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why is the answer to one of my logic design hw questions the 1960s hit I Can’t Get No Satisfaction by the Rolling Stones, was this what I signed up for?

#what fresh hell

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quiz? done.

meds? taken.

logic design homework? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

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tag yourself im the goth in comp sci and engineering

where are the edgelords in stem. show me the alternative kids studying mechanical engineering & the trad goths studying neuropsychology & the slasher horror movie junkies studying hematology and phlebotomy & the emos studying chemical engineering. i wanna live in a future where my doctor has e-girl strands and giant platform boots the same color as their sterile nylon gloves.

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Well, I wrote the circuit out for my lab, but god be damned if I’m gonna test it now. It is 1:30 AM and that is a problem for future me.

In all honesty, looking at the rest of the lab it seems like I’m almost done, so I can afford some trouble shooting time, but what I CAN’T afford is a somehow worse sleep schedule. (He says, as if he’ll fall asleep once he falls into bed.)

Pretty sure I also have some electrical engineering work to do for 5 PM tomorrow, but hey, if I don’t sleep like a dumbass then it’s fine.

#college #comp sci #catch me sleepin like a dumbass probably

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me: does one (1) Karnaugh Map/truth table.

my brain: awful. exhausting. atrocious. i am GOING to sleep right now.

#comp sci #college #yes this is about my lab lmao #electrical engineering #idk what the abbreviation for that is so WELL #uni

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quiz? obliterated. wish me luck on the lab before i blow up a breadboard lmao

Perhaps one day I’ll be able to complete assignments without the raw power of adrenaline fueling me. Maybe then I could complete assignments early instead of last minute.

#im too tired to be fully aware of it #but i should do some of that lab now anyway so ill finish it in time #if i die then all of my belongings go to my friend's cat

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Perhaps one day I’ll be able to complete assignments without the raw power of adrenaline fueling me. Maybe then I could complete assignments early instead of last minute.

#sigh #im off to do a calc quiz #and then some work for a lab i need to do #perhaps i shoudl do that whole 100 days of productivity thing #after my adhd diagnosis is done for ideally #so my brain would Work

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If you don’t ever feel like doing your homework, studying for a test, reading the last few chapters of a book, finishing an essay, or practicing your art

Get out your papers or supplies and set them in front of you

Make a mental note of how relieved and happy you’ll be after you get work done

Make your area welcoming for you to get motivated and in the zone

Can’t get into it? Watch inspiring videos that get you into that zone of productivity

Play some good upbeat or relaxing music that make you want to get things done and rule the world

Put electronics away or turn off notifications so you can focus

List which tasks at hand are easier to get done faster, that way you’ll have finished some things and it’ll feel like you’re on a roll,then move onto the harder ones

If you can’t keep focused, go for 10-15 minutes then take small 5 minute breaks then go back at it again

Don’t self sabotage yourself and procrastinate, do yourself a favor!

Get things done even though it may seem like such a hassle at the end of it you’ll feel good

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just at a glance they have a LOT of free online courses for data sciences as well, definitely worth looking into

reminder that harvard has dozens of free online classes for a huge range of subjects. i’m currently enrolled in a class centered around the history of divination, as well as world history. it’s worth your time, in my opinion.

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I can barely contain myself right now

holy shit

HOLY SHIT

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Hmm... maybe don't treat being formally educated as a sign of superiority over other people when it's literally just a sign of privilege.

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dumb things I’ve seen dark academia romanticise (feel free to add)

boarding schools

underage drinking

smoking

insomnia ??

capitalism

#it's okay to romanticize your own life #but there will always be things that are easier to romanticize than to deal with properly #don't ever put yourself in the position of craving your own self destruction #shit is WACK #and im guilty of it tbh #sometimes a part of me wants to take up a bad habit #like my brain is itching for a vice #but take care of yourself

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Chaotic Academia Aesthetic

Finishing a book after 8 years. Planning an early school night but being kept up by parties outside the window. Doodling instead of homework. Listening to angry music while studying. "I'll tidy my room tomorrow". Learning three languages but never practices. Living off £10 a week. Writing bad poetry. Singing Hozier in the communal kitchen. Your flatmate might be a ghost.

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"One of the most prevalent obstacles in our ability to heal and self-actualise is when our productivity is tied to our worthiness."

I think the studyblr community especially needs to hear this. You don't have to be productive all the time, you need rest. Recovering from internalised capitalism means unpicking all the messages from family, friends, school and workplace that have reinforced the idea that you are a commodity, and that your worth is based on what you do. Your worth is inherent.

Source: therapywithlee