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A silly cute quiz that I took.

This was my first result. Didn't know what to expect from it. For the most part, I guess this fits me. Apparently, this is ENFJ.

My second result:

The only answer that I changed was the one for the first question. Choosing to think my day went well, or I was living the life that I want. Kind of interesting. Now this one, for the most part, does not resemble me. Supposed to be ENTJ.

Me, being an INFP, I guess it's a bit interesting that I got ENFJ and ENTJ. ENFJ supposedly being one possible side of an INFP. And ENTJ, I desire to have a bit of their traits. Also, supposedly they're golden match up for INFP. Don't know but that was kind of silly fun.

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How I connect with the INFP cognitive function stack part 2/??

Ne: (extroverted Intuition: forming connections and exploring ideas from external sources)

When it comes to creating art, I have noticed that before I actually go learn more about a particular thing (like a technique or method etc) on the topic, somehow I already know it. Figured it out on my own. I just didn't know the name or that maybe it's already a thing. But I still run into the problem of putting everything together so that it won't overwhelm my brain. On top of that, I just want to know moreee. It's like an itch that I got to scratch... If I don't fully understand something or have questions, this happens. This also happens with other topics where I already figured out a particular thing. (Awhile there are a few topics which I think my mind is like pretty blind to/unsure about. I try my best though. Everyone got things they can rather easily understand and things that they can't understand as easily, right?) There was and still are many things in life that I have to figure out on my own. But I think because of how much I learn (although I find formal education quite/very stressful and depressing for me), I am able to "magically" figure some things out.

I think Ne helps create transformative ideas of art or able to maybe a bit more easily, express abstract concepts and them a more "concrete" form. It seems to me, that it's common for people to wonder if a particular artist is an INFP. (But I think everyone has an ability to be an "artist". Just what kind/how is it expressed is the question.) And it seems not uncommon for one to be skeptical, if a person who appears to have a more logical related career (like anything with hard science such as physics), to doubt that person to be an INFP. But I don't think one should think that way. Although also not uncommon for one to think INFP can be link to such things like the field of psychology. Which for me, is something I'm more interested in among the fields of science. (And other similar soft/sort of soft sciences) Anyway, I mostly use research to inform and try to improve my life.

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How I relate to the cognitive function stack of INFP. part 1/??

Fi: (dominiated function: introverted feelings. Decisions on what feels right.)

I think before learning about MBTI, I didn't realized how much I find having values as something really important to me. Although I think because of my Ne, I'm naturally open to slowly changing what I know and value for several things. Which, I think there's a difference between how others see INFP as being annoyingly stubborn and defensive with their values vs. carefully but willing to change said values.

For me, it's possible for such changes, but there has to be a good reason. Including yes, evidence. Evidence from credible unbiased sources. (I wonder if that might be a shocker for some people when they think about an INFP) Like close around 85% (?) of research, would be factual evidence for me. The rest could be from what I notice most people notice/observe themselves. (which I understand many people might not see this as research. And maybe someone isn't being truthful or clouded with some kind of bias etc.) But I'm actually quite a skeptic. (not saying I know the true answer or whatever. But I make do with what I get and got to make some decisions, you know?)

It's also not uncommon for me to make connections between various types of topics to find an answer that I might be looking for. Or maybe feel like it makes sense to me. Because sometimes, I can't get the exact answer I'm looking for, or one that is close to fitting my circumstances. And... sometimes I think some of these research don't push and test or figure out things that's out of the paraments of what most people think is possible/the norm. (which i think part of it, is because one unfortunately needs to be cautious in, I guess, the intelligence/impulse of others/most in society. Better safe than sorry.)

I think having values can help ease my anxiety and stress in life. Sometimes life is confusing and overwhelming. Sometimes life can have many conflicting views, this includes (for me) being around others who might be good people, but they have very jarring (sometimes frustrating) habits of hypocritical views/actions.

I think because of Fi being the dominant function, some INFPs feel (or more like, it seems a common thing for INFPs to feel this way), lost or out of place in the world. (including me, moreso, as I get older. I'm curious how many INFPs feel the same, and how INFPs feel the reverse of this.) Having a hard time aligning their own internal personal values with ones of the external world. (which I think can lead to depression.) Particularly when it takes time to adjust and feel like, "yes, I do genuinely believe in these set of values." (that's me)

Sometimes getting lost in trying to do well by others'/society's standards. Trying to abide with two different set of values, which creates slowly builds up great stress within me. Then one day, it's a burnout and I'm wondering, "Why am I doing this? Why did I like doing this? What do I actually want?" I think there are INFPs who were really rebellious as a child/and teen? (unless maybe they felt painfully too keen on the negative emotions of others ..... And maybe didn't want to hurt/disappoint etc those people.) I was a bit to decently(?) rebellious but I think... maybe not enough. Didn't help that I used to have really bad OCD (now, just a bit but it manifests in a different way compare to the past), really no freedom, overthinking on things and cared a bit too much about what others thought (sometimes not overly so, but it's hard when communication is lacking among family and friends. And having to deal with moody people.),and was only exposed to joys that dealt more with things internally. (my mother didn't believe in hobbies and had poor handling on her mental health. My father barely had much hobbies and was often busy. My siblings were much older and periodically busy. Also different mindsets and interests. Then the family drama. My friends were mixed experiences. Although I'm grateful to the one who has stuck with me.) The internet was my gateway to so many new ideas and topics. It fed (and still most of the times) my Ne. I had to (and still have to) figure out lots of things on my own. So I don't know, maybe I'm slow to changes and understanding many things because of this.

I will stop now. I'm getting better at handling some past memories but it could still be rather difficult. Mostly as of now though, this rambling has gone long enough. Don't know, maybe I'll post about something else next time.

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ENTJ x INFP

So… it's not uncommon for me to see this pairing be listed and known as the "golden pair". (other would possibly be ENFJ) Well, have to admit, I usually don't mind and can maybe enjoy such a pairing in tropey (possibly cringy) fictions. But in real life? I think, at least for now, be baffled about really connecting with one. Would probably admire one…at a distance. (actually one of the types that I kind of want to be more like) But closer, maybe would be frustrated and intimidated. It's all speculation though, and I prefer to not really type someone, if there is an ENTJ in my life. Maybe such thoughts will change after I'm able to do this one thing. Something stereotypically ENTJ accomplish at. Not be a hot mess. lol.

(But ......keep in mind, all types have flaws and all have a possibility of being unhealthy. So it's a joke... a 50/50 joke.)

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Fantasy

I see this get recommended a lot to INFPs to read and watch. But I don't quite care for fantasy...? There are lots of fantasy subgenres though. I used to find it pretty fun to read fantasy manga. But those were more like time traveling/falling into a different world. (yes, isekai but before the term was known/I think even made yet.) Usually the romance/reverse harem type. Now? I occasionally read something similar, but pretty webtoons. It's random and I always drop them/skim a chunk of it. So... I'm don't think I'm a fantasy fan... Hm... I like fantasy worlds that's similar to Dorohedoro. I like more surreal or magic realism.

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Not sure why I made this. Don't know if I would bother to keep up with it. But maybe I need something kind of low key to calm myself down from some nightmare anxiety.

My brain is usually on reflection mode. That or hot potating around a bunch of creative ideas. I find mbti somewhat interesting (silly fun with some of the silly stuff from its community), and what people say about INFPs as a way to reflect upon myself. (cognitive functions over stereotype traits though) Everyone is different, even if you're under the same type with another. The differences could be in the small details of how a type might have, say, share a stereotype trait but the circumstances surrounding it, thought process, etc, could be quite different from most who are of that type. So on here, I guess I'll be rambling about how I do relate and don't relate to some infp stereotypes that I often see on the internet. Maybe someone can relate to how I think in certain ways.

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procrastination:

So I read how people talk about INFPs push so many things aside until the last minute. Some INFPs being very self depreciating about it.

For me, I do not have a hard time jumping into doing something that's really important to me or related to my passion. Usually (moreso in the past), I can even find it very difficult to stop. But the procrastination issue for me, comes from perfectionism (which I'm slowly trying to stop that) or more of how it is now; knowing how to do/understand a certain thing better than before. Which makes me want to fix it. (some of these are legit fixes) Sometimes getting overwhelmed. (Especially wanting to really complete it by a certain date) Which this leads to a burnout eventually occurring. And I can't quite find help for it/how to resolve it. I would still often push myself to do just a little part of it though. But I don't think that's quite healthy.

Then also... I tend to research a lot. Which I'm also working on, to not go overboard with it. Too much, I want to understand too much things. Especially maybe all at once. Which again can be overwhelming then... possibly burning out. On the other end, there are times when I feel very confused on what I specifically want, or just feeling lost overall. I would try my best to work it through but it can take time.

If the thing I got to do is important but a bit anxiety inducing, I will do fine, but yes, I won't start right away. To try to sum up why it's anxiety inducing, it's the judgement (moreso from family, rather than from strangers. In the past, it would include all), having lack of privacy, lack of understanding on what's to happen (so I feel underprepared, and with no one wanting to tell me/unclear about things, I feel greater stress to figure it out myself. This part isn't so bad anymore though), myself usually and naturally absorbing the stress/anxiety of others, and having my autonomy taken away. I don't know, but I think there are people who think INFPs might probably be happy to let others take care things for them? But that's definitely not the case for me. Just don't suddenly dump it all and a bunch of things at once on me.

As mentioned, it's still fine, because I do set steps and when I should do them. Including making a good guess on how much added extra time should I tack onto that. Yes, it's a guess but never had a problem before.... excluding if I constantly get asked about it. (like almost every other hour, everyday) This somehow makes me subconsciously push the task away. But even then, I'm actually pretty good with completing it on time. Just have to feel it's important and feel like there's no other way to do it.

I would like to do many things right away, but I also know how my stress effects how well I do something. (And the usual person who keeps asking, I definitely have noticed how they rush things. Leading to mistakes. Then having to need more time, getting more stress to try to fix the mistakes.)

Some of my mistakes could be ok actually, like it could still work in overall purpose of it, or it's not that bad. But it's just my mind sometimes thinking I messed up because I didn't follow a certain overall plan or, I guess, ideal.

(Doing something for someone else, or getting something for them. I don't have a problem with doing that in a timely fashion (even sometimes doing it super in advance), if it doesn't involve trampling on my values like certain lies, then constantly pressuring me to do the thing too. Or now, it's for someone who don't/barely care about me. Also, if someone else isn't trying to prevent or make it hard for me to do whatever it is. I can fight it but well, it gets super tiring.)

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