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I return

I haven't shaded with this process before- it's a bit messy and usually I'd refine and render more but- whatever, I hope you enjoy

can someone please draw this as gordon with barney

#my art #gordon post

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I might color it

Sorry if you were expecting two twinks or the game designs --I'm not sorry--

can someone please draw this as gordon with barney

#I do still enjoy the twinkish designs #I'm not all that picky #However #I am drawing this how I want #If you want the game designs or your twinks #You're free to draw it #In fact I would like to see that #my art #freehoun tag I guess? #always nervous to put this in the main game tag/lh

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various

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The text says 'I hope you like my category 3 autism event'

'behold.'

#I still don't know how to socialize on tumblr but I hope you enjoy how much your art made this click in my head #And I finally actually drew it instead of trying to convey it over text through reblogs

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For my me audience

#gordon post #my art

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This is indeed the account to contact! This is the main account but @galliumyttriumreblogaccount our reblog account that works just as well.

I will warn the website was made before the recent events in Palestine kicked up, Wix is an Isreali website; It is merely an example of my works and a place to find prices. (The website being a WIP partially due to not wanting to work with and support Isreal.)

Until I find another way to make a free or cheap website I encourage you to message me directly and I can directly give you prices and art examples!

I would like to note I try to keep as broad a range of prices as possible, my colorless sketches being cheapest, while full rendered being the most expensive. Any money helps! Commission what you can afford.

Y’all should comm my friend ( @freeing-the-man ) bc their art is Stellar As Fuck (site is still a wip but still, good to look at)

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Commissions are once again open!!!!!!!! Yippee 2 slots open!!

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Commissions are on a temporary pause until I can get a new drawing tablet, this should be soon but I'm fairly low on money- hence the need for commissions in the first place.

So have it be on your radar; if you or someone you know might be interested- let me know!

I would set wait estimation to about two weeks at the longest!

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Downloading a new brush does something to me, I made this in about 3 minutes

Medibang has such a limited list of downloadable brushes that I have made almost all of mine but- this one stood out to me

#gordon post #my art #i dont think the worm is on the string anymore

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#my art #gordon post

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I may or may not be working on something

#my art #gordon post #creature design #sort of spec bio? #I'm intentionally not going evolution route with this #I'm trying to keep it to creature design- seeing them as individual chaarcters #rather than a species broadly in a n ecosystem like my work is usually-

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I offer a vortigaunt drawing from the other day

#gordon post #my art #half life #vortigaunt

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Eyeless dog was next! ( still not my screenshots)

I started playing Lethal Company and as the creature nerd I am, I decided I wanted to sketch out how I would design them, starting off with the manticoil (this is an extremely rough sketch, with minimal analysis, purely for fun!)

#lethal company eyeless dog #my art

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I started playing Lethal Company and as the creature nerd I am, I decided I wanted to sketch out how I would design them, starting off with the manticoil (this is an extremely rough sketch, with minimal analysis, purely for fun!)

#gordon post #my art #lethal company #manticoil

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Reminder that I do indeed have commissions open!!

3/3 slots are open

A link to my website. Contact me over Tumblr or Discord!

Examples of my work --some of which are past commissions!--

#my art #gordon post #commissions open

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This is your reminder to replace your stylus nib if it needs it

#not art

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One last response for now.

We then see a single drop of blood land in a mug full of it, implying this has possibly slowly grown over time.

However it doesn't just mean that to me, because that is merely the implication; that all other times flashbacks were present- that it was just a single drop. I think just as well we could assume it's slowed.

The animation ends with a more direct visual of the 'traumatic experience liquid' spreading and contaminating.

Usually I wouldn't have an animation stay so- heavy, however I felt this the best end for this animation and this section of the song, for consistency sake.

This does however- feel as an almost encouragement to create an animation clearly depicting the recovery. I feel CPTSD is often treated as this- impossible to defeat thing, such may feel like the case, but recovery is a very real and possible thing. I probably wouldn't even be able to create this animation in such the way I did had I not been so far into my recovery.

If anyone would like to recommend me music I highly encourage it ! Perhaps it will be the next animation, or perhaps I will just enjoy it, a win either way. (I enjoy a pretty damn broad range of music)

Behold, an animation!

The song

This took me two days, soon after discovering the song I was inspired to animate my favorite section --though, now that I've listened all the way through a few times, I'm struggling to find a favorite, I adore it all.--

A chunk of yesterday, and a bit into this afternoon. Some good news is- I believe I'm beginning to get a grasp on how to optimize my work as well as draw easier. Beginning to be able to draw what I like easier, and understanding that I cannot fully render each frame and have it be smooth- helped a lot./lh

I warn as the animation does have some gore, and depicts a bug(that being a mantis). None of the frames are entirely clear but there is a few scenes that convey the visual of being impaled --including the bug--

This animation was created with Blender solely, Enjoy !

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And it continues!

Let's move to a more analytical point of view, you've seen the animations, you know the scenes to at least some degree.

(Reminder that this is- really a pretty low effort animation, I put a lot of time and energy into it but the analysis is quite simple- I feel the scenes are abundantly clear, but that may just be animators perspective) I also warn that the explanation below very lightly goes on the topic of CPTSD

The song provided in the animation really hit somewhere deep in my psyche. The combination of nature, existentialism, and topics like mentions of parallel universes really stood out to me.

I will just outright say the meaning of the animation to me: To me it's about the CPTSD I collected and the confusion of being a fictive heavily interested in the multiverse.

The smooth almost painfully calm tone of the first section showing what would clearly be traumatic experience (Radiation, apocalypse, starvation, war, hell- zombies. Etc.) And the accumulation of wounds.

But it goes by fast, as the animation isn't meant to just focus on source memories. They function as more story telling, the animation isn't about the experience but the affects the experience had on me, because a couple scenes later we see me, maybe a tad over-reactive to stimuli such as sounds around me- but you see my scars healed, you see me in a T-shirt, standing in a place that is irrelevant to the trauma (and therefore not drawn).

The camera pans to almost a more grounding visual, a bird, but the grasp from the previous flashback just shown turns to dissociation, I am then depicted as a mantis being killed by the raw natural behavior of said bird.

I really do shove it in your face that this mantis is meant to be parallel to me, further indicated by the lyrics throughout the scene:

'One loggerhead shrike must skewer My invertebrate doppelgänger On barbed wire in a parallel universe'

I also just like how this is drawn, it's very low effort and the composition could use work but I really do enjoy it.

Nearly twice in a row you see my wounds open up and seemingly bleed out of nowhere, of course this isn't based on reality; scars don't just do that. Rather, phantom feelings and such vivid memories can feel like they're opening up and oozing, contaminating everything around you, including your own body.

Behold, an animation!

The song

This took me two days, soon after discovering the song I was inspired to animate my favorite section --though, now that I've listened all the way through a few times, I'm struggling to find a favorite, I adore it all.--

A chunk of yesterday, and a bit into this afternoon. Some good news is- I believe I'm beginning to get a grasp on how to optimize my work as well as draw easier. Beginning to be able to draw what I like easier, and understanding that I cannot fully render each frame and have it be smooth- helped a lot./lh

I warn as the animation does have some gore, and depicts a bug(that being a mantis). None of the frames are entirely clear but there is a few scenes that convey the visual of being impaled --including the bug--

This animation was created with Blender solely, Enjoy !