derekshaws

[derekshaws]

𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕟𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕤 𝕚𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥’𝕤 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕤𝕙𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕜𝕖𝕕 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕙𝕖𝕣…

@derekshaws

#mira #death tw #fire tw #inspo

[derekshaws]

I’m gonna give you a lesson… It’s gonna be free, the first one’s always free.

All right, this is how girls like to be kissed.

#inspo #mira

[derekshaws]

STEVE HARRINGTON: FATHER OF THE YEAR

P.S.

Steve Harrington deserved better.

#inspo #ok yeah this really is derek

[derekshaws]

“ 𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕒 𝕟𝕚𝕔𝕖 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕞𝕒𝕕𝕖 𝕦𝕡 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕞𝕖 “

@ofheroism

#inspo #mira #I WOULD LIKE TO THANK TASHA WHO MADE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE GIFS I SIMPLY SLAPPED ON SOME WORDS #i am in my feelings

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ofheroism​:

“This isn’t about you ! ” is all Mirana manages to get out in rebuttal to the first part of his rant. Maybe there wasn’t a reason for him to know how she only hated herself, but why would he ever think he’d done something when she’s literally on fire ? It’s true what he yells after, and yet hearing in his own voice that she turned her back on him… Mira only swallows, using all her willpower to restrain backtracking her threats. 

I’m a vampire. Her flames die without a conscious thought, her head shaking, as if her own denial will force his words to be untrue. “No… No, you aren’t – you aren’t a vampire, you… you stayed in Chicago, and you graduated and you got a new partner and you’re probably teaching teaching at the academy, and you’re happy, you aren’t… Derek, you didn’t die.” Her voice cracks on the final word, more a plea than a demand. He isn’t dead, didn’t die, because that would mean… There is already nothing but guilt in her empty chest, but with a sharp breath, it expands to suffocate her somehow even more than the breath before. 

The anger has left him, nothing but his underlying sadness showing through on his face now. He’s tired. “I would have gone with you. If you asked.” He doesn’t know why he needs her to know it. Needs her to know that all this time he was worried she left without him because he wasn’t trustworthy. That she somehow thought that his parents, or the hunters, or anything had been more important to him than her. He barely registers when the flames go out. They’re probably the reason she ran, but he still can’t wrap his head around the fact that she thought something like that would have changed things.

A shaky laugh escapes from his lips while she tells him about the perfect life he’s supposed to be living. “That’s a nice life you made up for me.” He wonders if that’s how she thinks things would have worked out for her if their roles had been reversed. That she would have been able to move on, to do things that had always been with each other, now suddenly alone day in and out. Maybe the young hunters in training wouldn’t have made her feel like she was suffocating because she wouldn’t see two teenagers messing around and think of him the way he had thought of her. It really isn’t her fault that he died, that had always been his own ego. He learned that day that he wasn’t invincible. “Guess you’re not the only one who got to have a funeral with an empty casket.” He said, letting his fangs show when he spoke. There was nothing left for him in Chicago. There hadn’t been since she left anyways. 

#mira #i am not even a little sorry for replying so fast if i had to think this you had to read it #AND IF YOU NOTICE THE TENSES NO YOU DON'T

[derekshaws]

Break my heart. Break it a thousand times if you like. It was only ever yours to break anyway

Maxon Schreave (via sofia-mylifeline)

#inspo #mira #wishing ash a very suffer while you write that reply #love u

[derekshaws]

#tag yourself i’m Cat

#inspo #derek is jade #TAKES AFTER HIS MOM GJSDGHLKSDJ

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ofheroism​:

when: january 10, 2023 where: port valdez who: @derekshaws​

It is too reminiscent of some melancholic social media post that leaves him sighing and wishing he’d never made a profile simply to like Elliot’s podcast (truthfully, he’s listened to all of two…) to say “what a year” about a year that has only existed for all of ten days. And yet, this is exactly what he thinks as he sits on a boulder near the caves to clear his head. Or, at least, where he’d meant to be clearing his head, and he realizes to his misfortune someone else in the nature of Port Valdez. “If it isn’t the grumpiest man in all of Alaska. I regret to inform you there aren’t trash cans in the near vicinity.” 

Derek needed something new to focus on, now that he’d found Isabel, or Mira he supposed. It was hard to get himself to call her the new name, but it didn’t really matter when she rarely deigned to speak with him. He had a semblance of home here, a weird family, and even the people in town he didn’t particularly want to talk to felt important to him. He hadn’t grown out of the protective hunter instinct, no matter how hard he tried. And yet, things were different. A poignant example could be found in the cup he carried, his coffee spiked with blood. In the way that the chill in the air didn’t affect him like it would have a few years ago. “You know, the grinch costume doesn’t suit you now that the holidays are over kid.” Derek quipped, choosing to sit down near Reuben. Neither of them really needed to acknowledge what a shitshow the year had already been, it was evident in the way their shoulders hung tiredly. “Didn’t take you for a cave dweller, but I will say it suits you.”

#reuben

[derekshaws]

KIT HARINGTON Supper Suite at Marbl for the ‘Baby Rudy’ premiere party September 9, 2022

#reflection

[derekshaws]

✧ NEVER HAVE I EVER | S03E09 x S03E10 (2022)

#inspo #mira

[derekshaws]

hxll-bxnt-indix​:

Location: Artic Bar - post New Years (OPEN) // (CLOSED)

Indie dragged the broom against the rough surface of the bar, hoping to drag every little piece of glitter and confetti with her into the dustpan. A lone confetti piece was the only sole survivor and the constant brush of the broom failed to pull it into the pan. Letting out a huff of angered breath she reached out and plucked up the piece, tossing it in with the others. The place was supposed to be cleaned up hours ago but by the time she arrived this morning it had looked like a unicorn had thrown up allover the place. Wherever her coworkers were was a mystery to herself. A chime went off which indicated that someone had entered the establishment.

“Unless you have come to help we’re not going to be opened for a few hours”, she tossed the words out as she reached for another piece of confetti.

Derek looked at the mess around him with open disdain. He was actually oddly tidy. Odd because nobody seemed to assume it of him. He’d actually come looking for Alex, to apologize for practically chasing Mira off the other night and leaving her working alone, but he supposed he should have tried her apartment. “Sorry, I wasn’t sure who was opening today.” He sighed and grabbed the other broom, beginning to help with the sweeping. “The closer left you with all this? Distasteful.”

#derek: i am grumpy and unloveable #derek: helps clean even tho he does not work here #indie

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ofheroism​:

“Stake you ? ” The answer is right there, if Mira could only focus on anything other than not letting him see her in her own monstrous element, on replaying everything they’d said at the swings with growing terror. “Why would you look for me for fifteen years ?! ” she all but screams at him, anger and frustration a better compromise than whatever thrashes around in some locked compartment inside herself begging to throw her arms tightly around his neck – whether to embrace or strangle him is unclear – because he’s right here and a decade and half doesn’t seem so long for just a moment. She’s still sitting in the snow, trying to process how none of this is going how she’s ever envisioned, when his last words shatter her resolve. “Don’t. Don’t be glad – I’m not fucking glad – The truth, Derek ? The girl you’re looking for is dead. She died in that fire in all the ways that matter and I can’t let – you have no fucking idea who I really am and I want it to stay that way. ” Hazel irises glow an unnatural gold, steam rising from the snow she’s melted, and she’ll say anything to make him leave before it’s too late. “God, Shaw, don’t you get it ? Don’t you think I would have found you if I wanted to ? ! I want to be as far away from you as a planet will allow ! Hell, if we find a way to Mars, I’ll take it, because I never want you to see me again for the rest of your life ! ” This time, she gives up and raises her hands in front of her, flames licking towards her elbows, as if she’d ever hurt him on purpose. “This is the truth. Now leave before I do something worse than stake you.” And then, only then, does it click, one arm lowering in surprise. “… Did Hunters come up with some vampire steroid to compel people ? ”

Derek would describe her as many things. Stubborn, beautiful, even fiery. He hadn’t expect that last one to be quite so literal though. His eyes widened in shock as she caught on fire, a gasp escaping his lips. Still, she didn’t seem to be harmed by it, and so somehow he was less afraid. “What did I do then? What did I do to make you change from my best friend into someone who hates me? You don’t just decide over night that you never want to see someone again!” He started raising his voice, stepping once towards her even though her arms were quite literally on fire. “What did I do that was so horrible you turned your back on me?” His voice cracked halfway through the sentence and he couldn’t help the heaving breaths he took. Suddenly she was peeking from behind one arm and asking him about hunters again. He was quiet again when he finally answered. “No you idiot. I’m a vampire. Plain as that. I lost.” He meant that in more ways than one. 

#mira

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xdivinve​:

RAISING a brow “whatever floats your boat.” regardless if the person in front of her was wearing dark colors and did not even look like purple would be a color for him. “Who knows, wouldn’t be the first.”  she grabbed the scarf, shame she couldn’t start a fire. looking around, finding an area were a few homeless folks were, a fire in bin. “well.” she just threw it in the fire. “hmmm .” she used her hand to gesture his whole being “edward scissorhand vibes, or john snow vibes.”

Derek watched her toss it into one of the fires in garbage bins that was littered throughout this part of town. He didn’t like the assessing gaze that she had suddenly turned onto him and he groaned when she started trying to ‘describe his vibe’. “Neither really. I’m just allergic to color.” He wasn’t sure why she was still talking to him, after implying he had poor fashion taste and setting a scarf on fire. Still, it seemed like people in this town were just... like that.

#vivi

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dusklxght​:

x

It was interesting. Derek was a hunter, now a vampire, yet was still kind of in the hunter circle. Alex was a werewolf, yet trusted a hunter with her life. It just goes to show how not all supernaturals and hunters were enemies. Yes, there were merciless hunters out there, but that case could be made for some supernaturals too. Sometimes the world wasn’t black and white. Alex nodded at the notion of them going after anyone who ever hurt Rose. “I will,” they replied. “I just hope it never comes to that.” Regardless, they’d be prepared. 

That’s right. One day, questions may start to be asked as to why Derek didn’t seem to be aging. She sighed but nodded. “That’s the thing about time, isn’t it…” they pondered, nodding slowly. “One moment, it feels like we have all the time in the world. The next, we’re wondering how it went by so quickly.” The world just kept moving.

Derek chuckled, a sarcastic grin on his face. “I mean, not that I asked for it but I really do have all the time in the world now.” He wasn’t sure how he felt about eternity. He barely liked the idea of living for a normal lifespan, and now he was faced with a life that had no end in sight. “But yeah, unfortunately soon enough my very existence will be an exposure threat.” He didn’t know where he’d go next. In honesty he’d figured he would just move around with Cecilia, probably Jordan too. As long as she didn’t try and bring him back to France he would probably follow her. “So I guess I’m going to have to trust you and Morgan to keep her safe into old age without me.”

#alex #hehehe tasha made this gif uwu

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ofheroism​:

She’d nearly made it across the street when she, like a fool, looked back. That was how it had been all month, hadn’t it ? Texting a number she could just… not reply to, talking to a ‘hallucination’ at the park. God, would she ever make the smart move ? He yells after her before she turns away and Mira finds herself seizing mid-step, stumbling over into the packed snow as he approaches. 

“What the fuck ? ” she wonders aloud in disbelief as if this is her own monstrous ‘abilities’ acting up, and then Derek Shaw – a real version who is unfortunately looking like an exact replica of Swingset Derek – is in front of her yelling at vervain and Mira’s brain can’t keep up. Just as her hands begin to catch aflame out of some subconscious fight or flight reaction, she shoves them into the snow. No. No, not here, not now. 

“I haven’t needed any ! ” she shouts back. Truthfully, she’s been unsure whether she is immune to – … compulsion. Compulsion from vampires. Her head jerks around to scan the immediate vicinity, as if she’ll discover a vampire standing behind him. “Did you just –” No, there is a non-vampiric option and she doesn’t have time to risk figuring it out, only to get rid of him before she loses control. “Shaw, I don’t know what the fuck is going on, but we’re not going to talk. You need to leave Valdez, now. I don’t have any answers you’d like and it isn’t safe here.” Is she talking about herself or the mystery of local residents turning up dead ? … Why not both ? 

He sighed in frustration, of course she hadn’t needed any as if that was a perfectly good reason not to be wearing such basic protection from vampires. He was in love with an idiot. “All I want is the truth. And believe me there’s nothing here that’s scarier than the past few years. If you stake me at least I’d know where I stand with you.” He made no effort to hide what he’d become, after all he’d literally just accidentally compelled her. Derek thought he would be ready to see her again, but emotional as ever he found himself blurting out exactly how he was feeling. “God- can we just end this 15 year silent treatment? You’re going to have a hard time convincing me to give up. You’re selfish and impulsive and flighty and I know all of that and here I am standing in an alley in fucking Valdez Alaska because none of it has stopped me from wanting you back in my life.” He laughed, choking on the sound as his eyes watered. “God, I’m just glad that I was right and you aren’t dead.” He was waiting for her to move, to do anything. 

#mira #idc if u just replied take some emotional damage

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@ofheroism

ANNIE & BRITTA | 6.12

#inspo #rosie

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dusklxght​:

x

Imagining a little Rosemary running around prompted a warmer smile. “I can only imagine she was probably like how she is now,” they commented gently. The wonder, innocence, and joy that probably showed then, showed now too. Rose had been with the Kovals for a long time. While Alex had known Morgan and them too in general, it wasn’t until after she became a werewolf when Alex really started becoming a honorary Koval too in a sense. When the vampire admitted to finding Morgan terrifying, Alexis laughed. “Maybe that’s a goal of hers,” she mused.

“Good, that… definitely makes us feel better,” she admitted, referring to Derek having been trained all his life. “It means you’re alert too.” The werewolf nodded, glancing briefly toward a few people who passed them. “And as of late… keen observance has been needed more than ever.”

Derek cracked a smile at Alex’s laugh. “Oh it’s definitely her goal. She’s... probably one of the only hunters that I still respect. Even the rest of the group up here... is on thin ice.” Morgan had never preached for needless killing of supernaturals. It had always been about protecting people with her, and as Derek reflected on a lot of his own actions the past year he desperately wanted to believe he had been like that... Even if he wasn’t sure he could say all of his intentions had been good. 

He nodded at her, his face back to being more serious. “I’ll do everything I can to help out, and I’m sure you’ll be right along with me hunting someone down if anything ever manages to hurt her.” He and Alex weren’t really friends... but they at least had that in common. He wasn’t sure why she was weird about vampires, and honestly it wasn’t really his business. She wasn’t out here trying to get him killed for no longer being human and that’s about all he needed from her. “I’ll be around as long as... I can without it being weird that I’m not aging. I’ll have to move along then.”

#alex