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My friend sent me this no context

I want what they have

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I found out recently, via social media, that someone I used to know had passed away. It made me realise that I hadn't seen their posts on social media for a long time, though I hadn't consciously noticed it happening, and when I went to look for them I realised I'd forgotten their last name.

I spent hours and hours of my life with this person from the age of 21 - 23. And now they're dead and I can't remember a thing about them except the fact that I liked them a lot. I don't know if this is a case of being neurodivergent and struggling with my memory, or a case of being nearly 40, or both, or neither. It makes me wonder if I'm a bad person, or just a person. It makes me want to be a better partner and friend and daughter and sister to the people I have now.

It makes me wonder if, when I die, some people somewhere that I've known at one point or other will see it in passing and feel a little sad, and then completely forget the sadness to mull over their own mortality and whether they're being a good enough person to the people still in their life.

And I think that would be nice, actually. To be glancingly remembered by someone whose life I had brushed, to be a passing reminder that this is all finite and precious.

#ceinwen uses tumblr as a journal

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Pigs in Space

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Sometimes I get spontaneous flashbacks to working in customer service at a video game/pop culture store, and todays was the voice of an elderly woman proclaiming that she couldn't buy a GREEN gift card for her grandson, HE'S A BOY.

#prior to this exchange I'd always thought green was considered gender neutral by the People Who Care #but apparently not

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Steven Universe Title Cards

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Tag with the exact number if you know it

Tag with an estimate if you don’t know it

If you have more than 200, how MANY more than 200? 👀

#I haven't counted but I'm definitely in the over 200s. Maybe over 400? Idk. Never enough.

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Woman Reading, Photo by Constant Emile Puyo, 1890s

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orpheus ascending

#hello ​I am filfth for the locked tomb

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I'm also working on the second Misadventures of Celeste Rossan book.

It's fun. That is all.

#ceinwen uses tumblr as a journal #queer folk in 1867 + society + supernatural beasties = good times.

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I’m writing an epic military science fantasy space opera for my MA major project and I just DO NOT know why I make these decisions. I could have chosen something SMALL. I could have chosen something I don’t have to create an entire universe for. I don’t even understand MY OWN country’s economy for fuck’s sake.

Anyway, I’ve already been working on this hot mess for 8 months so stay tuned I guess 💀

#I wanted to challenge myself but I may have challenged myself TOO HARD #writer #writblr #ceinwen uses tumblr as a journal

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This tweet really popped off on tumblr, huh. 

#is this the most successful thing I've ever written? #writing #writer #writeblr

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I woke up to fanart of The Misadventures of an Amateur Naturalist today and my heart has not yet recovered, and simply may never 🥹

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IG blythcolinsoninteriors

#TASSELS baby

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I am 36 years old and I have spent my evening eating ice cream and picking out new curtains and curtain rods with my partner. Now I'm looking at tasselled curtain tie-backs because the Greedy Peasant has ruined me.

If you'd asked me at 16 or even 26, this would not have been the dream. But 36-year-old me is pretty fucking happy.

#general state of the world aside #adjusting for existential dread and all that #cognitive dissonance? I don't know her #ceinwen uses tumblr as a journal

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La Mode illustrée, no. 34, 23 août 1874, Paris. Toilettes de Mme Fladry, 43 rue Richer. Ville de Paris / Bibliothèque Forney

#Celeste would 'grudgingly' allow herself to be put into the brown one.

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Edith Cushing (Mia Wasikowska) Crimson Peak.

#my queen

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Archers, a 1799 print by Adam Buck.

#fuck 'em up ladies