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Cold brew and eBay. Surely nothing can go wrong.

#ccscoffee #cold brew #ebaycommunity #hard at work #or hardly working

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Enjoying one of the last mosquito free nights outside with a small fire, the dogs, and the “kids” hunting for fronts back in the slew. For so many years I took this kind of thing for granted or just plain didn’t care because of my bipolar depression. Or even worse I was chair bound because of my wreck.

Now I try and cherish every small moment like this.

#bipolar depression #isn’t the end #its the small things #country #country life

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The never ending struggle against daily chores has been won for the day. Soon spring cleaning must commence. I’m not sure we’re I’m going to get that energy from. Can we rewind the years and give me back my 20 something year old energy?

#strugglesofahomemaker #daily #daily life #homemaking #house cleaning #chores are done

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your recovery is all your own. it’s not for others. it’s for you.

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Tip for the night. Suffer from any form of deliberating mental illness that makes even a simple task like showering sound like you’re being asked to run the Boston Marathon after being awake for 48 hours straight.

Get a sturdy plastic folding chair. A real shower is great but expensive and let’s face or they take up a lot of room. Folding ones are cheaper and can be tucked away when dried.

Shower time rolls round just plop that bad boy straight under the shower fall, sit and enjoy as the water relaxes you. You can do all you need to do sitting. Bath, shave, wash the hair… everything and you never have to stand (outside of standing to get out of the shower).

When I’m in the depths of my bipolar depression the MERE IDEA of showering is exhausting much less the act of holding my body upright while I perform “yoga” in slippery water.

In 2019 I learned to embrace a seated shower due to an ATV wreck that left my ankle shattered. I swore I’d never sit to shower again. I associated it as being weak bc that’s why I started. It took two years for me to realize I didn’t need a shattered ankle to have permission to sit and shower. I can sit and shower when I’ve had a long day, when I’m sick, when I’m just to mentally tired to hold myself up. That realization has been a game changer for me.

Being able to continue healthy self care is vital when I’m depressed or unwell. Giving myself permission to do so in the best way I can allows me to keep that up.

Allow yourself to change the “rules” and do what’s easier for you.

#remember you aren’t alone #bipolar depression #depression hacks #healthy self-care #depression #mental health #mental health self care

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I can still taste the cardboard

And they were the best thing we ever had in the summer, too. #pushups #pushpops #popups #orangesherbet #vintage #nostalgia #oldschool #80skids #genX https://www.instagram.com/p/Com3gEirc-R/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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This weeks spread.

#happyplanner #weeklyspread #stickersmakemehappy

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Happy Valentines Day! Here are some Accursed Vampire Valentines for you and your vampire valentine.

also the second Accursed Vampire book will be out next week so you should buy it and be my valentine.

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Moving to the melody 

Flowing into harmony 

All my sorrows behind me 

My inner sanctuary

#breathtakingly beautiful

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This is how every haunted doll movie starts… someone sees creepy doll and brings said doll home.

This most likely haunted doll I found at an estate sale...

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Wow it’s been a while but I dunno the headspace I’m in currently is exactly what Tumblr has been known for. Relieved to be back!

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💕🦄💕

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Day 9: if this means slipping into a little/middle space mindset i don’t really do that. I’m middle pretty much all the time. It’s just who I am.

But certain things make me feel more middle. Like kawaii things, stuffies, fun socks, cartoons.

#little #little stuff #30 days of little space #little space #kawaii #middle #middle space

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Day 7: nope. Not my jam. Nothing against those who do.

Day 8: snuggling with Chester my Owl and watching Disney movies.

#little stuff #little #middle #middle space #30 days of little space

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This is my abuser, he would emotionally and mentally abuse me throughout the relationship. When we broke up he then faked his suicide/death. Brandon Taylor leaked a pornagrpahic video of me. I want blogs to know who this person is and what he did to me. @spacejonze is his tumblr and instagram, his other accounts are @/spooknyc on instagram and his twitter account too. I don’t want anyone to have to go through what i went did.

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Anything for Shemar 🥰🥰

hey guys. shemar moore would want u to take care of urself and have a good day. do it for shemar.

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So me if I don’t get some middle time here soon!

#middle #middle space #infj thoughts #need my space