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so i dated my teacher crush

i even ran a tc blog @pumpkinspice-teachercrush that i no longer have account access to, thus didn’t really get to update at all. and once i figure out how to get access to it, i will post this there too. because it’s important.

i was 18-19 when i ran that blog. i’m now 21 and i’m in intensive therapy dealing with the major trust issues that came from our relationship.

i’m not here to lecture you or tell you you’re wrong to feel how you feel. trust me, i get it. and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with a crush.

but it needs to stay a crush. a teacher dating their student, even after they graduate, is morally and ethically wrong for so many reasons. there’s a reason why it’s not allowed.

my tc groomed and manipulated me. and i didn’t see it, bc i trusted him. which i should be able to do. he was my teacher, i should’ve been able to trust him. 

he pushed boundaries and blurred lines more and more until the time came where i was legally an adult and graduated from high school and we had sex. and he dumped me right after. 

it was all a carefully crafted manipulation. he was a predator. our relationship was predatory in every sense of the word.

he abused his power and authority and the trust i had in him as an educator.

i’m still unpacking our whole relationship through therapy. and i didn’t even realize how much of our relationship was inappropriate from the jump until i filed my report with the school district and the school district official was like “wait what the fuck he did that?! and that?!”

if your teacher crush (or any teacher) is pushing boundaries with you and blurring the lines between student and teacher, you need to report it. if your tc or any teacher does or says something that makes you feel weird, you need to report it.

trust me, i wish i did. i regret letting things get as far as they did. 

again, i am not here to lecture anyone. it is perfectly perfectly fine to crush on a teacher. the problem is if they reciprocate and act on those feelings.

if your teacher crush is the amazing person you fell for, then they would keep things ethical. even if they do reciprocate the feelings, they would put your needs as a student over their own wants. because, as a student, you need them to do their jobs.

i’m sure your teacher crushes are amazing, fantastic people. that’s why we love them, right? mine ended up not being good. and i’m still recovering after all these years. 

i know probably no one will read this, but i hope someone does and that it reaches them. i just don’t want anyone to go through even a fraction of what i’m going through. 

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i hope i have an excuse to see you when this is all over.

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i keep looking for pieces of you in everyone i meet

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so you know what guys? i think it’s best to move on from my tc, which is good bc i’m already transferring. i sent him a letter detailing how appreciative i am of him (because admittedly i wrote one for every other teacher i had except for him LMFAO) with a few gifts for his wife and kids, and i sent it a few days ago.

#heres to the end of a chapter #it was a crazy ride wasnt it? #ill miss him but i need to move on #its for the best

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remembering the time my tc ate an entire blob of wasabi just because i told him to :’)

#lowkey miss him #teacher crush

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so update: i fucking cracked like the little bitch i am and i sent my tc a follow up email like three weeks later, with a video of our duet together. i was like “omg here’s the video of us performing together! can you believe we did this? oh and i’m still expecting a goodbye from you :)”

he replied the very next morning and he said his goodbyes (he even asked me to not be a stranger, and to pop by and visit him which he never asks other students to do) but what pisses me off the most was that i literally had to grovel for a proper goodbye from him?? that’s not fair??

#teacher crush

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when u and ur tc accidentally show up in matching outfits 🥰

#he deadass showed up in a blue button up and brown corduroy pants #meanwhile i showed up in a blue skirt and a light brown blouse #we did not plan this #twas embarassing #teacher crush

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thinking about the MULTIPLE times i caught my tc watching me while blushing when i was trying to take a nap LMFAO

#what is wrong with him omf #teacher crush

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one time i called out my tc for mentioning me quite a few times in the other courses he teaches, and his face turned RED-and instead of actually responding he just flamed me 💀

#hes just on crack #teacher crush

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y’all ever miss and long for someone so much your heart hurts? no? okay just me lol

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guys it’s literally been three weeks since i told my tc that i was transferring somewhere else-but he hasn’t fucking replied?? he’s been posting on social media, commenting his congratulations on the graduates’ posts, but can’t even email me a proper goodbye?

he literally does NOT get to write me an email trying to convince me to stay, and then not fucking say anything when i confirm to him that i’m going. i know for a fact from what other people were saying that he was asking around to see if i was leaving, too.

this man literally asked me to babysit his fucking kids (which i did), i sang a duet TO FROZEN OUT OF ALL THINGS with him, and he literally shelled out his money to support me. it’s not like we were fucking strangers.

#idk how the fuck to feel rn #teacher crush

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in important shit my best friend never bothers to tell me: apparently when my tc sees me walking down the halls while he’s working, he starts blushing, immediately shoots up and gives me heart eyes for the rest of the duration of my walk..

#what the FUCK. #i cant believe im finding this out after im TRANSFERRING #IS THIS NORMAL BEHAVIOUR?? EYE—— #tcc feelings #teacher crush #teacher crush community

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so one time my tc came up with the idea to take our entire group out for a hike and my dumbass forgot to bring socks. i came back 45 minutes later than everyone else because of how bloody and bandaged my feet were, limping through the door.

as soon as i stepped into the lodge and took off my shoes, you could see how my feet were COVERED in bandages, bloody, rough and blistered. not to mention, a bitch was in pain, and PISSED. every single step felt like someone was impaling my feet, it was bad lol. as soon as i came into the door, my tc took a look at my feet and his face contorted in pain-he winced as if he was the one in pain. he opens his mouth to comfort me,

“that looks so bad.. it must be painful, are you o-“

“-jesus christ THIS IS YOUR FAULT”

and i ran off to the dorms to nurse my wounds. i told my friends what happened, and they were in complete shock-and they all went, “what do you MEAN you YELLED AT OUR TEACHER”

it took around five seconds for me to realize that i had morning just went sicko mode on a respected authority figure, but also that i had just lashed out at my favourite person in the world for NO DAMN REASON.

so i swallow my pride asap to go apologize to him for being a lil bitch, and i walk up to him and go,

“hey, um i’m really sorry for lashing out at you like that. i feel really bad and-“

“no no no, it’s okay. i feel for you. that looked like it hurt a lot. it’s my fault for taking you guys out for that hike-“

“-what are you talking about??? i FORGOT to bring the socks, it was MY fault”

“i told you that it’s okay and that you shouldn’t worry about it, i know you’re in pain and i’m sorry i-“

i had no idea whether it was the fact i was tired, delusional and in pain, but tears started prickling at my eyes, and i go,

“what are you TALKIN ABOUT??? DONT APOLOGIZE IT STILL WASNT OKAY FOR ME TO LASH OUT AT YOU LIKE THAT”

he just smiles warmly and extends his hand out for a high five. he said, “im serious, it’s okay. don’t worry about it.”

#and thats on being a huge dick to your tc #i am president of the company #love being the only one able to abuse him the way i do 😩😩😩 #teacher crush #tcc feelings #teacher crush community #tc #tc community

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thinking about how one time i looked up from trying to take a nap to see my tc’s cute flushed face smiling warmly at me 💗💞💖💓

i was too tired to smile back so i had to pull a 😙✌🏻

#teacher crush #teacher crush community #tcc feelings

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I literally just read your entire blog and- OMG CAN I HAVE THIS PLS lol I really enjoyed reading your stories they were so cute ʕʘ̅͜ʘ̅ʔ

sorry for responding to this so late-i’ve been in such a rut lately!!

awh thank u so much for reading my blog 💓💞💖💗 i’m so so so glad you liked my stories, it’s really nice to know that someone likes my dumb stories too :’))

#ask

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out of all the interactions i’ve had with my tc, i cannot believe that i convinced him to do a duet to “the first time in forever” with me, man was the elsa to my anna 😭

#tcc feelings #teacher crush community #teacher crush

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i honestly wish i could tell him good bye in person fuck

#teacher crush #teacher crush community #tcc feelings