight like kilos and shit but I think the place I’m moving too doesn’t have scales or at least the place I’m staying for the next few days

PRO I’m moving to a big city and I won’t be able to drive much so I’ll have to do lots of walkingggg hopefully that will help me!

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I LOVE FEELING SWEATY

I just hope it actually pays off

Also I’ve started tracking weight too lmao maybe I should do another measurement post

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Ok ladies this is it, today is the day we start doing a wee calorie restriction 😊😊

adriana lima for victoria’s secret 💞🌷👙🩰

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Chloe ting you are my one true love ❤️

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EW! Literally hate my body rn like even my baggy sleep top is fucking tight now jesus

Someone pls send some advice or smth idk what to do

#sad thoughts #fuck my body #fatty #should I become an ana blog ahaha #nicespo #weight loss

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FUCCKKKKK

So my weight has not changed and my measurements went up slightly

Like what do I do now do I start restricting?? Do I need to do more intense exercise???