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Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light, and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery — celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: ‘It’s not where you take things from — it’s where you take them to.’ 

Jim Jarmusch, Five Golden Rules of Cinema

#art tag #inspo #i used to pretend that i never took influence from any other artist #i didn't wanna be accused of copying or whatever #but now i'll shout about my inspos #taking inspiration is good #& crediting ur inspiration is even better #even if it's the old masters

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Bellini via @guschduesseldorf

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hi i am alive. i don’t go on here much. the 26th january marked 6 years as a heroin addict. i didn’t do anything different, time just passes. i think about change a lot lately. i love my routines but doing gear...god it’s so boring. it takes up a very small place in my life. i have other hobbies & interests. most people i interact with have no idea i’m an addict. ofc all my closest friends are also h addicts, which makes it hard to quit. one of my dear friends is going to prison soon. he doesn’t deserve it imo, the whole situation’s fucked. 

the boredom of gear contrasts with the fear of scoring. i hate it so damn much. it was definitely an influence on my taper. i still microdose gear so i rarely have to score, but even once or twice a month is terrifying. i don’t want to go to dodgy places after dark & stand around in some area with no one around me. i often worry about what could happen. would it be worth it? hell no. ofc it wouldn’t. what an absolutely stupid reason to be hurt. 

i want to quit & move on. i’m almost 29. i’ve been doing this since i was 22. it’s bizarre. i kinda feel like i pissed away my 20s. but life isn’t over. there’s all this pressure to “be something” before you’re 30. have a house, relationship, kids etc. lots of people have that, sure, but plenty of people don’t. i have experiences that rare few people have. thinking you’re wasting your life just leads to self hatred. we have nothing to gain from hating ourselves. 

despite all of this inner mess, i’m still bringing happiness to ppl’s lives in a small way. through art & poetry, open mics & conversations, events & fun things. i’ve applied for a few jobs lately. there are things i can do despite this. it’s not all over. i just need to take one step to begin

ofc that one step is pretty massive haha 

#junkie ramblings #would be nice to change this tag #i am a junkie obv but i rly don't identify with that word anymore #this was actually a pretty positive update #man i rly need therapy tho. miss having it so much #also idk why ppl message me asking if i know where to score in american states #sorry i'm not american lol #idk if ppl will see these tags but still

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Warm bouquet commish

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°☆*° winter nights ☆*° prints available here 

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the cat lives alone ♣

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AISLING DUFFY

#fashion #are these tops or bags lol

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some of the envelopes people sent me for my book project… thank you to everyone who sent their hair, i’m so amazed by the stories people shared and am really excited to send out this book to everyone who contributed ♡ i’m working on putting it together right now, i’ll post info for preordering in the next couple of weeks too for anyone who is interested in owning a copy

#Aesthetic

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Hong Kong

Photo by Mina Seville 

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Takashi Murakami: The Lost Child Finds His Way Home (2005)

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This child who came to my house tonight is literally the funniest human being on the planet. She complimented me on having both lollipops and mini Three Musketeers available because "a lot of houses these days don't give you a fruit flavor option." She was very solemn about this.

#omg this was me 16 yrs ago #i dressed up as a combo of my oc's #& was deffo solemn #me

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Happy Halloween :3

#art tag #i love the wiggly tails #looks like procreate animation #i had a short animation phase #rly should get back into it

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#art tag #i guess

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four little babies who are ready for a nap

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