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fit the crown to my head but I was only a kid i'm just the man on the balcony singing "nobody will ever remember me, "

REJOICE, REJOICE AND FALL TO YOUR KNEES !

rufus shinra, by stumpy || art by gazlineart.

#& || we all still die ( self promo. ) #RUFUS WILL STILL BE ON HERE BUT I MADE A BLOG I'LL BE MORE ACTIVE ON #yeet

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hi! i'm alive. i have no impulse control and made another blog. i made a whole new rules page and there's a lot of new stuff. it's an existing muse of mine, just more detailed.

anyway, have rufus shinra over at @whitexdove

#tbd

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PROMPTS FOR PEOPLE WHO REFUSE TO LET ANYONE CARE ABOUT THEM *  assorted dialogue, adjust as necessary

i don't need your help.

i can handle myself.

everyone leaves.

you can't do this alone.

whatever they did to you back then... i'm sorry. but i'm not like that, and i won't abandon you like they did.

you've got bigger things to deal with.

i've been alone all my life. it's nothing new.

don't come over. i can handle it.

please let me care about you.

would you just stop?

i'm used to this.

i tried to help you.

whatever they said about you, they were wrong.

i'm not worth dying for.

suit yourself. you'll regret it tomorrow.

i'm not putting anyone else's life in harm's way.

people care about you. people want to keep you safe.

i don't want you to get hurt over me.

if you die, it'll be my fault.

i love you. you're worth fighting for.

i'm not gonna just sit here and let you do this by yourself.

i'm not worth it, okay?

i don't want you to die.

leave me alone.

this is nothing new.

thanks but no thanks. i don't need your help.

i can't lose you again!

don't make yourself an island.

don't you understand? i can't lose you!

you're not patching this up alone. let me help.

i'm not used to this. being cared about.

you'll just suffer because of me.

i'm not like the rest. i won't leave you.

everyone leaves. maybe it's better that way.

i can handle it just fine, thanks.

i don't need your advice.

stop pushing me away. it won't work.

this is all i've got left.

i'll get over it!

it's better if i just go alone.

let me protect you.

i'll just keep coming back, you know.

it's easier to make people hate me.

if something happens to you, i'll never forgive myself.

i've already lost so many people.

i can patch this up myself.

you've obviously got more important things to deal with.

everyone i love ends up leaving me one way or another.

what if something happens?

this wasn't supposed to go this way.

stop risking your life for me.

i work better alone.

it's safer to just stay away from me.

eventually you'll see i'm not worth it.

every single time i let someone in, they end up disappointing me.

trust me. i know this for a fact.

just leave me be. i'll figure this out myself.

you should go.

you're all i have left.

people around me are always getting hurt.

it's better if you just leave me here.

i can't trust anyone. not anymore.

why do you keep fighting for me?

you have no idea what this is like.

i know you think i'll leave, but i won't. not now. not ever.

you matter to me. i'll say it a thousand times until you understand.

please just let me take care of you.

i work alone.

that won't work on me.

no one's ever really loved me before.

you need help.

so that's it? you're just gonna push me away again?

what's it gonna take for you to realize i want to be here for you?

i don't want to see you hurt.

you can't just push away everyone who loves you.

you'll never be able to beat this alone.

you expect me to just sit here?

i love you, goddamn it!

you want to be alone? fine. be alone.

i'm not strong enough.

i really thought i could help you. turns out i was wrong.

i wish you would listen to me.

i came all this way to help you, and this is the thanks i get?

you are worthy of love, you know.

how many times do i have to tell you? i'm fine!

stop pushing people away.

it's easier to just make you hate me.

i don't hate you. i could never hate you.

#& || i thought we might play a game ( meme. )

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"you can't hurt me in any way that matters."

#open #& || ( threads. vegas. ) #theyre traumatized

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"sometimes when i talk i sound too much like my father and i die inside."

#open #& || ( threads. rufus. ) #ffvii rp #do u ever have ~*daddy issues*~

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Sylvia Plath // D. Antoinette Foy

#& || ( musings. cloud. ) #& || ( musings. vegas. )

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sorry for the inactivity -- there's been a lot going on, but i got some medical news that could either be shitty or very bad so i'm having a rough time.

#tbd #& || deku found dead in the lifestream ( ooc. ) #might have a blood clot in my brain it might be scar tissue

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brandon roger quotes part 2

these come from the brandon rogers grandpa videos — grandpa hates disneyland, grandpa goes shopping, grandpa hates halloween

feel free to adjust names/pronouns as needed some may be offensive

“ i met my first valentine on this ride. his/her name was [ name ]. he/she’s a ghost now. ” “ something just popped! ” “ boy pull up your goddamn pants. i can see pinnochio and he is telling the truth. ” “ i can’t shove this up my ass. ” “ HOW’D YOU MISS THE BOWL? ” “ i’m not scared. ” “ out of my way, i’m a real grandpa. ” “ i’m ready to go, now! ” “ i haven’t touched a piece of candy in 20 years. ” “ don’t look at the dildos! ” “ you’re not my grandson! go away! ” “ hi [ name ] ! you still look like a slut. ” “ i need more candy. ” “ excuse me pharmacist, where the sugar section. ” * screaming * “ FUUUUUUCK. did i close that garage door? ” “ youse a bitch and your mammy is too. ” “ son, i’m only gonna ask you one more time. put that candy back i’m not buying you that sugar. ” “ santa is watching you, asshole. ” “ oh shit we’re being pulled over. ” “ who am i? ” “ when i met your first grandmammy, back in uh 1857. ” “ that was the saddest section of her life. ” “ well i took the whole goddamn bottle of these vitamins here. ” “ well they tasted just like candy to me. ” “ well it’s gonna have to be a spooky one because it’s the halloween time. ” “ the goddamn flashlight is broken again. ” “ the fuck did you just call me? ” “ i drank some bleach all the way down to the blue and now i’m starting to feel like harry potter. ” “ what are you supposed to be, a disappointment? ” “ every halloween i have the same goddamn nightmare. ” “ a goblin tries to eat out my asshole. ” “ it shows what you gonna look like when you get old and fucked up. ” “ oH fuck me right in the asshole. ” “ this is longer than my dick. ” “ when we get home, i am going to give you a spooky ass grounding. ” “ what the FUCK. ”

#& || i thought we might play a game ( meme. )

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his phone rings and the sound is surprisingly loud -- like someone who either cannot afford to miss a call, or might miss the call if the sound was any quieter. it's still annoying to most people.

"now if you'll excuse me, i'm going to answer this phone call. it's probably my father calling to tell me to go fuck myself."

#open #& || ( threads. rufus. ) #when the fuck did tumblr get so stupid with tags #is it just me? #idk have a natural disaster

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President Shinra, dying: Son, there’s something I need to tell you.

Rufus: What is it?

President Shinra: I just wanted to let you know… I always hated you. I always hated you the most.

Rufus, softly: Yeah, I know you did. Now hurry up and die, you prick.

#idk how to tag this but damn this is my rufus #i work for the next six nights so i will be Gone

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everything is going great why do you ask

#tbd #& || deku found dead in the lifestream ( ooc. )

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Vegas tilts their head to the side for only a moment, before following after miyako. it's not like vegas is defenseless, they're perfectly capable of keeping themselves safe if they needed to.

Miyako was happy there was no hard feelings to his actions. It was rather rude of him to butt in but he didn't regret it at all. He smiled more softer nodding his head making a gesture if the person can follow him.

#tidesofclarity #& || ( threads. vegas. )

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vegas waves their hand dismissively. they didn't mind, it certainly wasn't an issue for them. it was good to have an excuse to not have to deal with that mess.

"it's okay. i appreciate it."

Nodding his head as they correctly said their name in such a soft way that it was like a whisper in a breeze. Taking a moment he flipped to a new page writing again,

I am so sorry if I imposed on you. I just couldn't take what was going on.

#tidesofclarity #& || ( threads. vegas. )

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OH! vegas tilts their head to the side as they watch the other. writing messages down made... so much more sense than what vegas chose to do. huh. makes sense.

"... miyako. okay." their voice is still gentle, almost inaudible.

Ah! He forgot about personal space again. Drawing his hand away he perked back up from the introduction. Reaching back into his bag he pulled out an old note pad with some premade writing. It wrote,

Hello my name is Miyako.

#tidesofclarity #& || ( threads. vegas. ) #vegas rlly taught themselves asl only to learn today that they coulda just Not #theyre not extra they just overthink

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"about to do something stupid, but i'm not telling anyone what it is so they can't stop me."

#gaia's favorite idiot #threads. #& || ( threads. zack. ) #open

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blink. blink. vegas seems, is, very surprised at the action. vegas looks at the candy in their hand, and then back up at the other. processing.

oh. right. introductions.

"i'm vegas."

Shaking his head he wouldn't accept this. Miyako can see his past self, maybe even a little of his current self in the other. As a child he wish someone would have reached out to him like this. Placing the candy into the other's hand he curled their fingers around it as to grasp it softly. Just a little kindness. Just a tiny bit to heal a hurt heart.

#i love them sm already #& || ( threads. vegas. ) #tidesofclarity

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"now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to answer this phone call. It's probably my father calling to tell me to go fuck myself--"

#open #this is a shitpost but also very serious #i'm sorry im genunely just like this #& || ( threads. rufus. )