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Caught myself thinking "I want to watch a video essay on a certain element of gothic fiction, but I want a very deep dive, with lots of sources quoted, I don't mind if it's a little dry, or even if I have to go hunting for it, as a matter of fact that sounds fun" and then I remembered JSTOR exists.

#jstor please provide me with links that will let me write my essay on King Henry IV Part One #honour and dishonour dichotomy #art of politics !! #please

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#masked man but I wouldn't be a terrible horror movie killer #like comically bad

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Growing up is actually all about realizing people don’t inherently dislike you and it’s a bit odd to assume they do

#vat of Tumblr wisdom and knowledge

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dark heir has destroyed my body and soul. I really thought it wouldn't be that angsty, I thought the revelation would come and it would be sort of resolved- that there would be some mutual understanding, and now I begin to recognise how naive I was to think that

#dark heir #cs pacat #will kempen #james st clair #violet ballard #cyprian

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"So you can take a shadow," said Will, "you can pledge yourself to darkness, but I can't be trusted with my own power, even when I want to use it to do what's right?"

Dark heir by C.S. Pacat

#AHHHHHH #GWIURGHWOIR #👹 #dark heir

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Can we talk about how, when Anharion and the Lady arrest Sarcean in Will's vision, Sarcean says to them:

And then, when James arrives in the palace and stands alongside Visander in Katherine's body, Will says:

Punch me in the throat, why don't you, Pacat.

#what a strange terrible place we have ended up in #my heart has been torn from my chest #dark heir #cs pacat

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i just finished dark heir and i am indescribably unwell if anyone has read this please tell me you’re also losing your mind and scream with me !!!!!!!!!

#I feel physically nauseous #I need the third book #NOT THE FOUND FAMILY

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I wish I could rotate my head/neck like an owl

#owl

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PLEASE, IN THE CHRISTMAS SPECIAL, LET THE CAPTAIN GET SOME, MORE THAN JUST A WEATHERMAN ON THE TV, I NEED HIM TO GET SOMETHING.

#bbc ghosts #the captain #lieutenant havers #GHOSTS CHRISTMAS SPECIAL PLEAS

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I'm just so angry all the time. all I've been is angry and im trying to remember a time before. before there was something more. It was chestnut leaves and husks, coloured bean bags piled messily on top of each other and kids running around in sparse paddocks. in the bush under a lonely sun, strung out and blistering in a blue sky. it was spending holidays with cousins who don't have enough time to visit anymore. it was the kids eating at a different table to the adults during big family dinners, with those specific type of cheap plastic plates which had knife scratches in them from where they'd worn. it was the smell of chlorine and layers of sunscreen sitting greasy on the surface of the pool, gum nuts and the smell of eucalyptus. it was going to the movies with grandparents. it was the way the wind would whip against your face in winter, when two coats and beanie wasn't enough to stay warm. choc-chip muffins for breakfast in a tiled kitchen, the smell of an aunts perfume who only visited annually. the feeling of warm sandstone beneath small hands, and the dirt on grass stained knees. it was the need to scribble in journals and write down dreams as keepsakes. sitting in a quiet room reading a book you picked up spontaneously and ended up loving so whole heartedly. at Christmas swimming for hours on end. the sound of choirs in church, singing in unison, voices ricocheting within the cathedral as an old organ player hobbled up to his stool. later the way the moon sat glaringly still in the night sky, illuminating the floorboards in a silvery glow. how in that silence, listening to dogs barking, people laughing, cars driving down the road, the moon listened. watching you grow, laughing and crying tears of star dust. how everything then had seemed so unfathomably large and daunting, how you were supposed to be sleeping to leave the next morning, but the moon was too beautiful to not look and talk to.

and now we're here and I wonder what happened to that.

#personal post #poetry

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feeling shit about subject selections. I can’t sleep. 

#I was so right for this #its been a shit year

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Ryan scared of man in window smiling, Ryan becomes man in window smiling and singing bard, Ryan is his own fear.

ghost files is an introspective reflection upon our own understanding of being

#ryan bergara #shane madej #ghost files #watcher entertainment #wearewatcher

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Ryan absolutely letting it rip on a staircase while Shane's night cam is pointed directly at his crotch - best ghost hunters in the business

#ghost files #shane madej #ryan beregara #watcher #watcherentertainment

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I have never felt so much relief and anticipation ever in my life

#watcher #shane madej #ryan bergara #wearewatcher #mystery files

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me after seeing season finale of mystery files 

#watcher #watcherentertainment #mystery files #Shane madej #Ryan bergara

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so sad. so very sad. but so nothing at the same time. 

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leather-man was actually just the first van-life content-creator

he was out here trudging to his lil pre-planned cave pit stops 200 years ago 

#watcher #watcherentertainment #Ryan bergara #Shane madej #mystery files