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enough about taylor swift already. reblog and tag the smallest, least known artist you listen to

#according to spotify #city mouth ? #somehow even less popular than the ballet piano music artists i use for ballet class lmao thats actually wild to me

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I’m not a real person btw I only exist on tumblr

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we were meant to live slowly!!!! we were meant to savor moments and feel unabashedly lazy and frolic and smell the flowers and laugh with our entire hearts and love with our entire souls!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for resting!!!!!! don’t ever feel guilty for slowing down!!!!!! enjoying life shouldn’t be something you’re ashamed of

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google search how to stop experiencing anticipatory grief when this world has taken so much from me already

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also hi !! im so close to being back for real actually !! my work for the semester is technically done which means im only actively working 5 jobs now 😬

#i missed actually being a contributing member of tumblr society!! #and i missed you all 💕 #im so tired all the time ahahahahhaaha #but it is what it is!! #cant wait to unload my drafts upon yall 😈 #delete later

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me every day without fail: I'll do [chore] when I get home

me when I get home:

#bruh

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genuinely obsessed with the bby students blatantly lying on their emails to try and get some extra credit 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

#sorry bbys the professor is on my side. and the zoom records do not lie ✌️ #hashtag they tried #it really must be the end of the semester !! #teacher bean adventures #my ramblings

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Can you explain this gap in your blog history

#besties i am currently too employed. i am losing my mind

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i hope steven lim knows that he almost single-handedly healed my relationship with food

#like i hope he knows that and knows how much i appreciate him and his content #🥺🥺🥺 #i dont think i ever saw a man so genuinely excited about food and sharing food and food experiences with others #it may seem silly to some but it meant so much to me #i just need to put this out there for him #✨ all my appreciation ✨ #steven lim #watcher #buzzfeed worth it #dish granted #ok *now* ill stop for real 👉👈 #my ramblings

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and on steven............. i can't even express how gross it felt to see the ways people reached to ruin his name and abuse him online. demonic behavior.

i didn't start watching watcher bc of steven, i'm gonna be honest. but his content, character, and yes, his mere influence on the company is one of the biggest reasons watcher came to be one of my favorite youtube channels.

i fell in love with steven and his content through dish granted, the way he poured in all his creative effort and know-how so that he could give his friends and loved ones a special, personalized, larger-than-life meal. i thought it was so sweet, and that show is actually one my favorites on the channel.

i still remember how impressed i was to hear steven had proposed to his now-wife with a lab-grown diamond ring, bc he intentionally wanted something more sustainable.

i remember steven's speech for his unforgettable gala award, the way he listed out the asian content creators who came before him, who shaped the space and influenced him. he carried himself with humility, respect, and reverence for the past, and i thought it was extremely admirable.

i remember the "making watcher" episode where shane and ryan outright said that steven was the reason for watcher's survival. how steven stepped up to handle the business side of things when nobody else could. of course the guy isn't a businessman. he's a creative. but he stepped away from his own passions to make sure their company could stay afloat.

and did you notice how many employees at watcher are asian? these folks are damn talented, damn good at their jobs. i don't have direct proof of this, but i just know that steven had a hand in making watcher an incredibly safe and inclusive place to work for asian folks and other minorities. and as an asian viewer, i could feel that influence in the videos. i can feel the care watcher takes to make inclusive content, to make content that feels like the people behind it care. for watcher, "asian" isn't a buzzword someone slaps onto a video to make it sound interesting. it's cultural, it's natural, it's loving. i can't explain it but i feel that distinction and it carries the same exact energy steven does in his videos.

so it was incredibly wild and surreal to have fans try their best to tear all of that down, because he misspoke in the announcement video and... he drives a tesla? i don't even have to touch on that because people know how inconsequential that is to the matter at hand. i don't know how else to make you believe that steven driving a tesla is not an indication of him being evil or an immoral level of wealthy. like be for fucking real, please.

i have never felt so disconnected with this community than i did watching people attack steven for business decisions made by multiple grown-ass people. i will never look at this community the same way i did before. i know all this time, people were jumping for a reason to villainize steven. and nobody can convince me i don't know why.

#👏👏👏 #all this #watcher #sorry i thought i was over this. guess not #steven lim

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I don’t know which author needs to hear this right now but even if you never update your wip i would never regret reading it a time of joy is never wasted

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lol @ my original tags from 2022

the way that the steven lim tag barely has any content with steven lim actually in it

#someone said watcher was the most racist fandom and. wow #well at least i answered that question i guess #✌️ #this is just reminding me of when i told a friend in 2020 that i had never experienced racism as an asian and she just looked at me like 🤨 #and then the whole rona thing happened #and i thought of every single thing id ever experienced. maybe im just dumb and in constant denial lol #anywhos this whole debacle should not have been surprising to me and yet i still felt completely blindsided despite all the clear signs #alright im done now #back to being normal

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The wait was worth it!

Travel Season, premiering May 31st on watchertv.com

#😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #steven lim #travel season #i hope someone pirates this for me bc i will literally cry #i shouldnt have looked at steven's personal tumblr for the first time today bc the audacity of some people in the comments of his post #maybe he's making content for me specifically !! have you thought of that ?!??

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Me, watching the Watcher "Goodbye YouTube" video: wow what a terrible business decision, what a shame

Me, reading the comments: wow what terrible people you all are, I don't think you deserved this content anyway

#very disgusting how people are just using this annoying news to say very mean things about stephen lim #like genuinely just open cruelty that has nothing to do with the dumb business choice really #i think these people were just waiting for an excuse to be cruel to the 'third wheel' in their parasocial relationship- #-with ryan and shane #<- SAY IT LOUDER OP #steven lim

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!!! finally put stickers on the laptop !!! 🥺

#lmao in case anyone wanted more bean lore. yes that is the alma mater ✌️ go bears indeed #personal #delete later

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"I owe how much this year?"

My reaction. Turns out, a lot.

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Trying to create some new brushes and overall improving. Overall style I tried out is something between Adventure Time and Vasquez's art.

I don't think I've drawn myself in a consistent style ever so far.

#literally me filing taxes this year #like OOF BBY OOF