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DISABLED ALICE. REAL TO MEEEEE YO ME SHE'S SO CRIPPLECORE

My favorite totally normal office workers

(Sam and Alice from TMP)

Here’s some alternate bgs too :)

#the magnus protocol #sam khalid #alice dyer #my love #physically disabled alice dyer

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BLINKIES OMGGGGG

OIAR blinkies for your soul

made with blinkies.cafe! wonderful tool <3

#blinkies #for later

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So, I was reading along with the transcript of the latest episode, and

D Do you think Sam likes Dr. Seuss--*gets shot*

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SAM IS A CRIPPLE LET'S GO

In light of “at least it wasn’t both legs” lets start thinking of how on earth Samama Khalid (definitely) lost one of his legs.

This is a hc that’s important to me I’m dead set on it

#the magnus protocol #tmagp #sam khalid #I CAN SAY CRIPPLE. I AM PHYS DISABLED TO HELL AND BACK

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I'M UP TO DATE WITH NOTIFICATIONS YES

#nas' updates

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WHY DOES IT HURT SO BAD

carmilla putting the hat she was wearing awkwardly onto brian's head whilst nastya and ts are performing and him then keeping it on for the next 20 minutes during the lashings live provides me instant psychic damage, and i have no accurate way of explaining why. it's a stupid fucking hat, too

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it's all so fucking funny and i love it. he's real for naming characters after his friend but he also then killed those characters. also naming their last names after famous horror writers is funny

Fans of any work Jonny Sims was involved in make it their life mission to defy his will. John? No. Fuck you. It’s Jon. Don’t twink the monsters? Oh man here’s a drawing of color reverse Mr Blobby in a sexy maid outfit. Fort Galfridian’s sun? Tube shaped. Die.

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THEY BOTH HATE ME AND IT HURTS. I LOVE THE SAD MEAN LESBIANS

New profile picture ;3

Art by maki yamazaki! (Of Carmilla and Nastya)

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QUEER

HELLO QUEER

WELL AWARE

my type btw ^ so queer for him

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:0 Coraline!!!!! The Book/Movie I Should Not Have Had Access To At 7!!! I Loved It!

i love coraline so much... one of my favorite movies

#coraline #nas answers

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Okay in regards to this poll I'm going to do some Doc Carmilla analysis because I don't like having back and forth conversations in tags. This is long, I couldn't really find a way to cut it down

The biggest thing that fucks me up about her is Brian's morality switch. The concept of a morality switch at all is horrifying to me, taking that control away from someone. Brian's about page on the mechanisms website says the reasoning was because Doctor Carmilla found it "amusing" which. Makes me hate it even more. @x-ca1iber pointed out the fact that Jonny is an unreliable narrator, which is a good point. However, I doubt Jonny wrote everyone's bio and I don't think either morality mode would really let Brian lie about it, lying is wrong and I can't come up with ends that would justify it. Brian could be wrong about reasoning, of course, but I'm not sure why he would be. Because a lot of that second half is speculation, *please* let me know if there's anything to agree or disagree with any of it.

The two other things that make me not willing to chalk all of anti-Doctor Carmilla sentiment up to unreliable narration and character misinterpretation are the end of this video and near the end of Lashings. The first video shows Jonny cut the music and, sounding somewhat frantic, ask Carmilla what she's going to do about being thrown out the airlock. When she doesn't respond, he backs away and accuses her of planning something. This is something that isn't attributable to unreliable narration because the premise there isn't that it's a retelling but an actual event occurring. Also, the way Jonny is on edge, expecting her to do something but not knowing what/when and having to just kind of act like it's fine really makes me read it as a bad relationship for him. The end of the Lashings performance shows Nastya stressed about various other things and Doctor Carmilla coming up behind her and hugging her. Nastya visibly tenses and remains as such for the entire interaction. I've seen people argue that this was due to the aforementioned various other things, and it could very much be that! This is definitely my least compelling piece of evidence. But it's worth noting that Doctor Carmilla doesn't back off from the hug and remains sort of in Nastya's face until Nastya steps away. The situation is either Nastya being generally uncomfortable with physical contact at that moment (or in general) and Carmilla not caring, or Nastya being distrustful of her in general. Either way doesn't reflect well on their relationship.

None of this is to say that I think she's trying to cause them harm. She does see them as her kids, in her own way. The only other close relationship she had that I'm aware of is Lorelai (please let me know if you have any more information on this! I'm always open to corrections) and that wasn't exactly healthy. She could very well not know any other way to treat them, and I really do think she meant well. The problem with meaning well is that is doesn't change the ramifications of your actions. The best of intentions don't change the fact that you hurt people. This is, in my opinion, especially prominent in parental figures, which she is.

That is all about her as a person, though. As a character? She's fantastic. Trans lesbian vampire scientist with dubious ethics? Great!!! And all of the things I just talked about that make me dislike her as a person make me love her as a character. That disparity is what makes it really hard to answer the poll I linked at the beginning, because holy fuck morality switch but I love her as a character

Tags that inspired this under the cut

#THANK YOU. I APPRECIATE THIS A LOT #i try #i try to keep up my namesake

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gerry already has too much autism. don't give her mechanisms autism on top of that

i realised i actually never drew these two before

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At lunch today, my friend, who isn't a mechanisms fan, asked me (for a second time) if I am you. (I was showing it my copy of the book Carmilla which is probably why but I thought you might find that funny.)

HOW DO THEY KNOW ABOUT ME? WHAT ANON WHAT THE FUCK DOES THIS MEAN? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THIS TO ME. WHAT THE FUCK

#/LH BUT ALSO WHY WOULD THEY THINK UR ME? HOW DO THEY KNOW ME? WHO ARE YOU #nas answers

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this is my pride and joy

should i do another mech next? it took me like an hour cause i’m slow

#THIS THIS #the mechanisms #jonny dville #my love

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the drumb... my wife...

#OMG #the mechanisms #drumbot brian #my love #HIM

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Snake or spider kitty?